Feels So Right, It Must Be Wrong

by Charmanie Saquea

  Knowledge shrugged, "I don't know Asia. The shit just worked in my favor, I guess. She was at home all the time and we had a business relationship before we had anything, so most of my time was being spent with you. I started developing feelings for you so I tried to fall back but that made shit worse for me. The longer I stayed away from you, the more I yearned to be around you."

  Asia just looked at him with evil eyes. She couldn't believe that she fell for this bullshit. She was more hurt than she was angry because he toyed with her emotions. "Does she know about me?" Asia asked.

  "No," he shook his head.

  "There's no need to tell her now because I'm not keeping this fucking baby," she said as she walked towards the stairs. "Now get the fuck out of my house. I'm sure wifey is looking for you."

  He was defeated. "Asia, I'm asking, no, I'm begging. Please do not kill my baby." Knowledge said to her back as she continued up the stairs without looking back or even giving him a response.

  He knew he had fucked up royally. He knew that but he wasn't about to just sit back and let Asia kill his seed because she was mad at him. He was going to give her a day or two to cool off and then they were going to sit down and talk like two adults.

  16

  Symir was spending the day with Sasha and Anika at the beach. Since Anika had been around, he had begun to remember why he fell in love with her all those years ago. He hated the fact that they had fallen apart because he allowed another nigga to come in and turn her into someone she wasn't. He had really been thinking lately and he figured that it was time that they put the bullshit behind them and made it official.

  "Nika, come here!" he called out to her.

  She stopped making sand castles with Sasha to see what he wanted. "What's up?"

  He took a piece of paper out of his pocket and gave it to her. She busted out laughing as she read what it said. "’Do you wanna be my girl? Yes or Yes?’" she read out loud before laughing some more.

  "What? Why you laughing?" He smiled.

  "What happened to the 'no' option?" she asked.

  "You don't get no damn‘no’ option, girl. You either get to be my girl or you get to be my girl," he laughed.

  "Oh, I don't have a choice huh? What if I told you somebody already had my heart?" she asked with a smirk.

  "Who is he?" he questioned.

  "Hmmm, I think you know him. He's about 6'4, smooth cocoa skin, wavy hair that he keeps cut short, this pretty smile that all the girls love. He's pretty much the shit if you ask me." She smiled as she described him.

  "Yea, that nigga sound like he's the shit," Symir agreed. "Damn, I love being me."

  "You are so full of shit,"

  He pulled her close to him by her hips and kissed her lips. "But you love my full of shit ass, though."

  "Without a fucking doubt."

  They shared another kiss before they heard Sasha running towards them screaming Symir's name. "Daddy, daddy!"

  "What's wrong princess?" he asked.

  "Him gave me five dollars to give this to you,” Sasha said as she handed her daddy a note.

  That bitch still owes me money. Either I get it or I'll take your precious daughter instead. You should pay more close attention to her.

  Symir looked around to see if he could find a familiar face. He couldn't find anyone so he went into street mode. All his guns were in his car so that's where he needed to get to. "Let's go y'all," he said as he picked up Sasha and started walking towards where the car was parked.

  Nika knew better than to question him so she just did as she was told and followed behind him. He passed Sasha to her mom so that as soon as he got to the car he could go for his gun. He opened the door and got in, looking around to check his surroundings. After he made sure his daughter was strapped in, he sped off.

  "Baby girl, what did the man look like that gave you the money and note?" Symir asked as he drove.

  "Ummm, him was big, he had hair and he had something on him teeth," Sasha said.

  Symir and Anika both looked at each other with matching thoughts, Linx. Symir was proud of his daughter, she may have only been four years old but she was very smart for her age. He was mad that he had allowed someone to get close to her like that, especially Linx’s corrupt ass.

  When they got home, Nika was starting to panic. After she gave Sasha her bath, fed her and put her to sleep, she didn't want to leave her side. She sat there watching her sleep and thought about how much shit she was dragging her baby in just by being around her.

  She walked into the bedroom she shared with Symir and he was barking orders into the phone. He was telling somebody that he wanted Linx, dead or alive. She walked into the closet and grabbed a suitcase and threw it on the bed. She went back into the closet and started pulling clothes off the rack and throwing them into the suitcase.

  Symir was watching her from the corner of his eyes but he turned around to see what she was doing. He watched her as she threw a bunch of clothes into the suitcase. He hung up on Cordae and walked over to the bed, Nika was walking out of the closet with another armful of clothes. "What the fuck are you doing?" he asked.

  "I'm leaving. I have to do what I have to do so he will leave my family alone," Nika said.

  Symir snatched the suitcase off the bed and threw it at the wall. "You're not doing shit! I got this Nika," he yelled.

  "Fuck that Symir! This is all my fault. You should have just left me where I was because now he's not just coming after me, he's coming after you and my daughter and I'll be damned if I let any nigga do some foul shit to my baby. So if I have to go out there and sell my ass for a year, then that's what I'll do," she cried.

  Symir reached for her and took her into his arms. "No, Mir. Let me go, I created this mess, now let me clean it up. I should have never came here. I'm putting my baby in danger."

  "Chill out man. I got caught slipping today and allowed someone to get too close to her but I bet my life it will never happen again. I promise you that nothing will happen to you, me or Sasha. That little girl in there has been the happiest I've ever seen her since you came back into her life. If you leave now, it will crush her. She needs her mommy in her life."

  "What the hell can I do for her, Symir? I was a damn crackhead! I missed out on two years of her life because of my own selfishness. I promise y'all lives will be so much better without me."

  "Get fucking serious right now Anika! Do you really think she gives a damn about you being on drugs? Hell, she doesn't even know you were on drugs to tell you the truth. She thought you were somewhere sick and trying to get better. I damn sure don't give a fuck. Everyone has a past. Some people’s pasts are just deeper than others. I loved you before, during and I love you now, even after the drugs."

  Nika looked deep in his eyes and believed every word he said. It was just like Symir to help talk some sense into her when she wasn't thinking rationally. He always had a way of using his words to comfort her. She trusted him and she believed him, so she was just going to sit back and let her man be the man.

  ~ ~ ~

  Chelsea had just come back from the store. Serenity had run out of diapers and Knowledge wouldn't leave her crib side for anything in the world so she had to run out real quick and get them. When she pulled up to the driveway, she noticed something sitting on the steps. She grabbed the bags and got out of the car. As she got closer to the steps, she noticed it was a manila folder with her name on it.

  She picked it up and shook it to see if she could tell what was in it. It sounded like some papers or something of that matter, but she was wondering who would leave something like this on her stairs.

  She unlocked the front door and walked into the house. She took the diapers up to the nursery and, of course, Knowledge was in there holding Serenity while she slept. Chelsea shook her head. "And you wonder why she won't sleep unless you're holding her. She's spoiled already."

  "I can't help it." Knowledge smiled. He was so amazed that he could create something so tiny and beautifu
l. His daughter was perfect in his eyes.

  "I got her diapers so you might want to change her right now," Chelsea said.

  "Put em on her changing table, I'll do it in a minute," he said.

  Chelsea did as she was told and left the room. She was anxious to see what was in the folder. She went into her bedroom and shut the door. She ripped open the folder and a whole bunch of pictures and a piece of paper fell out. She bent down to look at the pictures and her mouth fell open.

  There, in those pictures, was Knowledge hugged up with and kissing on another woman. She had no idea who the woman was but she was beautiful. She was starting to feel a tinge of jealousy because she was actually flawless. After shuffling through the pictures, she picked up the piece of paper that was actually a typed up note.

  Chelsea,

  I hate that I have to do this but I think you have the right to know what your so called fiancé has been up to for the past couple of months. He has been messing with the female in this picture pretty much since you both have moved back down here. Now just like you didn't know about her, she didn't have the foggiest idea about you.

  She's a victim of Knowledge's lies and games just as well as you are. I can no longer sit back and watch him to continue to play the both of you. Below I have listed her address and I think that you should let her know who you are and your status in Knowledge's life. The whole time you were in North Carolina, he stayed with her. Enough is enough, so take my advice and handle your business. I'm pretty sure you will handle this situation in a civil manner just as I'm sure she will also. Please don't try to find out who is writing you this letter because you will never find out. Just consider this as me doing you a favor.

  Chelsea didn't know what to say or do, but she knew what she wasn't about to do, and that was cry. Hell no, she wasn't about to give Knowledge the satisfaction of knowing he had hurt her. She had been by his side for years and had his back through everything. She went against her own family, only for him to do her like this.

  She put all the contents back in the folder and pushed them into her purse. She walked past the nursery really fast so he wouldn't question her on where she was going. She jumped in her car and punched Asia's address in her GPS system. She turned her music all the way up to help keep her mind occupied. Of course“Woman to Woman” by Keyshia Cole would be playing. This song was very fitting for this occasion.

  It's going around, y'all been doing your thing

  And no matter what I say, it's not gonna just change things

  See I wanna know, no one wants to be cheated on

  Can you just keep it real with me, woman to woman?

  The words to the song were really hitting home for Chelsea. It's like they knew exactly what she was going through right now. She followed the GPS system turn by turn until she reached a big ass house. She was astonished. The house she was living in wasn't even half this size. As she pulled in the driveway, reality started to hit her. Asia was the girl that Knowledge had bought that necklace for and was going out of town with. She never had to deal with Knowledge dealing with other females. It had to be something about this Asia chick to make him stray away from home and she was anxious to find out what it was.

  Any bitch that could make him cheat on her and live a fucking double life for three months was undeniably a bad bitch. She shook her head as she rang the doorbell. A few seconds later, the door came open. Chelsea was taken aback. Asia was even more beautiful in person than she was in the pictures.

  "Hi, can I help you?" Asia asked.

  "Hi, are you Asia?" she asked even though she already knew the answer.

  "Yes and you are?" asked Asia.

  "I'm Chelsea, Knowledge's fiancé," Chelsea said.

  To be continued...

  Acknowledgements

  First I would like to thank God for blessing me with the talent of being an author. Here I am on book number 8, none of this would have been possible without him.

  To my mommy Sheree, who has been by my side since day one, you told me I could be anything I wanted to be if I put my mind to it. You have always been my backbone and I would not have made it this far without you. Also my Grammy, you've been there every step of the way and I can't thank you two enough.

  S/O to my wonderful bosses Raymond and Envy for giving me a chance. Also David for putting people in a position to go after their dreams.

  Much love to the whole #TBRS family.

  I definitely have to give a big shout out to my co-author/partner in crime Treasure. You welcomed me with open arms since the beginning and we've been tight ever since. I appreciate all the help, feedback and even the yelling because it helped me out a lot. No matter how many times I wanted to give up, you pushed me harder. I love you lots!

  Anjela!!!! Thank you for reading all my emails, calling me out when I was just chilling instead of writing and thank you soooooo much for all the love you have shown and being the motivation that needed. I love you hun <3

  Tenita, my Gemini Twin, thank you for always being available to read something for me and giving me great feedback.

  Erinn, thank you for keeping me laughing when I needed it the most and never believing me when I said my writing career was over.

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