First Loves: A Collection of Three YA Novels
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I leave my hands above my head because I’m not sure what else to do with them anyway and he tugs my panties down. I close my eyes wondering what he thinks. What I think. Lips press so low on my stomach he’s almost all the way down there, and then his lips meet my body again, just underneath my bellybutton. A soft moan comes up my throat and he does the same.
Now my breast is in his mouth, and I can’t keep my hands off of him anymore. His stomach, chest, back, ass… We tug off his briefs together and we’re nothing but skin on skin. We’re almost there.
I grasp his hips with my fingers. “I want you.”
His lips meet mine again, but I can feel his hands shaking again.
“You’ve done this before,” I tease as I nip his lip. “You’re not supposed to be nervous.”
He takes my wrists again, and once again rests my hands above my head. And once again I feel my body arching toward him in want.
“No,” he whispers. “I’ve never done this. Not like this. Being with you…” His eyes float down my body, which is stretched out underneath him.
And the hungry gaze that at one point might have turned me off, is now shoving my body to breaking point.
“Being with you feels completely new.”
I push against where his hands have my wrists against the pillow. “Are you going to hold me like this the whole time?”
He jerks a little and pulls his hands away.
“I was going to tell you that it’s okay if you do.”
He breathes out a shaky breath. He fumbles in his drawer for a moment before slipping out a foil packet and sliding his condom on.
His fingers clasp mine as he presses our palms together. Harder. And then harder again. “I need you,” I say quietly.
“If you need your hands…”
I relax my legs and arch toward him. “I’ll let you know.”
He releases one of my hands, only to slip both my wrists into his other. The pressure of his fingers on my wrists, of the carefulness mixed with firmness of his grasp... “Antony, please.”
His free hand slides down my neck, between my breasts, over my belly button and then painfully softly between my legs. The gentle movements send ricocheting waves through me.
“Try to relax. I don’t want this to hurt.”
Right now I don’t care. I want his hands tightening around mine and I want to feel him.
And then I feel the pressure of him as he slides into me, and I gasp.
He pauses, his hand sliding back up my body and once again grasping my wrist. “I’ve never held anyone like this before.”
I nip his ear, my body still careening over the pressure of him. “I’ve never done this before.”
His hands tighten on mine as he slowly rocks against me. His stomach slides against me and every movement tightens all the parts of my body. Antony slides his thumbs over the softest part of my wrist as we move together.
This is something I never want to end, but I can feel the pressure in my body building. Can feel myself starting to slip. I’m not ready for this to be over, but… A whimper comes up my throat. “More,” I whisper not even totally sure what I mean.
His hands tighten a little, which tightens the muscles in his shoulders and his chest and his stomach, which is sliding against all the perfect places.
“More,” I say again. The gentle movements get harder. His hands tighten again. I want him harder against me. Tighter hands. My body tenses and then explodes in a release that’s so complete I don’t realize I’m making a sound until it’s dying out.
Antony’s hands loosen and he moves a few more times before I feel his body shudder the same as mine.
He doesn’t move off me, just takes these even breaths in and out while his thumbs stroke my palms. I don’t want him to pull out or go away… I get why people love this. My body is still high, and I already want him again.
“No wonder people like sex so much,” I say with a weird little laugh.
Antony’s eyes finally open again. “That was…”
“Insanely amazing,” I say.
His body relaxes a little more and I feel him slip out of me. Sex has been this thing that used to feel so scary, and now I’m sad for the loss of him.
“I’ve never…” His voice is still shaky as he slowly lowers himself next to me. “I didn’t know it could be that way.”
“What way?”
He noses into my neck. “So perfect.”
The last thing I expected was that I’d want to give up control, but I did. Maybe next time will be different. Maybe it won’t. I shift to face him and wince—my body’s feeling it now, but that’s okay. I’m okay.
“I thought girls were supposed to be shy their first time, or careful, or…”
“Well maybe it’s the difference between actually being ready and not.”
I kiss him softly and he rests a hand on my cheek. “You are full of surprises Amber.”
“Hmm.” I snuggle deeper into the pillow, his bed, and his arms.
“I hope that never changes.”
So do I. Not in a million years would I have ever guessed I’d feel this way about the spoiled guy who moved in with my mom’s boyfriend. But already I’m so glad we’ll be together when we start school in the fall. And whatever comes next for me, I know I want him to be a part of it.
Acknowledgements
Wow. Friends. Paint girl Heather, and Nyrae Dawn. Seriously. You two girls are the two who read EVERYTHING, and I adore you for it. Suzi Retzlaff – way to go in helping me out last minute!
I wrote a paragraph or two in this book and then set it aside, thinking I might get to it in a year or so, but a short trip back to Kingston, and Point No Point Beach, changed all that.
I did not portray Kingston, Washington, accurately in this book, which is simply a matter of artistic license. I adore Kingston. Their little coffee shop on the main street near the ferry docks is probably one of my favorite ever coffee shops, and I never go through town without stopping there.
I’ve been on boats my whole life, not an Oyster (yet – aside from at boat shows) but many kinds of motor yachts and catamaran sailing vessels. I’ve always wanted to write a book using that, so I did. And I’m sure I’ll do it again.
The Sun Coast is real. The water is crystal clear, and warmer than it is closer to Seattle.
I’m very lucky to have grown up with such a supportive family, and the additional family I have now – my husband and my kids – are equally supportive. Even when it means we have pancakes for dinner because mommy was busy writing. Actually, for my kids, that’s probably a perk.
I’m grateful all the time that my hobby is my job. It’s a very happy place to be.
Other Titles by Jolene Perry
Jolene Perry titles: Dizzy, Out of Play, the Shadows Trilogy, The Summer I Found You, Stronger Than You know, and look for the upcoming Love Blind and Has to be Love.
Mia Josephs NA titles: Falling, Unexpectedly You- the FOR THE LOVE OF MUSIC series (Blurring the Lines, Chasing the Music, Finding the Dream), My Heart For Yours, My Fate for Yours.
Table of Contents
SUNK
NIGHT SKY
SKY LINE
SPILL OVER
YOU FIRST