SILK Volume Two

by K. M. Scott

  “It’s not that easy. I’ve lied for a while about it, saying I’d go. He has no idea.”

  “Why’d you do that?”

  The explanation of why I’d made such a dumb choice would take too long, so I just mumble, “I don’t know. I didn’t want to disappoint him.”

  “So now you get to disappoint and hurt him. Well, I still say do it fast. Get it over with so you can move on to bigger and better things.”

  Sienna’s words make my heart pound in my chest. I don’t want to move on to anything. I just want to find a way to tell Ian that even though I love him I can’t go to Rome like he wants. It sounds so simple when I say it in my head, but I know when I’m standing in front of him and I see the disappointment in those dark eyes of his that I’ll feel terrible.

  “Okay. Thanks Sienna. I guess I’ll try it that way.”

  She squeals loudly into the phone, so I pull it away from my ear as she begins to talk about some show she’s watching. Not exactly the way I wanted to begin my morning.

  “Oh my God! Kristina! You’re on Good Morning America!” I hear her scream.

  Quickly, I pull the phone back to my ear as I search for the remote buried in the blankets. “What do you mean?”

  “They’re talking about your new film you begin shooting in Vancouver right now in their Hollywood news segment. Did you put it on?”

  My television turns on and there as big as life is my face in a box to the right of the pretty blond woman who reports on all things pop news and Hollywood gossip, including it seems me this morning. She’s got all the details about the film and how I’ll be there in just a few days.

  “Is this what you were talking about, Kristina? This is the reason you can’t go on that trip with the mystery guy?”

  “Yeah, it is,” I say as the blond woman moves on to some other news story.

  “Well, if he watches Good Morning America, he already knows. They might have done the dirty work for you.”

  Terror races through my mind at the thought that Ian has just found out the truth I’ve been hiding for over a week from of all places a morning news show. “I have to go,” I say frantically as I leap out of bed to get dressed. “I’ll talk to you later, Sienna.”

  I don’t give her a chance to answer before I click END and throw my phone on the bed. I run into the bathroom and see my messy hair in the mirror, but I don’t have time to make myself even close to presentable. I need to get to Ian before this news ruins everything.

  Dashing out the door, I remember I left my phone on the bed so I race back and grab it only to see a text waiting for me. I take a deep breath and open my messages to see it’s from Ian.

  When were you going to tell me about Vancouver?

  My heart sinks as I read the words. He saw the same thing Sienna and I saw. The sense of betrayal hangs off every word. Quickly, I text back a tepid excuse, but I know whatever I say can’t change the fact that I lied.

  I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to lie.

  My answer is pathetic. Whatever I meant to do, I kept my new film from him and now I’ve hurt the man I love for no reason other than my cowardice.

  I want to explain to him, but I don’t know what to say. I wait for him to text back, to tell me how disappointed he is in me, but he doesn’t. His silence crushes me, so I finally try my best to explain why I did what I did. I have to try.

  I wanted to tell you but then you were so excited about the Rome trip and I didn’t want to disappoint you. I never meant to lie. I love you, Ian. Please call me.

  I click SEND and wait for him to call, but after five minutes I know he won’t. His anger comes through loud and clear in the silence. Then he texts me and my worst fears are realized.

  Without trust, we have nothing, Kristina.

  He won’t let me convince him to forgive me through texts, so I run out of my apartment and down the stairs to the sidewalk, half expecting him to be there waiting for me. But that can’t happen today because I’ve hurt him.

  As I run the blocks toward his apartment, I think about all the love he’s shown me and I feel like the guilt is going to crush me. I have to see him to tell him I’m sorry and I’ll do anything to make this up to him. We can go to Rome together as soon as I finish working on Original Sin. It won’t be forever. I’ll only be gone for a few months.

  His building’s doorman is a friendly face waiting to open the door to the lobby. Rushing past him, I hurry to catch the elevator, frantically pressing the button to get to his floor and wishing for once the elevator wasn’t so slow. It’s the longest minute of my life, and when the elevator doors open, I lurch out into his hallway on unsteady legs, weak from the feeling of sickness in my stomach.

  Even before I knock on his door, I know he’s not there. I feel a sense of missing him already. But I knock anyway, a futile effort that makes me feel like I have some control over getting him back.

  I don’t, though.

  No one answers my knocking and somewhere deep inside I worry he’s gone. Gone from here, gone from New York, gone from my life. I begin to unravel, desperate to tell him my side of the story. If only I could explain myself, if only he could see how devastated I am that what I’ve done has ruined what we had.

  I don’t know where to go to find him, so I walk the streets back to my place as I text him over and over, but he never replies. Hour after hour passes, but if he’s getting my messages he’s not responding. Finally, I cry myself to sleep after I send him one last text and pray he’ll finally answer me.

  I love you, Ian. Please tell me you still love me too. Tell me it’s not too late for me to fix this.

  After tossing and turning for hours, I wake up determined to repair the damage I’ve done. I know I can if he’ll just give me a chance. I pack my bags for our trip to Rome, knowing that if I don’t show up on the set for the beginning of shooting, my career might suffer but I don’t care about that. All I care about is getting Ian back.

  I have the cab take me to his apartment, sure that he’ll be there because our flight doesn’t leave for four hours. Standing in front of his door with my suitcase, I knock and listen to hear him inside as he comes to let me in. I rehearsed what I plan to say on my way here. Now all I need is the chance to show him how much I love him.

  As I wait for him to answer the door, I see an envelope sticking out from underneath it. Bending down, I pick it up and see it’s addressed to me. My heart slams against my chest as my hands begin to shake. I don’t want to read it, but I open it anyway and see the words that break my heart.

  Kristina,

  Every time I asked you if you had something to tell me, you lied. Was everything we were a lie? I’ve gone to Rome. Don’t try to contact me.

  Ian

  The tears roll down my cheeks as I read his words so filled with the pain I caused. I can’t let him leave without me. I have to do this, even if it means ruining everything I’ve worked for in my career. I send him one more text to let him know I’m not giving up on us as I race downstairs to catch a cab to the airport.

  I won’t let you go without a fight. I’m coming to you.

  I sit in the airport lounge waiting to board my plane and reading Kristina’s texts after she found my letter I left her. I won’t lie. Knowing this bothers her gives me at least some modicum of pleasure after feeling like I’d been kicked in the fucking stomach as I watched that morning show. Nothing like finding out the woman you love has been lying to you for days, even after you gave her more than enough chances to come clean.

  Not that I can’t forgive her. I can. I don’t have a choice, to be honest. I love her too much to even think I can go on without her.

  My phone vibrates against my glass of scotch, and I see it’s Kristina. My eyes scan her text and I smile.

  Don’t give up on us. Please.

  My instinct is to message her back and tell her I couldn’t give up on what she is to me any more than I could give up breathing. Avoiding her for the last day has been pure torture. My hands ye
arn to touch her. I crave the feel of her skin on mine, the taste of her lips as she kisses me when I slide my cock into her and bury myself inside her body. My body aches from not having her next to me. I miss her smile, her voice, her laughter.

  I miss her. And even though I’m hurt she lied, I just want her back with me so we can go to Rome and fall in love all over again.

  I grab my phone and text back to her.

  I can’t give you up. Come to me.

  Immediately, she answers my text with one of her own filled with that need so familiar in my life.

  Promise you’ll wait for me. Don’t leave me here without you.

  Texting back, I tell her what I know she wants to hear.

  Meet me at Gate B 39. I left your ticket at the Delta desk. I love you.

  I sit there as people come and go on their way to wherever they’re going and wonder how many of them are like Kristina and me. Most people sleepwalk through life. They pretend to love, pretend to care about those around them. They fake it, phone in love and lust and all the things in life that make it worth living. People float in and out of their lives with little more than a nod in recognition.

  But not us. Since the moment I met her, every part of me has felt alive like never before. With the first touch of my hand, she’s been mine. When I see her after she’s been gone for mere hours, it’s like my eyes can’t open wide enough to take in all of her. I want to touch her, feel her breath as I take it away with a kiss on her gorgeous lips or the perfect word whispered in her ear.

  I finish my scotch and look at the time. One hour until boarding. Looking down at my phone, I begin to worry she won’t make it before we have to leave. For the first time since I sat there in my apartment watching that insipid morning news show discuss how the woman I love had lied to me, the thought occurs to me that Kristina might truly choose something over me.

  My stomach knots from the betrayal this thought brings with it. How could she? I’d never choose anyone or anything over her. I can’t. She’s as necessary to me as the food I eat and the air I breathe. It’s never a choice to need her.

  Something in leaving to go somewhere else fills me with dread. When she left that night after I’d frightened her, I never doubted I’d see her again. Never doubted we’d be together again. Now as I sit in this lounge watching planes take off to faraway places, a niggling feeling gnaws at me that if she doesn’t come to Rome with me, it’s over.

  We’re over.

  A little voice inside me asks the obvious question. How could that be? I’m no less addicted to her than I was to heroin, even more. Heroin only made me feel good and helped me forget what terrified me. Kristina gives me what no drug ever could.

  Love in return. And that love makes me a better man. No drug has ever done that for me.

  So how could this be the end of us? Am I not addicted to how incredible she makes me feel anymore?

  Closing my eyes, I silently pray she shows up and I don’t have to answer any of these questions. I don’t want to think of life without her.

  I wait until I can’t anymore and slowly walk to the gate. My hands sweat and my legs feel weak. Looking up, I see the sign for Gate B 39 and stop to look around. People file past me as the flight attendants begin to call for first class boarding. I should get on the plane, but I can’t.

  Not without Kristina. She’s coming. I just need to wait a little longer.

  First class finishes boarding and I’m still standing in line. The petite brunette flight attendant gives me a confused look as if to ask, “Are you coming?”

  I flash her a weak smile and step back out of line as she announces that coach class can now begin boarding. More people file past me into the tube that leads to the plane as I search left and right for Kristina.

  My phone vibrates and I know even before I look that I don’t want to read the message. I can’t avoid it, though, so I bring it up on the screen and see everything I’ve dreaded since yesterday.

  I tried to get there but I can’t.

  There’s more, but I can’t read it. Stuffing my phone back into my pocket, I get into line and make my way to the flight attendant. She gives me a sad look like she knows I’ve just spent the last fifteen minutes waiting for someone who was never going to show. Giving me a tepid smile, she wishes me a good flight and sends me down the tube to board the plane alone.

  A few minutes later, I’m settled into my seat and look over at the empty seat next to me, my chest tightening as the reality sinks in. Kristina chose something over us.

  Over me.

  I look at my phone as everyone around me tells the attendant their drink orders and feel too sick to my stomach to even try to down any more alcohol. Her message sits there on my phone staring up at me. Dismissing me.

  My publicist caught me as I tried to go to you and stopped me. I want to be there with you, but I can’t give up the chance this film offers me. Please forgive me.

  My fingers don’t move to text back. I have nothing to say.

  Please answer me. Say something. Anything. Please! Tell me we’re going to be okay. Tell me you forgive me. Please Ian.

  The plane’s engines roar and we begin to taxi down the runway as I finally answer her message with one last text of my own.

  Goodbye

  As I turn my phone off, she texts again telling me she won’t let me go and that she loves me, but I don’t have anything else to say. The plane takes off into the air above Kennedy, and for me I’m not going to Rome so much as leaving her.

  Leaving everything we were, including our story, behind. Whatever we had she ruined by lying to me.

  Halfway over the Atlantic, I read over her messages again and see one that came in after I turned off my phone. Full of the sadness I feel, it shows the strength I love in her, and I silently pray she means what she wrote.

  You said there was no running from what we are, Ian. I can’t let this be goodbye. You can’t either. We will see each other again.

  CONTINUE IAN AND KRISTINA’S STORY IN SILK VOLUME THREE

  K.M. Scott writes contemporary romance stories of sexy, intense, and unforgettable love. A New York Times and USA Today bestselling author, she's been in love with romance since reading her first romance novel in junior high (she was a very curious girl!). She lives in Pennsylvania with her teenage son and a herd of animals and when she's not writing can be found reading or feeding her TV addiction.

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  Books by K.M. Scott

  Heart of Stone Series

  Crash Into Me (Heart of Stone #1)

  Fall Into Me (Heart of Stone #2)

  Give In To Me (Heart of Stone #3)

  The Heart of Stone Trilogy Box Set

  Ever After (A Heart of Stone Novella)

  A Heart of Stone Christmas

  Club X Series

  Temptation (Club X #1)

  Surrender (Club X #2)

  Possession (Club X #3)

  Satisfaction (Club X #4) COMING SOON

  Silk Series

  Silk (Volume One)

  Silk (Volume Two)

  Silk (Volume Three)

  Silk (Volume Four)

  **Add them to your Goodreads shelf today!**

  Love sexy paranormal romance? K.M. writes under the name Gabrielle Bisset too! Visit Gabrielle’s Facebook page and her website to find out about her books.

  Books by Gabrielle Bisset:

  Vampire Dreams Revamped (A Sons of Navarus Prequel)

  Blood Avenged (Sons of Navarus #1)

  Blood Betrayed (Sons of Navarus #2)

  Longing (A Sons of Navarus Short Story)

  Blood Spirit (Sons of Navarus #3)

  The Deepest Cut (A Sons of Navarus Short Story)

  Blood Prophecy (Sons of Navarus #4)

  Blood & Dreams Sons of Navarus Box
Set

  Love’s Master

  Masquerade

  The Victorian Erotic Romance Trilogy

  SILK Volume Two is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and events are the products of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to events, locations, or persons, living or dead, is coincidental.

  2015 Copper Key Media, LLC

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  Published in the United States

  ISBN-10: 1941594123

  ISBN-13: 978-1-941594-12-4

  Cover Design: Cover Me, Darling

  Cover Photo: Taria Reed/The Reed Files

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  Adult Content: Contains graphic sexual content

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Books by Author

  About SILK

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  About the Author

  Copyright Notice