Baby Under The Mistletoe
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Baby Under The Mistletoe
Jamie Sobrato
Having a baby isn't exactly in Soleil Freeman's plans. Being single and pregnant? Even further off her to-do list. Still, she can make this work. if she can figure out how to handle the father.
West Morgan is absolutely perfect summer distraction material. But building a life with a guy who's all about picket fences and tradition is not her deal. Funny thing happens when she drops the "Merry Christmas, you're gonna be a dad" news, though. That delicious attraction that fueled their affair is alive and well. And when West embarks on a campaign to be a family, she's more open to the idea than she thought!
Jamie Sobrato
Baby Under The Mistletoe
Book 27 in the Little Secret series, 2009
Dear Reader,
I grew up in a house full of Harlequin romance novels. My mother was an avid reader, and as soon as I was old enough to be curious about the books that filled her shelves, I became a fan of the genre myself. Stories about strong women and dashing men had endless appeal for me. I even tried my hand writing a romance story in middle school, much to the chagrin of my English teacher. Still, I had some growing up to do before I would understand much about the complications of falling in love.
After graduating from college, armed with a bit more information about the ways of the world, I decided to give romance writing another try. Five years later, I was thrilled to sell my first novel to Harlequin. Seeing my book in print with the company that had spawned my love for the genre felt like coming full circle, and to this day, I’m still proud to write for a publisher that celebrates the hopes and fantasies of women around the world.
I love to hear from readers. You can reach me and find out about my upcoming releases at my Web site, www.jamiesobrato.com.
Sincerely,
Jamie Sobrato
To my grandmother, Mary Gentry,
who helped shape my earliest memories of
good food and farm life.
I love you, Granny.
PROLOGUE
HE WAS ALL WRONG for her.
Everything from the color of his skin to the jagged scar across his forearm, the result of some unsavory Special Forces operation, indicated that they were two different people from two incongruent worlds.
Which was what made West Morgan the perfect summer distraction. He’d be gone tomorrow, and Soleil Freeman would never miss him.
Okay, she would miss this, but not him.
This, as in the adult conversation, the grown-up closeness. It was something she rarely had in her everyday life, with a houseful of teenagers for whom she played mentor, coach, social worker and teacher. Those kids were her life, but with their endless needs and sad personal histories, they could suck the life right out of her if she wasn’t careful.
So for a few weeks, spending her free time with someone unsuitable was exactly what she needed to put everything back in balance.
Soleil’s hand dangled over the edge of the canoe, trailing through the icy water of Promise Lake. From beneath the wide brim of a straw hat, she watched West’s dark head bent over her, kissing the flat of her belly. His lips, a mere butterfly flutter, sent shivers through her in spite of the warm day.
When he spotted her gooseflesh, he looked up and smiled. His face was so arresting, it never failed to give her a little thrill. Icy blue eyes, a full, sensual mouth and dark hair a little longer than the military regulations allowed. Special Forces could get away with the longer hair, he claimed. They had to blend in, look like civilians.
She didn’t know if he was telling the truth, and she didn’t really care. He was gorgeous, a lovely distraction, though not the kind of guy she normally went for. He didn’t own a single item of hemp clothing, couldn’t carry on a conversation about French poets to save his life and wouldn’t have been caught dead driving around in a car festooned with Save the Endangered Condor bumper stickers. In short, he was nowhere near in danger of worming his way into her heart. Couldn’t even see her heart from where he stood.
Soleil wore a black bikini, and he, a pair of navy swim trunks, but they hadn’t dared swim yet in the cold water. Instead, they’d paddled to the middle of the lake to have a picnic lunch and now were simply floating there, soaking up the sun.
A speculative expression crossed his face. “Do you ever think about having a family?” he asked, a question so out of the blue Soleil laughed in surprise.
But he was serious.
“Why do you ask?”
“Just curious.”
“When you look at me, do you see a baby-making machine?”
He flashed a sly grin. “Yep.”
“If that’s your idea of smooth talk, I can see why you’re thirty-seven and still single.”
“Maybe I’m still single because I’ve never met a woman I’d want to make a baby with. Maybe you’re the first one.”
Nausea struck her. Until this moment, they’d seemed equally intent on keeping things casual.
“I don’t want kids,” she said.
She loved children, but there was no way she could have one of her own and continue to do the work she did. And that work was too important to the future communities of the kids she mentored to abandon.
Besides, after surviving her own hippiefied Berkeley childhood, she was hardly a candidate for the home-baked-cookies-and-suburban-play-groups crowd. Even with their limited time together, Soleil knew beyond a doubt that picket fences and minivans featured large in West’s ideal future.
“Oh, come on. Every woman wants to settle down and pop out a few kids.”
“Every woman? Did you grow up in a fifties sitcom or something?”
He smirked. He was pushing her buttons because he enjoyed her temper. And even though she recognized that he was playing again with her, she couldn’t avoid reacting. She was furious.
“You’d look hot in an apron, barefoot and pregnant-”
“Shut up,” she said through clenched teeth.
“It would be great. You could be at home all day with the kids, taking care of the house.”
One more word, and-
“You could be my little woman, and I could be your-”
Fury like a white-hot rod of lightning shot through her. She thrust all her weight into his chest, knocking him backward. He lost his balance and went over the side of the boat, into the lake. She caught the surprise on his face just before he hit the water and enjoyed a moment of satisfaction as she steadied herself against the rocking. Then she grabbed a paddle with shaking hands, not bothering to look back as she propelled the canoe toward the dock.
“Hey!” he called out, but she kept going. They hadn’t gone out so far that he couldn’t swim to shore. He was a strong swimmer, after all.
Eventually, she cast a glance over her shoulder to make sure he was okay, and his steady freestyle stroke assured her he was fine.
Unlike her. She was still shaking with anger. Or was it fear?
Fear, yes, maybe. Because it wasn’t West she was paddling away from so much as the suffocating idea of the future he painted.
It wasn’t her future, not by a long shot.
CHAPTER ONE
SOLEIL FREEMAN was pregnant.
Knocked up, preggo, with child, carrying a bun in the oven, in the family way, et cetera.
Five and a half months so, to be exact.
Even if this fact had not permeated every moment of every day of her waking consciousness, she would still have known it by the uncomfortable thickness in her middle and the constant, burning desire she had to eat everything in sight.
To say this development wasn’t in her plans was an understatement. For a variety of reasons-some of which would require the professiona
l supervision of a therapist to sort out-Soleil hadn’t factored kids into her life. Certainly not single parenthood and certainly not now when running her youth program on her organic farm took every ounce of her energy. How she would even manage a baby in the mix baffled her. Especially on days like today.
It was a damp gray morning on Rainbow Farm, and Soleil was not in the mood to search for a lost goat. A lost cheeseburger, maybe, but missing livestock? This was only going to postpone lunch-provided the animal was found quickly and safely.
If not…She hurried across the front lawn, feeling about as lithe and agile as a watermelon. She’d once been a track star in high school and later at U.C. Berkeley. She’d been able to sprint so fast, she’d felt at certain blissful moments as if the wind carried her.
But now? She could still run, but the pace had no familiarity with wind-assisted agility, and her litheness was tempered by a paranoia that with every step she was going to inadvertently cause herself to miscarry. The doctor had assured her that wasn’t going to happen, that she could still run as long as she felt good doing so, but pregnancy was doing crazy things to her brain. She was hyperaware that another being’s life depended on her completely. Frankly, the pressure was getting to her.
Behind Soleil, Malcolm, one of her current interns from Oakland, plodded along, apparently not wanting to seem as if he cared about anything in the world. It wasn’t cool to hurry, and especially not for a lost goat.
“How did the goat get away from you?” she called over her shoulder.
“How should I know?” came Malcolm’s surly answer.
“Where’s Silas?”
Silas was her cattle dog, a mostly Australian shepherd fully capable of managing a herd of goats on his own without any help from the teens.
“Tonio’s afraid of dogs.”
Right. She’d confined Silas to the barn due to the boy’s sheer terror at the sight of him. But she’d probably find the missing goat a lot faster with the dog’s help.
“Tell Tonio to go inside so I can let the dog out, okay?”
“Okay,” Malcolm said, and sauntered toward the field, clearly happy to get out of the goat-searching mission.
She went into the barn and called for the dog, then told him to find the lost goat. He didn’t need any further coaxing. He simply watched her face as she talked, with his eerily smart blue eyes, then took off at a full run.
Following, Soleil passed the garden, where two of the teenagers, Lexie and Angelique, were picking squash for tonight’s dinner. Both still unaccustomed to getting their hands dirty, they were handling the vegetables as if the plants might jump out and bite them, which begged the question of why they’d applied for internships, but Soleil knew better than to expect to turn a bunch of city kids into earth mothers in such a short time.
She arrived at the field where she could see one boy, Jordan, overseeing the nine goats who hadn’t run off. This field bordered one of the main roads into town, and there was a section of fence that needed repairing, which meant there was a chance the errant goat could make it to the road and get hit. With that thought, she quickened her pace up the hill. At the top stood a grove of oak and bay trees, and beyond them was the road where she could barely hear the sound of passing cars.
Halfway up the hill, she heard Silas’s bark indicating he’d located the goat. But a second distressed bark told her something was wrong.
She scrambled the rest of the way up, then through the grove of trees. There she saw the source of the trouble-the goat on the far side of the road. Silas paced before her in a panic because he knew better than to cross the dangerous roadway.
The goat, for its part, didn’t know any better. And before Soleil could do anything, the goat took a few tentative steps into the road just as a car rounded the bend fifty feet away. The driver, in a black SUV, slammed on the brakes, swerving into the next lane.
Soleil could only cover her face and pray as she heard the car skidding to a stop.
A moment passed, silent, without any sickening thud of bumper against flesh, and she opened her eyes to see the car stopped a foot away from the goat, who was staring at it nonplussed.
“Jules!” she called to the goat, whom she could identify now by the animal’s white markings. “Get over here now!”
The dog barked again, but she commanded him to stay as she looked both ways before crossing. She walked to retrieve the immobile goat.
Only then did she take a close look at the driver of the SUV and notice that he seemed to be taking a close look at her.
Because they knew each other.
Dark brown, wavy hair, blue eyes she’d spent more than a few lazy summer afternoons gazing into, a mouth that could make a girl entertain naughty thoughts…
“West Morgan?” she said stupidly, as if he could hear her from inside the car.
But he could, because he’d just rolled down his window.
West. The one man she desperately wanted to avoid right now.
“Wily goat, eh?”
“I’m so sorry!” she said. “Thank goodness you weren’t hurt.”
Soleil grabbed the goat by the scruff and gave her a good shove with her thigh to get Jules moving in the right direction.
Hustle now. No need to linger in the middle of the road with West Morgan waiting.
She hoped like crazy he’d drive off now that the road was clear, Instead, he pulled to the shoulder.
Dammit. Dammit, dammit, dammit.
She sucked in her belly and tried her best not to look pregnant.
But everyone who’d seen her lately knew she’d gained a lot of weight on her formerly thin frame. Even if West couldn’t see her belly beneath the baggy wool sweater and corduroy jacket she was wearing, he could surely see the ever-widening thighs encased in jeans that used to be too big, and the meat-loaf-enhanced chipmunk cheeks she’d grown since their last encounter.
“Hey,” he said once he’d gotten out of the car and propped his elbows on the roof. “Need any help goatherding?”
“No, thanks!” she said too cheerily.
She nodded to Silas, and the dog gave the goat a commanding bark, then lightly nipped its haunch. That was all the encouragement Jules needed to amble through the fence in the direction of the field.
West, ignoring her desperate vibes telling him to get lost, glanced in both directions, waited for a truck to pass, then crossed the road.
He extended his arms once he was within a few feet of her, giving her no escape from full-body contact. Soleil gave him an awkward hug, trying not to let him feel the hard little basketball that was her stomach.
She failed.
“Whoa,” he said when her belly bumped against him. He pulled back and looked down.
Up close, there was no way not to notice, with her short torso that left no extra room for a fetus to spread out and relax, that she was pregnant.
“Are you-”
His question hung half formed in the air as he seemed to realize simultaneously that “Are you pregnant?” was one of the dumbest questions anyone could ask a woman, and if she was, then the fact that they’d been lovers this past summer might make the news relevant for him.
This was not how she’d hoped he’d find out.
He seemed to gather his thoughts as he said again, “Are you pregnant?”
Soleil plastered on a smile. “Yes, I am! Isn’t it great?”
“Wow,” he said, looking bewildered. “Who…”
He went pale.
Okay, so maybe he hadn’t done the math after all. There was a much bigger discussion to be had between them, but it wasn’t one she wanted to have at the side of the road where her interns could interrupt. She had a schedule to keep, lunch to prepare. Lord, she was hungry.
“Actually,” she said, stalling for time. “The father isn’t in the picture.”
This was the line she’d been giving everyone who asked.
Only, it wasn’t true anymore. Not exactly.
Because he was in th
e picture again. He’d almost run over her goat.
And he deserved a better explanation than she’d just given him.
WEST MORGAN HAD BEEN so preoccupied on the drive back to Promise, he almost hadn’t seen the goat standing in the middle of the road. Thank God for antilock brakes.
And even now, his brain was a muddle of conflicting thoughts as he tried to make sense of the fact that Soleil Freeman, the woman he’d spent the past five and a half months trying to forget, was standing in front of him, pregnant.
What the hell?
Still beautiful, perhaps even more so now, her formerly wiry frame had been softened by lush curves. She’d done something with her hair, too. In the summer it had been a wild mess of springy curls, but she had it in two braids today that gave her a young earth-goddess aura.
He stared into her pale green eyes, made all the more stunning by her café-au-lait skin, trying to see some truth there that hadn’t been spoken aloud yet.
But all he saw was her looking as though she wanted to get away from him. The thin, brittle smile she wore wasn’t fooling anyone, definitely not him.
“Um, I would stay and catch up,” Soleil said after an awkward silence, “but I’ve left the kids unsupervised on the farm and I need to get back there. I’m shorthanded today.”
She was already edging toward her property, stepping over a downed section of fencing.
“Hey, can I help you out? My dad isn’t expecting me for a few more hours.” West had the feeling Soleil would disappear forever if he didn’t pin her down right now. Ridiculous thought, given how tied she was to the farm. Still, he couldn’t let this conversation end with so many questions forming in his head.
“Oh. No, thank you, but no. Really, I’ll be fine.”
“Looks like you need a fence repair.”
She glanced down. “Right. Before any more goats escape. Thanks for the reminder-I’ll get someone on it.”