Broken Soldier

by Blue Saffire

  “He doesn’t matter,” I soothe. “Tell me about the house.”

  “Don’t fucking lie to me,” he bellows. “I saw you fuck him in the window for everyone to see. I heard you tell him you love him.”

  Fear ices over my veins. I know I’ve just found the final trigger. Toni sounds so lost and broken. I swallow hard, not knowing if I can get him back on the hinge. Just when I think all hope is lost, Toni drops to his knees and crawls to me.

  He moves to position himself between my legs, wrapping his arms around my waist. He starts to sob like a broken child. Burying his face in my midsection. I don’t move, I’m frozen as he falls apart.

  A few moments pass, before I lift my eyes to see Parker and another shadow have entered the house during the distraction I provided, but they still need a clear shot. I need to get Toni away from me. I can feel the cool metal of his gun and the one he took from me, —after knocking me out,—pressed against my back. I lock eyes with Parker, instantly I feel like he sends me his strength.

  “I did it all to make you jealous, Toni. I wanted you to give me and Isaac more of your attention. Remember how turned on I would get when you would get all jealous over me?” I purr.

  It’s true. When I was young and dumb I thought the way he would fly off the handle was sexy. Now I know better, the signs were surely there.

  “Yeah, Baby,” he nods, kissing my belly.

  My skin feels like it’s crawling, but I push through. “I see now that you weren’t ignoring us. I’m so sorry. I should have been patient. You always told me I was so impatient,” I keep talking.

  “You are,” he drops one gun and starts to caress my thigh. “I don’t know if we can fix this, Kia. I fucked up. We’ll have to run. We’ll come back for Isaac.”

  “Okay,” I whisper.

  “Okay?” he lifts his head to look up into my eyes. His grey eyes shine with hope.

  I feel so sorry for him in that moment. The man I used to know has shattered into pieces. This isn’t even the confident guy I met in that college campus parking lot.

  “Yes, okay,” I nod.

  “I knew you were the one. From that night I pulled you over. Do you remember that. It was raining, you and your friend were soaked through, but you were still beautiful. I followed you for weeks, before I let the air out of your tire in that parking lot,” he smiles like a lunatic.

  My brows furrow, my mind racing back all those years. Toni was a gorgeous cop, an older one at that. I’d been so flattered when he came to my rescue on campus, then asked me out to dinner.

  I gasp when I remember the night he pulled me over. I’d been with Myles’ ex-girlfriend. We went out to a party and she’d had too much to drink. I ended up driving us home in her car. Neither of us realized she had a broken tail light.

  The officer was so polite and let us off with a warning. I was too nervous to look at him or take in any details. I was a young black girl, driving in a drunken white girls Benz. I just wanted to get home.

  Now, those eyes. I knew I’d seen them before when he pulled up in that parking lot. I was so young and stupid.

  “I told you we’d be together. There was never any doubt that I’d hold on to you. If I can’t have you no one—”

  He doesn’t get to finish. Parker puts a bullet through the side of his skull. Toni was too focused on me to see Parker and Ryder move into the room and find the right angle.

  I just stare down at the body slummed in my lap. It’s over, it’s finally over. I’ve always known it would come to something like this. It was never my overactive imagination. I knew.

  Ryder kicks Toni’s body from my lap, as Parker cuts my hands free. Ryder cuts my feet loose just in time for Parker to lift me from the chair into his arms. He buries his face into my hair and holds me so tight, I think I might break.

  “It’s over,” I whisper. “I’m free.”

  Chapter 19

  You and I

  Parker

  I haven’t wanted to let Lakia out of my sight. I know that motherfucker is long gone. I made sure of that, but the thought of how close I came to losing her. I just can’t do it.

  “I’m okay,” Lakia says for the millionth time.

  I grunt my acknowledgement, but I don’t loosen my hold on her or unwrap my leg from around her. Ryder let us crash at his place, while he went to Miami with Doc for a few days.

  Shots.

  I still can’t believe they’re going through with that shit. Most of all, I can’t believe I handed over a check for it. After they helped me get my woman at of that house, it was the least I could do.

  “You can be a broody old bear. You know that,” she giggles.

  I look down at her. Those eyes sparkling up at me. I’ve never loved anyone more in my life. I don’t know what I would’ve done if I lost her.

  “I’m not going anywhere, Jake. If you hadn’t come when you did, I was about to break out my Kung Fu style,” she teases.

  I growl at her and take her lips. I kiss her as if it’s our last. When I pull away, her eyes are glazed over and she looks content with the world.

  “I’m glad you can joke about it. I’m still too pissed,” I gruff.

  “He doesn’t deserve another second of my life. He manipulated me for years. The best thing I got out of it all was Isaac.”

  “How do you want to handle this with him,” I ask cautiously.

  “It’s Isaac, in time he will tell us what he thinks. I don’t want to bring it up until I have to. Let him be a baby. He’s happy, that’s what matters,” she shrugs.

  “We can push the wedding back,” I offer, knowing I don’t want to wait.

  “Like hell, we can. I’m not changing a thing. You get those rowdy friends of yours together and report for duty or its going to be a fight,” she sasses.

  I burst into laughter. Rowdy, I guess that could be a word for my crew. I shake my head, tugging her warmth closer.

  “We’ll be there,” I chuckle.

  “Sooo,” she drags out. “You ever plan on telling me what kind of business makes you blush every time it comes up?”

  I groan, throwing an arm over my face. I knew this was going to come up sooner or later. I feel my cheeks heat just thinking about it.

  “Ryder decided to open a chain of strip clubs and hire a bunch of vets,” I peek under my arm at her.

  “Aw, a bunch of super nerdy Veterinarian’s, that’s hot. Are they going to have puppies too?” I roll my eyes are her, as hers light up with mischief.

  “You know damn well what kind of Vets I’m talking about,” I grumble at her, causing laughter to spill from her lips.

  “Still, the puppies would be a nice touch,” she giggles.

  “I’ll let Ryder know,” I twist my lips at her.

  Lakia nudges my leg off of her, moving to straddle my lap. I watch her cautiously. I know she’s up to something. That pretty face always gives her away.

  “Well, do I get a free show or two?” she purrs.

  “Your ass will absolutely not be stepping foot in one of those clubs. You just forget we even own them,” I huff.

  “We own them?” A soft smile lights her face. “I’m going to be your wife, Parker. I’ll always have the best view in the house. You don’t have to worry. I was asking for a show from the sexiest of the owners.”

  “In that case,” I lift and flip her onto her back. “Hands above your head. We have a no touching the merchandise policy around here.”

  She chuckles, but lifts her hands up, lacing her fingers together. I stare down at her naked body. I miss the extra pounds that have been melting away with her workouts, but if I have it my way, she’ll be growing with my baby in her belly soon enough.

  “Jake,” she gasps, when I dip my head to suck her chocolate nipple into my mouth. “Please.”

  “Taking my time,” I warn, chuckling when she huffs her frustration.

  I kiss my way down her stomach, licking and tasting along the way. When I finally settle in front of her fat mo
und, I can see it dripping with her delicious honey. I take a moment to appreciate it all. Her thick thighs, her round ass, and the prize I’m about to devour.

  She wiggles her hips, drawing my eyes back up her body. I love the little saucy smile I find. I give her ass a little slap, pulling a moan from her lips. She sucks her bottom lip into her mouth, her eyes glazing over with lust.

  Sitting back, I flip her onto all fours. Running my hands up her back, I admire all that’s mine. I massage her back for a few beats, building the anticipation. When I see her honey drip from her folds, my restraint breaks. I need a taste and I need it now.

  I part her ass with my fingers and lower. Capturing the drip of her essence with my tongue, I drag throw her folds all the way to her crack. Her pants and moans are like music.

  I feast on her until my lips and tongue are numb and she’s nothing more than goo on the bedsheets. I chuckle when she whimpers into the mattress. Reaching between my legs, I acknowledge the pulsing steel I’ve been neglecting.

  Peeling her from the sheets to turn her on her back. I groan and bite my lip, watching her breasts jiggle with the motion. I’ve never been turn on by a woman the way I’m turned on by the sight of her.

  I lift her leg, kissing my way down her thigh, just needing to feel her skin against my lips. My hands caress anywhere I can touch. It’s the simple touches that cause her to bow off the bed and give me looks that convey so much.

  “You’re everything to me,” I whisper against her thigh, placing another kiss to her flesh.

  “Show me,” she demands.

  I nod, moving between her legs. The moment I enter her I know things have changed again. I’m hers in a new way. The kind of love that’s hidden deep and is found when needed most. When surface love just isn’t enough, there’s this love. The unbreakable kind that you have to dig deeper for.

  “Don’t give up on me, Kia. No matter what, don’t let me go,” I plead.

  “Never,” she whispers in my ear, as we climax together.

  Epilogue

  Precious Moments

  Parker

  I keep blinking. I want to remember this day for the rest of my life, but it would be great to be able to see it fully. I move my head to take in as much as I can. The things people take for granted.

  Today I have to choose what’s most important to see. My vision decided to fuck with me on one of the most important days of my life. I look away from the doctors, back at my wife.

  Her face is drenched with sweat. She’s still the most beautiful woman in the world to me. She’s so brave and strong. I didn’t know I could love her more than I already did.

  I thought I was the luckiest man in the world when she said I do. Since that day, my life has only gotten better and better. Now this, my son is on his way into the world.

  “Relax,” Lakia whispers.

  “I should be saying that to you,” I frown.

  “I’m familiar with the terrain. I got this,” she winks.

  I nod. “He’s almost here,” I say in awe.

  She giggles at me. “You don’t have to whisper, he’s not going to change his mind and go back in,” she teases.

  “Mrs. Parker, we need one more good push,” the doctor interrupts.

  “Okay,” she nods, licking her lips and bearing down. “Argh.”

  She lets out a little roar and the next sound I hear is the cry of my little boy. I turn my head quickly, not wanting to miss him and I swear it’s like my vision opens up the moment I set eyes on him.

  He’s so small, but his cry is so big. He has entered this world making his presence known. I watch in wonder as they place him on Lakia’s chest. They look perfect together.

  “Should we name him Myles?” I ask, reaching to brush his little cheek.

  Her brows knit. Slowly she shakes her head. When her cola eyes look up at me they seem perplexed.

  “Mama always used to say, you don’t name a boy after a man still living his legacy,” she replies with conflict in her eyes.

  My own brows draw in. I search her face for understanding. She bites her lip, I can tell she’s debating whether or not she should say the words just on her lips.

  “I had a dream about my brother. Mama never did feel like he was gone…For now, let’s name our son something else,” she says softly.

  “Whatever you want, Baby Girl. You choose his name. I trust you,” I wink at her.

  Acknowledgments

  Hey!!! I bet this book was a surprise. I’ve been getting so many questions about this series and the funny thing is, each and every couple has an interesting back story that can’t or shouldn’t be avoided. You need to know their beginnings to know how they get to the point of needing to be in that room with Caleb Perry. Which is way I’ve decided to do the novellas in addition to each full length. Some of these stories are going to tear your heart up, but it will be worth the journey.

  Thank you so much, for your support and your patience. You see the way my brain is set up, LOL. These characters don’t make it easy on me. I appreciate you all allowing them to tell their stories in their time and in their way. Again, your emails and posts are so appreciated. Thank you so much.

  I love what I do and it allows me to get through so much. I thank those that understand my need to create and know how to let me do so. If I choose to write a story it has a place. There’s one person that knows of all the stories clamoring to get out and he just shakes he’s head in wait. I thank him for listening to the crowded thoughts of my mind and not judging the stories that await. I’m grateful for the push to go and explore the voices that want to be heard.

  Everything is working for your good. You have to trust the process. When people enter and leave your life, they all have a season, a reason, and some may be assigned for a lifetime. Don’t rush any of it. Know what God has for you was planned even before you took your first breath. You are just going through the process of learning who you truly are. Their opinions never matter, their plotting will never prosper, stand in your favor and allow the Universe to guide the rest. Healing comes in faith. The faith to know it is done. You will have all that was meant for you. Be blessed in your portion. Thank you, Lord for another one.

  On to the Next!! We’re just one big happy family. Hahahahaha!

  About the Author

  Blue Saffire, award-winning, bestselling author of over thirty novels and novellas, writes with the intention to touch the heart and the mind.

  Blue hooks, weaves, and loops multiple series, keeping you engaged in her worlds. Blue and her husband live in a house filled with laughter and creativity, in Long Island, NY. Yet, the city still calls to her to come on back for a visit.

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