Jan Love

by Luiz Guilherme

  “You can turn around, do not be afraid. Even if it’s man, let him see me like this. “

  Jan turned slowly. Sofia saw up and down with a towel around the entire body. He was very shy. Sofia knew everything, and spoke.

  “I know you are shy for that stuff, but all this is normal. As I change, will tell you in detail about it “

  She went to her room. Jan went to the room, and imaginative. Rarely talked about intimacy. Unless with Melissa, who always confide all these things, which only speak to people nearby.

  Sophia returned with a light blue shirt with buttons and striped in salmon color, which went to his knees. Jan looked at with a mixture that neither he well understood. She sat on the couch and drew near.

  He spoke of something intimate with him, without any restrictions.

  “At your age, I was like, well shy, demure, was in my corner. After I found out, I saw that should not be ashamed to see a naked person, or just underwear. I also learned that sex is the most normal thing in the world. Have you heard that, huh? “

  “Yes, yes,” said Jan-still stuck in her shyness.

  “Great. This is a good step. Knowledge is very important in anything you do. This will give you more security in what you will do. “

  And she spoke for a long time about it. Jan was well aware of everything that Sofia said, and even forgot she was shy. Sofia spent her entire world security. And he felt good when talking about his intimacy with her.

  Already passed two in the morning. The dream had already given its effects on both. And before anyone got sleepy, Sofia.

  “I’m sleepy. I go to sleep. And you go with me? “

  Jan accepted the invitation, and accompanied her to her room. She laid down first, and then called it.

  “Come, come. Be at ease sleeping in my bed. “

  Jan was a bit afraid as to this invitation so intimate.

  And it persisted.

  “You can come. Do not be afraid. Or have you forgotten our conversation in the room? “

  He lay, erect, belly up. Was still with his clothes. But she has proposed to remove him, because the night was not so cold as well. He was only pants.

  She covered herself with a white sheet of fine cotton, involving Jan. He turned to the side. They looked for a moment between. She gave good night to Jan. But before they fell asleep he would say anything to her.

  “I ask you a question?” Whisper-Jan

  “Ask whatever you want”-Speech Sofia in the same tone.

  “What is the color of your intimate part?”

  “It’s pink. Cool huh? “

  He nodded.

  Then the eyes closed and silence the mysterious wrapped in his cloak.

  Chapter 5

  5

  After that pleasant evening at the home of Sofia, Jan came home. His mother not violent things, because ‘he knew that his son was in good hands. ” The day was very good.

  At night, he decided to go to the home of Melissa, tell what happened.

  “Seriously, you slept in her house?” - Melissa asked very curious.

  “Yes, yes, but I had to lie to my mother, saying he was at a friend’s house.”-Spoke Jan.

  “Ah, but in that case until it was necessary to lie, because if not, you would not have been there”

  “Exactly. It was great to have stayed there. “

  Jan reported and the time he was there. He spoke of the moments he spent with Sophie, since the meeting until the arrival in his home. In a moment, Jan noticed that Melissa was not so to hear it. So he decided to change the subject, not to embarrass both parties.

  After a while of chatter in the home of Melissa, he returned to his home. There were no commitments, much less homework.

  He lay on his bed. Fell asleep. And just dreaming again something mysterious. The person, once again was a woman, and looked a lot like the wife of his other dream mysterious.

  He was in a band of a square. Only a light from above going over his head lit up the environment. He was the uniform of their school. When least expected, approaches a woman in white, with the same characteristics as the previous dream. And once again she was with her face hidden by a white veil. She sat beside him and stroked the apples of your face, and spoke to Jan:

  “You are beautiful clothes with that”, said the woman, her voice very similar to the previous dream.

  He was indifferent, but if placed in a normal way, without her noticing it had stayed that way. She still speaks for him:

  “I hope one day to have something besides a conversation with you” - she said, with a more prominent voice for Jan.

  She approached him, he looked good in their eyes, touching the apples of your face, and spoke again:

  “I’m starting to feel like doing?”

  He did not respond. She lifted her veil until the tip of the nose, and kissed him without him saying yes. He even sketched reaction to suppress it. After the kiss, she still said something.

  “Soon, I’ll be more present in your life. And it is not very far from happening. “

  He agreed. Even with my eyes closed and mind slowly, he tried to think of the phrase that the mysterious woman had said in his dream. With his hand on his head, as if there was concern in signing that phrase to him, he went to the bathroom, thinking about what appeared to be an effect of concern for him. He wanted to forget it. Until forgot it. Went to class quietly, without weights in awareness or any kind of concern that the afflicted. Arrived at the school, as if everything was normal. Everything was fine, no problem at all, until he saw Sophie at the entrance of the school. He was somewhat aloof and a little dizzy on the inside, but controlling these feelings to not overlap in front of Sofia. Soon she has a good day and excited to Jan.

  “Good morning, Jan. He slept well that night?”

  Jan took a hell of a fright. A confused mixture that has occurred within himself, he knew how to handle emotions, and acted naturally smooth day of Sofia.

  “Good morning teacher Sofia. I slept very well, thank you. And you also had a good night’s sleep? “

  That was on target and need to bypass any type of exposure than felt, and prevent a slide in that hour of the morning. That was close.

  Soon they went to the classroom, because I was almost time for the touch input.

  There, everything went as normally the world. Until the coordinator of his school, get your room reinforcing the warning about the class of the field that would occur. It would happen in a historic farm, which had an important role based on a national literary classic. It lifted a little with the mood of Jan.

  During the class of Sofia, until he focused on the subject, so even stranger to you.

  Then the other class was not the same. He seemed to have a restlessness, a yearning that day arrived. And therefore, he began to think more fixed, and stronger than at other times.

  During the days, the ride was forgotten, giving way to Sofia. In this, he often came to think it. He could have a brief control of it in important moments, like the time of his study. But it was enough to be alone or to remember something that binds Sofia, she was dominating his thoughts. This was an inevitable fact of life. His only fear of this was that the dominate even in times when I was with Melissa. This is a very displeased and his companion. But from time to time, he distracts himself, blurting out the control that had set for itself. In some conversations with Melissa, he left his apparent distraction. Tried to be discreet disguise at times. But that soon before her compromise.

  In a very heated conversation by Melissa, Jan hovered in the air, dancing in the clouds of your thoughts in Sofia. He did not realize the reality. Melissa realized, and Jan took the arms, shaking him strongly, a stirring upset that immediately woke the great thinking of that conversation.

  “Jan you’re not paying attention to what I’m saying.” - Melissa talks with the blazing fury between the teeth, “what do you have? It seems that little hears me. Must also listen to me. ” - She’s a pause, and decrease the tone of voice to
Jan - “You are my friend, I need you. Excuse me say it again, but you have to just listen to what I say? “- Melissa still speaks in soft tones, but with a little more sensitivity.

  Jan remained silent; not knowing for sure if would speak to Melissa about what happened. He was shy, not brave enough to speak with Melissa. He just told her.

  “What I have is mine. Do not want to tell you, as it may bother you a bit. “-He said.

  Melissa was unimpressed with what he said, but still persisted in taking the final reply of Jan.

  “Can you tell me I’m your friend Jan and I can understand him very well in this case.”-She tries to spend as much confidence in him.

  Jan still felt insecure, but nonetheless decided to speak.

  “I’m thinking a lot about a person.” - He paused and sighed God - “I’m thinking a lot about Sofia. I think I’m in love with her. “

  Melissa took a fright. Even disguised, but inside, he felt impressed to say that Jan was in love with Sofia. And just her, older than him many years, reaching more than a decade. But inside, not just the shock was evident he had witnessed. Something very strange, stressful, trying to avert, but had just become a monster that devours from within. Soon she said, trying to disguise this fright.

  “And since when are you anyway?”

  “Since a few weeks back here. I cannot stop thinking about her. This has been true since I know her. That was weak, barely came to my head.

  He also said that since the announcement of the tour, came to think of it. Did not mention any of the two dreams, because he believed that a dream was something told to never be realized.

  Melissa continued to listen to everything Jan said, still with that acidity that was inside. And Jan just said it all. He apologized for the inattention of the things she said in recent days. She forgave him with nausea.

  “Jan, if you need to, you know I’m always here. Never refuse help. “- Melissa said with an air of despondency.

  Jan a little suspicious and asked.

  “You’re something with Melissa. I told her something that pleased her? “

  “There Jan, so are other problems, I can tell you another time.”, Said Melissa, a little firmer to disguise.

  Jan decided not to go beyond, not to bother her.

  It was time for him to leave. They hugged. Melissa was not very sincere in his embrace. Jan was normal, but it ended up leaving him more suspicious of what might have happened to her. ‘Do not say anything that pleased her? She has some jealousy of me? Or she feels something for me that is difficult to describe? ‘He went out, the doubt persisted, but he soon forgot it, because Sofia was the focus of the time.

  Chapter 6

  6

  Since the day of conversation with Melissa, Jan felt that something was wrong at that time. I could not understand for sure, but I felt it. He did not think much in this small point. Sophia was much stronger in their thoughts. She seemed a philosophy of life, a dilemma that is ‘lived’ every day. For a few days, he could write great sentences and poems that inspired it. In one of these days, he decided to leave the door of one of his writings Sofia. The sender was unnamed, but she could identify Jan for your letter. But he did not think that possibility, and went ahead with that goal.

  On the day he did not go to class, and turned his way home from Sofia. Followed the same path the first time I was there, as one difference: the locomotion. Followed by bus to the stopping point. He stands in front of the building where she lived. Now it was just notes. It was not so easy to get to your destination. There was a rock, an obstacle: the liquidator. Jan was watching a corner, an entrance to take him to the 3rd floor. He looked all around the entrance. Looking closely, he found an alley that could lead somewhere. He crossed the street, and was slightly to the alley. With the blue sky was the only light source there, it was easy to not be so perceived that way. He crept slowly, stepping in small puddles, passing huge dumps, sewage and animals. There he saw a door. Luckily, she was open and he walked slowly, being as unobtrusive as possible.

  He reached a room where she kept all kinds of stuff on shelves of iron, from cleaning supplies, household utensils old, already with enough dust. The room is the half light, and was very tricky to pass in silence over there. Jan collided in some objects, which luckily was small. After going through that struggle, another would come to your front door. He opened it slowly, and saw that it was in a hallway, equal to the floor where Sophia lived. Looked at which side would. Followed quiet and fast to his left, like a ninja. There was a steel door, which could give access to the 3rd floor. Came to the door, and it was closed. Stunned, Jan pressed one of the buttons on the elevator. She was already cold sweat. Then suddenly, he hears footsteps that stun even more. Again, in aid of luck, the elevator comes and he quickly opened the door. There was no one, leaving Jan relieved. Inside the elevator, he pressed the button three, which led to their destination. But through all barriers, Jan still had to complete a step: handing his letter in Fate. He arrived in the hallway, and quickly found by each door through which passed. The number 807. Was found. Jan was with an emotion that almost did not fit in them. He was bright-eyed at the door of the house of his love. He bent down and placed the letter on the underside of the door. He got up again, looking for that golden label with the numbers in bold. He was thinking of the days he was back in that location. His thinking did not last long. Soon he hears a noise. But he does the way he had done before. It followed the traditional path; it follows that Sofia every day. He tries to go as soon as possible among people who pass through. They have then not got scared much, because the neighbors do not know him there. Down the stairs at a snail a little less speed. It passed quickly; almost I could not perceive the reception, going directly to the bus stop. Mission accomplished. Everything that lived, seemed to be James Bond mission, something almost impossible, but it was completed despite the difficulties. It was still early to go home. So he decided to go shopping, as it was with a reserve in case of emergency.

  Shopping he thought for a moment about what he had done. Do not do it again, it would be risking too much on love. He felt a little uncomfortable, even taking a delicious Sunday. I wish she were there, enjoying that sweet moment of his life. It was not time to go home. He was walking among the shops, passing by several people. Until he stopped at a shop window. He saw a beautiful black dress of chance and elegantly low-cut thin. Sofia began to imagine that beautiful dress as in other times. He flew through the clouds of your thoughts. In the best moment, someone bumped into it. Once the person apologized, and he too. Then he turned his gaze to the dress. But preferred not to think too much and decided to walk a little at the mall, and was circling until time to go home.

  Jan comes to your home. His mother was almost out so buy some vegetables that lacked the spice of lunch. He threw his backpack in his chair and sat right on the other the left. It was almost too weak to stand or make any movement whatever. Frowned, his fatigue sweating through the pores, causing him to sweat more than usual. He decided to stand up and take a good bath.

  Part of fatigue seemed to have gone along with the water. But still, there was the weight of weariness from all the madness that he had managed to finish. Without lunch, he decided to nap. But he fell asleep during the whole afternoon. At about 5 pm, he wakes up, sees the time and realized that their fatigue stood out well before him. He got up and went to the kitchen looking for something to eat. There, his mother was preparing dinner, and she asked why so much of fatigue.

  “The class was pulled over. There were many matters, and that weighed heavily on my mind “- he said without hesitation.

  Soon he went to the room, turned on the TV and there he stayed until shortly after the early evening. He just had dinner a little, watched a little TV and went to sleep. It was not Melissa’s house, much less called Sofia. Everything was very laborious and tiring. And he hoped that the next day was much better, and less laborious.

  The day had arrived. Everything was normal, without much t
o say. His routine was simple, like every day. At night, there was a feeling that the day could be different for one thing. Jan called Sofia. Perhaps at that time was nice talking to her, because two days ago does not care for your home. In the first attempt, was busy. In the second she picked up.

  “Hi Sophia. How are you? “Said Jan-

  “I’m very well Jan was already homesick. Why do not you call me more? “-Asked Sofia.

  “It’s time. I did a lot in recent days, so I did not care. Sorry for the absence. “

  The conversation took place normally, yet she talks about a strange letter, which was in his apartment since the previous day.

  “Yesterday I received a letter and simple. She has no sender nor cites my name. Do not know if I received by mistake, and I’m only with her that I found very beautiful. “-His talk reflected a joy that seemed long ago she had not. Jan shivered when she spoke of the letter.

  “The letter seems very familiar, but I cannot remember to whom it belongs.” - Sofia said in a doubtful tone, seeming to want to uncover the mastermind of that beautiful letter.

  Jan was more nervous still. He was struggling to control the lack of them. Something told him seriously that she would have kept the suspect in his mind. He avoided thinking about it in quite so revealing something not blatantly go out of his mouth.

  He just said.

  “Wow, what a strange Sofia. Will see that someone wrote it for you. “-Feigning innocence, but still with the show nervousness persists inside. So was Jan, and then, Sophie said something, which aggravated his state of nervousness.

  “Does this person who sent me that this closer to what I think?” Asked Sofia—

  Jan, despite the nervousness to the surface, he said.

  “I do not know who knows. Or will it be an old love that you forgot or missed ��� “- words to fill that dialogue, but soon they came, “I do not know. Analysis by his thoughts. “- Was a relief to have spoken to Jan that, because the suspect could begin to emerge against the case he could not speak.