So it confused me to be aroused by a man dominating me. Regardless, I became addicted to the website. I spent the entire weekend reading it and making “friends.” I joined the forums and checked the discussion boards several times a day to read other people’s thoughts. I relished hearing about others’ experiences with the Dominant/submissive lifestyle. I didn’t dare comment myself. Instead, I lurked along the sidelines, living vicariously through the other group members’ experiences.
Until I saw his post.
CHAPTER FIVE
It was a post from a Dominant talking about using hot wax with one of his subs. The way he talked about it caught my attention. He sounded mature, intelligent, and there was a sensual ring to his words that impressed me beyond what I’d read by most Doms.
Intrigued, I visited his personal page, where he mentioned that, for potential submissives who were interested, he was available for cyber-training. I clicked on the CYBER-TRAINING link at the top of the page.
I believe cyber to be an effective training tool. It centers on the submissive, and is tailored to what she needs to grow and explore her submissiveness. I can provide many games, tasks, and challenges if you have a craving to expand your journey and find the true freedom that comes from submitting. Share with me your needs, wants, and desires, and I will send you a variety of games or tasks to gauge if cyber-training is something you want to explore.
The moment I read this, butterflies took flight in my stomach, even though I had no idea what the hell cyber-training exactly entailed. Online training? That sounded long distance. I would never have to meet the person. Something I could do without breaking my marriage vows, technically. Okay, maybe that was pushing it, but it wouldn’t be the same as sleeping with someone in real life. His post gave me a lot to think about.
The school year had begun winding down, and as I started planning how I would pack up my classroom, I considered the pros and cons to beginning a “cyber affair,” of sorts. After stewing over it for days, I decided to send “MC” a message. As I sat down to write, the nerve endings on my hands and arms felt like they’d migrated to the outside of my body. Everything tingled and I was more anxious than if I were going on a first date.
MC,
I am interested in expanding my journey into submissiveness. My situation is that I am married, but my husband and I are estranged and planning to get a divorce. I am definitely not the swinging type, so I prefer one-on-one interactions.
I would like to know what your cybertraining involves. Do you make money this way? Or do you just like doing this?
I read one of your posts about working with a woman where you used a webcam. Is a camera a necessity?
~Sophie
As soon as I signed my name I questioned if telling him my real name was such a good idea, but then I decided that if he didn’t know my last name, and if I didn’t talk with him on a webcam, my identity would be safe. I had set up another new email account, separate from even the email I had just set up for the dating sites, because I didn’t want to risk any personal information being available. It made me feel kinda dirty, but that was part of the thrill.
I waited on pins and needles for a reply, and the next evening I got one.
Sophie,
I’m pleased to hear you’re interested in cyber-training, but how serious are you?
I put a lot of time and effort into training and only wish to play with those who have a deep craving to uncover their submissiveness.
I absolutely do not get paid. I do this because I believe strongly in the lifestyle and have the experience and imagination to make the journey both erotic and sweet.
There are many ways to go about training via the internet. I can send you games or tasks via email. Once you agree to the task you will be expected to carry it out and send me back a detailed response. There are games that can be played over chat where you will be instructed and will respond in real time. There can be phone sessions and also cam sessions, so a webcam would be necessary for those play times.
All training would proceed at your own speed and comfort level, although I would push your limits and test boundaries. The training is highly sexual to help you discover your deep, dark secrets, and to help you find the very core of your sexual being.
Understand the training centers around you, to help uncover your true needs. Training takes time, and as we move forward I will begin to understand your needs and the best path for fulfilling those needs.
If you are ready to start playing I could send you some very simple tasks to start with, and we could go from there.
Be a good girl.
MC
As I read, the butterflies came back. The idea of a stranger leading me down a path of erotic self-discovery was both enticing and frightening. I liked being able to do it from home. I wouldn’t need to worry about a stranger abducting or hurting me. There wouldn’t be any need to worry about sexually transmitted diseases or pregnancy either.
An unfamiliar stirring started between my legs when I thought of agreeing to be a cyber-sub. I would be submissive to a man who lived somewhere else. The distance made it safer, and while I had a few doubts about what he might ask me to do, I couldn’t help but feel excited. I replied.
MC,
I am very serious about this journey. I had to ask those questions because online, let’s face it, you never know who you’re dealing with. You won’t know unless you ask.
One thing that concerns me is that I don’t how I will respond to pain. I have never ventured into that arena before. I can’t imagine any man I’d ever been with wanting to hurt me. But I did like the idea of trying to withstand the pain of something like candle wax (I saw that online).
I’d be happy to start with some simple tasks and see where we could go.
~Sophie
Within an hour, I found an email in my inbox from the mysterious MC. My hopes fell as I read it.
Sophie,
You’ve got me thinking about your husband and admittedly, I know very little about you, nothing about your husband and nothing about the dynamic of your marriage.
Is the lifestyle you’re exploring something you really want? Is this something that you could discuss with your husband? Have the two of you lived a vanilla life so far? Does he know you’re in communication with a Dom?
MC
MC,
My husband and I do not communicate with each other well or often. He has affairs with other women. He spends several nights a week “working late.” I have turned a blind eye because I believed staying married was my only option.
Recently, he texted me that he wanted a divorce and we have both seen divorce lawyers. We have no children, and I expect our divorce to be forthcoming. I guess I should have been more clear about it, but I’m only beginning to come to terms with the idea of being single again.
So that’s the story. What are your thoughts?
~Sophie
Sophie,
Thank you for sharing that. It helps tremendously with my thought process in charting a path. Trust is the basis of the Dominant/submissive relationship. Your divorce sounds like it may present some problems for you as it may complicate matters. However, it is not my place to judge or determine that, only to assist you on your journey. If at any time you feel your D/s training is at odds with your marriage or your divorce and you would like to stop, all you have to do is tell me. Please understand I have no desire to interfere in your marriage, and if you would like to proceed with training without his participation then I will agree to that. I will train you so that the next man in your life will find you a good little plaything with an unquenchable lust to be used.
For a Dom/sub relationship to work, both partners must go at the speed and tolerance of the sub, although the Dom must be able to push those limits and also know where to draw the line. There are safety words and devices in place, so both parties know if it goes too far. If pain is delivered properly, in the right doses and at the correct tolerance levels, event
ually you will not recognize when the pain ends and the pleasure begins. You will long for more, and during a session you will have no problem telling your Dom how much more you need as he moves to break you. The breaking of the sub is the ultimate pleasure package, bringing you a total sense of freedom, and once completed you will turn to him to bring you back around by giving you the love and security you need.
I’m sure you have some doubts as well but as we move into your core deeper you will become a believer.
I will send you a small taste in a separate message and hopefully you see where your training can go.
MC
“An unquenchable lust to be used.” That phrase caught me off guard and made me press my legs together. Already, he seemed to know what buttons to push to turn me on. I restlessly awaited his next email with my first task, my pussy twitching as I tried to imagine the possibilities.
In about ten minutes it came through.
Sophie,
You sound very open-minded, which is a positive thing. I have many pain games to share with you that are safe and will build your tolerance.
Verbal abuse is part of the control. Crass language pushes you forward and releases your inhibitions, and provides intensity, which can sometimes be a challenge in cyber.
I can send you some very delicious control games to play that will keep you on edge and sexually charged.
I will know by your reactions and your commitment to tasks just how serious and wanting you are. My tasks will become more frequent, more demanding and more intense as long as you earn your training by being a good plaything.
In the near future we will move from exchanging emails to chat sessions, to a very demanding phone session where I’ll teach you just how intense training can be and how your orgasms will leave you a puddled mess.
Your first task is to be done this evening. Lie down on your stomach, in the dark, and I want you to suck your thumb with one hand. Pretend you are sucking a delicious hard cock, and while you do that I want you to play with your clit with your other hand. With your finger draw the ABCs across it. I want you very aroused, but you may not come.
Be a good girl and give me the detailed description of your cock-sucking and clit play. Convince me you are a hungry fuck-slut.
MC
Gracious! I was starting to understand what he meant about language. On one level his language offended me, or at least I knew I should be offended by it. Yet, on a more primal level, it stirred something inside me, and my body responded to it. From an intellectual perspective I could see how it served to transform me into an object whose purpose was to serve him. While the feminist inside me railed against the notion, the idea of kneeling before this unknown man with the commanding presence made my mouth water. And I couldn’t wait for it to get dark so I could complete my first task.
CHAPTER SIX
The next morning, the first thing I thought of was the task I’d performed for him the night before. It was the last week of school, so I had to rush off to work, but I didn’t dare go before reporting in on my first task. I wasn’t sure what to write, or how to tell him about it. But since I didn’t have all morning, I just typed the following:
MC,
Last night I did the task as you required. I was surprised at some of my reactions. I didn’t expect to enjoy sucking on my thumb, but it was so sensual that I liked it very much. I also didn’t expect that I would want to come so badly just from drawing the alphabet on my clit. I thought I would be able to think about other things and distract myself, but somewhere around the letter “O,” my clit was thrumming. Had you been here, I would have begged you to let me come. But I was a good girl and I didn’t. It was difficult, and I had to slow way down to finish without climaxing. I hope that because I was good you will let me come tonight.
Thank you,
~Sophie
As I wrote, my skin heated up, particularly my cheeks, and I was both appalled by my brazenness and awed by my ability to share something so intimate with a perfect stranger. It felt dangerous and exhilarating at the same time. I pressed SEND, exhaled, and closed down my computer.
All day at school, I tried not to think about MC or my new incredibly naughty and possibly foolish adventure, but it was no use. I teetered on edge most of the day, thinking of his words, his task, and wondering how he would respond. Had I been too forthcoming? Or not enough? I had no idea what to expect. Thank goodness I’d made a rule for myself not to check my secret email account from work. I would access that strictly from my laptop, never my phone.
That afternoon I rushed home, where I was overjoyed to find another message from him.
Sophie,
Thank you for your candid response to your assignment. I am pleased with your report. Here is your next task. You are to send me the answers to this quiz as well as a report of your reactions to it.
Then I read the headline:
SLUT TEST
What am I doing? This guy is some perv sitting at home on his computer messing with me, humiliating me. I’m crazy to go along with it, letting some weirdo jack off to my answers to this nonsense. With a huff, I went to the kitchen and started to make myself a salad and heat up some leftovers for dinner.
I took a few deep breaths and reached down to pet Felix. “Has your mommy lost her mind?” He stared up at me with his bulging black eyes. “Yes, I have,” I cooed in my best baby-talk voice as I scratched him behind the ear.
Yeah. What I’d been doing was just weird. I turned on the television and ate my dinner on a TV tray. I always loved doing that because my mother would never let us use TV trays growing up. My rebel heart at work again.
I will not think about it. I will not think about him, I told myself, slathering anti-aging cream on my face as I got ready for bed.
But when I walked past the closed laptop on the corner of my bed, the magnetic pull was too strong. I had to see what the slut test was all about. He didn’t know me, had no idea who I was, I rationalized. It wouldn’t do any harm for me to read his last message. Anyway, he’d never know whether I read it or not. So I opened it.
SLUT TEST
So you think you’re ready to be an obedient little fucktoy?
Here are some questions that will delve into the core of you. Some questions are extremely important, others not as much, and others are meaningless. They are all mixed together, and you will have no idea which ones are which. I do this to keep your answers honest. You must answer all questions as truthfully as possible rather than giving answers you think I seek.
Of course to make these questions much more appealing, you will have a dildo pushed deep inside you while you answer. As you type the answer with one hand to each question you will also draw the answer letter-by-letter on your clit with a vibe or your finger. There will be no coming before, during, or after the test is complete. You may only select ONE answer for each question.
Make sure you type each answer and draw it on that fuck bud at the same time your cunt is filled…Understood? Are you ready to play?
You have twenty-four hours to complete this task.
1.) I need to…
a.) suck cock
b.) be mouth fucked
c.) taste cum
2.) Are you…
a.) a fucking sub-slut
b.) a pain whore
c.) a hungry li’l girl
3.) I need my nipples…
a.) pinched, twisted, and stretched
b.) clamped and pulled
c.) used and abused
4.) I need my ass…
a.) turned cherry red
b.) left burning from stings
c.) clawed and marked
5.) I come hardest from…
a.) my cunt being pounded
b.) my clit being hummed
c.) my ass being filled
Is that cunt wet yet?
6.) Training…
a.) I want it all
b.) I need it all
c.) I crave it all
; 7.) I am…
a.) an obedient plaything
b.) a hungry girl with a greedy cunt
c.) ready to be taken and shaped
8.) Control…
a.) I am so ready to give up control
b.) It scares me but I know I have a need
c.) Please, sir, help me explore
9.) Bondage…
a.) I ache to know more
b.) Make me tremble
c.) Show me the way
10.) Masturbation…
a.) I love the taste of my juices
b.) My cunt is my pet
c.) My clit aches to pop out and play
Are you building toward that sweet release?
11.) Cyber-training…
a.) I was wet all day thinking about the next session
b.) Oh, please, sir, I will comply
c.) It scares me but I know I have a need
12.) Orgasms…
a.) I love when my cunt leaks
b.) I love stirring my juices and tasting them
c.) My cunt is so greedy that I want more
13.) Pain…
a.) OMG I need it mixed with pleasure
b.) It scares me but I know I have a need
c.) Oh, please, sir, take me there
14.) Control…
a.) Take me, shape me
b.) Mold me, use me
c.) Hurt me, break me
15.) I need…
a.) forced orgasms
b.) orgasm denial
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