Only Two Of Us

by Cassandra Russell

  even Jesus doubts. I'm also very intuitive. So I can bet the doctor there is interested

  in you.

  "You have no idea what you say." Besides, I'm not interested in him. - It was

  It's better to lie aloud, maybe I'm not convinced.

  "Ah, yes! He groaned with a dubious laugh.

  She fished the lie.

  - Let's change the subject? - I did not. - How do you feel today?

  - Great. It seems you're the only one confused at this hospital here, "he insisted.

  - Okay, you won. I'll be back in a moment to continue, okay? - I closed that one

  embarrassing conversation.

  I left thinking about his words, but it was crazy that it was crazy. He did not seem to be

  someone who could care about anyone. He thought himself a God, omnipotent. And even though

  he would never look at someone so imperfect. He seemed unable to

  to draw a simple smile, an affectionate word. Such people should be forever alone,

  they would probably find themselves complete and not empty, like me.

  Needless to remember that, as it was coveted and attractive, it would certainly be accustomed to having

  all the women at his feet, all he had to do was snap his fingers. If in a serious work environment,

  a great impact on all nurses, imagine the damage that was not done in an environment

  relaxed...

  I went to lunch in the hospital cafeteria and tried to sit at a table with the other nurses.

  Some, like Aline and Lia, I already knew. To others I was introduced at the time.

  Aline and Lia were almost inseparable. Since they started working at the hospital, I have never seen them

  unglued from one another. They had an impressive affinity, just like me and Anne. With such tastes

  the next day, the other also trimmed because she liked

  visual. Clothes then, do not talk ... Then they always ask if the two were sisters, because they used the same

  cut chanel in the hair with golden lights.

  The weather finally became relaxed. Dr. Luciano was sitting next to his colleagues in

  at the table next to it, where there was a lot of laughter.

  Dora quickly hurried to ask me:

  - So, how are you doing with our doctor? She asked, referring obviously to Dr.

  Richard.

  - Surviving. "I preferred to give short answers so I would not curl up."

  "Well, surviving or not, so far you're the record holder on duty hours alongside him - Dora

  made a point of mentioning.

  And that, as I assumed, should be a reason for me to celebrate ...

  "Is she helping Dr. Richard?" Aline, a nurse from another sector, asked curiously.

  - Exactly. I grimaced.

  "And you have not asked for the bills yet?" Wow!! You are my hero! How can you? Asked the other

  nurse whose name I still did not know.

  "I need the job," I said.

  "I must," said Lia. "I just could not do this miracle."

  "He's very handsome, is not he?" The other melted.

  - Beautiful is nickname. That is a being from another world, "Aline praised, wagging to intensify the

  that he had said.

  "Has any of you ever seen the color of his teeth?" - The nurse of the

  singing asked.

  - In what way? The man never smiles, he always lives with his face tied! Cried Lia.

  "With that face, my love, he can be angry at will. You do not even have to talk. Just give the

  home address, I'll sort it out in no time! "Another nurse intruded,

  making fun

  "No, people! And that serious way of talking? "You, as a matter of fact, know at least the difference

  between Rh positive and negative? "One of them mimicked his voice, shaking his head in mockery.

  "I do not admit to bad weather on my watch. When I request AB + typing, it does not mean that I need

  of A plus B "- amended one such of Lourdes, dramatizing.

  "The guy is nauseous, full of" nine-hours "- gave his opinion to the tip nurse.

  - Ah! Stop it! You have to admit that it is even elegant. I would not mind listening.

  that formal voice beside my pillow. "I did not hear this statement from who came."

  "You'll see the cat was raised by Grandpa," Aline teased.

  "The truth is that it would be the dream of every woman in this hospital if he opened that guard,

  said Lia.

  "Looking at that angle, I agree. But, on the professional side, you can not even get close. O

  cat is too radical. I could not work with him. Never been able to apologize to anyone

  that I know, "said Aline.

  "He asked for it today," I said with an embarrassed smile.

  - No, no! - The chorus was unanimous.

  - That's what I want to hear. Speak everything! Asked Lia.

  "Yes, in the smallest detail," Aline added.

  I instinctively shrugged my shoulders. She was not used to being the center of attention, much less

  Surround yourself that way. Still, I tried to respond in a simple way, in a low voice,

  as if it were the most normal thing in the world:

  "It was nothing so incredible. He just accused me of something I did not do and got a

  patient.

  - I do not believe! Is the boy changing? Maybe I should get more organized to go to your sector -

  Lia encouraged herself.

  "I'm glad I brought my makeup case." Maybe he does not notice me today, in the

  The nurse at the corner spoke again.

  - Yeah, and I'm going to put on a bra with a bigger bulge to get sexier, baby! He amended the other.

  I had to laugh.

  "Is this front commission your own, or was it bought?" Aline asked me.

  "Of course it's mine," I said, ungraciously. "I would not have the courage to have surgery alone."

  to place silicone on the breasts.

  "Well, I did," said the other. - Whoever was born with the small thing has to turn around as best he can.

  - Stephanie is a lucky girl. She's thin, but she's blessed. You do not even need those tricks! If

  the dowager doctor did not notice her yet, I then ... - Lia shot, laughing at my face.

  - Me, huh! Stop this! I complained.

  He hated this kind of public remark. To tell you the truth, not even in reserved places.

  I was always shy and withdrawn for certain matters, and this was just one of them.

  Immediately after Lia's unobtrusive comment, I noticed a speculative glance from Dr. Luciano

  right on the front of my lab coat. He should have heard part of our conversation,

  Then he smiled mischievously. I had to turn my face flushed sideways to hide the

  shame she felt.

  "People," Dora drawled. - You are forgetting a small detail ... It seems that

  Dr. Richard is committed.

  - He is married?

  I was embarrassingly the first to ask, although I did not express in my voice such a

  elementary. He had not noticed any evidence of a ring on his finger.

  "Married not, but they say his girl is a pretty scandal," Dora said.

  - Of course! I forgot the promoter! Aline sighed. - What's her name again? He fought

  forehead, searching for memory. - Oh, I remember! Ava. She looks more like a Playboy bunny:

  blonde, tall and has a body to make anyone envious! What the hell! I do not think we have a chance

  some!

  "He's a good man," I said, scorning an inner disappointment.

  Of course he would be compromised, would not he? No one like him could give soup out there alone. AND

  it was to be expected that she would choose such a beauty to be her partner. Despite this, even considering

  that it would be perfectly fair, imagining him kissing another woman ca
used me more pain than

  I thought.

  And it hurt. Inexplicably it hurt.

  From that moment on, the day was over for me. If I had not felt so hungry before, now

  the lunch seemed inedible. I made up some excuse and came back to finish my shift. No

  I was headed to talk to anyone else.

  ***

  Two days later, on leaving the hospital, Iris and her companion, Sergio, along with other girls

  almost forced me to sit in a little bar nearby to talk, since it was Friday

  and we would not have to wake up early the next day, because we were not climbing that weekend.

  week.

  I logically consumed nothing, not even a soda. At the moment I counted pennies for myself.

  and I would only receive my salary in a few days' time. Despite this, I spent all the time trying to

  concentrate on the animated chatter, thinking that he could dribble the brain, which he insisted on betraying me.

  Iris kept drinking, and her companion seemed to be encouraging her. At one point,

  I noticed that he passed her some kind of pill; after a half hour, she was a little wild,

  talking bullshit

  I mistrusted immediately.

  This was not an attitude of someone who had a young child to raise. Did not have large

  intimacy with her, but she could not put her head on the pillow if she did not talk about it.

  this time when she was alone.

  About two hours later, the weather began to get weird. The two had a discussion

  ridiculous. He accused her of misleading another man, when she would not even raise her head so stupidly.

  Realizing the embarrassing situation, the two other girls got up and left. also

  I was preparing to do the same thing, not wanting to put my mind on the private business of others,

  though she was intimately concerned.

  I just did not have the time for this.

  Sérgio slapped her face and set off to assault her even more. The reaction I had was

  pushing his chest hard, trying to separate him from the Iris, which had already fallen to the ground.

  He, totally unbalanced, did not restrain himself in the face of such boldness on my part, and

  hand to attack me too. I hid my face with my fists clenched, thinking I'd get a punch,

  but this did not occur. I waited for a few seconds and when I took courage to open the lashes

  again, I did not believe it: Dr. Richard was holding Sergio, practically bending him, with the

  eyes fixed on his. He seemed to mutter some angry words, as if he were giving her a

  order, and immediately afterwards the individual left.

  This one I could not understand ... Where did it come from? And what was he doing there?

  "Did he hurt you?" Asked Dr. Richard, still angry, looking for some mark of

  violence in my body.

  "No ..." I replied, quite bravely.

  - Are you sure? He insisted.

  "Not me." I pointed to Iris, who was still on the floor.

  He then helped Iris to stand up, examined her, and beside her a woman appeared. It was Ava's only

  could be. By the descriptions ...

  - They need help? She asked, showing herself to be helpful.

  "No. It's all right now, thank you." I'll go with her, "I said decisively.

  "What if he's expecting me at home?" Asked Iris, afraid to find Sergio after the

  aggression.

  "He will not trouble you any more," said Dr. Richard, convinced.

  "I do not want to pick it up again, it's not the first time he's done this ..." Iris began to cry.

  "Did you get him again?" "You could not believe such absurdity."

  "Sergio will not leave me alone!" She despaired.

  "He will not bother you," repeated the doctor, losing his temper.

  "How can you be so sure?" I was so surprised.

  He stared at me with his chin withdrawn for a moment and was somewhat disconcerted.

  "I had a man-to-man conversation with him. His reply was evasive, he did not seem to want to.

  continue the subject.

  Chat from man to man? Sérgio did not even open his mouth! Just heard what he said and went

  though like a puppy, stuffing his tail between his legs! What did he say so that

  degenerate behavior so quickly? What power of persuasion was this, that in less than

  a few seconds made a person out of control escape, without even wavering? If Dr.

  Richard was armed, I would even understand ...

  Well, whatever it was, it was not the time to argue, but to thank. After all, he

  saved from being beaten.

  "Thank you," I said, looking into his eyes.

  He returned my gaze for a moment, and upon meeting his companion, made a mysterious gesture

  with the head, demonstrating harmony. She seemed to understand him perfectly, nodding and closing

  the eyes.

  I could not help feeling a pang of sadness as I watched them together. The girls had

  His girlfriend was scandalously beautiful. In fact, they made a perfect combination: he,

  blue-eyed brunette, and her, platinum blonde with green eyes. It was even possible to understand clearly the

  reason for him to totally ignore the poor mortals who tried incessantly to catch his eye.

  Close to his mate, any of us would not stand a chance.

  "No need to thank you," Dr. Richard concluded, still enigmatic,

  hurried toward your car.

  "Richard, why do not we offer them a ride?" Ava rushed in, interrupting the movement.

  his arm.

  The fulminating look he directed at his partner, of those who convey a "Repeat this

  again and I'm going to squeeze you in, "was so explicit that I immediately anticipated his response to refuse the

  invitation:

  "Thank you, but she lives close by. You can walk.

  Ava said good-bye, almost apologetically, and got in the car beside him.

  Nor was it necessary to be very observant to realize that when the vehicle stopped at the stoplight ahead,

  a discussion between them was formed. Even deep down disappointed by his elusive behavior,

  I tried momentarily to delete what happened. In fact, what should really interest me was that,

  thanks to him, had not suffered any physical damage.

  Physicist.

  So my concentration had an obligation to turn to the current problem: Iris.

  It took a lot of work to get Iris home, I almost had to drag her. I got her

  take a shower and make coffee, hoping the effect of his irresponsible attitude would cease. I had to

  sleep there, to reassure your panic.

  "Why do you do this to yourself, Iris?" I asked as the day dawned. - Do not

  Does it matter with your child? What kind of example do you expect to give him, acting that way?

  "I thought you were in love," she said, as if her reaction was absolutely

  normal.

  "And does that mean you have to destroy yourself?"

  "I was afraid he would abandon me if I did not ..."

  And left. After kneading your face. Did you think it was worth it?

  Iris cried with regret after looking in a mirror at the purple that she displayed at the height of the right apple of the

  face, and I ended up feeling sorry for her. Perhaps he understood her to some extent. The fact of feeling something for

  someone could undoubtedly destabilize us or even hurt us. But to seek her own

  destruction was not wise. Other people also depended on her.

  "Do not destroy yourself. I tried to comfort her. - You are young, beautiful and also a very person

  Special. You're sure to find someone who deserves it.

  "Talking is easy," she sobbed, complaining.

  "Try to
appreciate yourself, Iris. No man in the world deserves such an attitude, "I argued.

  "Stephanie, have you ever loved anyone in your life?" She asked, still tearful.

  "N ... No." I hesitated as I answered.

  "Then you can not understand what I'm feeling."

  I had no more arguments to offer but my shoulder. Honestly, I thought maybe the

  that had happened the day before had been for my sake. It was better not to eat any more

  expectations about it. At least he would be free of these irrational attitudes. Would not rock me

  same by any man on this planet.

  Not even.

  Chapter 9

  The weekend was boring.

  I spent most of my time trying to sleep, although it was not an easy task to

  that a gutter was installed due to an infiltration coming from upstairs, in a super cool place:

  right at the foot of my bed. And the worst is that as there was no other room available and even less like

  change the position of the furniture, because it is a very small environment, I ended up improvising with the

  use of a basin and shrinking the legs.

  I kept reading my old books or paying attention to any

  TV, though nothing was really managing to entertain me. I've even been called out with the

  girls, but after the night before, I thought it best to take a break. It would not be a good company to

  no one even ...

  Never had my emptiness been so intense until then. It was so big that I often choked.

  I asked her several times why she had been born different from the other girls. Would everything be so

  easier! It did not have to be rich, famous, and much less beautiful. Just happy, if that word

  had any concrete meaning or was just a delirium, a "dream of a summer night."

  I sighed deeply and went to answer the call from my computer. Who else?

  It would give a candy to anyone who guessed it ... Anne, of course! Now, neither was she to attend to not have

  who listen to zucchini or confess something they did not want.

  Shit!

  Either I respond, or someone will end up mistrusting that something is wrong with me!

  I mumbled in my thoughts.

  - Hi girl how are you? Anne snapped.

  "Everything," I lied.

  - What are you doing now? She asked curiously.

  "Typing words for you on the computer," I quipped.

  - Iiiiiiih! I saw you're in a bad mood!