Tales of a Female Nomad

by Rita Golden Gelman

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Praise

  PREFACE

  Mexico

  CHAPTER ONE - THE BEGINNING

  CHAPTER TWO - IN A ZAPOTEC VILLAGE

  CHAPTER THREE - LETTING GO IN PALENQUE AND L.A.

  Guatemala

  CHAPTER FOUR - LEARNING HOW

  Nicaragua

  CHAPTER FIVE - THE END OF POLITICAL INNOCENCE

  Israel

  CHAPTER SIX - ROOTS

  Galápagos Islands

  CHAPTER SEVEN - TRUE FREEDOM

  Indonesia

  CHAPTER EIGHT - THE FORESTS OF BORNEO

  CHAPTER NINE - THE ORANGUTAN CAMP

  CHAPTER TEN - ARRIVING IN BALI

  CHAPTER ELEVEN - THE TRANCE

  United States

  CHAPTER TWELVE - BACK IN THE UNITED STATES

  Indonesia

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN - IRIAN JAYA: THE HIGHLANDS

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN - IRIAN JAYA: THE ASMAT LANDS

  CHAPTER FIFTEEN - ON TO MAS

  Canada/ United States

  CHAPTER SIXTEEN - VANCOUVER AND SEATTLE

  New Zealand

  CHAPTER SEVENTEEN - NEW ZEALAND VIA BALI

  Thailand

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN - IN THAILAND SPEAKING FOOD

  United States

  CHAPTER NINETEEN - A JOURNEY STILL IN PROCESS

  Acknowledgments

  Copyright Page

  For Jan, Mitch, and Melissa, with love.

  And in loving memory of

  my parents, Frances and Albert Golden.

  PRAISE FROM READERS OF TALES OF A FEMALE NOMAD

  “I wonder if you realize how important your book is to women all over the world. Never before in history have women been able to travel the world without the safety of either a group or an escort. You have taught us that it can be done.”

  —Carol Smoots, 48, Oakton, Virginia

  “In an age when we hear so much about why we should mistrust each other and expect the worst from strangers, it was refreshing to hear about the adventures of someone who refuses to lose faith in the basic humanity that is common to us all.…I hope your book and your life inspire more of us to trust and accept and learn about each other.”

  —Katherine Almy, 37, Arcata, California

  “I think your book will inspire women all over the world to see their true selves, listen to their inner voices, and strive to fulfill their souls. I think it will help men to understand women better.”

  —Karine Bakhoum Riffaud, 38, New York, New York

  “I’m hooked and you tipped the scale! At the age of 60 I’m ready to roll.”

  —Ann Hoar Floyd, a very young 60, Edgartown, Massachusetts

  “What a wonderful gift you have given the world, women in particular.… Your book may top my list of all-time favorites.”

  —Barbara K. Rothschild, 57, Columbia, Missouri

  “You are living my dream…Thanks for all the tips on how to do it. I have finally decided to quit ‘waiting’ and just go for it. I sent in my application to the Peace Corp yesterday.”

  —Pat Cegan, 58, Orlando, Florida

  “I’m 15…and I have to tell you that I loved your book.…It made me want to go out and…meet people and learn why they do the things they do and why America isn’t the only place in the world.…You did what so many women dream of doing, but you didn’t dream, you did it.”

  —Rachel Brainerd, 15, Ann Arbor, Michigan

  “I don’t know where to begin. I just inhaled your book. I could not read it enough.”

  —Sharon Blumberg, 43, Hammond, Indiana

  “Since my divorce, I’ve been incredibly lonely and somehow absolutely unable to strike out and begin building the new life I envisaged.…and then your book! In an instant I remembered how wonderful and exciting life can be, how safe it is to open up to new people, to smile back, to initiate conversations.…I would so love to give you a big hug, to feed you my favourite ‘wild chicken’ dish, and talk through the night over many pots of tea.”

  —Jenny Chadwick, Narrabundah, ACT, Australia

  “It is very inspiring to read that life is still full of changes and surprises when you’re at an age when that is not supposed to happen anymore.”

  —Johanna “Joke” Sperling, 42, Chevy Chase, Maryland

  “Your book came to me at a crucial time in my life. After four years of trying to be a traditional family doctor, I have decided to try to find work in an African country to help in whatever way I can. I know that the experience of living and working with another culture is one that will nourish my own soul’s development, as is so well illustrated by your book. Thank you for inspiring me.”

  —Yamini Goswami, 36, Monsey, New York

  “Recently, I’ve felt a stirring in my soul, a restlessness, and a thirst for new experiences. Your book called out to me. I had to buy it. In it were all the things I’ve dreamed of.”

  —Anupama Chathampally, 32, City of Lake Worth, Florida

  “I have just finished reading your book, and I feel like I have found a new friend.…Reading it interfered with my trial preparation (lawyer) and my term paper (master’s degree) but that is as it should be.…I am sending your book to my mother. There is no higher compliment.”

  —Mary J. Maudsley, 57, Linwood, New Jersey

  “I was just diagnosed with breast cancer.…You have no idea how much reading your book has helped me. Thank you for taking me far away and helping me cope with my situation.”

  —Patricia Arvin, 55, Placerville, California

  “I know that everyone that e-mails you must say the same thing, and I hate to be ubiquitous, but, hey, you’re inspiring.…Thank you for following your heart and spreading your words of trust and love. You have helped change this world for the better.”

  —Elijah Shannon Malloy, 33, New York, New York

  PREFACE

  I am a modern-day nomad. I have no permanent address, no possessions except the ones I carry, and I rarely know where I’ll be six months from now. I move through the world without a plan, guided by instinct, connecting through trust, and constantly watching for serendipitous opportunities.

  People are my passion. Unlike a traditional nomad, when I go somewhere, I settle in with the locals long enough to share the minutes of their days, to know the seasons of their lives, and to be trusted with their secrets. I have lived with people in thatched huts, slept in their gilded palaces, and worshipped with them at godly ceremonies and dens of black magic. I have also cooked with women on fires all over the world.

  I’ve been living and loving my nomadic existence since the day in 1986 when, at the age of forty-eight, on the verge of a divorce, I looked around and thought: There has to be more than one way to do life.

  There is.

  Mexico

  CHAPTER ONE

  THE BEGINNING

  1985.

  I am living someone else’s life. It’s a good life, filled with elegant restaurants, interesting people, and events like the Academy Awards and the Grammies. My husband of twenty-four years and I dine with celebrities, we see the latest movies before the rest of the world, and we’re invited to all the book parties in Los Angeles.

  Because of his job as an editorial consultant to some top magazines, we’ve been able to create a life that is privileged and glamorous. But now that I’m there, I realize that I don’t like feeling privileged and I’m uncomfortable with glamour. I am living in a designer world that has been designed for someone I no longer am.

  I prefer Goodwill to Neiman Marcus, Hondas to Mercedes, and soup kitchens to charity banquets. My house is too big; my garden, too trim; my friends, too white and American
.

  I first realized something was missing about five years ago when a woman wearing a floor-length muumuu and sandals sat next to me on an airplane. She told me she was in the business of booking sailing tours for captains around the world and was returning from the Mediterranean, the Adriatic, and the Gulf of Mexico. As she was telling me about her trip, tears began streaming down my cheeks.

  “I’m sorry,” I said, embarrassed. “I don’t know where that came from.” I wiped my eyes.

  But I did know. I was crying for my lost spirit. As the woman spoke, I remembered that once I’d dreamed of sailing around the world, of paddling down the Amazon, of sitting around a fire with tribal people and sharing their food and their lives. I had loved the person who had those dreams. She was daring and idealistic . . . and gone. My husband had no interest in boats or tribal cultures.

  “If I were to take a sailing trip,” I said to the woman, “there are three things that I would want: a salty old captain who has tales to tell and philosophy to spout, a crew that likes to sing, and a place that is rich in experiences. I hate lying around on beaches.”

  She didn’t even have to think. “Go sail on the Tigris in the Galápagos Islands.”

  Three months later, I boarded the Tigris without my husband, toured the spectacular volcanic islands, interacted with sea lions and blue-footed boobies, snorkeled the tropical waters, and touched the magic of otherness. I was never the same again.

  When I returned from the Galápagos, that long-dormant fire of adventure had been rekindled and the glamour of my life turned gray. The gourmet dinners, the exclusive press screenings, the concerts, the parties, and the evenings at the theater suddenly felt like empty substitutes for discovery, for learning, for penetrating the unknown.

  I knew that I couldn’t run around the world adventuring, not if I wanted to stay married, which I did. But after the Galápagos trip, I needed something more in my life. I came up with a compromise. I would go to graduate school in anthropology and get my adventure from books.

  The timing was right. My two kids no longer needed a full-time mom. Mitch was in his freshman year at Berkeley, and Jan was about to graduate from high school.

  I had a fairly successful career as a writer of children’s books. I enjoyed the wild and imaginative leaps into fantasy and the visits to schools and the modest recognition, mostly among first- and second-grade teachers; but I happily put my work on hold and plunged into academics.

  I spent the next four years at UCLA, reading ethnographies, studying with anthropologists who had lived in exotic cultures, watching films, listening to lectures. By 1985, I am finished with most of the course work for the Ph.D., and I’m ready to choose a place and a topic for my dissertation research. Although my husband puts up with the hours I have to study, I doubt he would join me or endorse the idea of my doing fieldwork for a year in some far corner of the developing world. So I plan to do my thesis among the urban tribes of Los Angeles.

  Meanwhile, our marriage is floundering. Over the years, our divergent interests and our personality differences have pushed us deeper into opposite corners. I’m basically laid back and sometimes careless. I tend to excuse my own mistakes as well as other people’s; and from time to time I find it necessary to adjust my ethics to the situation at hand. He is a perfectionist, reliable, honest, and prompt. He sets high standards for himself and has high expectations of others. More and more we find ourselves in minor skirmishes. The bell keeps ringing and we come out bickering.

  Finally, after yet another squabble that escalates, I suggest that we take a break from each other for a couple of weeks. I need time alone, I tell him, to figure out what’s wrong with the marriage and how we can fix it. When I come back, I say, I’d like us to try some marriage counseling. He agrees to a break and counseling but adds that two weeks is not enough. He suggests two months in which we are both free to see other people.

  His response surprises and frightens me. Eight weeks of independence is very different from a two-week break to clear our heads. And I hadn’t even thought about dating. I’m not sure I can be with another man after twenty-four years of marriage; I don’t really want to. But I accept his suggestion. When he leaves the room, the tears roll down my cheeks. As in so many of our conversations these days, we are talking different languages, and I realize that once I introduced the idea of a break, I could not control his reaction.

  If the break had been for two weeks, I probably would have checked into a hotel near Los Angeles. But two months is too long for a hotel. I decide to go to Mexico. It’s a place I’ve always wanted to go and my husband hasn’t.

  By the time I leave, we both fear that this is more than “a break.”

  I walk weak-kneed down the steps of the plane into hot Mexico City. My eyes are red, my nose is stuffed, and I feel as though my head is filled with lead weights. I am more frightened than I have ever been. I’ve initiated something that has already taken off in a direction I never intended.

  I slip my arms into my backpack and follow the signs out of the terminal. In spite of my heavy head, I warm to the musical sound of Spanish all around me. I’ve loved the language from the first day I entered Mrs. James’s Spanish 1, as a sophomore in Bassick High School in Bridgeport, Connecticut.

  When I step outside, I am greeted by five young men waving brochures. The hotel I decide on looks decent, the price is right, and I don’t have to pay for a cab. I’ll only be there for two nights anyway. In two days I begin a Spanish language course in Cuernavaca; the school has arranged for me to stay with a family. It’s the only plan I’ve made for the two months.

  It is seven-thirty at night when I check into the hotel, which gives me plenty of time to clean up and find a restaurant for dinner. As I salivate for Mexican food, I realize that I have never, in my forty-seven years, had dinner alone in a restaurant. When I was young, I had plenty of friends to share meals with. I married at twenty-three, and then I had a husband. I have never eaten out by myself . . . and I don’t feel like beginning tonight.

  I use the phone in my room to call for room service.

  “Discúlpeme, Señora. No hay comida en el hotel.” My high school Spanish registers the words. There’s no food in the hotel.

  When I think about going out, an advance video runs through my head: I am sitting at a table trying to look content. The restaurant is filled with smiling, chatting people. I am the only one alone. They are staring, pitying me, wondering where I’m from and why I have no companion.

  I sit on the bed and think about having to choose a place, get there, eat the meal while pretending to be happy, and then return to the hotel. How do I pick a place? Do I take a cab or walk? Is the neighborhood safe?

  I can’t do it. I’d rather not eat.

  So I shower, put on my nightshirt, and curl up with the guidebook. Tomorrow I will go to the market. I plot the route to the central market on buses, and then I turn out the light, hungry and disoriented, as though I am not connected to the body lying in the bed. Who is this person in this strange hotel, alone for the first time in her life? Why am I here? What have I done? I feel as though I’m in a play, following a script that was written by a stranger. Part of me is scared; but there is another part, deep inside, that is excited at the idea that I am about to enter the unknown.

  As a child, I loved the unknown. Every summer my parents, my brother, Pepper the dog, and I went on a one-week vacation in the car. My father would drive and my mother would sit next to him, a map on her lap. Every once in a while, when my mother said, “Turn right,” my father would get a funny look on his face and turn left. Within minutes we would be lost. Then we’d have to knock on a farmhouse door (when it happened, we were always in farm country) to ask directions. Sometimes we’d be invited to see the newborn calves. Or watch the cows being milked. Often we’d get to throw a handful of grain to the chickens. Lost meant adventure, and I loved it. It’s been years since I’ve been lost, and I can’t remember the last time I stepped into the unkn
own.

  I am out on the street at six-thirty in the morning. The day is sunny, the Spanish language sings its musical sounds all around me, and cars whiz through the city ahead of the morning rush hour. Early mornings have a special energy that I like. I decide to walk the couple of miles to the market and get something to eat on the way.

  Entering the market through a side entrance, I am immediately surrounded by piñatas: Mickey Mouse, Goofy, Donald Duck, and an assortment of animals and aliens dressed in their colorful papier-mâché skins. They are standing on the floor and hanging over my head, hundreds of donkeys and dinosaurs, cats and dragons, boys and girls, hogs and bugs. All the colors of the rainbow are swirling in front of me, swinging to the salsa music that is blasting out of unseen speakers. I am swinging too. The brassy, percussive rhythm of the Caribbean is contagious.

  Then I am out of piñatas and into avocados, shades of green and brown in massive piles on flowered oilcloth. Then mounds of sweet smelling mangos fight for my attention with the pineapples. There are booths of papayas, red, yellow, and green; bananas, big and small, thin and fat; dozens of varieties of peppers and chiles fresh and dried and mounded in cubicles; tomatillos, jícama, carrots, tomatoes, and bunches of green leaves. For a while, cilantro dominates the air, until I pass a table full of oregano. Seconds later, I stop next to a table covered with yellow squash blossoms and wonder what they taste like.

  There are children in the booths, babies swinging in tiny hammocks, nine-year-olds wooing customers, “Señora, buy my watermelon. Good taste. Sweet.”

  The music streaming through the fruits and vegetables is a whiney, unrequited love song that I know from the Mexican radio stations in Los Angeles. It’s called ranchero music. Though the music is sad, my body is light. My fears of the night before have turned into excitement.

  I pass through mountains of green and red and brown and rust-colored pastes, three feet high, the essence of mole sauces, redolent of cloves and garlic, oregano and cinnamon. Nothing is wrapped in plastic or sealed in containers. It is all out there to be smelled and seen and tasted and bought. I am surrounded by the colors, the smells, the sounds of a culture that lives life full out.