Norstrilia

by Cordwainer Smith

  Said Rod, “Yes, sir.”

  “And how stand you, Child and Citizen?”

  “What do you mean?”

  “This board is asking you, what is your opinion? Should you live or should you not?”

  “I’d like to,” said Rod, “but I’m tired of all these childhoods.”

  “That is not what the board is asking you, Child and Citizen,” said the Lord Redlady. “We are asking you, what do you think? Should you live or should you not live?”

  “You want me to judge myself?”

  “That’s it, boy,” said Beasley. “You know the rules. Tell them, boy. I said we could count on you.”

  The sharp friendly neighborly face unexpectedly took on great importance for Rod. He looked at Beasley as though he had never seen the man before. This man was trying to judge him, Rod; and he, Rod, had to help decide on what was to be done with himself. The medicine from the snake-man and the giggle-giggle death, or a walk out into freedom. Rod started to speak and checked himself; he was to speak for Old North Australia. Old North Australia was a tough world, proud of its tough men. No wonder the board gave him a tough decision. Rod made up his mind and he spoke clearly and deliberately:

  “I’d say no. Do not let me live. I don’t fit. I can’t spiek and hier. Nobody knows what my children would be like, but the odds are against them. Except for one thing …”

  “And what, Child and Citizen, is that?” asked the Lord Redlady, while Beasley and Taggart watched as though they were staring at the last five meters of a horse race.

  “Look at me carefully, Citizens and Members of the Board,” said Rod, finding that in this milieu it was easy to fall into a ceremonious way of talking. “Look at me carefully and do not consider my own happiness, because you are not allowed, by law, to judge that anyhow. Look at my talent—the way I can hier, the big thunderstorm way I can spiek.” Rod gathered his mind for a final gamble and as his lips got through talking, he spat his whole mind at them:

  anger-anger, rage-red,

  blood-red,

  fire-fury,

  noise, stench, glare, roughness, sourness and hate hate hate,

  all the anxiety of a bitter day,

  crutts, whelps, pups!

  It all poured out at once. The Lord Redlady turned pale and compressed his lips, Old Taggart put his hands over his face, Beasley looked bewildered and nauseated. Beasley then started to belch as calm descended on the room.

  In a slightly shaky voice, the Lord Redlady asked,

  “And what was that supposed to show, Child and Citizen?”

  “In grown-up form, sir, could it be a useful weapon?”

  The Lord Redlady looked at the other two. They talked with the tiny expressions on their faces; if they were spieking, Rod could not read it. This last effort had cost him all telepathic input.

  “Let’s go on,” said Taggart.

  “Are you ready?” said the Lord Redlady to Rod.

  “Yes, sir,” said Rod.

  “I continue,” said the Lord Redlady. “If you understand your own case as we see it, we shall proceed to make a decision and, upon making the decision, to kill you immediately or to set you free no less immediately. Should the latter prove the case, we shall also present you with a small but precious gift, so as to reward you for the courtesy which you will have shown this board, for without courtesy there could be no proper hearing, without the hearing no appropriate decision, and without an appropriate decision there could be neither justice nor safety in the years to come. Do you understand? Do you agree?”

  “I suppose so,” said Rod.

  “Do you really understand? Do you really agree? It is your life which we are talking about,” said the Lord Redlady.

  “I understand and I agree,” said Rod.

  “Cover us,” said the Lord Redlady.

  Rod started to ask how when he understood that the command was not directed at him in the least.

  The snake-man had come to life and was breathing heavily. He spoke in clear old words, with an odd dropping cadence in each syllable:

  “High, my lord, or utter maximum?”

  For answer, the Lord Redlady pointed his right arm straight up with the index finger straight at the ceiling. The snake-man hissed and gathered his emotions for an attack. Rod felt his skin go goose-pimply all over, then he felt the hair on the back of his neck rise, finally he felt nothing but an unbearable alertness. If these were the thoughts which the snake-man was sending out of the trailer van, no passerby could possibly eavesdrop on the decision. The startling pressure of raw menace would take care of that instead.

  The three members of the board held hands and seemed to be asleep.

  The Lord Redlady opened his eyes and shook his head, almost imperceptibly, at the snake-soldier.

  The feeling of snake-threat went off. The soldier returned to his immobile position, eyes forward. The members of the board slumped over their table. They did not seem to be able or ready to speak. They looked out of breath. At last Taggart dragged himself to his feet, gasping his message to Rod,

  “There’s the door, boy. Go. You’re a citizen. Free.”

  Rod started to thank him but the old man held up his right hand:

  “Don’t thank me. Duty. But remember—not one word, ever. Not one word, ever, about this hearing. Go along.”

  Rod plunged for the door, lurched through, and was in his own yard. Free.

  For a moment he stood in the yard, stunned.

  The dear grey sky of Old North Australia rolled low overhead; this was no longer the eerie light of Old Earth, where the heavens were supposed to shine perpetually blue. He sneezed as the dry air caught the tissue of his nostrils. He felt his clothing chill as the moisture evaporated out of it; he did not think whether it was the wetness of the trailer van or his own sweat which had made his shirt so wet. There were a lot of people there, and a lot of light. And the smell of roses was as far away as another life might be.

  Lavinia stood near him, weeping.

  He started to turn to her, when a collective gasp from the crowd caused him to turn around.

  The snake-man had come out of the van. (It was just an old theater van, he realized at last, the kind which he himself had entered a hundred times.) His Earth uniform looked like the acme of wealth and decadence among the dusty coveralls of the men and the poplin dresses of the women. His green complexion looked bright among the tanned faces of the Norstrilians. He saluted Rod.

  Rod did not return the salute. He just stared.

  Perhaps they had changed their minds and had sent the giggle of death after him.

  The soldier held out his hand. There was a wallet of what seemed to be leather, finely chased, of offworld manufacture.

  Rod stammered, “It’s not mine.”

  “It—is—not—yours,” said the snake-man, “but—it—is—the—

  things—gift—which—the—people—promised—you—inside.—Take—it—because—I—am—too—dry—out—here.”

  Rod took it and stuffed it in his pocket. What did a present matter when they had given him life, eyes, daylight, the wind itself?

  The snake-soldier watched with flickering eyes. He made no comment, but he saluted and went stiffly back to the van. At the door he turned and looked over the crowd as though he were appraising the easiest way to kill them all. He said nothing, threatened nothing. He opened the door and put himself into the van. There was no sign of who the human inhabitants of the van might be. There must be, thought Rod, some way of getting them in and out of the Garden of Death very secretly and very quietly, because he had lived around the neighborhood a long time and had never had the faintest idea that his own neighbors might sit on a board.

  The people were funny. They stood quietly in the yard, waiting for him to make the first move.

  He turned stiffly and looked around more deliberately.

  Why, it was his neighbors and kinfolk, all of them—McBans, MacArthurs, Passarellis, Schmidts, even the Sanders!

>   He lifted his hand in greeting to all of them.

  Pandemonium broke loose.

  They rushed toward him. The women kissed him, the men patted him on the back and shook his hand, the little children began a piping little song about the Station of Doom. He had become the center of a mob which led him to his own kitchen.

  Many of the people had begun to cry.

  He wondered why. Almost immediately, he understood—

  They liked him.

  For unfathomable people reasons, mixed-up, non-logical human reasons they had wished him well. Even the auntie who had predicted a coffin for him was sniveling without shame, using a corner of her apron to wipe her eyes and nose.

  He had gotten tired of people, being a freak himself, but in this moment of trial their goodness, though capricious, flowed over him like a great wave. He let them sit him down in his own kitchen. Among the babble, the weeps, the laughter, the hearty and falsely cheerful relief, he heard a single fugue being repeated again and again: they liked him. He had come back from death: he was their Rod McBan.

  Without liquor, it made him drunk. “I can’t stand it,” he shouted. “I like you all so dashed bloomed crutting much that I could beat the sentimental brains out of the whole crook lot of you …”

  “Isn’t that a sweet speech?” murmured an old farm wife nearby.

  A policeman, in full uniform, agreed.

  The party had started. It lasted three full days, and when it was over there was not a dry eye or a full bottle on the whole Station of Doom.

  From time to time he cleared up enough to enjoy his miraculous gift of hiering. He looked through all their minds while they chatted and sang and drank and ate and were as happy as Larry; there was not one of them who had come along vainly. They were truly rejoicing. They loved him. They wished him well. He had his doubts about how long that kind of love would last, but he enjoyed it while it lasted.

  Lavinia stayed out of his way the first day; on the second and third days she was gone. They gave him real Norstrilian beer to drink, which they had brought up to one-hundred-and-eight proof by the simple addition of raw spirits. With this, he forgot the Garden of Death, the sweet wet smells, the precise offworld voice of the Lord Redlady, the pretentious blue sky in the ceiling.

  He looked in their minds and over and over again he saw the same thing,

  “You’re our boy. You made it. You’re alive. Good luck, Rod, good luck to you, fellow. We didn’t have to see you stagger off, giggling and happy, to the house that you would die in.”

  Had he made it, thought Rod, or was it chance which had done it for him?

  ANGER OF THE ONSECK

  BY the end of the week, the celebration was over. The assorted aunts and cousins had gone back to their farms. The Station of Doom was quiet, and Rod spent the morning making sure that the fieldhands had not neglected the sheep too much during the prolonged party. He found that Daisy, a young three-hundred-ton sheep, had not been turned for two days and had to be relanolized on her ground side before earth canker set in; then he discovered that the nutrient tubes for Tanner, his thousand-ton ram, had become jammed and that the poor sheep was getting a bad case of edema in his gigantic legs. Otherwise things were quiet. Even when he saw Beasley’s red pony tethered in his own yard, he had no premonition of trouble.

  He went cheerfully into the house, greeting Beasley with an irreverent, “Have a drink on me, Mister and Owner Beasley! Oh, you have one already! Have the next one then, sir!”

  “Thanks for the drink, lad, but I came to see you. On business.”

  “Yes, sir,” said Rod. “You’re one of my trustees, aren’t you?”

  “That I am,” said Beasley, “but you’re in trouble, lad. Real trouble.”

  Rod smiled at him evenly and calmly. He knew that the older man had to make a big effort to talk with his voice instead of just spieking with his mind; he appreciated the fact that Beasley had come to him personally, instead of talking to the other trustees about him. It was a sign that he, Rod, had passed his ordeal. With genuine composure, Rod declared:

  “I’ve been thinking, sir, this week, that I’d gotten out of trouble.”

  “What do you mean, Owner McBan?”

  “You remember …” Rod did not dare mention the Garden of Death, nor his memory that Beasley had been one of the secret board who had passed him as being fit to live.

  Beasley took the cue. “Some things we don’t mention, lad, and I see that you have been well taught.”

  He stopped there and stared at Rod with the expression of a man looking at an unfamiliar corpse before turning it over to identify it. Rod became uneasy with the stare.

  “Sit, lad, sit down,” said Beasley, commanding Rod in his own house.

  Rod sat down on the bench, since Beasley occupied the only chair—Rod’s grandfather’s huge carved offworld throne. He sat. He did not like being ordered about, but he was sure that Beasley meant him well and was probably strained by the unfamiliar effort of talking with his throat and mouth.

  Beasley looked at him again with that peculiar expression, a mixture of sympathy and distaste.

  “Get up again, lad, and look round your house to see if there’s anybody about.”

  “There isn’t,” said Rod. “My Aunt Doris left after I was cleared, the workwoman Eleanor borrowed a cart and went off to the market, and I have only two station hands. They’re both out reinfecting Baby. She ran low on her santaclara count.”

  Normally, the wealth-producing sicknesses of their gigantic half-paralyzed sheep would have engrossed the full attention of any two Norstrilian farmers, without respect to differences in age and grade.

  This time, no.

  Beasley had something serious and unpleasant on his mind. He looked so pruney and unquiet that Rod felt a real sympathy for the man.

  Beasley repeated, “Go have a look, anyhow.”

  Rod did not argue. Dutifully he went out the back door, looked around the south side of the house, saw no one, walked around the house on the north side, saw no one there either, and reentered the house from the front door. Beasley had not stirred, except to pour a little more bitter ale from his bottle to his glass. Rod met his eyes. Without another word, Rod sat down. If the man was seriously concerned about him (which Rod thought he was), and if the man was reasonably intelligent (which Rod knew he was), the communication was worth waiting for and listening to. Rod was still sustained by the pleasant feeling that his neighbors liked him, a feeling which had come plainly to the surface of their honest Norstrilian faces when he walked back into his own back yard from the van of the Garden of Death.

  Beasley said, as though he were speaking of an unfamiliar food or a rare drink, “Boy, this talking has some advantages. If a man doesn’t put his ear into it, he can’t just pick it up with his mind, can he now?”

  Rod thought for a moment. Candidly he spoke, “I’m too young to know for sure, but I never heard of somebody picking up spoken words by hiering them with his mind. It seems to be one or the other. You never talk while you are spieking, do you?”

  Beasley nodded. “That’s it, then. I have something to tell you which I shouldn’t tell you, and yet I have got to tell you, so if I keep my voice blooming low, nobody else will pick it up, will they?”

  Rod nodded. “What is it, sir? Is there something wrong with the title to my property?”

  Beasley took a drink but kept staring at Rod over the top of the mug while he drank.

  “You’ve got trouble there too, lad, but even though it’s bad, it’s something I can talk over with you and with the other trustees. This is more personal, in a way. And worse.”

  “Please, sir! What is it?” cried Rod, almost exasperated by all this mystification.

  “The Onseck is after you.”

  “What’s an onseck?” said Rod. “I have never heard of it.”

  “It’s not an it,” said Beasley gloomily, “it’s a him. Onseck, you know, the chap in the Commonwealth government. The man who keeps
the books for the Vice-Chairman. It was Hon. Sec., meaning Honorary Secretary or something else prehistoric, when we first came to this planet, but by now everybody just says Onseck and writes it just the way it sounds. He knows that he can’t reverse your hearing in the Garden of Death.”

  “Nobody could,” cried Rod. “It’s never been done; everybody knows that.”

  “They may know it, but there’s civil trial.”

  “How can they give me a civil trial when I haven’t had time to change? You yourself know—”

  “Never, laddie, never say what Beasley knows or doesn’t know. Just say what you think.” Even in private, between just the two of them, Beasley did not want to violate the fundamental secrecy of the hearing in the Garden of Death.

  “I’m just going to say, Mister and Owner Beasley,” said Rod very heatedly, “that a civil trial for general incompetence is something which is applied to an owner only after the neighbors have been complaining for a long time about him. They haven’t had the time or the right to complain about me, have they now?”

  Beasley kept his hand on the handle of his mug. The use of spoken words tired him. A crown of sweat began to show around the top of his forehead.

  “Suppose, lad,” said he very solemnly, “that I knew through proper channels something about how you were judged in that van—there! I’ve said it, me that shouldn’t have—and suppose that I knew the Onseck hated a foreign gentleman that might have been in a van like that—”

  “The Lord Redlady?” whispered Rod, shocked at last by the fact that Beasley forced himself to talk about the unmentionable.

  “Aye,” nodded Beasley, his honest face close to breaking into tears, “and suppose that I knew that the Onseck knew you and felt the rule was wrong, all wrong, that you were a freak who would hurt all Norstrilia, what would I do?”

  “I don’t know,” said Rod. “Tell me, perhaps?”

  “Never,” said Beasley. “I’m an honest man. Get me another drink.”

  Rod walked over to the cupboard, brought out another bottle of bitter ale, wondering where or when he might have known the Onseck. He had never had much of anything to do with government; his family—first his grandfather, while he lived, and then his aunts and cousins—had taken care of all the official papers and permits and things.