Finding You (Finding You Series Book 1)

by Amanda Mackey

  I drew in a breath as he threw his head back under the spray of water to let the beads wash his face. Taking a step closer, my heart quickened. I was not one to take the initiative when it came to sex but on this occasion there was nothing holding me back. I was leaving tomorrow and needed to make the most of this amazing creature standing before me while I could.

  As if sensing someone was approaching, I watched with fascination as a hand came up to the glass to wipe away some of the fog.

  I stopped when I eyed his wet face. For a second his eyes widened but then they darkened and shuttered slightly at the sight of me naked and staring.

  “Have you come to join me?” He angled his head to the side and his lips twitched in amusement.

  “I…uh…” My words were cut short as the cubicle door opened and a very naked, aroused Kyle stood like a Greek God in front of me. I’m sure my jaw must have been hanging open because I heard Kyle snicker as he held out his hand for me. I was like a moth to a flame. I was hypnotized under his spell and barely felt myself move into the shower until my back was pressed against the tiled wall and something hard pushed into my pelvis.

  “You’re so naughty. You’re going to make me late for work,” he mumbled into the skin on my neck as his tongue licked a path from my ear down to my collar bone, eliciting a shiver from me, even though the hot water was raining down hard.

  “S…sorry! It’s just that…well…” Why the heck had my mind suddenly turned to mush? I couldn’t think rationally with his swollen mouth doing things to my skin.

  Not waiting for me to continue, his head came up and he claimed my lips in what I can only describe as the most astounding kiss ever. It was full of indecency and need, his tongue plundering inside to meet mine as I opened for him. My hand came up and around his neck, pulling him in so we could consume each other.

  “Hmm, mmm,” he rumbled from his open mouth, both of his hands kneading each breast. They were still hard and tender from earlier so when he took one between his fingers and squeezed, I threw my chest forward. “Oh, God. Yeeesss.”

  At my response, he ground himself into me, the water making it nice and slippery. It wasn’t going to take much to push us both over the edge again.

  My hands were all over Kyle’s body, feeling his corded muscles and his were now moving all over me, grabbing my ass and then moving up my back and into my hair. It was becoming frenzied with each passing second and I was lost to it, not even sure if I knew myself anymore. In this wild moment, I wasn’t anyone. I didn’t have a name or a job or even a personality. I was pure desire. Pure consciousness. Nothing else registered in my brain except for sensations striking me from every angle as Kyle took me further and further away. All I cared about was his mouth and hands and the cock I needed so much. He grabbed my ass again and lifted me so I could wrap my legs around his hips, nailing me to the wall. I gripped his wet length tightly and drove it forward into my entrance. I thought I’d die if I didn’t have him filling me, touching my core.

  Kyle bit down on my shoulder then yelled out, “Fuck!” as his sensitive head met the warm, moist walls deep inside me.

  Hearing the agonized word rip from his mouth was like music to my ears. He was as lost as I was. His hands were still gripping my ass tightly as he hung on, keeping me at just the right height for maximum penetration. God, he was going so deep like this. My hips started moving in time with his powerful thrusts, his wet cock feeling amazing sliding in and out, hard and fast.

  “Aaaah, Kyle. You feel so good. Don’t stop. Mmmm. Shit. Yes! Right there. Like that!”

  God, he could move. My spine was hitting the wall hard but it didn’t matter because the pleasure I was experiencing between my legs far surpassed anything else and I just couldn’t get enough.

  Before I even knew I’d said it, I yelled out, “Fuck me, Kyle!” I shocked myself for a moment as I became possessed by the woman who had lain in wait to be let free.

  He lifted his head. His sultry eyes pierced mine as he broke a smile and then groaned, “I’m fucking you, baby.” He looked down between our bodies at his cock sliding into my slick entrance. He licked his lips and then said, “Look down, beautiful. I want you to watch my hard cock filling you.”

  Holy shit! It was so sexy. I moved my head forward and let out a whine as I saw his thick shaft effortlessly gliding in and out of me. “You were made for me, baby. See how hard I am for you?”

  That did it. I couldn’t hold on any longer as I watched us fucking. Yes, that’s right! I said fucking! Me! The quiet do-gooder that had been deprived of this glorious experience since, well…since forever! God, it felt so good! My eyes stayed riveted on Kyle’s cock as the first shockwave tore through me and then I couldn’t keep my head down any longer. I arched my body into his, gripping his head, aware that I was probably pulling on his hair as I howled in ecstasy, mouth hanging open, eyes shut.

  Kyle’s face was against my ear. “That’s it. Come hard. Fuck yeah!”

  While Kyle didn’t swear normally, I loved hearing him talk like this to me during sex. He turned into an animal. I knew that he meant it in the best possible way though.

  He kept pounding into my sweet spot, dragging my orgasm on and on until I could barely breathe.

  Euphoria swept over me as sex hormones filled my bloodstream. I was still in oblivion when I faintly heard a feral growl let go from Kyle as he slammed into me one last time and shook violently inside me, flooding me with warm liquid as I clung on until he stopped moving and almost collapsed. He took me with him as he turned so that his back was against the wall and then he slid to the floor with me straddling him. He was still lodged deep inside. I wasn’t willing to let him go yet.

  “Damn! Damn! What are you doing to me? That was so fucking good! I’m losing myself to you, baby.” He was struggling to catch his own breath.

  I smiled into his neck, elated that I had given him so much pleasure. His hand had fisted some of my hair at the back of my head. The combination of water and sex had blown my mind. Never had I thought that being with a man could feel so extraordinary. I’m so glad we waited.

  Both of our hearts thumped wildly, my head falling onto Kyle’s shoulder. My whole body had turned into jelly after that explosive detonation so I needed a minute to pull myself together.

  Kyle lifted my head with both hands so he could press his lips to mine gently as we breathed into each other’s mouths. “Hey, you,” he whispered.

  I tried to focus on his eyes that were so close I almost went cross-eyed. “Hey, you,” I murmured back.

  “How are you feeling?”

  “Amazing.” I started thumbing his bottom lip and as I did he opened his mouth and sucked it in, rolling it with his tongue as he had done with his thumb, bringing a shiver of delight to my skin.

  He was watching me intently, some un-named emotion shining in his eyes. I felt adored, as if I was Kyle’s whole world.

  We stayed like that for a few minutes, touching and just gazing at each other before Kyle sighed. “I really, really don’t want to go to work now but I have to. It’s an important scene. Jacob will freak if I don’t show.” Kyle couldn’t move until I climbed off him. I needed just one more minute of bliss before he disappeared.

  “I might just tie you to the bed and keep you here all day.” I pulled his bottom lip out with my teeth teasingly. I knew he wouldn’t stay but it was worth a playful shot.

  “I’d love that. You know I would. Don’t tease me.” He did the same back to my lower lip, licking it before he pulled away and offered me a ravishing smile.

  Pushing on his shoulder with one hand, I slowly rose, holding onto the wall with the other as I stood to let the blood circulate into my legs.

  “If you want to stay for a while, just lock the door from the inside on your way out. I don’t mind.” Kyle smacked me on the butt as he stood, leaving me in the shower alone. I poured some shampoo into my hand and applied it to my hair, lathering it up fully before rinsing and repeating. The water was
beginning to turn cold so I quickly covered myself in soap, washed it off and stepped onto the bath mat, reaching for a soft, white towel that sat on the vanity.

  Kyle had dried off and was out in the living area dressing while I wrapped myself in the towel before joining him.

  He bit his inner cheek when he saw that my exposed skin was still covered in droplets of water as he bent to put his shoes on. “You’re very distracting, you know that?”

  “Who me?” I batted my eyelashes at him.

  “Yeah you, Miss Innocent!” He laughed and the rich tone of it stroked my insides.

  “I don’t have a clue what you’re talking about.”

  After finishing tying his shoe laces he stood and closed the distance, grabbing me with one hand by the ass and pulling me in to him, ignoring the fact that I was still wet. He planted a solid kiss on my mouth that ended with a smacking sound before pulling away and heading for the door. He looked over his shoulder, smirking. “You know exactly what I’m talking about, beautiful, but I love it. I lo—” He stopped before he finished but I knew what he was about to say. We both stood looking at each other in shock, letting the weight of his almost words sink in.

  He loved me? Could it even be possible? Me? I was frozen to the spot and there was an awkward moment before he shook it off and finished by saying, “I love spending time with you. See you after work.”

  And then he was gone, leaving me like a stone figurine, unable to move as I processed the fact that he was about to admit he loved me.

  Could people really fall in love in such a short space of time? How did I feel about that? Did I love him back? Could I ever love again?

  I walked to the dining chair and sat down, letting out a breath. Wow! This was just insane! Completely and utterly insane! My life had done a complete turnaround in such a short time that I was still trying to catch up with it all. Who would have ever thought that things would end up this way for me?

  And then another thought hit me. How was I going to leave tomorrow?

  Chapter Thirteen

  Kyle

  “Cut!” Jacob Edwards called for the tenth time during the same scene.

  I groaned and gripped my neck with one hand. My mind wasn’t on the game this morning. Shit. I was still standing in the shower buried deep inside Dakota. She was consuming me. How was I going to get through work today? I could hear and see the crew mumbling and shaking their heads as Jacob walked over to me with a grim face.

  “What’s going on today, hotshot? You’re a million miles away. Is something bothering you?”

  No, nothing was bothering me. Well, nothing bad, anyway. How was I supposed to tell Jacob that Dakota was affecting me like nothing before? I was supposed to be a professional actor not some amateur. This had never happened before.

  “Nah. Just didn’t get much sleep last night. Sorry, Jacob. Can we take a five minute break and I’ll get my head in order?” Truth be told, I wanted to finish up for the day and go to Dakota. She was all I could think about. I’d nearly ruined things by telling her that I loved her. I hadn’t meant to let that slip. Jesus! I’d seen the look of shock on her face as she’d registered what I’d been about to say.

  Jacob eyed me for a moment before saying, “Five minutes. Don’t let me down. Time is money.” He proceeded to call out that we were taking a break and walked off to talk with the cameraman.

  I strode off set, which was in a thicket of trees by the beach. I walked down to the water’s edge and lifted my face into the sun, taking a few deep breaths to try and clear my head. I’d always found it easy to get into the zone when filming but today had been hard. I needed to get it together or Jacob was going to be pretty pissed. Hold ups could blow the budget and I didn’t want to be responsible for that when I wasn’t sure how well the movie would be received. Just because I was starring in it didn’t mean it would be a hit at the box office.

  Running both hands across my short hair, I ran my lines for the current scene through my head, letting the sound of the waves lapping at the shore of the sheltered bay wash away all else but what I needed to focus on. I would be seeing Dakota later and was going to make damn sure that our last night together was going to be special. I needed it to be because God knew how long it would be until I saw her again after tomorrow.

  I wished she’d never received that phone call from her mother. Part of me wanted to beg her not to go but after only two weeks of being with her, I knew it wasn’t my place to.

  If I didn’t have this movie to finish I’d be flying to Australia with her to keep her safe.

  Blowing out a breath it was so evident that I had fallen hard for this woman. I knew what it was like to love. I’d experienced it before. This was vastly different, though. A craziness that had stolen my ability to think. My chest felt empty without her near like she had already become a part of me. I knew I would never be the same again.

  “Okay. Five minutes is up. Let’s get back on track,” Jacob rumbled.

  I pushed everything out of my head. It was time to get back into pirate mode and finish this so I could go to my love.

  Chapter Fourteen

  Dakota

  Around midday, after dressing and hanging out at Kyle’s hut for a while, I returned to mine to pack my things and write some more of my book. I needed a distraction to keep myself from focusing on returning home. With each hour that ticked by, I started to feel like I was walking the green mile. The dread I’d felt when I’d spoken to my mother on the phone the day before was returning and I didn’t like it one little bit. Sitting on the balcony with pens and paper strewn everywhere, drinking in the beauty of the island, memorizing every palm tree, every footstep in the wet sand, every breeze on my cheek, I wondered what life would be like back in Australia.

  Tomorrow would be one of the hardest days yet. Leaving Kyle. It didn’t bear thinking of for now though as it would spoil our last night together. It was so tempting to cancel my flight and stay on for the remaining two weeks like originally planned, but obligations came first. My father needed me. My mother needed me. Just as I had needed both of them after leaving John.

  In and out. That’s what Kyle had said. Go and see how Dad is, give Mum some support, make sure he’s stable and then leave.

  That was the plan. The quicker it was all over the better.

  Looking at the meager amount of writing I’d done, it became apparent that my mind just wasn’t on the job. I had too much else to think about. Mostly Kyle. Last night and this morning had been the best hours of my life and I craved more. Much more. Maybe knowing that I had someone special to go to after visiting my folks would make the trip more tolerable. I could just focus on reuniting with Kyle and what that would mean for our relationship. If we even had one. I didn’t know what to define it as. If felt so much more than just a holiday fling. I’m sure Kyle felt it, too. After all, he’d nearly said the L word.

  Stashing my half-written manuscript back in my suitcase, I changed into a bikini and went to grab a coffee and a bite to eat. Coffee was my comfort drink. Some people ate food. I drank coffee. Strong coffee.

  Walking through the pool area, I heard someone wolf-whistle. Keeping my head down, believing that it was aimed at someone else, a guy continued to whistle until I finally looked up to see why he hadn’t stopped. I was shocked to see two younger guys in swimming trunks, lounging on some chairs, gawking at me with huge smiles plastered on their faces. One of them called out, “Nice bod!”

  I could have shrunk to half the size! Not used to compliments, I felt my cheeks burn, unsure how to answer so I just smiled and hurried into the foyer at reception, hearing their laughter behind me.

  Maybe I should have worn a towel over my bikini. I hadn’t thought anything of it which went a long way to describe how far my confidence had soared since meeting Kyle. I never would have considered exposing myself in a skimpy bikini to the public, ever. Yet here I was, walking around like it was the most natural thing in the world, comfortable with my body. Just another
confirmation that Kyle had changed me for the better.

  After grabbing my coffee and a salad sandwich from the restaurant, which was busy due to the lunch crowd, I bravely made my way back outside, determined not to let the hot young guys outside embarrass me this time as I walked past.

  Lifting my shoulders and straightening my spine, I walked confidently and purposefully back the way I had come.

  They were both still sitting in the same spot and when they saw me, I couldn’t help but notice out the corner of my eye, that one of the guys nudged the other one to grab his attention. I could feel two sets of eyes drilling into me.

  “Hey sweetheart, you’re looking good. Do you want to join us?”

  Damn. Here I was thinking that I was going to be able to amble past quietly without incident. My heart played a silly rhythm, betraying my head that was telling me to keep calm.

  Momentarily I stopped and turned to them. They looked harmless enough and were obviously just being friendly. Had I been in another time and place maybe I would have joined them but not now.

  “Thanks, but I’m meeting my boyfriend soon.” It was all I could think of. That would surely shut them up.

  “Well, if you change your mind, you know where to find us.” They winked at me and I spun on my heels, picking up speed, wanting nothing more than to get to my hut and shut the door.

  I couldn’t actually believe that they’d said that! Clearly, I was older than them. I mean, I was tanned after being on a tropical island for a fortnight and I had lost weight after my marriage break-up, but seriously? I couldn’t deny that I was flattered by the attention but I just didn’t know how to process it.

  I took a swig of my coffee, not caring that it was too hot. I needed the caffeine more than I should.