Sean

by Giulia Lagomarsino

  “As much as I appreciate the thought, I don’t need anyone to protect me. I’m sure you’ll have this case wrapped up soon, and your friend went to my house today to install the security system. I think it would actually be a better deterrent if I wasn’t seen with you anymore. The more that you appear at my house or place of work, the more the man will feel that I actually could be used against you.”

  “Irregardless-”

  “Regardless.”

  I took a deep breath and closed my eyes as I blew out my breath. “I know I’m going to regret this, but..what?”

  “You said irregardless. Ir means not or no. Regardless would be the equivalent of saying ‘in spite of everything’ or ‘nevertheless’. When you put ‘ir’ in front of regardless, you are actually saying the exact opposite of the point you were actually trying to make. Therefore, you should actually be saying regardless.”

  Lola leaned over to me and whispered, “She’s right, you know. It’s not a word.” She was trying to be quiet, but I saw the way Lillian’s pursed lips spread into a thin smile that she was trying to reign in. I glared at Lola and then turned back to Lillian.

  “Despite your objection..” I paused for effect. “Lola is very good at her job and I would appreciate it if you would accept my help. Staying away from you will not make a drug dealer think that you can’t be used as leverage. If it’s who I think is behind this, he knows that I would protect you even if you meant nothing to me, which you do.”

  That was probably a mean thing to say and I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel bad when I saw the hurt flash across her face. After our morning, I really wanted nothing more than to get Lillian off my mind. Whether or not she brought up my wildest fantasies, I couldn’t deal with someone judging me so harshly when she didn’t know me.

  “Detective, I think we need to get one thing straight. I didn’t ask to be a part of this in any way and that now includes your offer of protection. If you have anyone follow me, I’ll call the police. Now if you would be so kind as to move out of my way, I have somewhere I need to be.”

  She pushed past me toward her car and drove away three minutes later. Lola watched her go through her pre-driving checklist with a smile on her face.

  “Well, that didn’t go as planned. What now?”

  “Shit. I don’t know. If she doesn’t want help, there’s nothing I can do about is. She’s not my woman.”

  “Well, I guess I’ll head back to Reed Security. Give me a call if she changes her mind.”

  Screw it. If she didn’t want my help, I sure as shit wasn’t going to follow her like a damn puppy dog. I went home, having finished for the day, and grabbed a beer from the fridge.

  Visions of Lillian in her nightgown crept into my mind. She was so buttoned up, but she was hiding the body of a vixen under all that material that she wouldn’t share with me. She shared her mind with me, and I was sure that if I actually tried to get to know her, I would find that the woman was more than she seemed.

  Then I thought of Vira and how simple things were between us for the most part. I got everything I needed sexually with her, but she kept me at a distance, never wanting to share herself with me.

  A knock at the door pulled me from my thoughts. I walked over and pulled open the door to the devil herself.

  “Vira. I thought we both agreed this was over?”

  “That doesn’t mean we can’t have a little fun. Let’s go dancing. It’s been so long since we’ve gone and had some fun.”

  She stepped forward and ran her hand down my chest, looking up at me from under her eyelashes. I tried to not give in to her. I tried to think of any reason that I should stay home and not go with her, but the promise of rubbing my body against Vira for the rest of the night was just too much to take. I pulled her against me and kissed her hard.

  “Let me change and we can grab some dinner before we head over.”

  I was temporarily distracted by her outfit. She had on a top that had a V that stretched down to her belly button and no back to it. I had no idea how it was keeping her breasts in, but I was damn sure gonna find out before the night was over.

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  Vira

  This was my chance. I needed to reign Sean back in. He was trying to walk away from our arrangement and I couldn’t let that happen. I wasn’t ready for more and I didn’t know if I ever would be, but if I let him walk away, I had a feeling I would never get him back.

  He walked downstairs wearing a pair of jeans that hugged his ass and a tight, black t-shirt. His muscles rippled and stretched the arms of the shirt, making me remember just how wonderful those arms were when they were wrapped around me.

  “Ready. Where do you want to go for dinner?”

  “Well, seeing as how I’m dressed for the club, I guess we have to stay away from restaurants.”

  He stepped into my space and ran his hand in a gentle caress along the neckline of my top, following the V down to my belly. His fingers brushed my breast causing my nipples to perk in anticipation.

  “Darlin’, I would take you anywhere. The problem is that other men would want you also and I don’t think my chief would be okay with me shooting random strangers because they looked at you like they wanted to fuck you.”

  He gripped my waist tightly as he pulled me into his bulky frame. I squeezed my legs together to lessen the throbbing that took over between my thighs. His lips hovered over mine and I could feel his warm breath caressing my face.

  “Let’s go before I fuck you against the door.”

  “I wouldn’t be opposed to that.”

  “Neither would I, but I’m gonna drive you crazy at the club. I’m gonna have fun teasing you and making you want more until you’re begging me to fuck you.”

  He stepped back and walked to the door looking calm as ever while I was panting and needing some cold water to calm my body. I grabbed his hand and went to his truck, wondering if I would ever have my fill of this man.

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  Two hours later, Sean had me panting on the dance floor. Not from dancing, but from the way he was running his hands over my body and whispering in my ear all the dirty things he wanted to do to me later. We had been at the club for only a half hour and I was already ready to leave and take Sean home.

  He had requested several songs from the D.J., making sure each was dirtier than the last. It started with the most used sexual song I had ever heard, Marvin Gaye’s Let’s Get It On and then progressed to Me and Mrs. Jones by Billy Paul. For each song that was played, he swayed with me to the music and pressed wet kisses to my sweat dampened skin. The heat from his hands left goosebumps prickling all over my body.

  He led me over to the bar where he ordered two shots of tequila and bent down and licked a hot trail between my breasts. He sprinkled some salt on the spot that was now wet and then leaned forward to swipe the salt off my heated skin.

  I closed my eyes and dropped my head back as the salt spread roughly over my skin. His tongue didn’t leave my body after he licked the salt from me. He continued to run his tongue up my neck until he was kissing behind my ear. My pussy clenched and I had to grip his biceps to keep myself upright.

  He drank his shot of tequila and then ate the lime wedge before taking my mouth in a bruising kiss. As his tongue slid in my mouth, I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him as close as possible. His cock pushed against me, letting me know exactly how much Sean wanted me. I thought he might pull me out of the club, but instead, he picked up the salt and passed it to me.

  I quirked an eyebrow at him, but took the shaker from his hand. I pulled his hand toward me and sucked his thumb into my mouth, taking extra time to get it nice and wet. I salted his thumb and then sucked the salt from his thumb, pulling him as deep into my mouth as I could. Swirling my tongue around his thumb, I showed him exactly what he could look forward to later.

  He picked up the shot glass and drank it down, then grabbed my hand and pulled me to the dance floor. Kiss You Al
l Over by Exile came on and Sean pulled my back to his front.

  He wrapped his hands around me, one large hand pressing against my belly and the other skimming my breast before wrapping around my neck.

  You’re my one desire

  Gonna wrap my arms around you

  Hold you close to me

  Oh, babe, I wanna taste your lips

  I want be your fantasy, yeah

  His lips skimmed my neck and his hot breath panted against my skin. He pulled my face to the side and crushed his lips against mine. I gripped the sides of his pants, pulling him tight against me. His erection pressed into my ass.

  His hands continued to skim over my overly sensitized skin. His hand trailed down my leg, just barely brushing my inner thigh and then back up to my zipper where his hand rested.

  You don’t have to say a thing

  Just let me show how much

  Love you, need you, yeah

  I wanna kiss you all over

  And over again

  His teeth scraped against my neck until he started sucking hard on my skin, sending quivers down my body. My eyes slid closed as I memorized the feel of his lips against me. His hands and mouth were all I could feel, all I could think about as he swayed behind me and pushed me toward ecstasy.

  “Open your eyes, Vira.” I obeyed and was vaguely aware of the crowded floor of people surrounding us.

  “Do you see that man across from us? He can’t keep his eyes off you. He wants to fuck you. He wants to be standing where I am and feel your soft skin in his hands, but he can’t have you. You belong to me, Vira, and I’m going to show this whole club how much you belong to me.”

  His hand slid inside my shirt, pulling the sticky tape from my skin and grabbed my breast in his large hand. His fingers teased my nipple, bringing it to a stiff peak. My eyes slid closed again, but Sean’s voice forced them open again.

  “Keep your eyes open, Vira. Let him see the desire you have for me.”

  Love you, need you

  Oh, babe

  I wanna kiss you all over

  I was panting now, barely able to hold back the scream that was threatening to break free as Sean pushed me to orgasm.

  And over again

  I wanna kiss you all over

  Til the night closes in

  He continued to massage my breast as I came down from my high. The man across the room was watching in fascination and only turned away as the song died down. Sean turned me to face him and gripped the back of my neck, pulling me in for a steamy kiss. His tongue pushed into my mouth, commanding that I give him everything he desired.

  Ten minutes later, Sean pushed me up against the door of his house, gripping the back of my leg and pulling me close to him. Our heavy breathing filled the night with the faint rustling of his keys.

  “Shit,” he said as he dropped the keys to the ground. “Fuck it.” His lips found mine again as his fingers opened the zipper of my pants and pushed them down. I did the same for him, groaning when my hand met his thick erection. I started to bend down to suck him, but he gripped my hair and hauled me back up.

  “Not now. I need your pussy. Push your shoes off.”

  I quickly stepped out of my heels and toed the ends of my pants to pull them down. He ripped the panties from my legs and thrust inside me, slamming me back into the door.

  “Yes. Yes! Fuck me, Sean. Fuck me hard!”

  With every thrust his breath puffed over my skin. “Vira, your pussy is strangling my cock. I won’t last.”

  “I’m almost there. Harder, Sean!”

  He slammed into me a few more times until I came with a scream that he quickly swallowed with his mouth. His body stilled as he came with a groan. He continued to kiss me as we both settled our racing hearts.

  He leaned his forehead against mine until his breathing normalized. “I’m gonna need to do that again.”

  “Inside this time.”

  “Agreed. My neighbors don’t need to see my ass.”

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  I laid on Sean’s floor with my eyes closed, trying to catch my breath from the fuck fest Sean and I just had all over his house. After we came in the house, we made it to the stairs before starting round two. Round three was a few hours later in the shower. We took a short nap and just finished round four.

  It was now morning and we really hadn’t gotten any sleep. I desperately needed coffee because I had to work this afternoon. No nap would be long enough to recover from our night.

  “I need coffee.”

  “Me too.”

  “Make me breakfast?” I asked.

  “So, you don’t want a relationship, but you want breakfast.” At first I thought he was serious, but then a big grin split his face.

  “Hey, there have been plenty of times that you’ve gotten breakfast.”

  “I would say I want you for breakfast, but I think you broke my dick a few minutes ago.”

  “As much as I would love another round with you, I have to get myself up and moving or I won’t be able to make it to work later. I’m pretty sure I’m gonna need to soak in the tub so I’m not walking bow legged today.”

  “I like you walking bow legged. It shows all the other fuckers out there that I did that to you. Nobody will touch what’s mine.”

  “But I’m not yours, Sean. We’ve talked about this.”

  As much as I wanted Sean to be mine, I knew that I couldn’t make it a more permanent arrangement. He would start making plans that I just couldn’t deal with.

  “Here we go with this shit again. Vira, I tried staying away from you for two months. Neither of us was happy and you know it.”

  “That doesn’t mean that I want to be yours. I like what we have, but I like my life the way it is. There’s no room for a boyfriend.”

  “And why is that, Vira?”

  “Because that’s the way I want it! I’ve been living my life like this for so long and I don’t want to change. Jesus, men don’t change, why should I have to?”

  “You’re gonna end up with one sad, lonely life if you don’t let someone in, Vira.”

  “That’s my choice to make. You can’t just expect me to change who I am.”

  “Right. You want to be able to go fuck other guys. Apparently, one man that gives you everything isn’t enough.”

  “I’m gonna let you in on a little secret, Sean. There have been no other guys for the past year and a half.”

  “What? But-”

  I held up my hand to stop him. “There have been no other guys because you were the best and all I needed.”

  “Then, why? If we’re so good together that you didn’t need to go find someone else, then why can’t we have more?”

  “Because I don’t want it! How many times do I have to tell you that? We can continue like we are, sleeping together and only with each other. We can go hang out, but I will never be your girlfriend.”

  He stood up and put on pants while I sat on the floor, pulling the blanket over my naked body.

  “I think you need to leave. I can’t keep doing this to myself. You keep pulling me back in and I keep thinking things will change.”

  “I didn’t pull you back in, Sean. You came after me, remember?”

  “Yeah, I did, but then you showed up on my doorstep. This can’t happen anymore. I need to stay away from you so I can move on.”

  I stood up, letting the blanket drop from my body. “Fine, but you know you’ll be back for more. We’re good together and it’s only a matter of time before you come back to me.”

  “I won’t come back to you because you’re a selfish bitch.”

  “I believe you said that last time also.”

  I grabbed my clothes and headed for the bathroom where I quickly dressed. I may have been using Sean for over a year, but he always knew the way I felt. I never held back and led him to believe that I could someday want more with him. This wasn’t on me and I wasn’t going to stand around being called names because he couldn’t’ accept his part
in all this.

  CHAPTER NINE

  Sean

  I SHOULDN’T HAVE gone off on Vira like that. She had always been honest with me and I knew she didn’t want more. I just hadn’t wanted to admit it to myself. If I didn’t pull my head out of my ass now, I was bound to end up pining away for Vira the rest of my life.

  I had the day off of work and I didn’t really want to be worrying about anything to do with police business today, but after Lillian had been threatened, I wanted to check in with her and make sure nothing else had happened. Lola was on standby, but she wouldn’t be for long. Sebastian couldn’t keep her hanging around waiting for a me to decide what to do. As long as Lillian was refusing protection, there was nothing I could do but have patrol cars swing by her place.

  Walking up the sidewalk to her house, I noticed that everything about her house was perfectly in place. Her garden had fresh flowers and her yard was clean and well trimmed. The siding on the house looked like it had just been washed and I couldn’t see a single speck of dirt on her windows.

  I shook my head and knocked on her door. She answered wearing a nice pair of black skinny jeans and black flats with a pale blue blouse.

  “Don’t you ever wear clothes that you can just lounge around in?”

  She looked down at her outfit. “What’s wrong with what I’m wearing?”

  “You look like you’re going to teach. Don’t you own jeans and a t-shirt?”

  She crossed her arms over her chest and pursed her lips, her signature move with me. “I own plenty of relaxed clothing, but this was what I wanted to wear today.”

  I rolled my eyes at her. “Look, I just came by to make sure no one had bothered you.”