Some Things Never Change: An African American BWBM Urban Fiction Romance

by Marian Grey

  Wayne stared at him. “Wow. I had no idea.”

  “Yep. That is the story of my life. It isn’t something that I go around sharing with people but you reminded me of myself when I was young. You have the potential to do great things and I don’t want to see all that talent go to waste.”

  He continued. “I’m an old man now, but I still have life and vitality, and I believe that we must guide our younger generation if we want better for our society just like someone guided me. We always have a choice in this life and it’s entirely up to us to make the right decisions, some of us need more guidance than others, we as men need to take our roles more seriously and train the younger generation the right way. I'm not perfect and I’m not complaining either I’m just stating a fact. No matter how bad you think life is for you, someone else out there envies you for the little that you have and would take the clothes off your back and the food in your stomach if given the opportunity. So when life sends you lemons make lemonade out of it and the best tasting lemonade too.”

  Wayne sat back and smiled, listening to the older man talk with such passion, motivated him to be like him. He accepted his offer for help and went with him that very same day. He didn’t want Lou to resent him and he felt that she needed a breather from him.

  “You got a beautiful woman who adores you, a car, your own apartment, money in the bank and your gainfully employed. It’s finally time for you to move on with your life and make better decisions toward a brighter future.”

  “I’ll just be patient. It's all gonna happen in good time.”

  *****

  Wayne had finally moved back home after his extended stay with Michael. All of Michael’s comments were like a song on repeat in his ears. He knew a struggle was coming when he couldn’t make money the illegal way and it scared him to be held back from making good money. He knew Lou was smart and he prayed she would forgive him for taking the cowardly route and skipping her house without an in person goodbye.

  Two months had passed, he hoped her anger towards him would have cooled down by then. He liked the direction the new scripts had taken, it somewhat mirrored the way his life was going. He knew that to impress Lou he would have to pull off the best acting in his short lived career to make her forgive him of all his transgressions.

  It was also hard coming to terms with the death of his best friend. He kept thinking that there was something he could have done to change the outcome of the war with the Bainbridge gang. He felt guilty for suggesting that they get involved in this lifestyle. Maybe if they hadn’t Sizzla would still be alive.

  He attended the double funeral for both Sizzla and his cousin, they had died side by side and were buried the same way. Wayne felt haunted that he was alive when so ,any men had passed away. Even now, he haunted the grave site of Sizzla and poured out his sorrows. Always he left with a peace of mind like Sizzla was listening and encouraging him to move on with his life.

  He avoided Lou because he had too much to deal with and he felt guilty about the way he treated her. Therapy had really done wonders for him. Finally he came to term with his past. It had always bothered him the way his father had abandoned him and his mother. It distracted him and he often did poorly when he was thinking about his father, he had his alcoholic mother to contend. She also smoked and from the early days of five years old, she would send little Wayne to the shop to buy her favorite beer and cigarettes. He grew to hate her habits because she often didn’t care if there was food in the house as long as she had her drugs to turn to, she was fine.

  Around eight years old, Wayne had started stealing. At first it was other kid’s lunches when they were distracted with games. He would help himself to their food. He would also help himself to their toys and resell them to other kids for money to buy food to put on his table. Little Wayne always had that fear in the back of his head that he would get caught so he always put his stuff in Sizzla’s locker so that he never got caught. He didn’t like stealing and felt deep down that it was wrong so he moved on to card shaking. He was able to con a lot of his school mates out of money and would often get reported by the students that he fleeced.

  He got hauled into the Principal’s office one day and it was a life changing opportunity for him. The principal reminded him of how smart he was and there were scholarships he could take advantage of if he only worked hard. He began to settle down and continued his studies but took a lot of ribbing from the guys. They teased him religiously and called him a nerd. Soon they began picking fights with him, he couldn’t let Sizzla fight all his battles for him. So he set aside his books and took to the streets with Sizzla. His mother didn’t seem to care if she noted his absences or late night appearances she never said a word.

  When he started flossing jewelry and name brand clothing, she never asked how he came by them. Her only demand was that he put food on the table and gave her enough money to fund her addiction. The older he got the more he reminded her of his father. She would start quarrels for no reason. She was the only person that could abuse him and get away with it. When she was angry at the bad behavior reports she got from the school, she would pummel him with her fists. When he started to grow too tall for the strap, she flung whatever was at her disposal such as a hair brush or shoes.

  The moment Wayne towered her, he never took any flak from her. After that he could give as good as he got and she washed her hand of him, tired of the disrespect and his nasty attitude. At the tender age of fifteen, he was the ladies’ man and he was bringing girls home like clockwork to have sex regularly with them. He always used a condom to protect himself, no way he going to fund a baby on the little that he was earning. He didn’t want to catch any of those dreaded diseases either. He never grew attached to any of the young girls, they were always too clingy and wanted him to lavish them with gifts and take them on dates, that was money he didn’t have so he used them and sent them on their merry way. Now that he knew Lou he instinctively knew that no other woman could ever hold the same value and appeal that Lou did.

  *****

  Two weeks turned into two months that she hadn’t seen Wayne. Michael said that he needed a clean break and was doing fine. Not to worry, at the end of the month, he would be back to work like normal.

  She had to stay strong even though the prospect of not seeing Wayne was hard to bear. She missed him sleeping in bed with her and the thought of going back to single life was hard to bear. Every time she thought about Wayne and his antics she couldn’t stop herself from smiling. She had experienced more good times with him than negative and she missed him terribly. She knew she was a pest in Michael’s ears constantly asking how Wayne was getting along with the program and when would he be well enough to return to work. Michael would always respond, have patience, all in due time, Wayne is coming along nicely, not to worry he would be alright.

  She had invested a lot of effort into her relationship with Wayne and wasn’t about to give up on him despite her early misgivings. All her thoughts bubbled in her head, she continually paced the set, nearly bouncing over cameras because she wasn’t really looking where she was trotting most of the time. Wayne was a sore spot for her, she needed to refocus her energies on her acting and not Wayne if she wanted to maintain her job. She heard a noise come from directly behind her and she whirled around to the direction the noise came from to see Wayne standing by the door. She was in a state of shock, he was here and no one told her that he was coming. She had to pinch herself to convince herself that she wasn’t dreaming. Wayne was really there on the set. She couldn’t help but feel excited and smile more.

  “To your places everyone, let’s get this ball rolling.” Shouted Michael.

  “So you finally remember that I exist Lance?”

  “I could never forget you Kiki but I needed to get some things sorted out before I could devote all my time to you.”

  “How did you know where to find me?”

  “GPS I bugged you. Just kidding. You always come here when you want to relax.” />
  Kiki blushed. “We have spent so much time together. I feel you know everything about me.”

  Lance took her hand in his and placed a light kiss on her knuckles.

  “No, not everything Kiki. I can never get enough of you. There is always something new I can learn.”

  “I’m not going to be falling for your charm and deception anymore, leave that to the next fool you seduce.”

  His grip tightened on her and his brow wrinkled in alarm. “Kiki you’re crying.”

  “No I’m not.” She lied and looked away.

  He raised her chin and slowly turned her face back to him lightly with his fingertips.

  “Are you upset because I went away?”

  She gritted her teeth and refused to answer, counting to ten to calm her rage. He was so self-assured and arrogant. Had he forgotten how he abandoned her apartment and left behind only a flimsy note? Calm down Lou, she repeated to herself, she needed to stay in character and not let Wayne’s unsettling nearness ruffle her feathers. She hatted the effect his nearness was having on her body, she jerked her hands out of his as a reflex to her inner turmoil. She could do this, she could act calm and collected around him and not let him see how much he affected her even though inwardly she wanted to lash out at him for abandoning her for months without any notice. So what if she was angry and had said heated words. He didn’t even give her a chance to calm down and talk things out. Why was he even here now? The show could go on without him for all she cared.

  “Why are you so upset?” he repeated.

  The nerve of this guy. “I’m upset Lance because you know how much I love you and you went away without telling me in person as if my feelings didn’t matter. Clearly you don’t respect me or care about me. To treat me so badly. Two whole months and not a word from you. I can’t take your lax treatment of me, I deserve much better Lance.”

  Lance’s voice was firm. “I left so I can be the man you needed me to be. I had to make some changes to ensure that my past won’t ever come back to haunt our future Kiki. I know that I don’t always make the best decisions but I promise that from this day forward I will discuss things openly with you, please forgive me for the way I have handled things in the past.”

  Kiki blinked back the onset of more tears. “Lance I love you even though I don’t always understand the way you do things but I do accept your apology. I know I have said some things in anger before you left so please excuse my behavior, I know it was hard especially at that time when you were hurting”

  She had read about the deaths of Sizzla and Crazy T and was able to piece most of the puzzle together as to why Wayne had literally blanked out on her. Dealing with the death of those close to you is always hard and she was sorry that Wayne had to go through it alone without her support. She had caller herself his lover and friend and she had neglected their friendship and she felt guilty about that as well.

  “I forgive you as well and my love for you changes everything.” Wayne felt a little bit nervous he had just told Lou he loved her and she hadn’t responded, just stared at him with her mouth wide open. She thought she would probably never live to see the day when Wayne/Lance declared his love for Lou/Kiki. The parallels between the show and real life was uncanny. Wayne watched several emotions ebb and flow over Lou’s face, he knew when reality chipped in for her when her face lit up like the fourth of July and she became overcome with joy.

  He came close to her again and Lou was finding it even harder to concentrate with his nearness. Wayne’s proximity was so close, he radiated heat which inflamed her senses and she could feel his burgeoning response as what was in his pants grew.

  “The more I revealed my true self to you, the fear that I could lose you grew to a point where I was pushing you away and I didn’t want you. It was only when I forced myself to stay away from you, I saw that a future without you Kiki would be a meaningless existence.”

  “Say no more Lance, my heart can’t take it. I wouldn’t be able to cope if you changed your mind later on or said you didn’t mean it.”

  “I can’t live without you in my life Lou, no one else will do, what I feel for you I have never felt this way for anyone else.”

  “That’s a wrap guys, great job everyone, enjoy your weekend. I know I’ll be having a grand time.” Michael went back into his office to make some phone calls. It was just another typical day at work, except it wasn’t.

  The words that she and Wayne had exchanged were real, she felt it all the way down to her toes. The intense way he looked at her as if any second he would have gotten down on one knee and proposed. She knew without a doubt if placed on the spot she would have said yes because they loved each other so much.

  She walked swiftly to her dressing room and she knew that he was fast on her heels. This was the last place she should have went because as soon as she entered the room the memories of the very first time they had sex bombarded her and no doubt history was about to repeat itself.

  Wayne walked up to her and cupped her face in his hands. She felt like she was on Cloud 9 as he gently kissed her lips then started to apply more pressure. She reeled from the sheer bliss of it all. He barely gave her time to catch her breath as his tongue wildly possessed hers. She wasn’t even sure when they lost their clothes but they were soon stark naked.

  “You are so beautiful.” He said. She could barely think.

  “So are you.”

  “Men aren’t called beautiful.”

  “Handsome?”

  “Much better.”

  She laughed and her face radiated from her inner happiness. Wayne was happy that he was the cause of her joy. His skin was warm to the touch. The feel of the firm contours of his sleek muscled body intensified the stirring deep inside her.

  “You are magnificent.”

  “Hmm... Magnificent is even better. I think I can live with that.”

  His gaze was heated and he swept a long and languid look over her body. It felt like he had been away from her body for years and needed to reacquaint himself with it. Lou suddenly felt nervous, she had to remind herself that this was not the first time Wayne had seen her naked body and that he loved it despite all its flaws. She was far from model body perfect. Wayne’s face was taught with passion, he was like a starving man that had just been grant a meal fit for a king and she was the buffet. She kissed him aggressively which delighted him, made him lose his mind, left him facing a need that defied logic. He moved his thumb across her puckered nipples the skin was so sensitive that the slightest touch was enough to send a shockwave that reverberated through her body. Her body hummed as it awakened under his caress and soft kisses.

  His tongue left her mouth then made a wet trail downwards to the sweetest of nectar, deeply penetrative in his exploration of her. Then he plunged his fingers into her wetness and she twisted and turned on them, craving more. He created a thirst in her body that only he alone could quench. His fingers rubbed the softness of her inner thighs that jiggled under his attention. She didn’t know whether to laugh or to cry from all the pleasure she was experiencing. He looked deep into her eyes as he positioned himself at the entrance.

  “I’ve missed you so much Lou, it feels like I have finally come home.”

  Then he plunged into her to the hilt. She loved the feel of him stretching her.

  “Wayne!” she cried out. “I want more, make me come and I will let you off the hook”

  His response was to deep stroke her a few more times. Then he put her astride him, her knees placed strategically on either of his thighs. He gave her a dominant position to ride him like a horse and ride him she did. Her pussy clenched and unclenched around his dick. He groaned and leaned up to kiss her breasts as she rode out all her frustration on him. Her eyes glazed over as the exquisite tension foretold what was to come. Her release stole her breath. At first her vagina had spasmed then she rode out wave after wave of delicious relief from an intense sensation she never knew existed. In the aftermath of her pleasure she was vaguely
aware of him forcing his way gently into her.

  Wayne cared about her pleasure and put her ahead of himself. He wanted her to enjoy this precious act between the two of them. He would do anything to cement their bond and get her hooked on him. He wanted Lou to feel more in control, more receptive of all the pleasure he had to offer her. He gave her time to adjust and accustom herself to the sensation of his largeness as it filled her. He began to move slowly inside her, he gripped her hips so that they could move together in unison. It increased her passion, and inflamed her senses as she waited patiently for him. Soon she wanted more and couldn’t wait, taking matters into her own hands she brought her hips up to meet him halfway. Sex with Wayne was life’s greatest pleasure she found completion in his arms, he didn’t have to touch her, he only had to look at her and she would melt.

  It drove him insane and he lost his composure, his pace was fast, his breathing hard, and her whimpers of ecstasy encouraged him. He pinched her nipples as he moved inside her. She marveled as she responded for the first time in a flood of wetness, as she rode it out over and over again.