Tomorrow 2 - The Dead Of The Night

by John Marsden

  Yes, that had been the dream.

  Now I would have been hysterically happy to hand over the reins of the world to adults again. I just wanted to go back to school, to study for uni, to mess round, to watch TV, to do the bottles for the poddy lambs that I used to whinge about when I was feeling lazy or was on the phone talking to Corrie. I didn’t want all this worry, all this responsibility. Most of all I didn’t want this fear.

  In my daydream we weren’t chased all over the countryside. We didn’t spend our time looking over our shoulders. We didn’t have to kill and destroy.

  The soldiers finished in the shearers’ quarters and ambled back to their vehicles, looking more relaxed. I assumed they hadn’t found any giveaway clues. But maybe that was just their trickery. Maybe they knew now that we were nearby, and they were just acting casual, to put us off guard. I don’t know whether the others thought that too. We didn’t dis­cuss it. We just sat there all afternoon, staring through the trees, out across the paddocks. No one spoke. No one slept, either. We were all tired, tired in a bone-aching, sore-eyed way that made me feel a hundred years old.

  At last the light started to fade. The rabbits came popping out of their burrows, looking around ner­vously, hopping a few steps, nibbling their first mouthfuls for the evening. I was shocked again at how many of them there were. It made me worry about the land, that no one was looking after it properly. I hoped the colonists had a few clues about how to do it. Better to have them look after it than to have no one.

  As the rabbits spread out we began to talk. There was a little stirring of relief, that we looked like surviving the day, that we should be OK for another night. We talked quietly, without emotion. I think we’d run out of feelings for the time being. We talked about what we should do next, how to keep ourselves safe, how to act for the best. We were all very calm. We agreed that before we returned to Hell we should pick up more supplies. The more the better, as this could be our last chance for a while. We could try to replace things we’d lost when Harvey’s Heroes were blown apart, and we could try for more food and clothes. As long as the heat from our Turner Street attack was on, we wouldn’t be able to come out of Hell.

  There was a property that we hadn’t yet visited, about five k’s south of Homer’s place. It was a place called ‘Tara’, that belonged to the Rowntrees. Mum and Dad didn’t like the Rowntrees much – Mr and Mrs Rowntree had been more interested in parties than farming, according to Mum and Dad. They’d separated a year ago and were in the middle of a divorce. It was a big property, three times the size of ours, but I didn’t think the colonists would be there yet. It was too far from town, and in some hilly country that would be hard to defend.

  So, at ten o’clock, we cranked up the bikes and cranked up our legs and rode over to my place. We picked up the Land Rover there. We still had a Ford carefully hidden up on Tailor’s Stitch, which we used occasionally, to keep it ticking over. But I preferred the Landie because I’d been driving it for so many years. It was like an old friend. As usual it coughed into life. It always sounded tired, but it always started. We chugged over to ‘Tara’, going slowly, because I didn’t know the road. There was a manager’s house which we thought we’d check later, if there was time, and the main house, about a k away at the end of the drive. It was closer if you took a short cut across the paddocks, but again, because it was dark and wet, I didn’t do that. Instead we crept up the drive, between the two rows of huge old pine trees, until we were halfway along it. Then Lee and Robyn walked on up to the house to make sure there were no intruders.

  When they signalled us forward, with a wave of torches, we drove up and parked at the front door. It was quite fun, in a strange sort of way, to sticky beak around other people’s houses. I liked seeing how they lived, what they owned, how they arranged each room. So Fi and I had a good poke around. It was a nice place. They had beautiful furniture, all big old dark antiques. Must have been worth a fortune. The soldiers would be here one day with their removal trucks, no doubt about that.

  Of course they’d been here already though. They’d been everywhere, except Hell. Drawers were open in the bedrooms, and things chucked around. In the sitting room the glass cabinets had been emptied and one of them was broken. There was glass all over the floor. Someone had gone through the grog cabinet, leaving it bare. The music system had been looted too, because the speakers were still there and you could see where the player had been. They hadn’t bothered with our old record player, back at my place. Ours must have been worth all of twenty bucks. The Rowntrees’ one would have been some­thing special.

  Food was our main interest, and we were rapt to find half a dozen big salamis in the pantry. We were always hanging out for a change of diet. There were two cases of Pepsi, loads of chocolate, and some chips that were getting a bit stale. The Rowntrees seemed to live pretty well. Not many cans, except for soup, plus three of salmon, which I don’t eat. But there were plenty of odds and ends, like two-minute noodles and packets of smoked oysters; enough to fill a couple of overnight bags.

  We searched the other rooms quickly, grabbed a few pieces of clothing and some sleeping bags, and Fi and I filled our pockets with expensive toiletries. My old daydream had almost come alive for a moment. Lee came back from the study with a pile of big fantasy novels, and it was time to go. I jumped in the driver’s seat. Fi was sitting beside me; Homer and Lee were in the back seat; Robyn was stretched out in the back, having made a bed for herself with blankets and clothing we’d taken from ‘Tara’. I had the feeling everyone would be asleep before I reached the bot­tom of the driveway.

  ‘All aboard for Hell,’ I said. ‘Please fasten your seat belts and extinguish all cigarettes. We’ll be cruising at an altitude of a metre above road level, and at speeds of up to 40 k’s per hour. Weather conditions for Hell are expected to be wet and cool.’

  ‘Except in Lee’s tent, where it’ll be hot and steamy,’ Homer called out.

  ‘He hopes,’ added Fi.

  I ignored this childish behaviour and put the car in first. Away we went.

  As we neared the bottom of the drive Homer called out again. ‘There’s something funny over there,’ he said.

  ‘Funny peculiar or funny ha ha?’

  ‘Funny peculiar.’

  I slowed down a bit and tried to peer across the paddock in the direction he was pointing. It was too difficult to do that and drive at the same time, so I asked him, ‘Do you want to stop?’

  ‘No, doesn’t matter.’

  ‘Yes, stop,’ Robyn called out suddenly, in a strange voice, like someone was twisting her throat.

  I hit the clutch and brake and the Landie rolled to a halt. Robyn was out the back door and running.

  ‘What is it?’ Fi asked.

  ‘Over there,’ Homer said. ‘Near the dam.’

  I could see the reflecting water of the small earthen dam, and the dam wall itself, but that was all. Perhaps, though, I thought I could see an odd dark shape to the left of the dam and slightly below it. Then I heard a strange sound, a weird, unearthly sound, that brought all my skin out in bubbles, in an instant rash of fear. My scalp burned. I felt like small insects were crawling through my hair.

  ‘Oh sweet Jesus,’ said Fi. ‘What’s that?’

  ‘It’s Robyn,’ said Lee.

  The sound was not a screaming or a crying, more a wailing. The sort of keening that you hear in docu­mentaries about other countries sometimes. I jumped down from the Landie and ran round the back of the vehicle towards the dam. When I was about fifty metres away I began to recognise that there were words to the noise she was making. ‘Too much,’ she kept saying. ‘Too much. It’s too much.’ It was almost like she was singing it. It was the most horrifying sound I’ve ever heard, I think.

  When I reached her, I’d intended to grab her, to hold her, to calm and comfort her. I could hear the others coming a bit behind me, but I was the first one there. But when I did reach her, and my eyes saw what she had seen, I forgot about ho
lding her and instead stood wondering if anyone would hold me, or if I’d just have to comfort myself.

  Before the war I’d seen a lot of death. You get used to dead bodies, working on a farm. You never like it; sometimes it makes you sick, sometimes you rage against it, sometimes you mourn for days afterwards. But you get used to the ewes killed by foxes as they’re giving birth; the lambs with their eyes picked out by crows; the dead cows who are bloated with gas till they look like they might float away. You see myxo’d rabbits, roos caught in fence wire, tortoises that you’ve run over with the tractor when you’re down at the creek filling the furphy. You see ugly death, dry death, quiet death, death full of pain and spit and blood, and intestines torn out with flies laying mag­gots in them. I remember one of our dogs that took a poison bait and became so frenzied with pain that he ran full speed into the side of a parked truck and broke his neck. I remember another old dog that was blind and deaf. We found his body in the dam one hot day. We think he went in to cool off and couldn’t find his way out when he’d finished his swim.

  Chris’s body was different. It should have been like the others, like the corpses of animals. He’d been there a few weeks, like they often were before anyone noticed them. Like them he had been attacked by predators: foxes, feral cats, crows, who knows? Like them the earth around him told the story of his death: he lay ten metres from the overturned ute, and the rain had not been able to rub out the marks that his hands had made as he gouged at the soil. You could see where he’d been thrown, how far he’d crawled, and you could tell he’d lain there a day or more, waiting to die. His face still stared at the sky; his empty eye sockets gazed up as if searching for the stars he could no longer see; his mouth was locked open in an animal snarl; and his back was arched in agony. I wondered if he’d tried to write anything on the ground beside him, but if he had, it was no longer readable. That would be so like Chris, sending mes­sages that nobody else understood.

  It was hard to think though that from this body and inside this head had once come wonderful mes­sages. This stinking ugly body had once written ‘Stars love clear sky. They shine.’

  Beside me Robyn had stopped wailing and was now on her knees, sobbing quietly. The others were still behind me. I don’t know what they were doing, just watching, silently I think, too shocked to move. I looked over at the wrecked car. It was easy to see what had happened. It was the Ford four-wheel drive that I’d thought was safely hidden on Tailor’s Stitch. It had tipped on the slope beside the dam. It had slid downhill as it rolled. Half a dozen cartons of grog had spilled across the ground. Broken bottles and empty boxes were scattered everywhere. Some of the bot­tles still looked intact. I couldn’t help thinking what a stupid thing it was to die for. And I couldn’t help wondering what figure Chris would have blown in a breathalyser when he took that short cut across the paddocks.

  It seemed like every time we came back from a major hit against the enemy we lost one of our friends. Only this time the enemy hadn’t had anything to do with it. Not directly, that is. And Chris had been dead quite a while before we’d gone and attacked Turner Street. A lot of things had killed Chris. Us leaving him alone in Hell was one of them.

  We stood there some time without saying any­thing. Surprisingly, without being surprising, it was Robyn who at last took charge. She walked back to the Land Rover and returned with a blanket. She still hadn’t said a word. She spread the blanket out beside Chris and began to roll him onto it. She sobbed and hiccuped as she worked. A constant shaking, like a wind, was blowing through her, and made it hard for her to do it neatly, but she wrapped him up quite firmly, not gently or nervously like I would have done. But her actions, so deliberate, caused us to start to move. We gathered around the body and helped Robyn finish her task, wrapping Chris securely, tuck­ing the blanket in at his head and feet. Then with Fi holding a torch to light our way, Robyn and Homer and Lee and I took a corner each and carried Chris back to the Landie. We made room in the back and dragged him in, clumsily, knocking and banging him around, although we were trying our best. We were just too tired. Then we got in the car, wound the windows down because of the smell, and drove on. No one had said a word. We hadn’t even discussed what to do with the body of our friend.

  Epilogue

  We haven’t left Hell for about a month now. It’s hard to be sure exactly – I’ve lost my sense of time a bit. I don’t have a clue what day it is, for instance, and I wouldn’t know the date to the nearest week.

  It’s cold, I know that much.

  The planes and helicopters kept coming over every day after we got back. I think they suspect we’re hiding up in these mountains, because the choppers seemed to spend a lot of time patiently searching, moving slowly backwards and forwards, like giant dragonflies. It was hard on us. We had to be very sure that everything was concealed from the air and we had to keep under cover all day. It’s been OK the last week or so though. I can’t remember exactly when the last one came over. It gives me quite a thrill to think what damage we must have caused in Wirra­wee that night. A thrill that’s three-quarters fear, but definitely a thrill.

  But we may have had one failure. I didn’t realise until Homer said something yesterday that there were no vehicles parked in Turner Street when he snuck across it to get to the house he tried to blow up. As far as he can remember, anyway, but he says he’s pretty sure. That leaves just a little doubt in my mind about Major Harvey. The Range Rover had been sitting in Turner Street when I left the church. I did want to get Harvey, and at the moment there’s no way we can check whether we did or not.

  We brought back some fresh batteries, so we’ve been able to listen to the radio a bit more. Things have bogged down a bit in most areas. We don’t seem to have lost any more ground, but we haven’t won any back either; and in lots of the best farmland, like our district, they seem pretty confident. The radio says a hundred thousand new settlers have moved in and there’s heaps more with their bags packed, just wait­ing to come. The Americans don’t talk about us much on their news now, but they’ve given us a fair bit in the way of money and equipment. Planes in particu­lar. They send all the stuff to New Zealand – that’s where everything’s being organised.

  The Kiwis have been pretty gutsy. They’ve sent landing forces over and they’ve fought hard in three different places, and they’ve won back some impor­tant areas, like Newington, where there’s a big Air Force base. They haven’t been near us though. The only action around here was at Cobbler’s Bay. We heard a lot of planes go over three nights ago and Lee and Robyn both thought they could hear bombs way in the distance. In the morning, when I snuck up to Tailor’s to take a look, there was a lot of smoke hanging over Cobbler’s. So that was good.

  It’s not over yet, that’s how I look at it.

  I guess we’ll have to try to help out again soon, too. I hate the thought, but there’s no choice really. It’s going to scare the crap out of me, because it’s going to be so much harder. I hate to think what changes we’ll find. More colonists and tougher security, for two. It’s a worry.

  Last night was the first time anyone mentioned it. Lee said, ‘When we go out again we should have a crack at Cobbler’s ourselves.’

  No one else said anything. We were all eating and we just kept our heads down, shovelling the food in. But I know what it’s like. One cockatoo takes off from a tree, and suddenly the air’s full of white birds. Lee just became the first cockatoo.

  Lee and I are like an old married couple these days. We’re so used to each other, I guess. We’re good mates. But we’re not like an old married couple in some ways – I like my space too much for that. I prefer sleeping alone – not that I sleep much. I’d feel a bit suffocated sleeping with someone every night. But we’ve made love five times now. It’s nice. I like the way my body starts off feeling tingly and excited in one spot and then gradually it spreads and spreads until I’m freaking out all over. The only worry is those condoms. They’re not that reliable; ninety-something p
er cent I think. When this is all over I sure don’t want to roll up to Mum and Dad and hand them a baby. And another thing I don’t know what we’ll do when Lee’s supply runs out. There’s only four left.

  Maybe that’s the real reason he wants us to take another trip out of Hell.

  Fi told me this morning that she wants to do it with Homer, which had me choking on my Cornies. I never thought Fi would be game. I think it’s more that she’s jealous of Lee and me maybe, because she and Homer really don’t have that kind of relationship any more. But there’s not a wide choice of partners down here. And she’s not having Lee.

  The only other thing I have to write to bring this up to date is about Chris. And what I put won’t be very logical. I’m so mixed up in my feelings about it all. We brought him down here and buried him in a nice spot: a hollow between some big rocks, about halfway between our tents and the spot where the creek runs into the bush. There was a soft piece of green grass there, almost like turf. Of course when we started digging we found that the softness didn’t go far down. It was just a surface softness. Inside was all hard and rocky. In the end it took us three days to dig the deep hole that we wanted. We weren’t too organised about it. Whenever we felt in the mood we’d wander over and do a bit more. We put him in there at dusk and covered him up straightaway. That was the worst part. That was just awful. I still get weepy when I think about it. When it was filled in we stood around for a minute or two but no one seemed to know what to say, so after a while we drifted away to our private spots, to sit on our own and think. We weren’t able to do for our friend what we’d been able to do for the soldier we’d thrown in the gully in the Holloway Valley.