AMAZING HEART (Broken Bottles Series Book 4)
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About the Author
Pamela Taeuffer, Biography
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My passion is writing books that tell a love story and family saga of leaving old fears behind as the characters embrace intimacy and transition to joy. My first series, Broken Bottles, details those fears of growing up in a family battling alcoholism. Along with the struggle and pain of a parent's rage, I hope to reveal strength, intelligence, and survival. The challenge is to love intimately in all relationships. For children of trauma, it can take years to let another person come close. When they do? It's like rainbows cover their heart.
Slowly, you'll read how my characters become vulnerable, reach for deep, sensual intimacy, and try desperately to let go of their fears. They struggle and risk everything to trust others—and themselves. My stories are about daring to take the baby steps that let them really come alive and in every way, experience and give love.
MAKING MONEY TO CREATE: The property management and vacation rental company I run with my husband and son in Sonoma County, California allows me to have my creative life. I love where I live and work, and wouldn't trade being born and raised in San Francisco. My father introduced me to baseball when I was six. I've rung a cable car bell, driven a streetcar and saw Jimmy Hendrix, The Doors and Jefferson Airplane.
WHAT I'VE DONE/AM DOING – IT'S A JOURNEY OF DREAMS: Broken Bottles is a four part series. Two books, Shadow Heart and Fire Heart are ready. Soon to follow are Jagged Heart and Amazing Heart. I'm honored to have 3 poems in an anthology called The Beats Go On, and a story in Sisters Born, Sisters Found. I have released the first book in a series for introverts called, The Introverts Guide to the Galaxy: Attending Conferences.
My Dream? To create beautifully decorate and custom journals with gorgeous paper that accompany with each book series: The Introvert's Journal, A Family Saga Journal, My Body's Journal, and Trauma: You Can't Stop Me Journal. Journaling was a lifesaver for me. I was in shock. You may be in shock. Don't let that keep your heart frozen!
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Shadow Heart
What if you were afraid to even turn the doorknob to your front door because of the family dysfunction that waited inside: rage, mental and physical abuse, the fear of sharing love, or waiting for the embrace of your mother. What would it take to bring you out of the shadows, breaking out of the numbness you've used to protect your heart? Could you take a risk that might change everything? A sexy, professional baseball player wants my mind, body and heart. All my life I've controlled who's gotten close. Risk means terror. This is the slow, intimate reveal of how I learned to trust myself, let go of my fears and transitioned into joy.
Fire Heart
My heart is on fire. For the first time in my life I am awake and the desires I’ve pushed down are smoldering. The shadows of my youth dare me to step away from them. I’ve just come of age and there is one thing I know—I want to live differently than my parents—an alcoholic father and co-dependent mother. I know I need to forgive them. I must learn to trust myself and take a risk. That means being vulnerable and letting another close. But when we did that in our house, rage and abandonment followed. I have to open my heart and learn to trust myself so I can trust another. I dream of letting go of old fears, daring to be loved, and transitioning into joy.
Jagged Heart
I walked quietly so I didn’t disturb the fragile web that stretched throughout our home. Nothing good would last; I would ultimately be abandoned; my feelings didn't matter; as long as I looked okay, I was okay. My name is Nicky Young. I stay away from hurt by not risking too much. Ryan Tilton, a professional baseball player, has swept me off my feet and I can't let go. I refuse to be intimate, but then I’m desperate to fall into his arms. Adding to my fears, I’ve learned about Jesse, a beautiful and successful artist and socialite from his past, may have moved to San Francisco to follow him. My boundaries are softening, melting, being redefined, becoming jagged.
Rising Heart
Coming 2017
I am in his arms, a fire is burning both in the fireplace and in my body as I am slowly undressed and feel his lips move down my belly. Our spirits, our rapture, are finally coming together. The only way I feel on this evening . . . is open. The gentle hands that caress me, the soothing words I hear that speak about love make my heart rise like I've come from deep water and can finally see the surface. After battling my fears of abandonment and of Ryan's past seems to have all faded to this—slow, sensual, intimacy that has been waiting to reveal itself to me.
Our time is short. Even as we've come back together, he is leaving to play baseball far away from me. The empty sadness doesn't take long to well up as I watch him leave. And there's his past. There is a woman who won't let go. I feel her circling, waiting for an attack. And finally, it comes. I don't know if I can survive this love. The fears and doubts of growing up in family dysfunction and addiction won't let me go. Do I continue to believe our love can overcome the hurt from our childhood?