I Need You Always

by Cynthia P. O'Neill

  I hadn’t followed all of their conversation. “What’s that about an address, number, and girl power?”

  “Brian is having a bachelor party and since you’ll be a groomsman, he wants you to come along, so she’s sending me the address and directions of where you’re going to meet. I already have his number in case you have any questions. I know you’ve only been around him a couple of times, but it might be fun. Plus, you’ll need something to keep you busy that night, since I’ll be doing the bachelorette party with my girls.”

  As she reached over to put her phone back on the nightstand, I encircled her drawing her back toward the center of the bed. “What makes you think you’re going out alone with them, when he could be out there?”

  She let her modesty go, dropping the cover she had been holding up with one hand to cover her breasts. “For starters, I won’t be alone. I’ll have Ashley, Dawn, Robin, several of Ash’s cousins, and some of her other friends with us. Second, we’re going to a place where my ex absolutely detested, so there’s no chance he’ll show up there. Third, he can’t approach me anyway with the restraining order. And lastly, we’ve been spending so much time with one another it might be nice to have a little separate time.”

  I had to admit she’s right, but I still didn’t feel comfortable leaving her alone. I don’t know why, but I’ve felt overly protective of Marissa, from the day she walked through my door. My gut told me compromise. “How about I provide all of you lovely ladies with a stretch limo and either Derrick or Rick as your driver? That way, you can all enjoy the freedom of drinking, without having to worry about a designated driver and I’ll feel a bit more relieved.”

  Her face lit up. “OMG! Ash will love you for that. She was hoping we could pool our money and hire one, but all the companies she called wanted a ridiculous amount for just a few hours.”

  She texted her girlfriend, while I texted Rick to request him for the night and let him know I’d forward him the rest of the information he needed to pick up everyone. Derrick was an imposing figure, but for Marissa’s safety, I’d prefer Rick. He used to be in the military doing special ops and is well versed in taking down an enemy without the use of a weapon.

  Marissa has been bouncing around with tons of energy today. She’s barely been able to sit still long enough to do her work at the office. I know she’s excited to see her friends again, especially Dawn, which to my surprise, my brother keeps asking about, but I wish she’d stop, because the more she bounces around with her breasts, the more I want to close the door and bend her over the desk and lick her until she screams.

  That night she asked for my help in picking out a dress. She still wouldn’t tell me where they were going only that it was a favorite spot of theirs, where they used to go when they were roommates.

  The first couple of dresses were too revealing, too short, or too enticing. Why did I ever pick some of these dresses out? I don’t want anyone, but me to see her in them. Finally, we agreed on one that looked flattering, playful, and only held a little glance of cleavage. She’d definitely be wearing underwear tonight. I didn’t want anyone to see what was mine!

  Brian had told me to dress casual. So I wore a pair of dark washed jeans and a blue polo shirt. He’d given me the address to a bar and offered to pick me up along the way.

  The bar he’d wanted was packed solid with college students. His friends and I tried coming up with various ideas, but no one would agree on anything.

  Brian suddenly had a devious smile. I could tell he was cooking up something good. “Why don’t we go spy on the girls? Ash gave me strict instructions of no strip joints or sex clubs, so let’s see what they’re doing and really embarrass them.”

  I couldn’t wait to see where Marissa and everyone ended up. She’d had my curiosity peaked for the past couple of days. I hope it wasn’t any place too crazy.

  Brian started walking down a couple blocks, explaining. “It’s easier to walk than to try moving the cars and finding new parking.”

  I followed him up to a building, asking the price of cover and offered to pick up the tab. I noticed Rick was just inside the door. “Everything okay so far?” I needed to know she was safe before I sought her out.

  He looked over toward me. “Yes, sir. They just settled into some seats about an hour ago and are waiting for their turn. There’s been no trouble so far.”

  Brian came up and patted me on the shoulder. “Let’s get some drinks and find a dark corner to watch from. I don’t want them to know we’re here yet. Trust me, Dane, you’re in for a treat tonight, especially if they can talk Marissa into singing.”

  “Singing? Marissa?” I turned toward Brian, who was smiling like a Cheshire cat, and began taking in my surroundings. They were at a karaoke bar.

  I followed him and his buddies over to a side table that opened up in the back and kept watch over Marissa as she talked very animatedly with Dawn and Ash. She’d never told me she liked to sing or do karaoke.

  I didn’t have to wait long to why Brian was all smiles. The club’s host was at the mike, “We have a couple requests from a bridal party that’s here celebrating with the bride. Ashley, could you please stand up?”

  We watched as she stood. “Everyone let’s give her and her friends a huge round of congratulations and applause as we welcome them up on stage so they can sing, as they put it, some “Girl Power.” Let’s give it up to them for the Spice Girl’s Wannabe.”

  I watched as several microphones were pulled forward, with only five of the girls getting up on stage and Marissa taking the center. I waited with baited breath to see how she’d do. The music began to pump and I recognized the song immediately and smiled.

  Brian leaned forward, his eyes glimmering with happiness. “Our girls are big fans of the ’80’s and ’90’s music. Marissa is the only one who can pull off Scary Spice’s lines. Just watch!”

  I instantly heard my girl belt out the first line of the song and couldn’t believe how talented she was. I watched as the girls started dancing around the stage and doing their lines. They must’ve choreographed a whole routine to this number.

  I was under the spell of a siren when Marissa hit, “If you wannabe my lover . . .” Oh, yes, my dear. I definitely want to be your lover. I want to be your everything; all you’ll ever want or will ever NEED! Her voice and her movements were a livewire to my crotch.

  I heard one of Brian’s buddy’s speak up. “I don’t know who that fine piece of ass in the center is, but I can’t wait to get my hands on her and in her.”

  I pushed back my chair and started to reach for the little fucker, when Brian jumped between us. “David, so not cool!” He yelled, thankfully not loud enough to cause anyone to look our way. “That’s his girlfriend. Show some respect!”

  David was nice enough to extend his hand and apologize. “I’m sorry, man. I had no idea she’s your girl. You’re one lucky son-of-a-bitch.”

  Rick came over to make sure things were okay. “Everything alright boss?”

  “Thanks, Rick. Everything’s fine. David here was just apologizing for a rather vulgar statement he made about Marissa.” I watched as Rick’s eyes glared and he punched his fist to let him know not to do it again. It was surprising how quiet David soon became.

  The song finished and Brian and I couldn’t help it but go up to the stage and plant kisses on our sweethearts. They were both surprised we’d crashed their party.

  The crowd was on their feet still applauding, when the host asked. “Do you want to go ahead with the next song?”

  Marissa turned toward Ash. “You promised it was only one song.”

  Ash let go of Brian and swung her arms around Marissa, begging. “Come on, hon. You know Brian and I really love when you sing Expose.” It was amazing the lengths Ash would go to try and talk her into singing. Her lips pushed out and she had a sad look on her face. “Please.” She whined. “I am the bride, you know. When will we have this chance again?” Then she started bouncing up and down. “I have a
n idea. Let’s get Brian and Dane up on stage with us and . . .” She started scanning the crowd and motioning for one of the other guys to come forward. “Come on up here Jared. We can pair him with Dawn.”

  Ash turned and whispered to the host. “Okay folks, we need just a couple of minutes to reset the mikes and pull up the requested song.”

  Ash quickly pulled all of us guys up on stage and told a couple of her friends to save our seats. “Okay, guys, we need you to just stand behind us and look like you’re lusting after us. We’ll do all the work, just follow our leads.” She started to turn around and bumped elbows with Marissa and winked. “By the way, there may be some touching involved.”

  I swallowed hard. It was all I could do to conceal the raging hard on that was begging to be released from the zipper in my pants. I looked at Marissa pleadingly and glanced toward my crotch. She didn’t seemed surprised by anything and actually had a lascivious look on her face. The music started to cue up on the karaoke machine, when she leaned forward and whispered. “We’ll have to take care of that.” Then she winked and turned around.

  I kept hoping it would be a tame song, maybe Expose’s Point of No Return or Come Go With Me. As soon as the first few lines of music played, I knew I was in trouble.

  Brian, Jared, and I watched as Ash and Dawn grabbed their mikes and started dancing seductively in front of their respective partners, while Marissa started belting out the first set of lyrics.

  I’d considered myself lucky that Marissa hadn’t reached for her . . . oh shit! She grabbed her mike and started singing the chorus straight to my face, “Let me be the one . . .” as she pressed up against my body and wiggled her way down.

  I couldn’t help but whisper. “You’re playing with fire, little one.”

  As the chorus switched to Dawn and Ashley, Marissa leaned in close, her breasts pressing up against my chest and whispered, “Bring it!,” before placing a small peck on my cheek.

  This song was torture, bringing out a wild side to Marissa that I’d never seen or knew existed. Note to self, buy a karaoke machine for the bedroom and load it with ’80’s and ’90’s music!

  I was about at my limit when the song started winding down. Marissa walked around me and squeezing my behind, like Ash and Dawn did to their guys. But, then she pressed her back against my front and pressed one of her hands behind her, gripping hold of my crotch. I slipped both arms around her. One grabbed hold of her neck and pulled her head back against mine, where I could nip at the spot below her ear that drove her mad. My other hand wrapped round her waist and held her tight against me as I pressed my erection into her back. I couldn’t take it any more, I had to ask her. “Submit to me, mi amore. Let me be the one . . .”

  I relaxed my hold on her as she turned to face me, with her eyes downcast. “Yes, Sir.”

  I’D CONTEMPLATED FOR DAYS whether I should tell Dane that I felt I was ready to trust him with my body and soul. I guess a little liquid courage and some seductive songs helped me realize I had physical needs, and while the releases he’d given me were wonderful, I needed something more to quench the fire brewing inside me. I wanted to experience what the characters in my book felt, nirvana with a soul deep connection.

  The song ended and Dane wouldn’t let go of my hand. He whispered something to Brian, then Ash and Dawn, before grabbing my purse and heading toward the door. “Rick, I need you to take us home and then come back to drive the girls home when they’re done.”

  Dane pulled me into his arms and nipped a line up my neck to my lips, where he glided his tongue against them before plunging into my mouth. He kissed me like there was no tomorrow. “You mean everything to me, my love. Without you I can’t breathe.” His words were broken through our kisses, but I heard every one of them and sucked on his tongue in return to show how much I desired him.

  Rick honked the horn to gain our attention. Dane quickly picked me up and carried me over to the back door, before opening it and sliding me inside. He was quick to raise the panel between us and Rick, only stating, “Let me know when we arrive home.”

  The car began to move as Dane stalked over to where I was seated. His pupils were wide and darkened with desire. The half hooded lids held me captive to his gaze. I was helpless prey caught in the hunter’s trap, ready to be devoured and I looked forward to it. A variety of scenes we’d witnessed and read about played through the thoughts in my mind. I knew he was a well trained Dom, my Dom, but I was scared I’d let him down and began to stare at the floor.

  He lifted my chin. “You’ve nothing to fear tonight my love. You’re giving me the greatest gift a man can have. While I’m not really into vanilla sex, I’m willing to go gentle tonight and not do anything outside of what you are comfortable with. You have complete control tonight. The safety words we’ve been using apply. Do you understand?”

  I nodded.

  “What color are we at?” He held his breath waiting for my answer.

  I smiled. “Green, Sir.”

  Dane pulled me closer to him before starting to stretch out over me, causing me to lie back on the seat. His leg came between mine as he placed gentle kisses from below my earlobe, down toward my neck, and across the swell of my breasts, occasionally nipping my skin sending waves of desire coursing to my center.

  His knee pressed against my crotch and I couldn’t help myself. I needed to rock against it, feel some friction against my center. I felt my eyes begin to close as heat began to build in my belly.

  “I want your eyes on me, cara.” He grabbed hold of both my wrists and held them in one hand above my head before shifting his knee away from me. I pouted. “Remember who’s in control here. Besides, I don’t want you coming before we get home. We’re almost there love.”

  Why must he live so far from the downtown area? The thought had just passed through my mind when the car came to a stop. Dane righted me on the seat and helped straighten my attire, before helping me out of the car. He slipped Rick some cash before he took off and headed back to my friends.

  He grabbed hold of my hand and guided me through the door and held me firm against him as he set the alarm. He pressed my front into the door while he came up behind me and lifted the hem of my dress while pressing the length of his erection against my behind.

  I could feel my blood heating, the need to feel how firm he was. I tried to move my ass against him, move my arms to feel him, but he held me tight. “This is driving you crazy isn’t it?”

  I barely managed a, “Yes.”

  “That’s how you made me feel in the limo. Remember that and I’ll never do this again. Come let’s get you into bed.” Before I could process it, he had me spun around and in his arms, sprinting toward the bedroom we shared.

  He slammed the door to his room, pulled the shoes off my feet, and sat me down on the floor. I quickly cast my eyes downward. “You may look at me and speak freely tonight, love. Now strip for your Dom.”

  Finally! The clothes were uncomfortable against my overheated skin and my underwear was completely soaked through with my moisture.

  I removed the dress slowly and let it fall to the floor, along with my lace panties, and bra. I stood before him naked, my breathing accelerated, my nipples puckered tight from the chill of the air, and my folds dripping with my essence, anticipating his next move.

  Dane walked around me a couple of times, as he slowly began to shed his shirt and then his jeans. I was surprised to see he’d gone commando, but could see his penis standing at full attention. I had to look twice because it actually looked bigger than it ever had before.

  I watched as he pulled down the sheets and turned to me. “Get in the center of the bed, love.”

  I didn’t question, I just allowed my body to respond to his commands and followed my heart. He followed behind me and as soon as I lay down, he was hovering over me, his legs straddling mine, his eyes full of lust, and his breathing altered. “Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?”

  I shook my head, unable to pull
my eyes off of him.

  “It’s all I can do to contain myself and not want to plunge right into you. You’ve awakened my soul to a connection I never knew existed. I’m drawn to you on so many levels.”

  He leaned forward against my chest, as his arms held most of the weight; his lips laying tender kisses along one shoulder, up my neck, down my jaw line, until he hit my lips. His teeth teased my lower lip until his mouth devoured it, sucking it into his mouth, causing me to gasp. “I want your permission to tie your hands with silk, love.” His breathing faltered as he asked the words.

  I couldn’t answer all I could do was lift my arms above my head. I watched as he reached into a drawer of his nightstand and removed two silk scarves. He rose up to take my right wrist in his hand, gently wrapping the silk around my wrist and checking to make sure it wasn’t too tight before repeating the action with the left one.

  Dane leaned toward the headboard making his muscles ripple across his chest and his cock rub against my stomach. I watched in fascination as two of the decorative carvings began to swing out and reveal hooks. He splayed my arms out above me and tied them loosely to the hooks. “Are you comfortable? What color are we at?”

  My mind began to wonder until his questions brought me back to the present. “I’m fine and we’re still green, Sir.”

  His lips began to kiss a line down my neck and chest until his lips sucked in one of my nipples, while one hand began to play with the other, rolling it between his fingers and thumb. I felt a zing of excitement shoot through me as his teeth bit softly into the flesh of my nipple and pulled it back with his teeth, letting it pop forward to stand erect and needy. His hand began to massage my breast as his tongue licked a line to my other nipple where he repeated the same action.