The Sin Trilogy Bundle: A Necessary Sin, the Next Sin, One Last Sin

by Georgia Cates

  He doesn’t look convinced.

  “Okay. It probably isn’t a good idea to bend me over the arm of the sofa or put me face down on the bed with my ass in the air. But we’ll find what works.” I reach between us and grasp his cock. I position it at my entrance and wrap my legs around him again. “Ease in if it scares you. Start out slow and shallow and build up to deeper and faster as you become more comfortable with it.”

  He’s unmoving.

  “Please, Breck. It’s safe. Dr. Kerr said we could do it and we both want to. Making love is a huge part of who we are. We need this.”

  “You will immediately tell me if anything hurts or doesn’t feel right.”

  “Absolutely.”

  He relaxes and breathes deeply. “Okay. I’ll try slow.”

  I glide my fingertips down his face. “Into me … you see.”

  He catches my hand with his and presses it against his cheek. “Into me … you see.”

  He enters me slowly and squeezes his eyes shut. “Oh fuck, you feel so good.” He thrusts slowly several times. “So wet and tight.”

  I rock my hips with him slowly. I’m afraid of spooking him if I’m too aggressive.

  What they say is true. You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone. “God, I’ve missed this.”

  His face is buried in the bend between my neck and shoulder. All of his weight is supported by his arms pressed into the mattress on each side of my head. “I’m not going to last long.”

  “I’m pretty sure we didn’t rent this room with the intention of doing it once.”

  Sin tenses and groans. It’s the only sign of his climax since he doesn’t thrust deep or hard as per his usual finale.

  Neither of us is out of breath or slick with sweat. I wish we were.

  He rises and throws the covers back, patting the side of my hip. “Lift.”

  “What are you doing?”

  “It feels like something’s oozing out.”

  “I’m sure it is. It’s called semen. And probably a lot of it since we haven’t had sex in so long.”

  He lowers himself and hovers above me, our bodies barely touching. It’s maddening. “I just needed to be sure it wasn’t blood.”

  I pull him closer but he holds himself steady. “I love that you’re concerned for our safety but I really hope you get over this fear soon.”

  “Forget it. I’ll never get over my worry or fear for your well-being or that of our children.”

  He kisses me quickly and rolls to lie beside me. He laces his fingers through mine before resting our clasped hands on his chest.

  “There’s so much more to us than sex, but I must admit, I’ve missed doing that terribly.” He brings my hand to his mouth for a kiss.

  “Me too.”

  We lie side by side, simply enjoying post-orgasmic bliss. It’s more relaxing than any pill or drink.

  My mind wanders from one topic to the next but lands on my sister. “I’ve been thinking of Ellison a lot lately.”

  “She appears to love being in Edinburgh. I’m under the impression she doesn’t intend on leaving anytime soon.”

  “Not before these two make an appearance.”

  “Realistically, do you think your sister will be able to leave after they come?”

  The babies and I are the only family Ellison has. And there’s nothing waiting for her at home. I know where this conversation is going. “I’m not sure how to tell her about The Fellowship so she doesn’t flip out.”

  “Is it possible you’re giving Ellison too little credit, just as you did Harry?”

  Sin was right about my dad, which means I was wrong. I can admit that. “Maybe.”

  “It’s your choice but I think you should do it soon if that’s the direction you’re leaning toward. Telling her after our hand has been forced won’t go as well.”

  “I think my decision has evolved into how to tell her rather than if I will.”

  “Do you want me to help you explain everything to her?”

  “No. It’s probably best if I do it alone. She’s going to have a lot of questions. It’s important for us to be able to speak freely. I’m afraid she’ll feel uncomfortable if you’re there.”

  “That’s understandable, but I’m always willing to take care of it if you should decide it’s what you want.”

  “Right now, there’s only one thing I want.” I rise and put my leg over Sin so I’m straddling him.

  He’s afraid of hurting us––and I understand that––but he needs to see that I’m durable. That’s why I’m taking control this time.

  I lean down and kiss the side of his neck. “Been long enough for round two?”

  He thrusts his hips up so his erection pokes me. “You tell me.”

  Good. He sounds more confident. And playful.

  I reach between us and grasp his cock, positioning it at my entrance. “Easy, Bonny.”

  “I’ll be careful.” I sink down slowly and he grabs my hips, preventing me from going all the way.

  I put my hands on top of his. “I’m in control.”

  I lean down to feather kisses over his face and he becomes less tense. I sink deeper before lifting my hips to slide him out. “That’s it. Just lie back and enjoy the ride.”

  Four rounds of sex over six hours. The last time was a concession on Sin’s part––because I begged. He’s satiated but I’m not. My hormones are raging.

  He sits on the edge of the bed to put on his prosthesis. I’ll never get him to agree to another go once he secures his leg. “One more before we have to leave?” I kiss the side of his neck to encourage an affirmative. “Please, Breck.”

  “No, Bonny. We did it three times more than we should have.”

  “I beg to differ.”

  He twists around to kiss me. “I need to take you home. I have a meeting in an hour.”

  He hasn’t mentioned a meeting. “I thought you cleared your workday for us.”

  “I cleared my day at the office. I have Fellowship business to tend tonight.”

  I don’t always love the affairs he’s in charge of. “I hope it’s not another meeting about a gentlemen’s club.”

  “Nothing like that. A brother has asked me to meet with him at Duncan’s about a match with Lorna.”

  “In the pub of the man in love with her?”

  “You don’t have to tell me how fucked up it is. But maybe Leith’s eyes will be opened to see what’s right in front of him.”

  I’m confused about so many things when it comes to Sin’s friendship with Leith. It’s different from his with Jamie. Something happened and I’m guessing it has everything to do with Lorna since that tends to be a sore topic between the two. “You said that there was history with you, Jamie, Leith and Lorna but you never told me what it was.”

  “There’s a reason for that.”

  I hug him from behind. “It can’t be so bad.”

  He sighs. “You’re wrong. What we did was fucked up.”

  “I can always handle the truth. The not knowing is what kills me.” I say the words but my heart pounds. He’s told me it’s bad. Do I really want to know this secret they share?

  He drops his head as though he’s ashamed. I’ve never seen this reaction from him. “It isn’t pretty. I don’t want my past with Lorna to change the way you feel about me. Or her. She’s one of your best friends. You treasure that friendship, and she does as well. I don’t want to see a problem develop between you.”

  “What’s passed is past.”

  “You say that now.”

  Okay. They’ve had sex. It happened before me so I can move beyond that. “Can’t you see that you’re choosing to be loyal to them by keeping this secret from me?”

  “I’m not. I’m making the decision to shield you from something that is so very ugly. Protecting you is what I do. Never mistake that as me being loyal to someone else. My devotion belongs only to you. Always.”

  That’s not how it feels. “I’m a rational adult. I swear I
will not hold your past against you.”

  “Leith, Jamie, and I were young and stupid. We were boys trying to be men. Lorna was starved for attention. So we gave it to her.”

  “In the form of sex.”

  “No. In the form of fucking. A lot.”

  It’s not something I’m proud to hear but I’m not sure why he thought I couldn’t handle this. “I guessed as much judging by the things you’ve said.”

  “You haven’t nearly guessed all of it. When it was happening, I wasn’t thinking of anything but the present. I never considered the possibility that I’d one day have this beautiful woman in my life that I adore. By some miracle she’d agree to be my wife and become the mother of my children. I never imagined I’d be sitting here searching for the words to explain the things I did with one of her best friends.”

  I don’t know what to say to that.

  He breathes in deeply and releases it slowly. “We took it much further than we should have.”

  I will be sick if he’s talking about rape. “As in what?”

  “We were all with Lorna at the same time.”

  I need a clearer explanation. “When you say at the same time, do you mean the three of you were sleeping with her over the same period of time or do you mean she let the three of you gangbang her?”

  He doesn’t answer right away. “It sounds even worse when you use that word but aye. We had lots of three-on-one sex. But it was always voluntary.”

  This isn’t what I was expecting. I feel queasy.

  “It was her suggestion. Of course the three of us were numpties and thought it was a fantastic idea. But it was after her parents were killed. She was hurting and looking for love and security. We used her for sex. Not my proudest moment.” He shakes his head. “If we have a daughter and any man did to her what we did with Lorna, I would kill him.”

  I feel minimally better knowing it was Lorna’s idea instead of them talking her into it. “I hope you all used condoms.”

  “Every time.” At least they used some intelligence.

  My God. What was Lorna thinking she would accomplish by doing that?

  “I don’t need details but explain how the foursome came to an end.”

  “Jamie lost interest. So it was me, Leith, and Lorna. After that, the dynamics changed among the three of us.”

  This is totally predictable. “Anyone knows that you put two males and one female together in a sexual situation and there’s going to be a pissing contest. It’s the nature of testosterone.”

  “That sounds like a fair assessment of what happened. Leith began competing with me for Lorna. He wanted all of her attention.”

  I know my husband. He doesn’t like losing. “So a rivalry was born among best friends.”

  “Aye. A rivalry to see who she’d choose for sex. That’s all it was for me. Never a battle for her heart.”

  “But you think it was more for him? A duel for her love?”

  “I do now. I think he fell in love with her and saw me as the one keeping them apart.”

  Even then, Leith and Lorna knew Sin would one day be their leader. I highly doubt either of them would have told him to bow out so they could be together. “What brought it to a head?”

  “Ugh,” he groans. “These aren’t things a husband is supposed to tell his wife.”

  He has this wrong. “They are when you’re my husband.”

  He puffs his cheeks out as he exhales. “Leith walked in on me and Lorna in the stockroom at the pub. He’d seen us have sex on many occasions so I didn’t think a thing of it. But Leith was never the same after that. Even today, it’s like we pretend to still be best mates but he hates me.”

  Men are so stupid sometimes. “That’s because you were having sex with the woman he loves.”

  “That was more than two years ago. Never again after that night. I swear.”

  This is a damn mess. “What do you plan to do about this brother proposing a match with her?”

  “I want to make this right for Leith and Lorna. I’m going to give him one final chance to do what he should’ve done years ago. If he doesn’t, then that’s on him. I can’t spend the rest of my life blaming myself because they aren’t together.”

  What Sin did was wrong. No doubt about it, but he shouldn’t continue holding himself responsible for Leith and Lorna being apart. “They’re mature adults now. They can make their own decisions about what they want from one another. That’s why I’m calling her. She should know what’s happening so she can make an informed decision about her destiny. Clearly, fate shouldn’t be left solely in Leith’s hands in case he decides to fuck it up again.”

  Chapter Ten

  Sinclair Breckenridge

  We drop Bleu at home and Sterling drives me to Duncan’s. I’m not scheduled to meet with Noah Wallace for another hour. I’m intentionally early since I have business to discuss with Leith. I’m giving him another chance to claim what he wants before I move on to another suitor for Lorna.

  I sit at our triad’s table. The vinyl-covered seat beneath my arse doesn’t have time to warm before Lorna plops down across from me. “Bleu called.”

  “I know. She told me she would.”

  “Please tell me why it is that I’ve known you my entire life but it’s your wife who calls to inform me that you have a meeting with Noah Wallace to discuss a possible match between us.”

  She’s angry. I wonder if it’s because I haven’t told her about the meeting with a brother concerning her future or because it’s not Leith who has approached me.

  “Noah asked to set up a meeting to discuss his interest in you. You aren’t involved with anyone so I’m obligated to hear him out.”

  “You aren’t my father.”

  “But I am your leader and no one has claimed you.”

  Her mouth twists. “As much as I appreciate you pointing that out, I’m already quite aware.”

  I’m handling this all wrong. “I wasn’t trying to be unkind. I only meant that if there’s interest in you by a brother, I have to explore it. It’s part of my duty. My father and I are accountable for securing a good match for you because you don’t have a father to do so. I think you’d prefer I make the arrangement rather than my dad.”

  My father’s marriage was arranged. Although he and my mother aren’t in love, he still firmly believes in arranged marriages because they often benefit The Fellowship. If things don’t work out with Leith, at least I would try to find Lorna a match where there was some kind of affection.

  “Maybe I don’t want a husband. Have you ever considered that perhaps I’m happy with the way my life is?”

  She forgets she’s already confided her discontent. “But you aren’t. And I feel I’m to blame for that.”

  “How could you be the cause for my unhappiness?”

  It’s time to get real about what happened. “I think you and Leith fell in love after Jamie left the group, but I fucked it up by being the third wheel.”

  Lorna’s eyes grow large. I’ve caught her off guard. “I loved Leith but he didn’t love me back.”

  The more I learn about love from Bleu, the more I see things for how they really are. “He loved you then and I think he still does.”

  She’s shaking her head. “No man would sit back and watch his best mate have sex with the woman he loves. It doesn’t work like that.”

  She’s exactly right. “That’s why it all ended. He couldn’t stand it anymore.”

  “Well, he’s not the only one. I couldn’t stand it anymore, either.”

  She’s referring to me. “I’m sorry for everything. What we did was wrong, but I want to make it right for you now.”

  Her eyes well with tears. “I disgust him. Did you know that I work with him five, sometimes six days a week and most of the time he can’t even look me in the eyes?”

  I’ve never noticed Leith being that way with her.

  “I’m going to give you a bit of advice, Sin. Make sure Bleu never finds out what we did because I
can promise you this. You never want to see revulsion in the eyes of the person you love when they look at you.”

  “Bleu knows.”

  “No!” Lorna slaps her hand on the table several times. “No! How?”

  “I told her.”

  “No!” Her mouth gapes as she shakes her head. “Why the hell would you do that?”

  Lorna doesn’t yet understand the relationship between spouses. “She knew we had history and asked me to tell her about it.”

  Lorna puts her head down on the table. “That was a dumb, ignorant, stupid move.”

  I disagree. It’s probably one of the best I could’ve made for my marriage. “I’m glad she knows. I never have to worry about someone else telling her.”

  Lorna kicks me beneath the table––in my prosthesis. “Fuck you, Sin! Fuck you!”

  I reach down to ensure it’s still in place. “Why are you so angry?”

  “Because Bleu’s a dear friend who now hates my guts.”

  If I were married to any other woman, Lorna would probably be right. Most wives wouldn’t so easily forgive what we did. “She doesn’t hate you.”

  Lorna lowers her voice to a whisper. “She just found out one of her best friends slept with multiple men at the same time and one of them was her husband. How could she not despise me?”

  It indeed sounds bad when she says it like that. “You spoke to her less than an hour ago. Did she sound angry or say anything to make you believe she hated you?”

  “No.”

  “Because you’re a beloved friend to her. She doesn’t like the things we did but she harbors no ill feelings toward either of us about it. What has passed is past. That’s what she said.”

  Lorna covers her hands with her face. “I don’t know how I’ll ever face her again.”

  “You’ll act no differently because she’ll have it no other way.”

  “Oh God. I hate this. I wish we’d not done any of those things.”

  She isn’t the only one who wishes we could take it back. But we can’t, so we must make the best of a bad situation. “Do you still love Leith?”

  She places her hand in the center of her chest. “With all of my heart and soul.”