“I’ll be there,” I growl. Nothing will keep me from her now. All I was waiting for was her permission, and now that I have it, there doesn’t need to be any more games. No more dancing around the subject. There’s only one goal at the end of this, and it’s her. But I won’t end this night empty-handed.
“Well, I guess I’ll get dessert ready!” Jenny says, standing up with a smile. John shakes his head.
“No, it’s okay. We’ll be leaving now.”
Jenny’s face falls. “You will?”
“Yes,” he says, standing up too. “Thank you for dinner, but we should be getting back. I have to be at work early tomorrow.”
Anger surges through me. We all know he’s lying, but we can’t say that out loud. He’s being rude, but we’re not allowed to say that either. I desperately want to put him in his place, but if I do I’ll never get away with seeing Elena again. In fact, this is a good thing. The sooner they leave, the sooner I can sneak over to see her.
“Thanks for coming,” I say gruffly, reaching out to shake his hand. He takes it reluctantly.
“Thank you for having us,” he says, but I can tell he doesn’t mean it. Jenny tries to remain cheery.
“You should come again!” she says with a smile. John glares at me darkly.
“I don’t think so,” he hisses. Then he grabs his daughter’s arm and guides her toward the door. Still, I get one last glimpse at her dark doe eyes as she looks back at me. They’re full of passion, full of lust, full of want. She’s telling me to hurry over to her.
And I don’t need to be asked twice.
Jenny jumps a little as the front door slams behind our guests. She looks up at me with sad eyes.
“Oh, Landon. I’m sorry. I’m guessing that didn’t go as planned. Maybe you just have to accept that it’s not going to happen.”
I shake my head. She doesn’t understand. I’d do anything to make this thing happen. It’s not some pathetic crush. It’s raw and fiery, and desperate. I’ve never been desperate for anything in my life. My career fell into my lap. Friendships come easily to me. Women have fawned after me all my life. I could’ve had any of them, but I waited. I was waiting for Elena.
And nothing can stop me from having her.
“It’s going to happen,” I growl. “Just you wait and see.”
Elena
I haven’t spoken to my father since I got home. I can’t believe the way he acted at Landon’s house. Sure, I understand why he doesn’t like him. He can see the sparks flying between me and him so blatantly that he feels he has to automatically hate him.
But he doesn’t understand. There’s something special about me and Landon. I can’t put my finger on why he’s so different from other men, but I want to find out. I want to be his. I want to feel his body up against mine. I want him to touch me in places where no other man has ever touched me. I want to lose my virginity to him.
But after what just happened, I don’t even know if he will come to me. Maybe he will see the risk and get scared. I change into my silk nightie and wait by the window, looking out to see if he leaves the house. My heart is beating hard. It’s torture waiting for him. I may have waited a lifetime already, but now that I’m so close to getting what I want, I’m desperate for it to happen quickly.
I gasp as his bedroom door opens. He looks so damn hot, he seems angry but not at me. His muscles are tense and I can see the veins in his arms rippling under his short-sleeved shirt. He growls at the sight of me.
“I need you,” he growls as he approaches his own window ledge. “Stand back. I’m coming over.”
I do as he asks, my heart beating fast. He leans out of his window to grab my ledge and then swings down so that his body is pressed against the wall and he’s hanging from the ledge. It’s a little scary, seeing him doing something so dangerous, but then he seems to easily pull himself onto the ledge, his muscled arms going to good use.
And then in moments, he’s in the same room as me. He looks into my eyes and pulls me close.
And then he’s kissing me.
It’s everything I imagined it would be and more. His lips are feverish against mine. His hands explore my body expertly, touching me in a way that makes my body come alive with electricity. I let out an involuntary gasp as his thumbs brush across my nipples, stiffening them to the touch. I lean into the kiss, groaning against his mouth with desire.
I’ve waited so long for this and now that it’s happening, I never want it to end. His hand gropes for my ass and I feel a rush of pleasure ripple through my entire body. I never understood before what all the fuss was about with kissing and foreplay, but now that we’re getting into it, I wish I’d met Landon much sooner.
He shifts me back toward the bed and climbs over the top of me, still kissing me hard. With a low growl, he tugs at the hem of my nightie.
“I want to see you, all of you,” he growls. I’m shaking as he practically rips the silk slip off, leaving me naked aside from my panties. He gets up on his knees to tower over me and take me in. His eyes are full of lust, and he licks his lips.
“You’re fucking gorgeous,” he growls, his eyes resting on my heavy breasts for a moment before traveling down to my already sopping wet pussy. He’s turned me on so much that I feel like one touch from him down there would send me over the edge.
He leans in with a growl and takes one of my nipples into his mouth, and sucks on it hard as his hand swiftly rids me of my panties. His wet tongue feels so good on the sensitive bud. I know I need to be quiet in case my father hears what we’re up to, but I can’t help letting a little cry escape my lips.
Now that I’m fully naked, he sits up to look at me again. I feel like a work of art when he looks at me like that. It makes me feel special.
“I need you,” he growls, dipping down so that his face is between my legs. Before I can even process what’s happening, his tongue begins to explore me. I grip the sheets, opening my legs for him automatically. I expected to feel nervous, and I am a little, but the overriding feeling is excitement. My arousal overtakes me as he laps away at my center, his tongue continually nudging my clit. Within moments of him pleasuring me, I’m weak at the knees and craving everything he has to offer me.
I’m breathing hard. My heart is racing. He hooks my legs over his shoulders and gets closer to me than I thought possible. His arms hug my legs close to him, his mouth doing all the work down below. I never really thought about how oral might feel, only ever craving the idea of sex, but now that it’s happening to me, it’s like fireworks exploding around my ears. If this is this good, how will sex feel? How will it feel when his cock is deep inside me, making me cry out in pleasure?
The thought it so erotic that I buck against his face with a cry, reaching my first orgasm. It feels so good that I’m seeing stars, but he doesn’t stop there. He moves back, licking his lips.
“You taste so damn good,” he growls. Then he moves his hand between my legs, gently running a finger over my pussy lips. I’m breathing hard, my breasts heaving with desire. He looks me right in the eyes and I know he’s not going to be done with me until he’s pleasured me beyond belief. He already has, but his eyes show his hunger for more.
His fingers slide inside me so easily that it shocks me when I feel him inside. I expected it to hurt, but he could never ever hurt me.
“You’re so fucking wet, baby,” he growls, moving his fingers in and out of my pussy. “All for me.”
“You made me like this,” I gasp. My body can’t help responding to his touch. I move closer to him, pushing him deeper inside me. He’s driving me wild with lust. His touch is magical. No one else in the world could make me feel like this. He leans in to kiss me and thrusts his fingers deeper, taking me to new heights I never knew were possible.
“You’re mine,” he growls and I can’t help it. I come for him again for the second time. But my mind is whirring. If I belong to him, then what does that mean for my family? I want to be with Landon. I want him so badl
y. I want him to take me right here and now. But if I choose him, then I’m choosing to anger my father.
I suddenly feel like I can’t breathe. Even as I’m coming down from my orgasm, I’m pulling away from him. He frowns.
“What’s wrong?”
“I shouldn’t be doing this,” I breathe. I look him in the eyes. “We’re moving so fast. I think... I need to go slower. I want you. I want you so badly. But we could get in real trouble for this. I...I need to figure some things out with my Dad before we do this.”
I see disappointment cloud his eyes and for a moment, I think I’ve ruined everything. But then he places a gentle kiss on my lips. It’s a far cry from the passionate, energetic kisses we’ve shared today, but I like it just as much.
“I’ll wait for you,” he growls. “I waited for a lifetime. I can wait a little longer.” His eyes roam over my body and I can see that he’s holding back. “I want you so badly. I want to take you right this second, but I’ll wait. Our time will come.”
CHAPTER FIVE
Landon
I have to find some way to distract myself from what happened last night. It’s all I can think about right now. I spent the night at her house and then left early this morning with nothing but a chaste kiss from her lips to remember her by. Now, I’m wishing I’d grabbed her and kissed her and finished what we started last night. I wanted her so badly that my cock was aching for her. I still want her. But I have to give her some time, that’s what she asked of me. She needs time to wrap her thoughts around this, which I get. She needs to figure out what to do about her father too.
But it’s killing me, being apart from her. My body aches to be next to her’s. Every possessive bone in my body wants to go over to her house, scoop her into my arms, and make her mine. And yet here I am, holding back because that’s how much I care about her. I want her so much that I’m willing to be without her if that’s what she asks of me. I know she’ll come back to me if I’m patient.
But patience isn’t something I’m good at. I’ve never had to wait for much before. I’m used to getting my own way with no obstacles. I guess this is a lesson for me as much as anything. It’s a test to see if I deserve her and everything she has to offer. I’m determined I’ll pass the test no matter how hard it is for me.
It’s a hot day. I slip out into the garden. Jenny is out with some new friends she’s made and she asked me to go with her. She insisted that it would be good for me to go out and meet some new people. She still thinks I should drop the idea of being with Elena, even though she knows what went on last night. But she’s wrong. I don’t need anyone, but Elena. She’s enough for me in every single way. One day, she’ll be my family as well as my lover. She’ll be my best friend too. I don’t need to meet anyone new. I need to stay here where I can be close to her.
I strip off my shirt and begin some work in the garden. I haven’t got any clients for a few weeks, so I want to make the house perfect including the yard. Maybe one day this will be Elena’s home too. Or maybe we’ll go somewhere away from her father so we can start a family without his judgment. I sigh to myself as I pull up a few stray weeds. How can I ever concentrate properly again when she keeps circling around in my mind, consuming my every thought? I’ll never be the same again now that I’ve met her. If I win her, then my days will revolve around making her mine, making her happy, and making her feel sexy. If I lose her then I’ll spend the rest of my life wondering how I can possibly get her back.
She’s driving me crazy. I always thought I was fine alone. If I’d never met her, I’m certain I would’ve remained alone for the rest of my life. But now I need her more than anything else.
I feel eyes burning into my back and I look up to see her watching me from her bedroom window. My fists clench, and cock rises in my pants. She looks so damn good with her hair ruffled from sleep and her silk nightie revealing more of her body than I can resist. Is she trying to drive me mad for her?
She smiles at me a little sadly. I know she’s thinking of all the obstacles in our way. Our life is never going to be simple. We want the same things, but the world wants to repel us from each other, like two magnets with the same charge. But don’t they see that’s why we’re so perfect? We’re the same. We suit each other so well. Who cares if I’m older than her? Who cares that we’ve only just met? When you know, you know.
If we can get her father to see sense, then we can do this. She can be mine forever. We can find the happiness we both deserve.
I just have to wait a little longer.
Elena
Watching him work shirtless in the garden, the sweat glistening against his muscles, is turning me on beyond belief. As he continues to tug weeds and his muscles ripple, I feel a wetness between my legs. What is this man doing to me?
I’ve never looked at a man and felt so many emotions before. Fear. Lust. Happiness. Longing. Anger. Not at him, of course, but with the scenario we’ve landed ourselves in. Last night, I wanted nothing more than for him to take me hard and make me his. But in the back of my mind, I felt too guilty to go through with it. I knew it would disappoint my father and that’s one thing I’ve never done before.
I’ve always been the perfect daughter. I never partied while my friends all went out drinking from a young age. I never disobeyed my parents or broke any rules, no matter how much the wild girl within me wanted to.
I always studied hard for school, and now I’m studying hard to be a pharmacist. But nothing is as important in comparison to how I feel for Landon. I would give it all up in a heartbeat for him. He’s all I’ve ever needed, even though I didn’t even know about him until yesterday. That just shows how strong our bond is. It was an instant spark. So why is everyone trying to make it go out?
I feel my heartstrings tugging. All I want is for someone to understand the way I’m feeling right now. My dad should know this feeling, he’s been with my mother for over twenty years. So why can’t he see love when it’s obviously right in front of him?
I hear a knock at my door and I jump down from my window sill. I don’t need my dad catching me staring at Landon. I cross my arms over my chest as he enters.
“What happened to needing to be at work early?” I say, raising my eyebrow. He sighs.
“Are you ever going to let that go? I’m sorry, but I just wasn’t comfortable over at their place.”
“Why?” I ask defiantly. He won’t say it out loud, I know, but I want to challenge him. I want him to know that I have no issue with the way Landon was looking at me over dinner. I want him to tell that even if I’m not as obvious about it, I feel the same way Landon does. But my father would just shrug it off if I said a thing, so I don’t bother.
“That’s none of your concern,” he says. “But I don’t want you speaking to them, okay? You can politely nod to them if you need to, but just stay out of their way.”
“Dad, I’m twenty-one. Don’t you think I’m old enough to make these kinds of decisions for myself? Don’t you think I can decide for myself if people are good or bad?”
He glares at me. “Apparently not. You’re clearly too immature to see that he’s nothing, but a pretty face with bad intentions. I’m not going to let you fawn over him just because he’s attractive. It’s your first crush. It’s not love.”
Damn. Maybe I haven’t been as subtle as I thought. I find myself ducking my head to hide my blush. I had no idea how easily my dad could read me, but I have to try and keep my cool.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about, Dad. I just think it’s nice to be civil to your neighbors.”
He takes a deep breath. “Look, darling, we don’t have to talk about it, okay? Just don’t let this go any further. You have more sense than that. You have your whole life ahead of you, don’t make decisions now that you can’t take back. Don’t let this distract you from your goals. Look at you! You’re not even dressed at noon, you should be studying by now. What’s happened to you?”
I want to scream at him. He fe
ll in love at the same age as me. Why is he so desperate to stop me from finding the kind of relationship he has with my mom? And I’m done being the perfect daughter. Why do I always have to be the one to show up and exude nothing, but excellence? Why can’t I be the one to just fall in love for the first time and enjoy myself for once. Why is there so much pressure on me to be everything they want, except the love of someone’s life?
But I don’t say any of this aloud. My father is stubborn. He’ll never listen to what I have to say. And that’s the problem I’m facing here. I’m never going to get his approval. I’m never going to get his permission to be happy. So maybe this whole holding back thing is pointless. Why should I deprive myself of the best thing that’s ever happened to me? Why should I tell myself that I can’t have Landon when my dad is already saying the same thing? I’ll be miserable if I don’t go after what I want, and my father will be miserable either way. Shouldn’t I just put myself first for once?
My dad sighs and heads for my bedroom door. “I’ll leave you to it. Remember what I said, Elena. I’m not trying to make you unhappy. I’m saying all of this for your own good.”
The thing is, he truly believes that. He thinks he always knows what’s best for me. But I’m old enough now to make my own decisions. I’m old enough to know my own heart. If I get hurt, that’s my burden to bear. It has nothing to do with him. So right now, I need to stop being the perfect daughter. I need to make a decision about what I truly want.
And what I want is Landon.
I drift back to the window and find him looking up at me. His eyes are smoldering with desire. His chiseled chest is glistening with sweat in the sunlight. I can almost see his cock pushing against his jeans, yearning for what we didn’t do last night. I might not be able to tell him to come over now, but later tonight, our other neighbor is having a barbecue, and I’m certain Landon and his sister will be the guests of honor to welcome them to the area. That’s when I’ll talk to him. That’s when I’ll tell him what I want.
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