The Fiery Cross

by Diana Gabaldon

  "If ye canna love the lad for himself, I thought ye might treat him well for the sake of his prospects."

  He stared at her, words jamming in his throat. His face felt hot, and the blood throbbed dully in his ears.

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  -0h, I ken how it is," she assured him. "It's only to be understood that a man might not feel just so kindly toward a bairn his wife's borne to another. But if 11

  He stepped forward then and gripped her hard by the shoulder, startling her. She jerked, blinking, and the candle flames flashed from the cairngorm brooch.

  "Madam," he said, speaking very softly into her face. "I do not want your money. My wife does not want it. And my son will not have it. Cram it up your hole, aye?"

  He let her go, turned, and strode out of the tent, brushing past Ulysses, who looked after him in puzzlement.

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  EOPLE MOVED THROUGH the gathering shadows of late afternoon, visiting from one fireside to another, as they had each day, but P there was a different feeling on the mountain today.

  In part it was the sweet sadness of leavetaking; the parting of ftiends, the severing of newfound loves, the knowledge that some faces would be seen tonight for the last time on earth. In part it was anticipation; the longing for home, the pleasures and dangers of the journey to come. In part, sheer weariness; cranky children, men harried by responsibility, women exhausted by the labor of cooking over open fires, maintaining a family's clothes and health and appetites from the sustenance of saddlebags and mule packs.

  I could sympathize with all three attitudes myself. Beyond the sheer excitement of meeting new people and hearing new talk, I had had the pleasure-for pleasure it definitely was, despite its grimmer aspects-of new patients, seeing novel ailments and curing what could be cured, grappling with the need to find a way to treat what could not.

  But the longing for home was strong: my spacious hearth5 with its huge cauldron and its roasting jack, the light-filled peace of my surgery, with the fragrant bunches of nettle and dried lavender overhead, dusty gold in the afternoon sun. My feather bed, soft and clean, linen sheets smelling of rosemary and yarrow.

  I closed my eyes for a moment, summoning up a wistful vision of this haven of delight, then opened them to reality: a crusted girdle, black with the remnants of scorched oatcake; soggy shoes and frozen feet; damp clothes that chafed with grit and sand; hampers whose abundance had dwindled to a single loaf of bread-well-nibbled by mice-ten apples, and a heel of cheese; three screeching babies; one frazzled young mother with sore breasts and cracked

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  nipples; one expectant bride with a case of incipient nerves; one white-faced serving-maid with menstrual cramps; four slightly inebriated Scotsmen-and one Frenchman in similar condition-who wandered in and out of camp like bears and were not going to be any help whatever in packing up this evening ... and a deep, clenching ache in my lower belly that gave me the unwelcome news that my own monthlywhich had grown thankfully much less frequent than monthly of late-had decided to keep Lizzic's company.

  I gritted my teeth, plucked a cold, damp clout off a clump of brush, and made my way duck-footed down the trail toward the women's privy trench, thighs pressed together.

  The first thing to greet me on my return was the hot stink of scorching metal. I said something very expressive in French-a useful bit of phraseology acquired at L'H6pital des Anges, where strong language was often the best medical tool available.

  Marsali's mouth fell open. Germain looked at me in admiration and repeated the expression, correctly and with a beautiful Parisian accent.

  "Sorry," I said, looking to Marsali in apology. "Someone's let the teakettle boil dry."

  "Nay matter, Mother Claire," she said with a sigh, juggling little Joanie, who'd started to scream again. "It's no worse than the things his father teaches him a-purpose. Is there a dry cloth?"

  I was already hunting urgently for a dry cloth or a pot-lifter with which to grasp the wire handle, but nothing came to hand save soggy diapers and damp stockings. Kettles were hard to come by, though, and I wasn't sacrificing this one. I wrapped my hand in a fold of my skirt, seized the handle, and jerked the kettle away from the flames. The heat shot through the damp cloth like a bolt of lightning, and I dropped it.

  Werde!' said Germain, in happy echo.

  "Yes, quite," I said, sucking a blistered thumb. The kettle hissed and smoked in the wet leaves, and I kicked at it, rolling it off onto a patch of mud.

  Werde, merde, merde, merde,11 sang Germain, with a fair approximation of the tune of "Rose, Rose"-a manifestation of precocious musical feeling that went lamentably unappreciated in the circumstances.

  "Do hush, child," I said.

  He didn't. Jemmy began to screech in unison with Joan, Lizzie-who had had a relapse owing to the reluctant departure of Private Ogilvie-began to moan under her bush, and it started in to hail, small white pellets of ice dancing on the ground and pinging sharply off my scalp. I pulled the soggy mobcap off a branch and clapped it on my head, feeling like an extremely put-upon toad beneath a particularly homely mushroom. All it wanted was warts, I thought.

  The hail was short-lived. As the rush and clattering lessened, though, the crunching noise of muddy boots came up the path. Jamie, with Father Kenneth Donahue in tow, crusted hail on their hair and shoulders.

  "I've brought the good Father for tea," he said, beaming round the clearing. "No, you haven't," I said, rather ominously. And if he thought I'd forgotten about Stephen Bonnet, he was wrong about that, too.

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  Turning at the sound of my voice, he jerked in an exaggeration of startled shock at sight of me in my mobcap.

  "Is that you, Sassenach?" he asked in mock alarm, pretending to lean forward and peek under the drooping frill of my cap. Owing to the presence of the priest, I refrained from kneeing Jamie in some sensitive spot, and contented myself instead with an attempt to turn him into stone with my eyes, la Medusa.

  He appeared not to notice, distracted by Germain, who was now dancing in little circles while singing theme and variations on my initial French expression, to the tune of "Row, Row, Row your Boat." Father Donahue was going bright pink with the effort of pretending that he didn't understand any French.

  "Tais toi, critin," Jamie said, reaching into his sporran. He said it amiably enough, but with the tone of one whose expectation of being obeyed is so absolute as not to admit question. Germain stopped abruptly, mouth open, and Jamie promptly thumbed a sweetie into it. Germain shut his mouth and began concentrating on the matter at hand, songs forgotten.

  I reached for the kettle, using a handful of my hem again as pot holder. Jamie bent, picked up a sturdy twig, and hooked the handle of the kettle neatly from my hand with it.

  'VoiW" he said, presenting it.

  Werci " I said with a distinct lack of gratitude. Nonetheless, I accepted the stick and 'et off toward the nearest rivulet, smoking kettle borne before me like a lance. S

  Reaching a rock-studded pool, I dropped the kettle with a clang, ripped off the mobcap, flung it into a clump of sedge, and stamped on it, leaving a large, muddy footprint on the linen.

  "I didna mean to say it wasna flattering, Sassenach," said an amused voice behind me.

  I raised a cold brow in his direction.

  "You didn't mean to say it was flattering, did you?"

  "No. It makes ye look like a poisonous toadstool. Much better without," he assured me.

  He pulled me toward him and bent to kiss me.

  "It's not that I don't appreciate the thought," I said, and the tone of my voice stopped him, a fraction of an inch from my mouth. "But one inch farther and I think I might just bite a small piece out of your lip."

  Moving like a man who has just realized that the stone he has casually picked up is in actuality a wasp's nest, he straightened up and very, very slowly took his hands off my waist.

  "Oh," he said, and tilted his head to one side, lips p
ursed as he surveyed me. "Ye do look a bit frazzled, at that, Sassenach."

  No doubt this was true, but it made me feel like bursting into tears to hear it. Evidently the urge showed, because he took me-very gently-by the hand, and led me td a large rock.

  "Sit," he said. "Close your eyes, a nigbean donn. Rest yourself a moment."

  I sat, eyes closed and shoulders slumped. Sloshing noises and a muted clang announced that he was cleaning and filling the kettle.

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  He set the filled kettle at my feet with a soft clunk, then eased himself down on the leaves beside it, where he sat quietly. I could hear the faint sigh of his breath, and the occasional sniff and rustle as he wiped a dripping nose on his sleeve.

  "I'm sorry," I said at last, opening my eyes. He turned, half-smiling, to look up at me.

  "For what, Sassenach? It's not as though ye've refused my bed-Or at least I hope it's not come to that yet."

  The thought of making love just at the moment was absolutely at the bottom of my list, but I returned the half-smile.

  "No," I said ruefully. "After two weeks of sleeping on the ground, I Wouldn't refuse anyones bed." His eyebrows went up at that, and I laughed, taken off-guard.

  "No," I said again. "I'm just ... frazzled." Something griped low in my belly, and proceeded to twist. I grimaced, and pressed my hands over the pain. "Ohl" he said again, in sudden understanding. "That kind of frazzled." "That kind of frazzled," I agreed. I poked at the kettle with one toe. "I'd

  better take that back; I need to boil water so I can steep some willow bark. It takes a long time." It did; it would take an hour or more, by which time the cramps would be considerably worse.

  "The hell with willow bark," he said, producing a silver flask from the recesses of his shirt. "Try this. At least ye dinna need to boil it first."

  I unscrewed the stopper and inhaled. Whisky, and very good whisky, too. "I love you," I said sincerely, and he laughed.

  "I love ye too, Sassenach," he said, and gently touched my foot.

  I took a mouthful and let it trickle down the back of my throat. It seeped pleasantly through my mucous membranes, hit bottom, and rose up in a puff of soothing, amber-colored smoke that filled all my crevices and began to extend warm, soothing tendrils round the source of my discomfort.

  "Oooooo," I said, sighing, and taking another sip. I closed my eyes, the better to appreciate it. An Irishman of my acquaintance had once assured me that very good whisky could raise the dead. I wasn't disposed to argue the point,

  "That's wonderful," I said, when I opened my eyes again. "Where did you get it?" This was twenty-year-old Scotch, if I knew anything about it-a far cry from the raw spirit that Jamie had been distilling on the ridge behind the house.

  "Jocasta," he said. "It was meant to be a wedding gift for Brianna and her young man, but I thought ye needed it more."

  "You're right about that.11

  We sat in a companionable silence, and I sipped slowly, the urge to run amok and slaughter everyone in sight gradually subsiding, along with the level of whisky in the flask.

  The rain had moved off again, and the foliage dripped peacefully around us. There was a stand of fir trees near; I could smell the cool scent of their resin, Pungent and clean above the heavier smell of wet, dead leaves, smoldering fires, and soggy fabrics.

  "It's been three months since the last of your Courses," Jamie observed casuallY. "I thought they'd maybe stopped."

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  I was always a trifle taken aback to realize how acutely he observed such things-but he was a farmer and a husbandman, after all. He was intimately acquainted with the gynecological history and estrus cycle of every female animal he owned; I supposed there was no reason to think he'd make an exception simply because I was not likely either to farrow or come in heat.

  "It's not Eke a tap that just switches off, you know," I said, rather crossly. "Unfortunately. It just gets rather erratic and eventually it stops, but you haven't any idea when."

  44M.95 He leaned forward, arms folded across the tops of his knees, idly watching twigs and bits of leaf bobbing through the riffles of the stream.

  "I'd think it would maybe be a relief to have done wi' it all. Less mess, aye?" I repressed the urge to draw invidious sexual comparisons regarding bodily fluids.

  "Maybe it will," I said. "I'll let you know, shall I?"

  He smiled faintly, but was wise enough not to pursue the matter; he could hear the edge in my voice.

  I sipped a bit more whisky. The sharp cry of a woodpecker-the kind Jamie called a yaffle--echoed deep in the woods and then fell silent. Few birds were out in this weather; most simply huddled under what shelter they could find, though I could hear the conversational quacking of a small flock of migratory ducks somewhere downstream. They weren't bothered by the rain.

  Jamie stretched himself suddenly. "Ah ... Sassenach?" he said. "What is it?" I asked, surprised.

  He ducked his head, uncharacteristically shy.

  "I dinna ken whether I've done wrong or no, Sassenach, but if I have, I must ask your forgiveness."

  "Of course," I said, a little uncertainly. What was I forgiving him for? Probably not adultery, but it could be just about anything else, up to and including assault, arson, highway robbery, and blasphemy. God, I hoped it wasn't anything to do with Bonnet.

  "What have you done?"

  "Well, as to myself, nothing," he said, a little sheepishly. "It's only what I've said you'd do."

  "Oh?" I said, with minor suspicion. "And what's that? If you told Farquard Campbell that I'd visit his horrible old mother again . . ."

  "Oh, no," he assured me. "Nothing like that. I promised Josiah Beardsley that ye'd maybe take out his tonsils today, though."

  "That I'd wbat?" I goggled at him. I'd met Josiah Beardsley, a youth with the worst-looking set of abscessed tonsils I'd ever seen, the day before. I'd been sufficiently impressed by the pustulated state of his adenoids, in fact, to have described them in detail to ail and sundry over dinner-causing Lizzie to go green round the gills and give her second potato to Germain-and had mentioned at the time that surgery was really the only possible effective cure. I hadn't expected Jamie to go drumming up business, though.

  "Why?" I asked. '

  Jamie rocked back a little, looking up at me.

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  "I want him, Sassenach."

  "You do? What for?" Josiah was barely fourteen-or at least he thought he was fourteen; he wasn't really sure when he'd been born and his parents had died too long ago to say. He was undersized even for fourteen, and badly nourished, with legs slightly bowed from rickets. He also showed evidence of assorted parasitic infections, and wheezed with what might be tuberculosis, or merely a bad case of bronchitis.

  "A tenant, of course."

  "Oh? I'd have thought you had more applicants than you can handle, as it is."

  I didn't just think so; I knew so. We had absolutely no money, though the trade Jamie had done at the Gathering had just about-not quite-cleared our indebtedness to several of the Cross Creek merchants for ironmongery, rice, tools, salt, and other small items. We had land in plenty-most of it forest-but no means to assist people to settle on it or farm it. The Chisholms and McGillivrays were stretching well past our limits, in terms of acquiring new tenantry.

  Jamie merely nodded, dismissing these complications. "Aye. Josiah's a likely lad, though."

  "Hmm," I said dubiously. It was true that the boy seemed tough-which was likely what Jamie meant by "likely"; simply to have survived this long by himself was evidence of that. "Maybe so. So are lots of others. What's he got that makes you want him specially?"

  "He's fourteen."

  I looked at him, one brow raised in question, and his mouth twisted in a wry smile.

  "Any man between sixteen and sixty must serve in the militia, Sassenach."

  I felt a small, unpleasant contraction in the pit of my stomach. I hadn't forgotten the Gover
nor's unwelcome summons, but what with one thing and another, I hadn't had the leisure to reflect on exactly what the practical consequences of it were likely to be.

  Jamie sighed and stretched out his arms, flexing his knuckles until they cracked.

  "So you'll do it?" I asked. "Form a militia company and go?"

  "I must," he said simply. "Tryon's got my ballocks in his hand, and I'm no inclined to see whether he'll squeeze, aye?"

  "I was afraid of that."

  Jamie's picturesque assessment of the situation was unfortunately accurate. Looking for a loyal and competent man willing to undertake the settlement of a large section of wild backcountry, Governor Tryon had offered Jamie a Royal grant of land just east of the Treaty Line, with no requirement of quitrent for a period of ten years. A fair offer, though given the difficulties of settlement in the mountains, not quite so generous as it might have looked.

  The catch was that holders of such grants were legally required to be white Protestant males of good character, above the age of thirty. And while Jamie met the other requirements, Tryon was well aware of his Catholicism.

  Do as the Governor required, and ... well, the Governor was a successful

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  politician; he knew how to keep his mouth shut about inconvenient matters. Defy him, though, and it would take no more than a simple letter from New Bern to deprive Fraser's Ridge of its resident Frasers.

  "Hmm. So you're thinking that if you take the available men from the Ridge-can't you leave out a few?"

  "I havena got so many to start with, Sassenach," he pointed out. "I can leave Fergus, because of his hand, and Mr. Wemyss to look after our place. He's a bond servant, so far as anyone knows, and only freemen are obliged to join the militia."

  "And only able-bodied men. That lets out Joanna Grant's husband; he's got a wooden foot."

  He nodded.

  "Aye, and old Arch Bug, who's seventy if he's a day. That's four men-and maybe eight boys under sixteen-to look after thirty homesteads and more than a hundred and fifty people."

  "The women can probably manage fairly well by themselves," I said. "It's winter, after all; no crops to deal with. And there shouldn't be any difficulties with the Indians, not these days." My ribbon had come loose when I pulled off the cap. Hair was escaping from its undone plaits in every direction, straggling down my neck in damp, curly strands. I pulled the ribbon off and tried to comb my hair out with my fingers.

  "What's so important about Josiah Beardsley, anywaYP" I asked. "Surely one fourteen-year-old boy can't make so much difference."

  "Beardsley's a hunter," Jamie answered, "and a good one. He brought in nearly two hundred weight of wolf, deer, and beaver skins to the Gatheringall taken by himself alone, he said. I couldna do better, myself."

  That was a true encomium, and I pursed my lips in silent appreciation. Hides were the main-in fact, the onlywinter crop of any value in the mountains. We had no money now-not even the paper Proclamation money, worth only a fraction of sterling-and without hides to sell in the spring, we were going to have difficulty getting the seed corn and wheat we needed. And if all the men were required to spend a good part of the winter tramping round the colony subduing Regulators instead of hunting ...

  Most women on the Ridge could handle a gun, but almost none could hunt effectively, as they were tethered to their homes by the needs of their children. Even Bree, who was a very good hunter, could venture no more than half a day's travel away from Jemmynot nearly far enough for wolf and beaver.

  I rubbed a hand through my damp locks, fluffing out the loosened strands. "All right, I understand that part. Where do the tonsils come in, though?" Jamie looked up at me and smiled. Without answering at once, he got to his

  feet and circled behind me. With a firm hand, he gathered in the fugitive strands, captured the flying bits, and braided it into a tight, thick plait at the base of my neck. He bent over my shoulder, plucked the ribbon from my lap, and tied it neatly in a bow.

  "There." IHe sat down by my feet again. "Now, as to the tonsils. Ye told the lad he must have them out, or his throat would go from bad to worse."

  "It will."