Butler's Woman (Chaos Bleeds Book 11)

by Sam Crescent

  Her heart leapt at his words.

  They pulled away as the waiter brought them over their food. Of course, they’d be the ones interrupted by the waiter.

  Once they were served, the moment was lost, not that she’d have been able to say anything. The last thing she wanted to do was to spill her guts here in case he was feeling completely the opposite. People changed their minds all the time. She knew all about that.

  This had never mattered to her. Falling in love wasn’t something she’d thought would be a problem for her.

  “So I wanted to talk to you about something,” Butler said.

  “Okay.” She took a sip of her water. Everything felt lodged in her throat, but still, she waited.

  “I was wondering what your thoughts are on family? I know we said that we’d never have kids or settle down. Would anything change your mind?”

  She took a bite of the pasta, not really tasting the meaty sauce. “Erm, wow, this is a little out of the blue.”

  “I just … I’m curious. We all can change our minds.”

  She nodded. Family was something she had always wanted. After all the problems she had growing up with her mother, it had been like a mockery to her to even consider having a family.

  “I … when I was a little girl … I always thought what it would be like to have the kind of family you see in the movies. You know the mother that cared, packed a school lunch. A dad that went out to work or something. I did want a family. I know I said that kids were not for me, but if I really think about it, and the fact I’m getting older, being thirty and all that, yes, I guess one day I hope to have a family. It’s just … I’ve never been lucky enough for that option to be open to me.” She pushed some hair out of her face and smiled. “Wow, I sound so morbid.”

  “Far from it.”

  “What about your stance?” she asked. “You didn’t want kids, but you were so good that day.”

  “I drew the short straw.”

  “You had everything under control though. Do you want kids?”

  “Do you promise not to run out screaming right now?” he asked.

  “Yes.”

  “I want a boy and a girl.” He stared past her shoulder once again. “Christmas morning I’d love to hear them both scream with excitement wondering if Santa had been there, and of course he had. The big guy will always come.” He suddenly stopped. “I don’t want to confuse you.”

  “No, it’s just that you said you didn’t want to have kids, and it sounds like you’ve thought a lot about it.”

  “If you don’t want kids then that’s cool. We’ll figure something out.”

  She tilted her head to the side and smiled. “Would you like to have a family with me?”

  This seemed like a big step, a huge one. Biting her lip, she waited for him to respond. He opened his mouth, but all of a sudden music began playing, and they looked toward the source to see an elderly couple surrounded by family.

  She watched as the staff sang while also bringing out cake. Butler took her hand, and she looked down at them. Could it be possible to have a family surround them, singing and dancing for an anniversary?

  It all seemed a little much. After the singing ended and the family left the restaurant, their food was finished. Butler paid, and they made their way back to their beach house. She didn’t know what to say to fill the silence.

  There were a lot of things left unsaid, but it also came with their own problems as well.

  Were they moving too fast?

  Could they make it together?

  Outside of the beach house, she stopped, putting a hand on his chest.

  “What’s wrong?” he asked.

  “I need to say something to you.”

  “Okay. It can’t wait until we go inside?”

  “Not right now. I need to get it out. When we go inside, you’ll get naked, and we’ll do a lot of other things, you know. I need to have a clear head.”

  He ran his hands up and down her arms, and she took a deep breath. His touch made it even harder for her to focus, so she caught his hands in hers, stopping him.

  “For a long time, I’ve thought that I was unlovable. How can anyone ever love me? I was pushed to one side and forgotten. Then I went crazy, and I guess being used and doing a lot of using helped a lot. Family is something I’ve always wanted, but I’ve always found that it’s a place that hurts the most. My mom hated me, and she died at the hands of yet another stepfather. The dream of having a family kind of left. When I’m with you though, I can feel and hope for things that I thought were no longer allowed for me to have.” She glanced down at their hands. “I would like to take that chance with you, Butler. If you want to try to make this work. I don’t know what we’re going to be or how we’re going to end up, but with you, I’d really love that chance more than anything else in the world.”

  Butler released her hands, and cupped her face, tilting her head back. “You want me to clear some things up?”

  “What do you mean?”

  “You’re my woman, Mandy. I’m not going to throw you away or get bored. You’re mine, and that means I’ll be the man that you wake up to every single morning, and go to sleep with. I want to hold you in my arms as I fall, and never let go. The only thing in my life that I’ve craved is drugs, but then I saw you. From that moment on, nothing else in my crazy world has mattered to me. Grabbing those drugs, I think it was a way of trying not to take you. I want you to be here because you have a choice. The truth is … I love you.”

  Her mouth fell open.

  Words failed her.

  “There, I finally said it. I love you, and I want you to be my woman for the rest of our lives.”

  Well, he could be romantic, but of course it was mixed with his usual Butler charm.

  Chapter Eleven

  Saying it once was like getting over that jump that seemed to take everything out of you. Butler stared into her green eyes, ran his thumb across her lip, and said it again.

  “I love you.”

  Mandy smiled, and he felt like screaming it from the top of his lungs. Instead, he pulled her close, and claimed her lips hard. Her hands slid up his chest, wrapping around the back of his neck.

  He held her tightly to him, not wanting to let her go.

  Gripping her ass, he lifted her up and moved her toward the door.

  He tried to open the door, but of course they had locked it.

  Growling in frustration, he put her down, and found the key. His hand shook a little, and Mandy took the key from him, opening the door.

  Kicking it closed, he placed the key in the small dish and carried her through the house.

  “Do you want to stop? Have a coffee?”

  “For the past week I’ve been rubbing your stomach and dealing with your cramps. Tonight, I am going to be balls deep inside you and make up for lost time. Also, you’re no longer allowed to wear clothes. I forbid it.”

  She giggled as he kicked the bedroom door only for it to remain closed. Mandy reached out, flicking it open.

  “I am being thwarted in my mission.”

  “You’re so cute,” she said.

  “Especially when I want something.”

  He finally put her on the feet. Turning her around, he slid the catch of the zipper down her body.

  He flicked the bra open and spun her back around.

  Mandy swatted his hands away and began yanking on his shirt, pulling it up over his head. They fought each other to get naked first, and when they were, he pulled her close, her tits pressing against his chest.

  Lifting her up, he placed her on the bed. Spreading her thighs open wide, he stared down at her creamy cunt. She was already so slick.

  “You want me, baby?”

  “Yes, I want you.”

  Stroking over her pussy, he pressed a finger to her core, watching as she took it. Adding a second finger, he relished her gasp, twisting around to stroke over her G-spot. Pulling his fingers from her pussy, he sucked them in his mouth, ta
sting her.

  “I always knew you’d be so good.”

  Kneeling on the floor between her spread thighs, he spread the lips of her pussy, and licked his tongue between her slit. Circling her clit, he moved down to plunge inside her.

  He took her hands, placing them on the lips of her pussy.

  “I want you to keep yourself open for me. That’s it, baby. Yeah, like that.”

  He pressed his fingers back into her pussy, plunging them in and out as he sucked on her clit. He kept changing the pace, going from rapid movements of his tongue, to slowing it down and making her burn with it.

  Working that spot inside her, he waited until she was at the edge before removing his fingers. They were soaked in her cum, so he trailed them back, teasing over the puckered hole of her anus.

  At first, she tensed, but as he kept up his strokes, she finally relented, and gave him what he wanted, which as far as he was concerned was such a pretty fucking sight.

  Pushing the tip of one finger into her ass, he continued to lap at her clit. She shook with the pleasure. His name was constantly falling from her lips as he tormented her over and over again, but he didn’t stop. There was no way for him to. His cock hurt he wanted inside her so badly.

  Once he worked past that tight ring of muscles, he thrust his finger to the hilt, listening to her cries.

  “Fuck!” she screamed, arching up.

  In and out, he thrust his finger, waiting for her to get used to the feel of him before adding a second one.

  All the time he kept up the teasing of her pussy, waiting for just the right moment to push her over the edge. After she’d taken two of his fingers and was riding them, sliding up and down on him, he finally let her go over that peak of her orgasm. Her ass tightened on him, squeezing him.

  Only when she came down from her peak did he pull away. Leaving her spread-eagled on the bed, he quickly washed his hands before coming back to the bed.

  Her arms were spread out, and she smiled at him.

  “I never said this to you either, but I love you too. I do find it kind of scary. I’ve never been like this with anyone else before.”

  “It is scary. The scariest thing I’ve ever done.”

  “I want to be your woman, Butler. I’ll be your old lady.”

  “You don’t have a problem with me taking the patch again?” He stepped closer, cupping her face. His cock stood hard and proud, but he ignored it. Right now, the only woman that mattered was her, and he wanted to make this right for the both of them.

  “No, why would you think I’d mind? The patch is part of who you are.”

  “Some women struggle with the life.”

  “I know you won’t hurt me, Butler.”

  “My past?”

  “Let’s not do this, okay? We can both screw this up. You go on the drugs, and I sleep with everything. It’s not going to happen, and I think I finally understand when people say you’ve got to learn to take risks like this. I’d rather risk being with you right now than never knowing what it would be like.” She cupped his face, stroking his cheek. “We don’t have a normal start, I get that. We’re a little damaged, but together we could make this work, Butler. I’d like to try.”

  Pressing her back to the bed, he claimed her lips hard, sliding his tongue into her mouth, and she moaned. Her hand wrapped around his cock, working from the base up to the tip then down again.

  Mandy pulled away from the kiss, and before he could stop her, her lips were around the head of his cock.

  Wrapping her hair around his fist, he worked her mouth over his dick, forcing her to take him to the back of her throat, and he watched as she gagged. He did this a couple of times before she finally relaxed and swallowed him down.

  Coming in her mouth wasn’t what he wanted, so he pulled out before he lost complete control. The length was now covered in her saliva. Moving her to her knees toward the edge of the bed, he put the tip of his dick at her entrance.

  Slowly, he began to fill her, making her take more of him as he cupped her hips and slammed to the hilt. They both cried out, and he felt the answering clench of her cunt around him.

  Spreading her cheeks wide, he watched his cock as he began to pull out. When only the tip was inside her, he suddenly filled her, slapping her ass as he hit her cervix. She wriggled on his length, and he closed his eyes, counting to ten to gain some control.

  He struggled to hold onto his sanity.

  Over and over he pounded her pussy, and even though he wanted her ass right then, he knew he wasn’t going to be satisfied until he’d filled her with his cum.

  He slammed inside her, feeling her pussy clutch at him, holding him in like a vise. He didn’t stop though, wanting her to scream his name.

  Stroking her clit, he brought her to another orgasm before he finally found his release. Holding her hips so tight that he knew they would bruise, he released his cum deep in her cunt, knowing one day he’d do this and they’d make a baby.

  ****

  Mandy giggled as he rolled her over and drew her knees back up beneath her.

  “Are you ready?” she asked.

  “Yes, and it only took thirty minutes.”

  Butler hadn’t wanted to leave the bedroom so rather than fight, he’d demanded they play a game of “eye spy,” which was a really weird thing to do, but he would come up with silly names for things, which she didn’t get. All the while, he timed how long it would take for him to get a hard-on.

  “You do know that I’m taking this to the grave with me,” Mandy said. “This is not romantic or sexy.”

  “We’ll do things a little differently in our house.”

  “Timing how long it takes you to get an erection after just coming, that is a little different, I grant you that.” She closed her eyes and gasped as he teased her clit, his fingers stroking over her button before sliding down to plunge inside her.

  She couldn’t think when he did that.

  “Well, considering my game is supposed to be a little childish, you’re very aroused there, baby. So wet and ready for me.”

  “I’m only human.”

  “I know, and I love it. My only human woman.” He drew his fingers back, and she closed her eyes.

  He teased across her anus, going in circles and pressing against her ass. When he did that pleasure erupted around her body, and she pushed out as the tip of his finger slid inside her.

  The thought of him owning every single part of her body thrilled her. She wanted him to have her, to possess her, to take her. Her body belonged to him just as her heart did as well.

  He worked her with one finger, then added a second.

  Only when he was ready did he place the tip of his cock against her ass.

  Biting her lip, she waited, as the head was much bigger than his two fingers. Closing her eyes, she held her breath and pushed out as he started to work his cock in.

  Inch by inch, she waited as he filled her, thrusting his dick inside her. When he was all the way in, he tapped her ass.

  “You’re so fucking tight.” He ran his fingers up and down her back, stroking her.

  There was pain but also pleasure.

  She felt weird, like she wanted to push him out but didn’t want to let him go either. Reaching between her thighs, she stroked her pussy, teasing the hard bud, sliding her fingers down to fill her pussy, drawing more of their combined cum over her clit.

  Butler began rocking inside her, slow strokes to start with, letting her get accustomed to the sheer size of his cock.

  When he was all the way out, he plunged back inside, and she cried out. Again, the pain and pleasure mingling were almost too much and not enough at all.

  Sinking her teeth into her lip, she played with her pussy, and Butler took her ass. He kept spreading her ass apart, and she imagined him watching them, seeing his cock slide into her ass.

  Just the thought of it turned her on even more.

  “You like being my kind of dirty little bitch?” he asked.

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nbsp; “Yes.”

  “Good, because I like you like that. I want that when we’re alone together. I want you to get as bad and dirty as you can be. Don’t hide what you want. I will use your body, Mandy. I will fuck you and give you more pleasure than you can ever imagine, but I will take as well. I want you to take from me, to use me how you want to.”

  He pounded inside her three thrusts, and this time there wasn’t as much pain. In fact, there wasn’t any pain at all, and she gasped at the sudden heat of pleasure.

  “You like that, Mandy? You like me fucking your ass, making it mine?” He filled her again, fucking her. His grip tightened on her hips as he took over.

  She kept on playing with her clit, feeling that peak starting to build. She pressed back against his thrusts, wanting him deep inside her ass, to feel him pulse as he filled her.

  Her own orgasm took her by surprise as she screamed his name.

  His cock seemed to get bigger as she came, her ass squeezing him with each wave of her orgasm.

  Butler slapped her ass, slammed inside her, and growled her name as his cock pulsed, spurting his hot cum deep inside her.

  She closed her eyes as he collapsed over her. His cock was still within her, but there was no chance of her moving. Right now, he’d taken over every part of her mind and body.

  “I’ll move in a second,” he said.

  “Why? We can stay passed out here for another couple of days.”

  “I’m not wasting a couple of days. I’m going to want to fuck you again.”

  She giggled. “I love that you can’t get enough of me.” She pushed some of her hair off her face.

  Butler wrapped his arms around her, kissing her neck and shoulder. She closed her eyes once again, feeling an overwhelming love for this man.

  Neither of them spoke, and as the exhaustion eased, it came with some peace.

  “I’m going to go and run us both a bath.”

  “Okay.” He pulled out of her ass, and she moaned as he spread her ass wide again.

  “What are you doing?” she asked, giggling.

  “I’m watching my cum leak out of you.”

  “You’re a dirty bastard.”

  “Yeah, and you love it, so stop your whining.” He slapped her ass, and she yelped as he sank his teeth into the flesh. Watching him leave the room, she pulled the pillow beneath her head and laughed.