In Legend Born

by Laura Resnick

  Tansen met her gaze in the firelight and nodded. "We need him to tell the Valdani that... when the Outlookers failed, the Silerians killed Josarian themselves to..." His face twisted briefly with disgust. "To seal the bargain. To fulfill the treaty."

  "So they'll leave Sileria," Mirabar said.

  "Kiloran knew," Tansen said. He glanced at Najdan, then turned his gaze to the fire. "He found out you had taken your woman away from Kandahar, and he knew what that meant. Knew that you would warn us. Try to save Josarian."

  Najdan's eyes clouded with horror. His mouth worked for a moment, but no words came out. Even upon learning of Srijan's death, he had not looked so shocked. Finally, struggling to get the words out, he said, "Upon my soul, I swear I had no—"

  "I know," Tansen said. "You couldn't have known. No one could have known, Najdan. I didn't even believe in..." He shuddered. The silence was heavy with memories they all wanted to banish. "We did all that we could do. Josarian himself would... say so if he were here now." He cleared his throat.

  "I think the prisoner's mind is a little unhinged now," Mirabar ventured. It wasn't surprising. They at least knew what that river-born thing was. The Valdan, however, had probably doubted his own sanity from the moment he'd seen the White Dragon rise out of the water.

  "As long as he can remember what we tell him to say to Kaynall," Tansen said, "that will be good enough."

  They hadn't bothered to bind the Outlooker after fleeing from the site of Josarian's death. He was too frightened to try to escape in the dark and too shocked to do much besides huddle pathetically amidst the zanareen, who chanted and prayed, wept and mourned. Mirabar had been surprised to discover the man spoke a little common Silerian. She supposed it was why he'd been chosen to join a raiding party going deep into rebel territory, where Valdan wasn't the most useful language.

  The Outlooker was willing to cooperate with Tansen's orders, as long as no one tried to make him go anywhere alone before morning. Then he fully intended to go straight back to Shaljir and board the first Valda-bound ship leaving port, even if it meant being charged with desertion.

  Tansen sighed. "Sometimes we're tempted to flee, too," he admitted, "and we live here. But you mustn't leave until you've reported to Kaynall. After he questions you, I doubt you'll have much trouble getting back to Valda."

  Once they were sure the Outlooker would do as told, Tansen questioned him about the ambush on Josarian. The Valdan didn't know who had arranged it or how.

  "All I knew was that there would be two shallaheen at the ambush site near the river, and we were not supposed to attack the one in the yellow tunic." He brushed a trembling hand through his short hair and added, "Then we were supposed to bring Josarian's body back to Shaljir."

  "To Advisor Kaynall?" Tansen asked.

  The Outlooker nodded. "And Commander Cyrill. He's been in Shaljir since the surrender of Cavasar."

  "How were they going to identify the body?"

  "There's a Silerian who meets with Kaynall. He used to meet with Koroll, before the commander got killed b—"

  "What does this Silerian look like?"

  "Tall, sleek, dangerous. Always well-dressed. He has a scar on his face and speaks good V—"

  "Searlon."

  The Outlooker shrugged. "I don't know his name. I always had the impression that I wasn't even supposed to know about those meetings."

  Mirabar met Tansen's gaze as the sky turned pink with the long-awaited dawn. "Kiloran," she said. "He means to rule Sileria now."

  "Then we will just have to stop him," Tansen replied.

  When morning glowed bright and brassy all around them, they gave the Outlooker a fast horse for his journey back to Valda. Before he left, Tansen also gave him a length of knotted, woven twine dotted with the rough beads of a shallah.

  "It's a jashar," Tansen told the Outlooker. "Show it to anyone who tries to stop you between here and Shaljir."

  "Is it some kind of spell?"

  "It's a message, one which almost all Silerians can interpret.," said Tansen. "It gives you my protection to return to Shaljir as a messenger between the rebels and the rosh—the Valdani."

  The Outlooker studied it curiously for a moment, then nodded his understanding and kicked his horse, setting off on the long journey back to the relative safety of Shaljir.

  They watched him leave, then Tansen turned to Mirabar. "I want you to go back to Dalishar and—"

  "No, I'd rather go to Niran," she said, thinking of the way her head always reeled at Dalishar.

  "No. It must be Dalishar," Tansen insisted. "Kiloran can't hurt you there."

  "If not Niran, then I'd rather return to Sanc—"

  "Kiloran has used Outlookers to violate Sanctuary before. As long as there are Outlookers in Sileria, he might do so again." He took her shoulders, shaking her slightly when he could see she still intended to object. "He knows Najdan has betrayed him. He'll send someone else after you."

  "I can—"

  "Can you survive the White Dragon?" he asked tersely. "You saw what it did to Josarian, surrounded by a shatai, a Guardian, an assassin, and more than fifty men." He shook his head. "Go to Dalishar and wait for me there."

  "She will go," Najdan promised. "I will see to it."

  "But where are you going?" Mirabar asked.

  He said nothing, only showed her the second jashar he had made after weaving one for the Outlooker. She recognized it instantly.

  So die all who betray Josarian.

  "The torena," she whispered.

  Tansen nodded.

  "You'll never do it," Mirabar said.

  "I will." There was steel in his voice.

  "I'm coming with you." She didn't trust him. Not where that woman was concerned.

  "I want you safe at Dalishar."

  "I don't—"

  "After I ki... After I do this, we must destroy Kiloran. I can't do it without you, Mira."

  He was right, she realized. She must concentrate her energy against the waterlord. "All right," she said at last, "I will wait for you at Dalishar."

  "I won't be long."

  "There's just one thing, Tansen." Now there was steel in her voice.

  "What?"

  "Don't come back until it is done." Her gaze was fierce as she held his, willing him to remember Josarian's death. "Don't come back to me unless you can show me Elelar's blood on your sword."

  Chapter Forty-Two

  Tansen arrived in the middle of the night, in the silent hours when even rebels were lost in the solace of their dreams. The sight of two sleepy sentries confirmed that the torena was in residence at the half-ruined villa she inhabited near Chandar.

  The Valdani were already pulling out of the region around Elelar's ancestral lands. In another few days, she could have reclaimed the estate she had inherited from Gaborian. Now she would never live to see it again. Now she would die before the sun rose over Darshon once more.

  He had left his horse somewhere down the road, over-used and footsore. He had no wish to alert the sentries—or anyone else—to his presence before he killed the torena. He was too tired and injured to fight all the men who protected Elelar. He must do this quietly.

  His seeping wound hurt like the branding ceremony he had endured to become a shatai. His lungs burned from working so hard to make up for the loss of blood and the lack of food and sleep. His whole body ached from the blows of the White Dragon. His flesh burned in a thousand places from the drops of ensorcelled water which had dripped onto him from that voracious monster. The cuts from its claws were as painful as wounds made by a shir.

  What a fool I was, not to believe.

  He ignored the pain, the exhaustion, and the light-headed dizziness as he crept through the dark and sought an entrance into the well-guarded villa. He shut out the ache in his heart as he thought of murdering the woman who had haunted his thoughts since his boyhood. He resisted the familiar longing that assailed him as he slipped through the silent shadows of her house and made his way
to the chamber wherein she lay.

  Soft-footed and shallow-breathed, he crept up beside the bed where she now slept alone.

  The bed she shared with Zimran.

  He unsheathed a sword, controlling the soft whisper of sound the blade made when he did so.

  The light of the moons poured through the windows and spilled across the bed. How lovely she looked, lying in her gossamer gown with her black hair spread across the pillow. The rise and fall of her soft breasts looked so welcoming to one who had fought hard, lost tragically, and come so far since dawn. Her fair, flawless flesh almost seemed to glow in the dark nest of her bed. The scent that arose from her sleeping form clouded his mind and filled his senses.

  Elelar.

  He whispered her name, as so many other men must have done in the night. She turned her head. A shallow sleeper. Would he ever again hate anyone this much? Would he ever desire another woman this desperately? What a peaceful heart she must have, that it did not—she had told him—ever hold two such feelings at once.

  He lay his blade across her throat, observing how the cold steel caught the moonlight, capturing the deadly beauty of the moment forever in his mind.

  He had never killed a woman. He had never imagined that he would. He wondered how long he could bear to go on living after killing this one.

  Tansen didn't know how he had kept on going after seeing Josarian devoured by the White Dragon. He could scarcely remember the hours which had followed. He knew that he had broken down, wailing like a child. He also knew that Najdan and Mirabar were unlikely ever to remind him of it. Of the rest—the mad flight away from the river, the long trek through the dark, the decision to stop and await dawn... He remembered almost none of it. He mostly remembered the hollow grief of loss, the empty ache of failure, and the horror of Josarian's brutal end.

  His brother had never feared death because he had believed, with a faith which Tansen could envy but never emulate, that he would join his beloved Calidar in the Otherworld. He had even expected to be reunited there with his worthless cousin, reclaiming the long-lost harmony of their friendship in a place free of the concerns, quarrels, and burdens of this world.

  Now Josarian would never see Calidar again. He would never answer Mirabar's Call. Nothing awaited him but oblivion, and until Kiloran died, Josarian would be locked in the agony of his own terrible destruction.

  Tansen closed his eyes, gritting his teeth as he tried to escape the memory of Josarian's agonized screams.

  Focus on the task at hand.

  "Elelar," he whispered again.

  She had heard too many men whisper her name in the dark to be alarmed. She slowly opened her eyes. She didn't even tense when she saw a shallah sitting on the edge of her bed.

  "Zimran?" she murmured sleepily.

  Elelar moved her head slightly—and felt the blade at her throat. She gasped and went very still. Then she focused her eyes on him and whispered incredulously, "Tansen?"

  "Yes."

  The moons highlighted him, too. He had some idea of how he must look. Hollow-eyed, clammy with feverish sweat, filthy, wounded, disheveled, haunted, exhausted... and his clothes liberally stained with blood: his own, Josarian's, Outlookers', and Zimran's.

  Her gaze traveled over him, then rested on the hand holding a sword at her throat.

  She licked her lips and guessed, "Zimran is dead."

  "You've always been very quick." Even Kiloran's voice had never been as cold as his was now. "Make your peace with Dar."

  Her breasts rose and fell with sudden agitation. Her breath trembled as she tried to speak. "How di... How did you know?"

  "A secret treaty with the Valdani," he spat.

  "Yes," she admitted. "To end the war."

  "Hostage exchanges."

  "To end—"

  "Josarian's life in exchange for Shaljir!"

  "To end the war."

  "You betrayed him." Do it now. Kill her now.

  "It was the price of our freedom," she said.

  "You betrayed the Firebringer to free us?"

  "From the moment he murdered Srijan, he was marked for death," she said desperately. "You know that! It's why you wouldn't leave his side!"

  "Did you arrange to have me wounded so that he'd be easier to kill?" he asked suspiciously.

  "No. How could I? I only..."

  "What?" He pressed the blade a little harder against that soft flesh.

  "I only saw the opportunity after... after I realized you were hurt too badly to return to his side."

  "It's why you came all the way to the Shrine of the Three to see me."

  "Yes... Please, Tan..."

  "To tell your masters that you knew how my brother could be killed," he snarled.

  "Before Kiloran could do it!" In her agitation, she moved too far. The sharp blade pricked her flesh. She gasped, thinking he had done it. "He was going to die, Tansen! No one could stop it! Not you or Mirabar or anyone! I wasn't going to let him die for nothing."

  "Next you'll be telling me you did him a favor."

  "Torena?" There was a knock at the bedchamber door, which Tansen had locked behind him. "Torena!"

  Servants.

  "Send them away," he whispered.

  "Just a minute," she called. Then she whispered to him, "Put your sword away." Seeing him shake his head, she said, "If they know I'm not safe, they'll attack. You'll kill them all."

  "What do you care? A few more deaths—"

  "Tansen," she whispered urgently.

  He hesitated, then sighed and sheathed his sword. He stood by the bed while Elelar got up to answer the door. Faradar stood outside with the two sentries whom he'd slipped past. The maid, who knew him, gasped at his appearance, but apparently shed any concern that her mistress might be in danger. Elelar's brief, whispered explanation suggested that Tansen had come at this unconventional hour to mix business and pleasure. He noted how quickly the torena's servants accepted this explanation. Elelar closed the door, locked it again, and asked if he would object to her lighting the lantern.

  "I can kill you just fine by this light," he said.

  Elelar sat on the edge of the bed and folded her hands. Moonlight and wavy black hair spilled over her shoulders. "The Valdani guaranteed total withdrawal from Shaljir upon receiving proof of Josarian's death."

  "And you believed them?"

  "They have fulfilled the rest of the treaty." When he didn't reply, she said quietly. "In the end, Josarian's death was the price of Sileria's freedom."

  Tansen stared at her, appalled by this dispassionate assessment of her betrayal. "How could you have done it? How could you have betrayed him? Ho—"

  "You can say that to me? You?" She jumped to her feet and stalked forward, her fear of him forgotten in her anger. "You, who murdered your own bloodfather?"

  He took a step backward. He should have just killed her, should have never given her a chance to talk. Now she was opening more wounds.

  "Armian trusted you!" she cried. "He loved you. And you slaughtered him rather than—"

  "It's not the same!" he shouted. "What you did—"

  "It's exactly the same!" she shouted back. "Do you think you're the only one who loves this land? The only one who's made sacrifices to free it?"

  "I didn't sacrifice the Firebringer."

  "Yes, you did!" she reminded him. "You thought Armian was the Firebringer, and you killed him anyhow."

  His side felt like it was on fire. He was panting as if he had just run all the way here on foot.

  "No..."

  "I was there," she hissed.

  Tansen felt dizzy. "It's not the same..."

  "It's the same."

  He shook his head, swaying slightly.

  Elelar saw his weakness and pressed her advantage. "The war would have dragged on forever, Tansen. Maybe for years. You saw the butchery. Koroll's revenge. Whole villages slaughtered by night, one after another. Women, children, old men."

  "Like Gamalan..." He thought he would be si
ck.

  "How long could we hold out? And at what cost to our people? How long could the rebellion last once Kiloran and Josarian went to war against each other? How soon before the Valdani saw our vulnerability? They would have stayed in Shaljir, waiting until the wars on the mainland favored them, waiting until they could reconquer Sileria."

  He leaned weakly against the wall, shying away from the onslaught of her words.

  Armian. A windy night. A deadly decision. The father who loved and trusted me.

  "Josarian was doomed from the moment he killed Srijan. I know..." Elelar sighed. "I know why he did it. I know how the shallaheen are. But he... he could never survive Kiloran's vengeance after that."

  Josarian. A darkening forest. An ambush. The cousin he loved and trusted.

  "No." He couldn't bear it. No one could bear this.

  "Yes," she insisted. "Nothing and no one could have saved him, not even you! Not even nine years of exile would have saved Josarian. Kiloran would never rescind the bloodvow. Their feud would have destroyed the rebellion, destroyed all of Sileria! We had to act fast to save it."

  Daurion. A night in Shaljir a thousand years ago. A deadly attack. The friend he loved and trusted.

  "The Yahrdan..." The room was spinning, the years of blood and vengeance whirling around him.

  "Who knows if he would have become Yahrdan, if he had survived?" she said. "And if he had, Tansen, don't you see how it would have destroyed us? The first Yahrdan in a thousand years, the leader of the newborn nation, murdered by a waterlord..." Her hands balled into fists. "Don't you see? It's exactly what made Sileria vulnerable to the Conquest in the first place." Elelar paced along the line of windows on the other side of the room. "Nations are born like men, in blood and fever and legend. But they must be ruled with strength and wisdom and power."

  "Kiloran..." He struggled for air, suffocating beneath the tragedy his own race brought upon themselves again and again and again. Until now, until her words, he had never known how deeply his own sins were woven into its tapestry. Daurion, Armian, Josarian...

  "No, it mustn't be Kiloran. It won't be Kiloran," Elelar said. "I have never wanted that any more than you do. But it could never have been the man who murdered Kiloran's son. Not while Kiloran lives."