Works of Ellen Wood

by Ellen Wood

  “It’s sound, for anything I know to the contrary. I never suspected anything the matter with her heart.”

  “Then you are a fool!” retorted the complimentary dowager.

  Sir Alexander’s temperament was remarkably calm. Nothing could rouse him out of his tame civility, which had been taken more than once for obsequiousness. The countess-dowager had patronized him in earlier years, when he was not a great man, or had begun to dream of becoming one.

  “Don’t you recollect I once consulted you on the subject — what’s your memory good for? She was a girl then, of fourteen or so; and you were worth fifty of what you are now, in point of discernment.”

  The oracle carried his thoughts back, and really could not recollect it. “Ahem! yes; and the result was — was—”

  “The result was that you said the heart had nothing the matter with it, and I said it had,” broke in the impatient dowager.

  “Ah, yes, madam, I remember. Pray, have you reason to suspect anything wrong now?”

  “That’s what you ought to have ascertained, Pepps, not me. What d’you mean by your neglect? What, I ask, does she lie in bed for? If her heart’s right, there’s nothing more the matter with her than there is with you.”

  “Perhaps your ladyship can persuade Lady Hartledon to exert herself,” suggested the bland doctor. “I can’t; and I confess I think that she only wants rousing.”

  With a flourish of his hat and his small gold-headed black cane the doctor bowed himself out from the formidable dowager. That lady turned her back upon him, and betook herself on the spur of the moment to Maude’s room, determined to “have it out.”

  Curious sounds greeted her, as of some one in hysterical pain. On the bed, clasped to his mother in nervous agony, was the wondering child, little Lord Elster: words of distress, nay, of despair, breaking from her. It seemed, the little boy, who was rather self-willed and rebellious on occasion, had escaped from the nursery, and stolen to his mother’s room. The dowager halted at the door, and looked out from her astonished eyes.

  “Oh, Edward, if we were but dead! Oh, my darling, if it would only please Heaven to take us both! I couldn’t send for you, child; I couldn’t see you; the sight of you kills me. You don’t know; my babies, you don’t know!”

  “What on earth does all this mean?” interrupted the dowager, stepping forward. And Lady Hartledon dropped the boy, and fell back on the bed, exhausted.

  “What have you done to your mamma, sir?”

  The child, conscious that he had not done anything, but frightened on the whole, repented of his disobedience, and escaped from the chamber more quickly than he had entered it. The dowager hated to be puzzled, and went wrathfully up to her daughter.

  “Perhaps you’ll tell me what’s the matter, Maude.”

  Lady Hartledon grew calm. The countess-dowager pressed the question.

  “There’s nothing the matter,” came the tardy and rather sullen reply.

  “Why do you wish yourself dead, then?”

  “Because I do.”

  “How dare you answer me so?”

  “It’s the truth. I should be spared suffering.”

  The countess-dowager paused. “Spared suffering!” she mentally repeated; and being a woman given to arriving at rapid conclusions without rhyme or reason, she bethought herself that Maude must have become acquainted with the suspicion regarding her heart.

  “Who told you that?” shrieked the dowager. “It was that fool Hartledon.”

  “He has told me nothing,” said Maude, in an access of resentment, all too visible. “Told me what?”

  “Why, about your heart. That’s what I suppose it is.”

  Maude raised herself upon her elbow, her wan face fixed on her mother’s. “Is there anything the matter with my heart?” she calmly asked.

  And then the old woman found that she had made a grievous mistake, and hastened to repair it.

  “I thought there might be, and asked Pepps. I’ve just asked him now; and he’s says there’s nothing the matter with it.”

  “I wish there were!” said Maude.

  “You wish there were! That’s a pretty wish for a reasonable Christian,” cried the tart dowager. “You want your husband to lecture you; saying such things.”

  “I wish he were hanged!” cried Maude, showing her glistening teeth.

  “My gracious!” exclaimed the wondering old lady, after a pause. “What has he done?”

  “Why did you urge me to marry him? Oh, mother, can’t you see that I am dying — dying of horror — and shame — and grief? You had better have buried me instead.”

  For once in her selfish and vulgar mind the countess-dowager felt a feeling akin to fear. In her astonishment she thought Maude must be going mad.

  “You’d do well to get some sleep, dear,” she said in a subdued tone; “and to-morrow you must get up; Pepps says so; he thinks you want rousing.”

  “I have not slept since; it’s not sleep, it’s a dead stupor, in which I dream things as horrible as the reality,” murmured Maude, unconscious perhaps that she spoke aloud. “I shall never sleep again.”

  “Not slept since when?”

  “I don’t know.”

  “Can’t you say what you mean?” cried the puzzled dowager. “If you’ve any grievance, tell it out; if you’ve not, don’t talk nonsense.”

  But Lady Hartledon, though thus sweetly allured to confession, held her tongue. Her half-scattered senses came back to her, and with them a reticence she would not break. The countess-dowager hardly knew whether she deserved pitying or shaking, and went off in a fit of exasperation, breaking in upon her son-in-law as he was busy looking over some accounts in the library.

  “I want to know what is the matter with Maude.”

  He turned round in his chair, and met the dowager’s flaxen wig and crimson face. Val did not know what was the matter with his wife any more than the questioner did. He supposed she would be all right when she grew stronger.

  “She says it’s you” said the gentle dowager, improving upon her information. “She has just been wishing you were hanged.”

  “Ah, you have been teasing her,” he returned, with composure. “Maude says all sorts of things when she’s put out.”

  “Perhaps she does,” was the retort; “but she meant this, for she showed her teeth when she said it. You can’t blind me; and I have seen ever since I came here that there was something wrong between you and Maude.”

  For that matter, Val had seen it too. Since the night of his wife’s fainting-fit she had scarcely spoken a word to him; had appeared as if she could not tolerate his presence for an instant in her room. Lord Hartledon felt persuaded that it arose from resentment at his having refused to allow her to see the stranger. He rose from his seat.

  “There’s nothing wrong between me and Maude, Lady Kirton. If there were, you must pardon me for saying that I could not suffer any interference in it. But there is not.”

  “Something’s wrong somewhere. I found her just now sobbing and moaning over Eddie, wishing they were both dead, and all the rest of it. If she goes on like this for nothing, she’s losing her senses, that’s all.”

  “She’ll be all right when she’s stronger. Pray don’t worry her. She’ll be well soon, I daresay. And now I shall be glad if you’ll leave me, for I am very busy.”

  She did not leave him any the quicker for the request, but stayed to worry him, as it was in her nature to worry every one. Getting rid of her at last, he turned the key of the door, and wished her a hundred miles away.

  The wish bore fruit. In a few days some news she heard regarding her eldest son — who was a widower now — took the dowager to Ireland, and Lord Hartledon wished he could as easily turn the key of the house upon her as he had turned that of the room.

  CHAPTER XXXI.

  THE SWORD SLIPPED.

  Summer dust was in the London streets, summer weather in the air, and the carriage of that fashionable practitioner, Sir Alexander Pepps,
still waited before Lord Hartledon’s house. It had waited there more frequently in these later weeks than of old.

  The great world — her world — wondered what was the matter with her: Sir Alexander wondered also. Perhaps had he been a less courtly man he might have rapped out “obstinacy,” if questioned upon the point; as it was, he murmured of “weakness.” Weak she undoubtedly was; and she did not seem to try in the least to grow strong again. She did not go into society now; she dressed as usual, and sat in her drawing-room, and received visitors if the whim took her; but she was usually denied to all; and said she was not well enough to go out. From her husband she remained bitterly estranged. If he attempted to be friendly with her, to ask what was ailing her, she either sharply refused to say, or maintained a persistent silence. Lord Hartledon could not account for her behaviour, and was growing tired of it.

  Poor Maude! That some grievous blow had fallen upon her was all too evident. Resentment, anguish, bitter despair alternated within her breast, and she seemed really not to care whether she lived or died. Was it for this that she had schemed, and so successfully, to wrest Lord Hartledon from his promised bride Anne Ashton? She would lie back in her chair and ask it. No labour of hers could by any possibility have brought forth a result by which Miss Ashton could be so well avenged. Heaven is true to itself, and Dr. Ashton had left vengeance with it. Lady Hartledon looked back on her fleeting triumph; a triumph at the time certainly, but a short one. It had not fulfilled its golden promises: that sort of triumph perhaps never does. It had been followed by ennui, repentance, dissatisfaction with her husband, and it had resulted in a very moonlight sort of happiness, which had at length centred only in the children. The children! Maude gave a cry of anguish as she thought of them. No; take it altogether, the play from the first had not been worth the candle. And now? She clasped her thin hands in a frenzy of impotent rage — with Anne Ashton had lain the real triumph, with herself the sacrifice. Too well Maude understood a remark her husband once made in answer to a reproach of hers in the first year of their marriage — that he was thankful not to have wedded Anne.

  One morning Sir Alexander Pepps, on his way from the drawing-room to his chariot — a very old-fashioned chariot that all the world knew well — paused midway in the hall, with his cane to his nose, and condescended to address the man with the powdered wig who was escorting him.

  “Is his lordship at home?”

  “Yes, sir.”

  “I wish to see him.”

  So the wig changed its course, and Sir Alexander was bowed into the presence. His lordship rose with what the French would call empressement, to receive the great man.

  “Thank you, I have not time to sit,” said he, declining the offered chair and standing, cane in hand. “I have three consultations to-day, and some urgent cases. I grieve to have a painful duty to fulfil; but I must inform you that Lady Hartledon’s health gives me uneasiness.”

  Lord Hartledon did not immediately reply; but it was not from want of genuine concern.

  “What is really the matter with her?”

  “Debility; nothing else,” replied Sir Alexander. “But these cases of extreme debility cause so much perplexity. Where there is no particular disease to treat, and the patient does not rally, why—”

  He understood the doctor’s pause to mean something ominous. “What can be done?” he asked. “I have remarked, with pain, that she does not gain strength. Change of air? The seaside—”

  “She says she won’t go,” interrupted the physician. “In fact, her ladyship objects to everything I can suggest or propose.”

  “It’s very strange,” said Lord Hartledon.

  “At times it has occurred to me that she has something on her mind,” continued Sir Alexander. “Upon my delicately hinting this opinion to Lady Hartledon, she denied it with a vehemence which caused me to suspect that I was correct. Does your lordship know of anything likely to — to torment her?”

  “Not anything,” replied Lord Hartledon, confidently. “I think I can assure you that there is nothing of the sort.”

  And he spoke according to his belief; for he knew of nothing. He would have supposed it simply impossible that Lady Hartledon had been made privy to the dreadful secret which had weighed on him; and he never gave that a thought.

  Sir Alexander nodded, reassured on the point.

  “I should wish for a consultation, if your lordship has no objection.”

  “Then pray call it without delay. Have anything, do anything, that may conduce to Lady Hartledon’s recovery. You do not suspect heart-disease?”

  “The symptoms are not those of any heart-disease known to me. Lady Kirton spoke to me of this; but I see nothing to apprehend at present on that score. If there’s any latent affection, it has not yet shown itself. Then we’ll arrange the consultation for to-morrow.”

  Sir Alexander Pepps was bowed out; and the consultation took place; which left the matter just where it was before. The wise doctors thought there was nothing radically wrong; but strongly recommended change of air. Sir Alexander confidently mentioned Torbay; he had great faith in Torbay; perhaps his lordship could induce Lady Hartledon to try it? She had flatly told the consultation that she would not try it.

  Lady Hartledon was seated in the drawing-room when he went in, willing to do what he could; any urging of his had not gone far with her of late. A white silk shawl covered her dress of green check silk; she wore a shawl constantly now, having a perpetual tendency to shiver; her handsome features were white and attenuated, but her eyes were brilliant still, and her dark hair was dressed in elaborate braids.

  “So you have had the doctors here, Maude,” he remarked, cheerfully.

  She nodded a reply, and began to fidget with the body of her gown. It seemed that she had to do something or other always to her attire whenever he spoke to her — which partially took away her attention.

  “Sir Alexander tells me they have been recommending you Torbay.”

  “I am not going to Torbay.”

  “Oh yes, you are, Maude,” he soothingly said. “It will be a change for us all. The children will benefit by it as much as you, and so shall I.”

  “I tell you I shall not go to Torbay.”

  “Would you prefer any other place?”

  “I will not go anywhere; I have told them so.”

  “Then I declare that I’ll carry you off by force!” he cried, rather sharply. “Why do you vex me like this? You know you must go?”

  She made no reply. He drew a chair close to her and sat down.

  “Maude,” he said, speaking all the more gently for his recent outbreak, “you must be aware that you do not recover as quickly as we could wish—”

  “I do not recover at all,” she interrupted. “I don’t want to recover.”

  “My dear, how can you talk so? There is nothing the matter with you but weakness, and that will soon be overcome if you exert yourself.”

  “No, it won’t. I shall not leave home.”

  “Somewhere you must go, for the workmen are coming into the house; and for the next two months it will not be habitable.”

  “Who is bringing them in?” she asked, with flashing eyes.

  “You know it was decided long ago that the house should be done up this summer. It wants it badly enough. Torbay—”

  “I will not go to Torbay, Lord Hartledon. If I am to be turned out of this house, I’ll go to the other.”

  “What other?”

  “Hartledon.”

  “Not to Hartledon,” said he, quickly, for his dislike to the place had grown with time, and the word grated on his ear.

  “Then I remain where I am.”

  “Maude,” he resumed in quiet tones, “I will not urge you to try sea-air for my sake, because you do what you can to show me I am of little moment to you; but I will say try it for the sake of the children. Surely, they are dear to you!”

  A subdued sound of pain broke from her lips, as if she could not bear to hear them named
.

  “It’s of no use prolonging this discussion,” she said. “An invalid’s fancies may generally be trusted, and mine point to Hartledon — if I am to be disturbed at all. I should not so much mind going there.”

  A pause ensued. Lord Hartledon had taken her hand, and was mechanically turning round her wedding-ring, his thoughts far away; it hung sufficiently loosely now on the wasted finger. She lay back in her chair, looking on with apathy, too indifferent to withdraw her hand.

  “Why did you put it on?” she asked, abruptly.

  “Why indeed?” returned his lordship, deep in his abstraction. “What did you say, Maude?” he added, awaking in a flurry. “Put what on?”

  “My wedding-ring.”

  “My dear! But about Hartledon — if you fancy that, and nowhere else, I suppose we must go there.”

  “You also?”

  “Of course.”

  “Ah! when your wife’s chord of life is loosening what model husbands you men become!” she uttered. “You have never gone to Hartledon with me; you have suffered me to be there alone, through a ridiculous reminiscence; but now that you are about to lose me you will go!”

  “Why do you encourage these gloomy thoughts about yourself, Maude?” he asked, passing over the Hartledon question. “One would think you wished to die.”

  “I do not know,” she replied in tones of deliberation. “Of course, no one, at my age, can be tired of the world, and for some things I wish to live; but for others, I shall be glad to die.”

  “Maude! Maude! It is wrong to say this. You are not likely to die.”

  “I can’t tell. All I say is, I shall be glad for some things, if I do.”

  “What is all this?” he exclaimed, after a bewildered pause. “Is there anything on your mind, Maude? Are you grieving after that little infant?”

  “No,” she answered, “not for him. I grieve for the two who remain.”

  Lord Hartledon looked at her. A dread, which he strove to throw from him, struggling to his conscience.

  “I think you are deceived in my state of health. And if I object to going to the seaside, it is chiefly because I would not die in a strange place. If I am to die, I should like to die at Hartledon.”