Before He Finds Her

by Michael Kardos

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  They are life long friends. Their lives are routine, even boring. But that is about to change.

  Will, Jeffrey and Nolan have been friends since college. Their lives are normal, even boring. Until one shocking moment changes everything.

  One night, in a moment of madness, Jeffrey robs a convenience store and drags the only witness into Will’s car. Before they know it, Will, Jeffrey and Nolan are holding a young girl hostage, with no idea what to do next. They have three days to decide her fate. Three days to choose between right and wrong, prison and freedom. Three days to manipulate each other into a unanimous decision.

  These ordinary men are already guilty of abduction and robbery. What else are they capable of?

  Prologue

  SIX YEARS AGO, MY band’s bassist was shot dead in a New York nightclub. Her name was Gwen Dalton, and she’d only been with the band a few months when she was killed.

  Our original bassist, Andy, had surprised us all when he decided to move to Los Angeles with his girlfriend. We were annoyed that he would leave New York just when the band was finally creating a stir. High Noon had been together for five years, and we’d worked hard to build up a following. We were finally packing the Wetlands and CBGB, and a small indie record label was talking to us about recording a CD. So how can you leave us now? we asked him. How can you do that to us?

  “I’m doing it for love,” he explained.

  And how do you argue with that?

  We held auditions at Fred McPhee’s apartment in the East Village. Fred was the band’s guitarist and lead vocalist. I was the drummer. We’d already heard half a dozen players stumble their way through our songs when Gwen showed up.

  In all the years I’d played in rock groups, starting at the age of fourteen, I hadn’t ever been bandmates with a woman before, and for a brief moment I was doubtful. Then Gwen lifted the instrument out of its case, and I saw that it was a custom-made, six-string Fodera—four grand easy. As she tuned up, her fingers ran nimbly up and down the fretboard. Underneath her spiky hair and pink lipstick was a delicate face, but her fingers were stubby and callused. A musician’s fingers. We taught her one of our tunes, which she picked up immediately. The second time through, she was already adding licks that Andy couldn’t have played. By then we were all loosened up. She was smiling to herself, head tilted in concentration, and it was obvious that we’d found our new bassist.

  All that fall we played shows throughout New York and Connecticut and New Jersey. Gwen had infused our jangly rock sound with a hint of funk and looked good doing it. But on Sunday morning, December 5, 1999, at 2:10 AM, while we were packing up our equipment after a gig at the Cobra Club near the Columbia University campus, somebody fired a gun outside on the street. The bullet passed through a window and struck Gwen just above her right cheekbone. She had been talking to me at the time. I was standing less than three feet away. When she got hit, her head jerked to the side a little, as if an invisible hand had slapped her. She stood there for the next few seconds, and I stood watching her and wondering why she’d suddenly stopped talking.

  The shooting was a drive-by, the intended target somebody out on the street who fled the scene. It had nothing to do with us. No one was ever caught. Gwen died two days later at St. Luke’s Hospital. I was there in the critical care unit at the time, pacing outside her room. I remember looking in and seeing the nurses moving their hands and a doctor shaking his head and the setting sun absurdly bathing her parents’ faces in the prettiest orange light.

  That night, I told Fred that I wouldn’t be playing the drums anytime soon.

  My wife, Cynthia, and I had always thought of ourselves as city people. She was from Philadelphia. I had grown up in Bayonne, and lived in Greenwich Village since graduating from college. But now my heart would lurch with every sudden noise. I’d spend most nights wired on coffee, sitting by the window of our third-story walk-up and staring out at shadows. I felt wholly unable to protect either myself or my new bride from any of a thousand brutal deaths. One day during the week before Christmas, we went exploring on the Jersey side of the Holland Tunnel and kept driving until the traffic lightened, the trees became plentiful, and we had ourselves a good, quiet suburb.

  Besides playing in the band, I had been working part-time in a midtown recording studio. I told my boss that I wouldn’t be back. Cynthia hired a headhunter to find her a new public relations job in Jersey. By the new year, we had packed our things into a U-Haul and were gone.

  We knew the suburbs would be less exciting than the city, but really that was the appeal. We chose the town of Newfield, where the people we talked to assured us that any criminal activity was limited to Halloween and involved nothing more than toilet paper and eggs. The public schools, we learned, were top rated. We planned to have children someday, maybe soon, and Newfield felt like the right place to raise them.

  And yet the adjustment to Newfield was hard, the silence itself unnerving. The calm we’d sought away from the city made it too easy for me to become preoccupied by my own thoughts. Eventually I found work at a small recording studio not far from home. The hours and pay were lousy, but it was a job I knew how to do, one that put me in contact with other musicians and demanded my full attention. And in time, I found myself able to sleep through the night again.

  If our lives weren’t exciting, they were nonetheless filled with happy moments. Husband-and-wife moments. Nights-out moments. Christmases-by-the-fire moments. By the time the Twin Towers fell nearly two years later, our lives were far enough removed from New York City that our horror held no special currency.

  I wasn’t making music anymore, but I was helping others to make it. Cynthia got promoted several times at the PR firm. And when we found out she was pregnant, we were glad. Three years had passed since our move to Newfield, and we felt ready for this child in our lives. By then, violent crime was about the furthest thing from my mind, until the night when I helped one of my best friends kidnap a young woman.

  Part 1

  1

  It almost didn’t happen—the kidnapping and everything after. That’s the part that gets me, even now.

  The phone call came early Sunday morning, waking me out of a dead sleep.

  “You’re going to have to count me out, man,” he said, before identifying himself.

  “Who is this?” I’d had to fumble for the telephone in the pitch-black bedroom.

  “I should stay in California.”

  “Jeffrey?”

  “Guilty as charged,” he said. “And completely and utterly in hell.”

  He would talk this way sometimes, full of woe and melodrama, back in college. But college was a long time ago. “What’s going on?” I asked. “Is everybody okay?”

  Cynthia was awake beside me then, hand on my arm. I glanced at the clock on my bedside table: 4:55 AM.

  “Oh, crap,” Jeffrey said, “you were asleep, weren’t you?”

  “Forget it. Just tell me what’s the matter.”

  “Wish I could,” he said. “I really do. But I shouldn’t even be…” His voice dropped off; the sudden silence frightened me.

  “Jeffrey?”

  “Ah, shit,” he said.

  “What?”

  “Nothing. My glass fell over.”

  It occurred to me that it was 2 AM in California and that Jeffrey was slurring his words. “Where are you?” I asked.

  “Me? I’m at home.”

  “Is Sara with you?”

  “She’s upstairs sleeping. She doesn’t know I’m calling.”

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��Why are you calling?”

  “Trust me,” he said, “you don’t want to know.”

  Of course I did. After all these years, I was glad that Jeffrey still saw me as someone he could reach out to in the middle of the night with a problem—even if the problem was that he’d been drinking and needed an old friend to dial up, to remind himself he still had old friends to dial up.

  “Try me,” I said.

  “No, I shouldn’t have called. Sorry to bother you—but I’m serious about the trip. You don’t want me there.” He was due to arrive in just a few days, along with Nolan and Evan, my other two best college buddies. “I’m not in a good place. I should really call the airline right now and cancel. I’m serious.”

  I sat up a little in bed and tried to sound more awake. “Listen to me—we’re your friends. We want to see you, even if you’re feeling like shit. It’ll be good for you. So forget about canceling, all right?”

  Outside my window, a single car drove by, its headlights briefly casting light on the bedroom shades. I watched the window darken again, thinking that Jeffrey might have fallen asleep at the other end of the line. But then, as if remembering his manners: “So how are you and Cynthia doing?”

  Classic Jeffrey. I told him we were doing fine, and that I looked forward to giving him the complete update when I saw him in a few days. “Seriously, though, are you okay?”

  I heard him yawn into the phone. “Sorry,” he said. “I think I’m a little tired.”

  “If you want, we can talk tomorrow, when we’re both a little more awake.”

  Another pause. Then: “Yeah, that’s a good idea. You always were the smart one.” His voice was fading fast. “Okay, good night, Will.”

  When I awoke again a few hours later, the call already felt like a half-forgotten dream. Except, when I checked my e-mail that afternoon, I had this message:

  Hey, Will—

  Wow. I’m really sorry to have woken you up like that. And to have been so melodramatic. God, I’m a jerk. A lot of that was the gin. I’m really okay. Anyway, you’re a good friend. (Okay, the best.) And you were right—of course I’ll be there. A return to Jersey? No way am I missing that.

  Looking forward to seeing you and the guys soon.

  Your friend,

  Jeffrey

  Neither of us mentioned the call again. I assumed he was probably embarrassed by it, and I knew there’d be plenty of time for us to talk when we saw each other in just a few days. So I waited.

  But there it was. He was going to cancel his trip, and I had talked him out of it.

  • • •

  They arrived on Friday.

  I’d spent the morning and early afternoon in the recording studio with a band called The Fixtures. Teenage bands could be a headache, but these kids had talent to match their ambition. We were having a productive session, but by three o’clock I had to call it quits and rush everyone out before the traffic leaving New York would clog all the westbound roads, making the drive back to Newfield unbearable.

  Walking to the car, I called Cynthia at the house and learned that Nolan had just arrived from Kansas City.

  “Tell him I’m on my way,” I said.

  “I’ll tell him,” she said, “but don’t drive like a maniac, okay? We’re fine over here.”

  I headed home. Though only a dozen miles from the studio, Newfield was like another world, where you heard more birds than cars and the strongest smell was the cypress mulch that people lovingly laid at the base of their shrubs. Our street was lined with neatly pruned maple trees, and at the end of it stood a brick elementary school. Each morning, small children walked past our front yard, chattering like squirrels and lugging their huge knapsacks.

  Our craftsman cottage was the smallest house on the block and only a rental, but buying a home would have meant living someplace cheaper, less desirable, less safe. And safety was key. It was the whole point.

  The day before, I’d mowed and edged the lawn. Pulling up to the house now, I admired my work. Those were the kinds of things I noticed then: a freshly cut yard. Daisies in terra-cotta flowerpots lining the walkway.

  Across the street, Dr. Ferguson was hosing off his Lexus. Sudsy water streamed down his driveway. He waved. I waved back and went inside. Through the kitchen window, I saw Cynthia and Nolan in the backyard kneeling over our empty garden plot, where in a few weeks we would be planting tomatoes and peppers and summer squash. I went out to greet them.

  Seeing me approach, Nolan stood and then helped Cynthia up. She was starting to show. I liked how she stood differently now, shifting her weight to accommodate the changing center of gravity.

  “Hands off the wife,” I told him.

  “Take it easy, killer,” Nolan said. “She’s only been showing me her dirt.”

  Cynthia and I had both grown up in neighborhoods of brick and concrete, where tall buildings blocked out the sun. We couldn’t get enough of our grassy yard. One of our photo albums was full of pictures from our first summer in the house: Cynthia in her cutoffs and Velvet Underground T-shirt, gathering up twigs from the grass. Me mowing the lawn, shirtless and grinning from behind mirrored sunglasses as if our small rectangle of land were a thousand-acre stake.

  “It’s good to see you, buddy,” Nolan said. We hadn’t seen each other since our last golf weekend a year earlier. We hugged.

  He stood six feet and three inches tall with unlined skin and a full head of black hair—not a speck of gray—that he kept neatly trimmed. At Princeton he’d rowed crew for a year, until it got in the way of his studies, but he still kept himself in shape. When we’d get together, even after a night of drinking, he’d wake up at dawn to run a few miles before breakfast.

  “You’re looking good,” I said, though truthfully his eyes looked tired. I’d been receiving his e-newsletter, From the Campaign Trail, since January, when he declared his candidacy for the U.S. House of Representatives. But I gathered that the trail was weedier and windier than the newsletter was letting on. “You’re also looking like you could use a beer.”

  We went inside, where I got two beers out of the refrigerator and a bottle of spring water for Cynthia.

  “I’ll take mine for the road,” she said. “I’m going to get caught in traffic as it is.”

  “You can stay,” I said. “Honest.”

  She cocked an eyebrow at me.

  I hadn’t asked her to clear out for the weekend. But she understood that for my friends and me, these annual reunions were an important tradition. And she figured it would be a good chance to visit her sister, who lived in Philadelphia with her boyfriend and three-year-old daughter.

  “Not a chance,” she said. “The estrogen is leaving the building. Just do me a favor and don’t get into too much trouble while I’m gone.” As if this were going to be a wild bachelor party instead of old friends catching up. Playing a few rounds of golf. A little poker. “And maybe carry my suitcase for me.”

  I brought her bag to her car, asked if the tank was full, if the cell phone was charged. “Call me before you go to bed,” I said. We kissed, and my fingertips brushed the small of her back as she bent down to get in the car. I stood on the front lawn, squinting in the sunlight, as she backed out of the driveway, waved her pretty fingers, and drove away.

  Back in the kitchen, Nolan tossed me an Albright-for-Congress baseball cap. I stuck it on my head.

  “Wear it everywhere,” he said. “By the way, Cynthia looks hot.”

  “Thanks,” I said. “And very classy.”

  “How far along is she?”

  “Almost five months.”

  “This is a pretty sweet life you’re leading,” he said. This was good form, I knew, rather than honest sentiment. Nolan had no wife, no kids, and was content. “I mean it,” he went on, “the house, the garden, great wife, kid on the way… I’m glad to see things are going so well for you.”

  For a while I’d hesitated before asking my friends to come visit me here in Newfield. In the nine years since c
ollege, Nolan, Evan, and Jeffrey had all become remarkably successful. And as long as I’d been a struggling New York musician, I believed that my world made sense to them. They understood risk taking if the rewards were big enough. But I couldn’t help feeling uneasy about them coming here to the suburbs and seeing my current life through the lenses of their own.

  I felt ashamed, suddenly, for feeling this way. Friends understood. It was what made them friends.

  “I’m a lucky guy,” I said.

  “Glad you know it.” Then Nolan clapped his hands once and leaned forward in his chair at the kitchen table. “All right—so talk. What’s the big mystery?”

  I’d asked him to arrive in town before the others because I wanted to discuss something important.

  I opened my beer and took a sip. “No big mystery. I’ve been kicking around a business idea and wanted to run it by you.”

  “I’m listening,” he said.

  I had done a lot more than kick the idea around, so I launched right into it: I wanted to start a small record label. The vital parts of a record company were the ability to make a great record and to promote it. I knew how to make a great-sounding record. And Cynthia was the best PR person I knew.

  I explained that the owner of the studio where I worked had already agreed to let me record there off-hours for utility costs and a percentage of sales. For fifty thousand dollars, I figured, we could record and promote our first two CDs.

  “I know some great musicians out there,” I said. “All they need is some exposure.”

  “How much money have you raised so far?” Nolan asked.

  “Raised?” I shook my head. “We’ve been able to put a few thousand into savings. But now with the baby coming, we wanted to see if we could move things along.”