Where the Heart Leads

by Stephanie Laurens

  Until she felt hot, damp, and swollen there, too, until the flesh between her thighs ached and throbbed.

  Again, he seemed to know. His hands had left her breasts, fastening about her waist to hold her steady as he gorged on the swollen peaks; now those steadying hands eased their grip, then one after the other pushed up her skirts and petticoats enough to slide beneath.

  And grip her bare hips, then slide, slowly, down her naked thighs.

  Then, even more slowly, back up.

  Courtesy of her position, he could fondle as he wished. He continued to minister to her breasts, pressing unrelenting, distracting delight upon her, keeping her teetering on her knees so she had to grip his shoulders to remain steady.

  Although her eyes were closed, as his caresses grew more explicit beneath her skirts, as his long, elegant, too-knowing fingers slipped between her thighs and stroked—and she quivered—she felt the touch of his gaze, burning and hot, searing over her face, then falling to her heaving breasts.

  Then he took the peak of one breast into his mouth again, and suckled—more fiercely. She cried out, a short, sharp gasp of pleasure; head back, spine tight, she tried desperately to fill her lungs—failed as she felt his fingers slide through the slickness between her thighs, and slowly, inexorably, penetrate her body.

  He eased one finger deep inside her, then stroked. Withdrew to caress again, to touch again, to cup again, then penetrate and stroke once more.

  She gasped as sensation blossomed anew, on a wholly different plane. One where the heat expanded, yearning growing within it, tangled and twined, desire and passion seamlessly melding, the flames of one and the heat of the other building to a conflagration.

  One he orchestrated.

  He gave her just so much, stoking the fires high, only to ease her back from combustion. From the point beyond which she knew she would simply be consumed and die.

  Again and again, he took her to the edge; each time the surge of heat increased and battered at her senses. At her mind.

  At her will.

  Forcing open her eyes, from beneath her heavy lids she glanced down—at him as he suckled at her breast. What she saw in his face was so stark, it shook her mind free for one brief moment of lucidity—to wonder if she knew what she was doing, if she truly understood what she’d invited.

  That he wanted her, desired her, she had absolutely no doubt, but that he wanted her to desire him, to want him with the same raw urgency that she sensed building within him, was a revelation.

  She suddenly understood the purpose behind his repetitive stimulation, each time taking her senses to new heights, opening her desires to new depths of need.

  On the thought, his hand shifted between her thighs and he pressed, worked a second finger in alongside the first, stretching her—blatantly readying her.

  She gasped, clung, eyes again shut tight as the world as she knew it grew brighter, tighter, edged by light—but then he drew his fingers from her.

  Leaving her with the strangest sensation of hanging in midair.

  Before she could return to reality and protest, his hands and mouth left her entirely, then she felt him bunching up her gown.

  “Time to get this off.”

  His voice was so gravelly it took a moment for her to make out the words. She wasn’t much help; it was all she could do to follow directions and let him draw the gown off over her head.

  He swiftly undid the ties of her petticoats, then they followed her gown—disappearing somewhere off the bed, flung into darkness.

  Leaving her on her knees, straddling his waist, clad only in the insubstantial film of her chemise.

  The golden light of the candles washed over her; looking, ravenously drinking in every curve, every quintessentially feminine line, Barnaby set his jaw against the urge to rip the delicate material from her.

  He wanted—burned with a want beyond anything he’d ever known. If he didn’t have her soon…but she was a virgin; he had to go slowly. Gently. Even if slow and gentle were no longer in his repertoire, not, apparently, when it came to her.

  Greedy, rapacious, primitive need clawed his gut, filled his veins.

  It was all he could do to, with one hand, reach out and grasp the silken tie he’d earlier fingered, and tug—not rip—just enough to unravel the bow.

  “This goes, too.”

  He could barely recognize his voice, it seemed to come from so deep within him. From the self he kept buried, that she drew forth.

  Why she called so unerringly to that more primitive side of him he didn’t know; he only knew that she did, that he had to somehow cope with that more primal, raw-emotioned male presence that, ever since he’d got his hands on her, had slowly infused his body and brain.

  Unexpectedly, her eyes locked with his. Dark, unfathomable, rich, her eyes promised and lured…then she shifted upon him, arms crossing, hands reaching for the hem of the chemise…

  In one fluid movement, she drew it up, over her head, then, her eyes once more locking with his, she flung the garment away.

  He felt more than heard a low growl, realized it was reverberating in his throat.

  Moving without conscious thought, his hands grasped her waist, gripped.

  It took a massive effort but he set his jaw, hauled back on the reins, and halted his headlong rush to completion. Cut off—denied—the impulse to lift her, slip the buttons on his trouser flap, and release his straining erection so he could pull her down and sink it deep between her thighs.

  Later, he promised his primitive self.

  Without doubt, that primitive self growled.

  Seething, it subsided, once again under his control—allowing him to roll them back to where they’d started, with her on her back beneath him.

  But this time she was naked.

  Gloriously bare.

  All of him—his sophisticated self in complete agreement with his more primitive side—rejoiced. Mentally licked his lips.

  He bent his head and kissed her, deeply, thoroughly, reacquainting himself with the wonders of her mouth—ensuring on the way that she was acquiescent, unable to argue, even to talk.

  Or so it should have been, but when he drew back and lifted his head, his next goal shining like a beacon through the sensual fog wreathing his mind, he realized she was wriggling, tugging…

  He blinked and focused on her. She saw, and frowned. “Your shirt.”

  “What about it?”

  She nearly glared. “I’m naked—and you’re not. I want…you to be.”

  He nearly glared back, but…he did want her to want precisely that. Biting off a muttered curse, he rolled off her; it took exactly ten seconds for him to rid himself of his shirt and trousers.

  Then he rolled back, and pinned her.

  He looked down into her eyes. “Satisfied?”

  Her eyes had grown wide. He wasn’t sure how much she’d glimpsed, but that look suggested she’d seen enough. “Ah…” Her voice nearly failed. She cleared her throat. “I suppose…”

  The throaty whisper sawed at his control.

  “Don’t think about it,” he growled, and kissed her again. Deeper, more ravenously, letting his more forceful, ruthless instincts free enough to ensure that this time when he lifted his head, she was in no condition to distract him again.

  He hadn’t counted on her hands. On her touch.

  How such small, fragile feminine hands could exert such power over him he had no clue, but from gripping his sides, as he drew back they skated forward, over his chest—and all he could do was close his eyes and shudder.

  And wait, suddenly caught on the sharp hook of expectation, as she spread her fingers and explored, pressing through the wiry hairs to trace the muscle bands, tentatively stroking the flat discs of his nipples before sliding lower, pressing over the ridges of his abdomen—as if she were enthralled.

  He was in thrall, effortlessly held immobile as she delicately explored—and razed his control. Cindered it, until only a frazzled strand remained;
desperate, he cracked open his lids and looked into her face—saw the fascination etched in her expression, the deepening glow in her eyes.

  Fascination, enthrallment, sensual capture—they seemed to affect each other in the same way. To the same degree.

  Very possibly in the same vein, to the same end, the same consuming, all-encompassing passion.

  The realization shredded what little control he had left; as his more primitive instincts slipped past his guard and insidiously wreathed through him, he groaned, surrendered. Lowering his head, he kissed her again.

  Voraciously, as his true nature desired.

  Hungrily, as if she were his only succor, the only sweetness that would slake his desires.

  He plunged into her mouth and took—and she gave. Far from retreating in the face of his too-aggressive engagement, she eagerly met him, ardently fed him, and—unbelievably—urged him on.

  When he next raised his head, it was reeling, filled with the scent, the taste, of her.

  Lips parted, she was panting when he edged lower in the bed to sample her breasts again. More aggressively, more fiercely. More possessively.

  She permitted it, glorying even while fighting to master the sensations he pressed on her—fighting, he knew, for a degree of control he knew better than to let her seize.

  When a soft moan escaped her, when her clenched fingers slackened in his curls, he knew he was safe.

  He moved lower still, trailing his lips down the center of her body.

  His tongue delved into her navel; Penelope gasped and clutched his head again, too rocked by the novel sensation to even think. Forming thoughts—coherent ones—was far beyond her. Her wits were overrun. He’d used sensation to completely overwhelm them.

  All she had left to her was feeling. The most glorious panoply of cresting sensations that built and crashed over her, then washed through her in waves.

  Delicious, illicit, dangerous perhaps, yet without thought or reservation she gave herself over to all he offered, all he wished; she’d wanted to know and he was teaching her—more than she’d ever dreamed.

  He moved lower still, his hard body sliding down between her legs, forcing her knees apart so he could lie comfortably; she accommodated him without thought. Hot, openmouthed kisses punctuated with gentle nips peppered her stomach; she squirmed, the hot ache inside flickering and flaring.

  The sensation of his skin sliding against hers was a curious, surprising, distracting delight. Tougher and rougher, dusted with crinkly abrading hair, stretched over flesh and muscle much harder than her own, his skin played against hers, in comparison so soft and delicate, a primal physical manifestation of his maleness and her femaleness—and the elemental contrasts between.

  His lips slid to the crease between thigh and torso, refocusing her attention. With the tip of his tongue, he traced inward, a hot line like an arrow leading to…

  She inwardly frowned. What…?

  His “what next” had her swallowing a shriek.

  At the second, more intrusive brush of his lips over her curls, she struggled, then tried to grab his shoulders, but his arm across her waist held her back, down—while his other hand grasped one thigh just above the knee and moved it aside…

  Opening her so he could look at her there.

  Sheer shock held her immobile, her gaze locked on his face—on what she could read in the hard, angular planes. What she could see…heaven help her.

  Then he bent his head, and set his lips to her flesh.

  On a breathless gasp, she shrieked his name, tried desperately to twist away, failed, grabbed his head, fingers locking in his hair, felt her entire body jolt as the sensation of him kissing, then licking—and then, oh God, sucking—raced like wildfire through her, a roaring conflagration that melted her nerves and left her a molten puddle of need.

  Of hunger burning. Under her skin, through her veins, deep in her body.

  She lay back on a moan. Eyes closed, she had no choice but to lie there and let him show her what she’d wished to know—to let the sensations ride her, let them fill her mind and overload her senses.

  Let him, and them, sweep her away.

  To where desire ruled and passion held sway, to where nothing mattered beyond their heat, and the rapacious, ravenous need that flowed in its wake.

  His tongue lapped, stroked, his lips caressed, and the heat within her coalesced. With every touch, the fire burned brighter. Tighter. More intense.

  Until it became her all, the one thing that in that instant mattered.

  A true consuming. A real surrender.

  But the fiery tension only grew more intense. Until she couldn’t breathe. Until the strands of desire, all fire and heat, wrapped about her so tightly she felt she’d implode.

  Then with his tongue he mimicked what he’d earlier done with his finger, a slow, languid penetration and retreat.

  And she shattered.

  Fractured into a million shards of heat and light and glory.

  She gasped, rode the moment—greedily absorbing all she could. But the brightness faded, leaving her dazed, yet strangely empty. Oddly expectant, as if there should be more.

  Every muscle in her body felt liquefied, all tension released, yet…still she hungered.

  Opening her eyes, she looked down at him. He’d lifted his head, and was watching her.

  He studied her eyes, then shifted, rising like some powerful god over her.

  Raising one hand, she set her palm to his chest, stroked lightly. Even through the gentle touch she could feel the steely tension coiled within him. Feeling entirely too powerful—knowing that tension was because of her, was born of desire for her—she found the strength to arch her brows. “Is that it?”

  She knew perfectly well it wasn’t.

  From under heavy lids, his eyes met hers. He’d set her thighs wide; now he wedged his hips between. She felt the broad head of his erection seek, and find, her entrance; it hovered there, and she quivered.

  Bracing his forearms on the pillows, caging her head, he bent his and found her lips—took her mouth in a slow, deep, soul-stealing kiss that once again had her wits whirling, that when he finally lifted his head left her breathless.

  From a distance of mere inches, Barnaby met her gaze. “That was the prelude. This”—he thrust slowly, powerfully, and steadily, deep into her slick heat—“is the beginning of the main event.”

  He felt the restriction of her maidenhead, tested it, then withdrew and thrust sharply, more powerfully, breaching the barrier and riding deep into her luscious body.

  Shock lanced through her; her features pinched, reflecting pain.

  Inwardly cursing, he held still, jaw clenched with the effort to deny his raging impulses—his primitive side that wanted immediately to plunder and ravish unrestrained; despite having been more than ready, she was small—and he wasn’t.

  Head bowing, muscles bunching and flickering, his breathing harsh in his ears, he fought to give her time to adjust.

  She did. In tortuous increments. As if unsure how far she should go, how far it was safe to relax. Her muscles unclenched in stages.

  Gritting his teeth, he gave her as long as he could, then looked at her—met her eyes. “You’re all right.”

  Not a question. She blinked up at him, her eyes dark, lustrous pools in the candlelight. Their expression grew briefly distant, as if she were checking the validity of his statement, then she refocused on him. And there was wonder in her eyes. “Yes. You’re right.” Her lips curved. The last of her panicked tension evaporated.

  Tension of a different sort returned to fill the void, and called to him. To every instinct he possessed.

  The sudden glow in her eyes, the subtle deepening of her sirenlike smile, the way her hand slid up to cradle his nape, the way she met his gaze—inviting, alluring, a female who sensed her worth—said she knew it, knew the effect she had on him, knew exactly what he wanted to do—and approved. Wholeheartedly.

  On a groan, he surrendered to
her urging and lowered his lips to hers.

  And gave them both what they wanted.

  He took her mouth in a soul-deep kiss, anchoring them. Then he withdrew and thrust again, whirling them into a landscape he knew well, one of sensual pleasure. He kept them there with each slow, measured thrust, every deep, forceful penetration.

  As when they waltzed, she followed his lead. Her body undulated beneath his, complementing, matching, receiving, taking, giving.

  The pleasure swelled, welled, swirled through them as they danced, growing ever hotter, ever more insistent, ever more intense.

  He refused to rush, and wonder of wonders she didn’t press him to; rather, she matched him, readily rode with him, her curiosity and delight apparent in every gasp, every encouraging murmur, every evocative touch of her fingers on his skin.

  Wherever she touched, he burned, but that was nothing—no comparison to—the fiery heat of her sheath. It gripped him, drew him in; scalding and wet, she took him in and plainly gloried in the act.

  Beneath him, she writhed; as the tempo inevitably increased, she clutched, nails digging in as she held tight and urged him—drove him—on.

  He dragged in a shuddering breath and complied. The sensations that surrounded him, her lush body, her passion, her readily offered desire, colored his familiar landscape more brightly, more intensely, than it had ever been before.

  Every movement, every touch, of his body and hers, every exchange seemed more laden with feeling. Tactile sensation, true, yet it carried something deeper, something finer—something other.

  Some intangible part of them both. As if on this familiar landscape they’d somehow shifted onto some higher plane and were communing at a more elemental level.

  He couldn’t think about it, define it, now. His mind was too awash with whatever he was feeling. The intensity alone, the heightened sensations, battered at his mind.

  He wouldn’t have believed it if he’d been told—that she, an innocent no matter how well read, could so easily and completely and utterly engage with him, with his sensual side, one so very experienced—more, with the primitive passions he normally suppressed, normally kept on a tight leash so he wouldn’t shock his partner.