The Lonesome Gods

by Louis L'Amour

  “They were pretty red stones, and I was going to give them to a woman I knew. Make nice beads, I told him. By that time he was sweatin’. He wanted them stones so bad he could taste it.

  “I told him my woman would surely like them. I said, ‘Why, I wouldn’t part with ary one o’ them for less than a hundred dollars!’ You know somethin’, boy? He jumped at it. That’s what he did. He fairly jumped at it. He gave me a hundred dollars apiece for three of them!

  “Now, I won’t rightly say I did the honest thing, but I never told him they was rubies. I never told him different. Was I, a plumb ignorant ol’ desert rat, s’posed to know a ruby when I seen it?

  “He figured he was cheatin’ me, and I taken his money. Fact is, I get myself a fresh grubstake ever’ now and again, just that way. I go into a saloon or somewhere, maybe an eatin’ joint where there’s newcomers, and I take out those garnets and study them. Soon or late, somebody wants to buy ’em.

  “‘Just pretty red stones,’ I says to ’em. ’Ain’t worth nothin’ except to my woman. She’ll set store by them.’

  “You know somethin’, boy? They try to talk me into sellin’ those red stones! And you know somethin’? I must be gettin’ weak, because almost ever’ time they convince me to sell. With three hundred dollars I can prospect for a year, livin’ high on the hog.

  “Now, when I leave here, I’m goin’ north to that crater and find some more. It ain’t easy, for they ain’t so easy to find, but they are there.”

  Peter stayed for a week, teaching me how to make flapjacks, biscuits, and a few simple things, and I learned from him how to find gold, how to pan, what to look for. When he rode away, I did not know that it would be a long, long time before I saw him again.

  Chapter 16

  IN THE PASSING of days, I rode often to the mountains or desert with Francisco, and often we accompanied his father and other Cahuillas who went to look at the acorn crop, for the oaks provided much of the living for the Cahuillas. It was important they be gathered at once or they would be eaten by squirrels or other animals and birds. Also, if the season was wet, they might rot on the ground before they could be gathered.

  We rode along the watercourses to judge the mesquite and screw-bean crops, or to see when the tuna would be ripe on the cacti. The Indians knew each plant and what it offered in seeds, fruit, or pulp.

  On one day we came upon a dim, dim trail leading off into the remote distance, but when I pointed it out, they rode on their way. “It is a trail of the Old Ones,” Francisco explained.

  “You do not follow it?”

  “It is their trail. We have our own.”

  “It might lead to water.”

  “It is their trail.”

  Yet only some of the trails were avoided, and I did not know why. Perhaps the water that had once been there was gone now, or the groves from which the Old Ones gathered had disappeared. And who were the “Old Ones”?

  Each day I learned something new, and when we went to the desert and mountains, I watched which seeds were gathered and which plants were avoided. Having crossed the desert with my father, Mr. Farley, and the others, I had learned much, but I began to see that the area in which the Cahuilla lived. partly due to the range of altitude from below sea level to the top of the mountains at more than ten thousand feet, was richer in plants than those held by other Indians whose countries I had passed through.

  Occasionally we met other Cahuillas, and once a party of Chemehuevi, and all knew me because of my father. He had discovered their starving time and had come to them with beef cattle. Flash floods had swept away some of the mesquite groves upon which they depended, and dampness left by the rains had ruined the acorn crop, but the beef my father brought saved their lives.

  The days passed into months, and the months into years. In the house, I puzzled over the books, reading slowly, gradually becoming accustomed to the strange words, learning their meanings by their associations. Once a strange Indian came suddenly to the door, warning me of riders, and I slipped away into the dunes to watch.

  No doubt it was believed that I was dead, but my grandfather was an uneasy man, and perhaps rumors had come to him that somebody lived in this house. Once, when they would have entered the house, they were stopped by Cahuillas who rose like ghosts from the dunes, bows bent and rifles ready. The riders turned their horses and very wisely rode quietly away, expecting at any moment an arrow in the back and perhaps a pitched battle. The Cahuillas had followed them for several miles, making them aware their presence was not wanted.

  Yet I had not begun to understand the remoteness of the area in which I lived. The pass between the San Jacinto Mountains and Mount San Gorgonio was the best of all passes to the coast but was the last one found by white men. From a distance, approaching from the east, the high peaks loomed against the sky, seemingly an unlikely place for a pass.

  Once they had arrived, the Californios rarely visited the desert. Some of them had come by sea, others came over the inland route from Mexico that crossed the river near the home of the Yuma Indians, then the desert and the Anza route over the mountains, which lay south of the pass where I lived. There simply was no reason for them to make the long, difficult journey from Los Angeles to the southern desert.

  Nor was there anything here they wanted, nothing to incline them to make the attempt. The hot springs from which Agua Caliente took its name had long been used by Indians, but the Californios had access to hot springs that were closer, and the existence of these was scarcely known.

  From time to time a book vanished from my shelf, but always another book took its place, and once during my first months alone a sack of piñon nuts was left on my table. Another time a loaf baked from some strange, nutty flour.

  Reading became easier, so I welcomed the strange books, but I was careful not to mention the exchanges of books to the Cahuillas, who might not have understood.

  Obviously, somebody was hiding out on the mountain who did not wish to be seen but who did not wish me any harm. If he did not wish to be seen, it was his affair.

  When my father died, he left some six hundred dollars in gold coins. When the supplies dwindled away and Peter came no more, I took one of the coins from the iron box my father had hidden away to the small store to replenish the supplies.

  The storekeeper took my coin; then, glancing around to be sure he was unheard, he said, “I ain’t askin’ you, boy, but if you got more of these, you’d best not let folks know. Even the best people will talk, an’ there’s drifters come through who’d kill a man for less than this.”

  He hefted the coin. “This here will buy you all you want and then some. You leave it with me, and when you are needful of something, just come an’ get it. I’ll tell you when I need more.”

  He seemed a kindly man, yet I trusted no one. His suggestion was logical, however, and I did as he proposed.

  Often alone, sometimes with Francisco, I wandered the fringes of the desert and deep into the San Jacinto and Santa Rosa mountains. Often I climbed in the canyons, occasionally staying out for days at a time.

  One day when alone I heard a horseman coming. The door was open to catch the coolness of the evening, so I took down my father’s pistol and stood in the doorway, holding it down by my side, only my shoulder, arm, and one eye showing.

  All my life I had been familiar with guns. Long ago I’d been taught that all guns were to be considered as loaded and were to be handled with care, yet any rider might be an enemy. Yet when the rider came within sight, I almost dropped the gun.

  It was Jacob Finney!

  Tucking the pistol behind my belt, I stepped outside. As soon as he saw me he began to smile. “Well, now! You’ve growed some! Mind if I get down?”

  “Please do, and come inside.”

  Leaving his horse ground-hitched, he came in, putting his hat on the floor beside him as he sat down. He noticed the pistol.

  “You expectin’ trouble?”

  “Yes, sir. They killed my father.�
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  “Heard of it. From what was said, he taken one or two with him. Well, that’s too bad. He was a mighty fine man.”

  “He would have taken more of them, but he tried to push me out of the way before he drew.”

  “Like him.”

  “How is Mr. Kelso?”

  “Last I heard, he was workin’ a claim in the Mother Lode country. Farley’s got him a ranch down San Diego way.”

  He looked at me again. “You’re a couple of shades darker from the sun. How old would you be now?”

  “I am ten.”

  “I’ll be damned! You look four or five years older. You been takin’ care of yourself here?”

  “Yes. The Cahuillas are friendly, and I spend a lot of time with them. Sometimes I eat with them, sometimes I cook, but usually I eat what they do. There’s piñon nuts, tuna, and sometimes berries.”

  “Surely ain’t doin’ you no harm. Seen the horses out yonder, too. You been ridin’?”

  So I told him about the wild country, the desert, the ancient sea bottom, and the old shoreline that could be seen along the sides of the mountains. “I’ve found lots of shells out there, old seashells from ages ago. The Cahuillas say the sea has been in there several times. Or maybe it was water from the Colorado.”

  “All right if I stay the night? I’m packin’ my own blanket roll.”

  “Sure. I’ll put up your horse.”

  “Leave it to me. Always take care of my own horse, no offense meant.” He got to his feet, turning his hat in his hands. “I come out here a-purpose to see you. Didn’t know if you was alive or not, but Miss Nesselrode—you remember her? She’s been mindful of you. Sent me to see if you were alive. Said she told your pa she’d care for you.” He grinned. “Not that you seem to need much care.”

  He went outside and I started some coffee. It was good to see him. When he came in and dropped his gear in a corner, I asked, “How is Miss Nesselrode?”

  He chuckled, giving me a sly, amused look. “Now, that there’s quite a woman, Hannes, she really is. Purty, too. She found herself a little adobe, bought a few odds and ends, and went to church, and the first thing you know, she’s been proposed to a couple of times and is cuttin’ quite a figger there around town. She walks around with that lacy parasol of hers, and the first thing you know, she’s bought herself a horse an’ sidesaddle.

  “Seems she heard of some hard-up trapper who has ketched some sea otter. Saying nothin’ to anybody else, she had me buy those skins from him, at rock-bottom prices. Then she shipped them off to China. Meanwhile she heard of another man up the coast who had skins for sale, and she bought them, got them off on the same ship.

  “She’s right canny, that woman is. She hired Kelso an’ me to do the shippin’ for her, an’ she’s just a mighty pretty young woman, visitin’ around.

  “You know how womenfolks are, always talking of clothes, babies, marriage, an’ what’s happenin’ around. Well, she listens, she gets acquainted with the families of Abel Stearns, Isaac Williams, Wolfskill, an’ them.

  “She has me buy about sixty acres of land, and on Wolfskill’s advice she plants it to lemons an’ oranges. Then she has Kelso buy another piece, which she plants to grapes.

  “Los Angeles is a sleepy little town. A lot of ructions down in Sonora Town, time to time, but the Californios don’t much care what happens as long as they have a fandango now and again, good horses to ride, and money to spend on fancy clothes.

  “They’re good folks, but there’s never been any pressure on them until now. Times have changed, and most of them can’t see what’s happenin’. You’ve heard talk of beaver. When folks over in France and such places switched from beaver hats to silk hats, the bottom fell out of the market. There just wasn’t any money in trappin’ or tradin’ for beaver anymore.

  “Now, some folks think the mountain men were just a bunch of big ignorant trappers. You an’ I know otherwise. They were mighty shrewd men who went to tradin’ an’ trappin’ because if a man kept his hair, that was the fastest way to get rich.

  “Now that beaver don’t bring no good prices, what do they do? Keep ridin’ a dyin’ horse? Not them. Some of them had already been out here with Jed Smith, Ewing Young, and the like, so they come out. They’ve got a little money, a lot of savvy, and they commence buyin’. Some of them married Spanish girls, but whatever they do, they are in business.

  “They open stores, banks, start plantin’ grapes to make wine, oranges, lemons, and such. Land is dirt cheap, so they buy land, most of them become Mexican citizens.

  “Now Miss Nesselrode arrives in town. She’s a mighty pretty woman and she meets folks, and men like to talk to pretty women and they like to show off how smart they are. She sits in their patios, has that beautiful smile working, and she’s a good listener.

  “Kelso, he takes off for the Mother Lode country, but I stay around. You know something? One reason I stayed is because I just want to see what happens.

  “Now, I’m around her a good bit. I notice things. She’s losin’ weight, gettin’ right thin. When I stop by, she always has coffee for me, but she doesn’t invite me for dinner anymore. It takes a while to sink in, and then I get it. She’s broke. She’s livin’ on guts and the few dollars she has left. She’s invested what all she had in a gamble, a damn big gamble!

  “What I’m talkin’ about is the first six months she was here. One time I am tyin’ my horse to her gate and she doesn’t know I’m there. I see her countin’ her money. It’s mighty little. She counts it an’ recounts it, an’ there can’t be more than ten, twelve dollars there. She stands there, figurin’ like, chewing on her lip.

  “I knock on the door, she lets me in, we have coffee, and she is all smiles and she tells me she’s made up her mind. She’s goin’ to open a bookstore.”

  “But you said she had no money.”

  He chuckled. “Like I said, that woman’s got nerve. Real, down-to-bedrock nerve! She’s holdin’ a busted flush and she bets everything on her last card.

  “The next morning she goes to see Abel Stearns. Now, Abel, he’s a shrewd man an’ he’s got more money than he knows what to do with, an’ he’s made it all himself.

  “She goes to him and tells him she intends to open a bookstore and until her ‘funds’ arrive from Boston, she is short of cash, but she wants to open the store now. When she walks out of there, she has the credit, and she already has a few books of her own. She gets more.

  “That store becomes a gatherin’ place for all of that old mountain-man crowd and some others. She meets the stage, buys books and magazines, even newspapers from people. Her place is the best source of what goes on back in the States.

  “Within a few weeks it is the place where Wolfskill, Workman, Rowland, Wilson, Stearns, and all that crowd come for news and to see each other. And she’s busy, workin’ around, but listening. I tell you, Hannes, within the next three months that woman knows more about what’s happenin’ in California than anybody!

  “Stearns isn’t hurting for money, she’s an attractive woman, so he doesn’t dun her. When she’s in business for about six months, she’s been in Los Angeles about a year, you understand, then her ship comes in.

  “I mean that ship comes back from China and she has sold those otter skins to the Chinese for ten times what she paid for them. She pays off Stearns and she’s free an’ clear with money to work with.

  “So she stocks her bookstore, orders more books, papers, and such, and then goes up and down the coast, me helping, buying otter skins, cowhides, anything she can sell.

  “She goes out to remote ranches which have a time gettin’ hides down to the shore where they can be sold to the ships. She buys cheap.

  “She lives like she always did, goes about her business with a friendly smile and a kind of wide-eyed innocence. She owns her bookstore building, she owns another building close by, she owns a small ranch, some horses and cattle, and she operates her bookstore like it was a bank. That woman’s a caution!”
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br />   “I’m glad,” I said. “I liked her.”

  “That’s what brings me here,” Jacob said. “She wants you to come to Los Angeles. She sent me to get you.”

  Chapter 17

  LOS ANGELES?

  “I don’t know. What of my grandfather?”

  Finney tugged at a boot, then stopped. “I asked her that, but she says he believes you’re dead.

  “He has a place in town, but he spends most of his time out on his hacienda. When he does come in, he rides in like a king, with six or eight vaqueros riding along.”

  Jacob pulled off the boot and placed it on the floor. “She’d give it out that you were kinfolk from back East. She has dealings with shipowners, ship captains, and the like. She could say you’d just come around the Horn with one of them.”

  Suddenly I wanted very much to see her. She had been kind, and she had known my father, even if only for a short time. I knew he had respected her.

  Also, she was a no-nonsense sort of woman. I remembered the Indian she had shot. Then, for the first time, I was admitting I was lonely.

  “She’s worried about your education. She says she promised your pa she’d look after you if anything happened to him.”

  “I like it here.”

  “You could always come back. Look here, Hannes, you ain’t an Injun. This here is all right for now, but what will you do when you’re a man? Your pa had education. He could go anywhere. He could have been anything.

  “You ain’t an Injun, and no amount of livin’ out here will make you one. You come along to Los Angeles and have a talk with Miss Nesselrode. If you want to come back, nobody will stop you.”

  “I like this house, and some of the things belonged to my father.”

  “Leave ’em. I’ll speak to the old gent down at the store, and you can tell your Injun friends.”

  “They do not come here. They are afraid.”

  “Afraid? Of what?”

  “They say this is the house of Tahquitz. They think because I live here that I have a special power, that my medicine is very strong.”