Mrs Craddock

by W. Somerset Maugham

  He kissed her and put her cushions right.

  “By Jove, it does me good to see you down again. You must pour out the tea for me. Now, confess, weren’t you unreasonable to make such a fuss about my going away? And I couldn’t help it, could I?”

  20

  But the love that had taken such despotic possession of Bertha’s heart could not be overthrown by any sudden means. When she recovered her health and was able to resume her habits it blazed out again like a fire that has been momentarily subdued, but has gained new strength in its coercion. It dismayed her to think of her extreme loneliness; Edward was now her mainstay and her only hope. She no longer sought to deny that his love was very unlike hers; but his coldness was not always apparent, and she so vehemently wished to find a response to her own ardour that she closed her eyes to all that did not too readily obtrude itself. She had such a consuming desire to find in Edward the lover of her dreams, that for certain periods she was indeed able to live in a fool’s paradise, which was none the less grateful because at the bottom of her heart she had an aching suspicion of its true character.

  But it seemed that the more passionately Bertha yearned for her husband’s love, the more frequent became their differences. As time went on the calm between the storms was shorter, and every quarrel left its mark and made Bertha more susceptible to affront. Realizing finally that Edward could not answer her demonstrations of affection, she became ten times more exacting: even the little tenderness that at the beginning of her married life would have overjoyed her, now too much resembled alms thrown to an importunate beggar to be received with anything but irritation. Their altercations proved conclusively that it does not require two to make a quarrel. Edward was a model of good temper and his equanimity imperturbable. However cross Bertha was, Edward never lost his serenity; he imagined that she was troubled over the loss of her child and that her health was not entirely restored: it had been his experience, especially with cows, that a difficult confinement frequently gave rise to a temporary change in disposition, so that the most docile animal in the world would suddenly develop an unexpected viciousness. He never tried to understand Bertha’s varied moods; her passionate desire for love was to him as unreasonable as her outbursts of temper and the succeeding contrition. Now Edward was always the same, contented equally with the world at large and with himself: there was no shadow of doubt about the fact that the world he lived in, the particular spot and period, were the very best possible, and that no existence could be more satisfactory than happily to cultivate one’s garden. Not being analytic, he forbore to think about the matter; and, if he had, would not have borrowed the phrases of M. de Voltaire, of whom he had never heard, and whom he would have utterly abhorred as a Frenchman, a philosopher and a wit. But the fact that Edward ate, drank, slept, and ate again as regularly as the oxen on his farm sufficiently proves that he enjoyed a happiness equal to theirs; and what more a decent man can want I certainly have not the faintest notion.

  Edward had moreover that magnificent faculty of always doing right and knowing it which is said to be the most inestimable gift of the true Christian; but if his infallibility satisfied himself and edified his neighbours, it did not fail to cause his wife annoyance. She would clench her hands and from her eyes shoot arrows of fire when he stood in front of her smilingly conscious of the justice of his own standpoint and the unreason of hers. And the worst of it was that in her saner moments Bertha had to confess that Edward’s view was invariably right and she completely in the wrong. Her injustice appalled her, and she took upon her own shoulders the blame of all their unhappiness. Always, after a quarrel from which Edward had come with his usual triumph, Bertha’s rage would be succeeded by a passion of remorse, and she could not find sufficient reproaches with which to castigate herself. She asked frantically how her husband could be expected to love her, and in a transport of agony and fear would take the first opportunity of throwing her arms round his neck and making the most abject apology. Then, having eaten the dust before him, having wept and humiliated herself, she would be for a week absurdly happy, under the impression that henceforward nothing short of an earthquake could disturb their blissful equilibrium. Edward was again the golden idol, clothed in the diaphanous garments of true love; his word was law and his deeds were perfect; Bertha was a humble worshipper offering incense and devoutly grateful to the deity that forbore to crush her. It required very little for her to forget the slights and the coldness of her husband’s affection; her love was like the tide covering a barren rock; the sea breaks into waves and is dispersed in foam, and the rock remains ever unchanged. This simile, by the way, would not have displeased Edward; when he thought at all he liked to think how firm and steadfast he was.

  At night, before going to sleep, it was Bertha’s greatest pleasure to kiss her husband on the lips, and it mortified her to see how mechanically he replied to this embrace. It was always she who had to make the advance, and when, to try him, she omitted to do so, he promptly went off to sleep without even bidding her good night. Then she told herself that he must utterly despise her.

  “Oh, it drives me mad to think of the devotion I waste on you,” she cried. “I’m a fool! You are all in the world to me, and I, to you, am a sort of accident: you might have married anyone but me. If I hadn’t come across your path you would infallibly have married somebody else.”

  “Well, so would you,” he answered, laughing.

  “I? Never! If I had not met you, I should have married no one. My love isn’t a bauble that I am willing to give to whomever chance throws in my way. My heart is one and indivisible, it would be impossible for me to love anyone but you. When I think that to you, I’m nothing more than any other woman might be, I’m ashamed.”

  “You do talk the most awful rot sometimes.”

  “Ah, that summarizes your whole opinion. To you I’m merely a fool of a woman. I’m a domestic animal, a little more companionable than a dog, but on the whole not so useful as a cow.”

  “I don’t know what you want me to do more than I actually do. You can’t expect me to be kissing and cuddling all the time; the honeymoon is meant for that, and a man who goes on honeymooning all his life is a fool.”

  “Ah, yes, with you love is kept out of sight all day, while you are occupied with the serious affairs of life, such as shearing sheep and hunting foxes; and after dinner it arises in your bosom, especially if you’ve had good things to eat, and is indistinguishable from the process of digestion. But for me love is everything, the cause and reason of life. Without love I should be non-existent.”

  “Well, you may love me,” said Edward, “but, by Jove, you’ve got a jolly funny way of showing it. But as far as I’m concerned, if you’ll tell me what you want me to do, I’ll try to do it.”

  “Oh, how can I tell you?” she cried, impatiently. “I do everything I can to make you love me, and I can’t. If you’re a stock and a stone, how can I teach you to be the passionate lover? I want you to love me as I love you.”

  “Well, if you ask me for my opinion I should say it was rather a good job I don’t. Why, the furniture would be smashed up in a week if I were as violent as you.”

  “I shouldn’t mind if you were violent if you loved me,” replied Bertha, taking his remark with passionate seriousness. “I shouldn’t care if you beat me. I shouldn’t mind how much you hurt me, if you did it because you loved me.”

  “I think a week of it would about sicken you of that sort of love, my dear.”

  “Anything would be preferable to your indifference.”

  “But, God bless my soul, I’m not indifferent. Anyone would think I didn’t care for you, or was gone on some other woman.”

  “I almost wish you were,” answered Bertha. “If you loved anyone at all, I might have some hope of gaining your affection. But you’re incapable of love.”

  “I don’t know about that. I can say truly that after God and my honour I treasure nothing in the world so much as you.”

 
“You’ve forgotten your hunter.”

  “No, I haven’t,” answered Edward, gravely.

  “What do you think I care for a position like that? You acknowledge that I am third; I would as soon be nowhere.”

  “‘I could not love you half so much, loved I not honour more,’” misquoted Edward.

  “The man was a prig who wrote that. I want to be placed above your God and above your honour. The love I want is the love of the man who will lose everything, even his own soul, for the sake of a woman.”

  Edward shrugged his shoulders: “I don’t know where you’ll get that. My idea of love is that it’s a very good thing in its place, but there’s a limit to everything. There are other things in life.”

  “Oh, yes, I know: there are duty and honour, and the farm and fox-hunting, and the opinion of one’s neighbours, and the dogs and the cat, and the new brougham and a million other things. What do you suppose you’d do if I had committed some crime and were likely to be imprisoned?”

  “I don’t want to suppose anything of the sort. You may be sure I’d do my duty.”

  “Oh, I’m sick of your duty. You din it into my ear morning, noon and night. I wish to God you weren’t so virtuous, you might be more human.”

  * * *

  Edward found his wife’s behaviour so extraordinary that he consulted Dr Ramsay. The general practitioner had been for thirty years the recipient of marital confidences and was sceptical of the value of medicine in the cure of jealousy, talkativeness, incompatibility of temper and the like diseases. He assured Edward that time was the only remedy, by which all differences were reconciled; but after further pressing, consented to send Bertha a bottle of harmless tonic, which it was his habit to give to all and sundry for most of the ills to which the flesh is heir. It would doubtless do Bertha no harm, and that is an important consideration to a medical man. Dr Ramsay advised Edward to keep calm and be confident that Bertha would eventually become the dutiful and submissive spouse whom it is every man’s ideal to see by his fireside when he wakes up from his after-dinner snooze.

  Bertha’s moods were trying. No one could tell one day how she would be the next, and this was peculiarly uncomfortable to a man who was willing to make the best of everything, but on the condition that he had time to get used to it. Sometimes in the twilight of winter afternoons, when the mind was naturally led to a contemplation of the vanity of existence and the futility of all human endeavour, she would be seized with melancholy. Edward, noticing she was pensive, a state which he detested, asked what were her thoughts, and half-dreamily she tried to express them.

  “Good Lord deliver us!” he said cheerily. “What rum things you do get into your little noddle! You must be out of sorts.”

  “It isn’t that,” she answered, smiling sadly.

  “It’s not natural for a woman to brood in that way. I think you ought to start taking that tonic again; but I daresay you’re only tired and you’ll think quite different in the morning.”

  Bertha made no answer. She suffered from the nameless pain of existence, and he offered her—iron and quinine: when she required sympathy because her heart ached for the woes of her fellow-men, he poured tincture of nux vomica42 down her throat. He could not understand, it was no good explaining that she found a savour in the tender contemplation of the evils of mankind. But the worst of it was that Edward was quite right—the brute, he always was! When the morning came, the melancholy had vanished, Bertha was left without a care, and the world did not even need rose-coloured spectacles to seem attractive. It was humiliating to find that her most beautiful thoughts, the ennobling emotions that brought home to her the charming fiction that all men are brothers, were due to mere physical exhaustion.

  * * *

  Some people have extraordinarily literal minds, they never allow for the play of imagination: life for them has no beer and skittles,43 and, far from being an empty dream, is a matter of the deadly-dullest seriousness. Of such is the man who, when a woman tells him she feels dreadfully old, instead of answering that she looks absurdly young, replies that youth has its drawbacks and age its compensations. And of such was Edward; he could never realize that people did not mean exactly what they said. At first he had always consulted Bertha on the conduct of the estate; but she, pleased to be a nonentity in her own house, had consented to everything he suggested, and even begged him not to ask her. When she informed him that he was absolute lord not only of herself, but of all her worldly goods, it was not surprising that he should at last take her at her word.

  “Women know nothing about farming,” he said, “and it’s best that I should have a free hand.”

  The result of his stewardship was all that could be desired; the estate was put into apple-pie order and the farms paid rent for the first time for twenty years. The wandering winds, even the sun and rain, seemed to conspire in favour of so clever and hard-working a man; and fortune for once went hand in hand with virtue: Bertha constantly received congratulations from the surrounding squires on the admirable way in which Edward managed the place; and he on his side never failed to tell her his triumphs and the compliments they had occasioned. But not only was Edward looked upon as the master by his farm-hands and labourers; even the servants of Court Leys treated Bertha as a minor personage whose orders were only to be conditionally obeyed. Long generations of servitude have made the countryman peculiarly subtle in hierarchical distinctions, and there was a marked difference between his manner with Edward, on whom his livelihood depended, and his manner with Bertha, who shone only with a reflected light as the squire’s missus.

  At first it had only amused her, but the most subtle jest may lose its savour after three years. More than once she had to speak sharply to a gardener who hesitated to do as he was bid, because his orders were not from the master. Her pride reviving with the decline of love, Bertha began to find the position intolerable; her mind was now very susceptible to affront, and she was desirous of an opportunity to show that after all she was still the mistress of Court Leys.

  It soon came. For it chanced that some ancient lover of trees, unpractical as the Leys had ever been, had planted six beeches in a hedgerow, and these in course of time had grown into stately trees, the admiration of all beholders. But one day as Bertha walked along a hideous gap caught her eyes: one of the six beeches had disappeared. There had been no storm, it could not have fallen of itself. She went up, and found it cut down; the men who had done the deed were already starting on another. A ladder was leaning against it, upon which stood a labourer attaching a line. No sight is more pathetic than an old tree levelled with the ground: the space which it filled suddenly stands out with an unsightly emptiness. But Bertha was more angry than pained.

  “What are you doing, Hodgkins?” she angrily asked the foreman. “Who gave you orders to cut down this tree?”

  “The squire, Mum.”

  “Oh, it must be a mistake. Mr Craddock never meant anything of the sort.”

  “’E told us positive to take down this one and them others yonder. You can see his mark, Mum.”

  “Nonsense. I’ll talk to Mr Craddock about it. Take that rope off and come down from the ladder. I forbid you to touch another tree.”

  The man on the ladder looked at her, but made no attempt to do as he was bid.

  “The squire said most particular that we was to cut that tree down today.”

  “Will you have the goodness to do as I tell you?” said Bertha growing cold with anger. “Tell that man to unfasten the rope and come down. I forbid you to touch the tree.”

  The foreman repeated Bertha’s order in a surly voice, and they all looked at her suspiciously, wishing to disobey but not daring to in case the squire should be angry.

  “Well, I’ll take no responsibility for it,” said Hodgkins.

  “Please hold your tongue and do what I tell you as quickly as possible.”

  She waited while the men gathered up their various belongings and finally trooped off.

 
21

  Bertha went home fuming, knowing perfectly well that Edward had given the order that she had countermanded, but glad of the chance to have a final settlement of rights. She did not see him for several hours.

  “I say, Bertha,” he said, when he came in, “why on earth did you stop those men cutting down the beeches on Carter’s field? You’ve lost a whole half-day’s work. I wanted to set them on something else tomorrow. Now I shall have to leave it over till Thursday.”

  “I stopped them because I refuse to have the beeches cut down. They’re the only ones in the place. I’m very annoyed that even one should have gone without my knowing about it. You should have asked me before you did a thing like that.”

  “My good girl, I can’t come and ask you each time I want a thing done.”

  “Is the land mine or yours?”

  “It’s yours,” answered Edward, laughing, “but I know better than you what ought to be done, and it’s silly of you to interfere.”

  Bertha flushed: “In future, I wish to be consulted.”

  “You’ve told me fifty thousands times to do always as I think fit.”

  “Well, I’ve changed my mind.”

  “It’s too late now,” he laughed. “You made me take the reins in my own hands, and I’m going to keep them.”

  Bertha in her anger hardly restrained herself from telling him she could send him away like a hired servant.

  “I want you to understand, Edward, that I’m not going to have those trees cut down. You must tell the men you’ve made a mistake.”

  “I shall tell them nothing of the sort. I’m not going to cut them all down—only three. We don’t want them there. For one thing the shade damages the crops, and otherwise Carter’s is one of our best fields. And then I want the wood.”

  “I care nothing about the crops, and if you want wood you can buy it. These trees were planted nearly a hundred years ago, and I would sooner die than cut them down.”