Mirage

by Ashley Suzanne

  “Where do you think you were supposed to be?” Skylar asks and I feel his heart start to beat faster again.

  “Right here, lying with you, right now, is where I’m supposed to be.”

  Skylar takes his free hand to lift my chin so our eyes meet. Looking into his crystal blue eyes, I almost see fury or rage when he starts to talk, “Did you sleep with him, Mira?”

  I try to look down, but he calls me out on it, “Please answer the question, Mira.”

  “No Skylar, I didn’t sleep with him. I won’t tell you I was a perfect little angel but I didn’t go all the way. So you know, you can rest easy; you are the last person I had sex with. Nobody else since you,” I say with a mixture of pride and embarrassment.

  I watch the anger leave his eyes, and turn to pure lust, or was it love. He removes his hand and lays my head back in the crook of his arm and rubs my hair. I can swear that I feel wetness on my head and feel his chest rise and fall quickly, almost as if he’s crying. I try to lift my head to look at him, but he keeps me in place.

  “Just go to sleep Mira. It’s been a long day.”

  I push myself off of him before he can catch me this time. Lying on his chest, with my elbows holding my chin up, I look into his tear stricken eyes. I have hurt this man again and that breaks my heart. With one hand, I reach out to caress his cheek and wipe away the wetness.

  “Sky, I never wanted to hurt you. I care about you so much and knowing that I hurt you again is tearing me up inside. Tell me that we’ll be okay,” I plead with him.

  “I don’t know Mira.”

  I lean forward and try to kiss him, but he pushes me back, not allowing me access to his mouth.

  “There isn’t anything in this world that I would rather do than kiss you right now Mira, but you were just with another man. You say you didn’t sleep with him but I’m almost positive that you kissed him. I never pursued you, even after Danny passed, because I’m not a sloppy seconds kind of guy. When you’re with me, it’s going to be only me. I can’t kiss you knowing that someone else is thinking of you the way I think of you. I can’t kiss you knowing that probably a few hours ago, another man had his tongue down your throat. I can’t kiss you knowing that had I not called you tonight, you probably would have been laying on another mans chest. I want to kiss you, but not like this.”

  I roll off Skylar and lay on the edge of the bed facing the wall, contemplating if I should get dressed and leave. Even though he didn’t say it, I know he is upset with me and might even be disgusted with me. Noting the time on the clock sitting on the nightstand, I decide it’s too late to drive home and I’ll just suck it up and sleep here, I close my eyes and start to drift off to sleep.

  Just as I’m about to fall asleep I feel an arm wrap around my waist and pull me close.

  “Mira, just because I can’t kiss you right now because of my own pride, doesn’t mean that I don’t want to lay with you and hold you. I need to feel your body next to mine and feel your heartbeat. I need to know that this is real.”

  I nestle into his embrace, holding the hand that is draped around my center.

  “I need you, Sky. Thank you for not being upset with me. I have missed you so much.”

  “Not as much as I missed you. Get some sleep Sweets.”

  Finally feeling the guilt subside, I know I’ll get a goodnight’s sleep, wrapped up with this man. The man that I love.

  Chapter Seventeen

  Waking up the next morning, I realize that I’m still wrapped up in Skylar’s arms, and it’s the greatest feeling ever. I don’t ever want to wake up without him ever again. Softly rolling on my other side, to face Skylar, he’s still sleeping. I kiss him on his cheek and admire his peaceful state.

  I quietly maneuver out of the bed and go into the attached bathroom, expecting just a toilet and a sink; I’m surprised when I find a stand up shower. Realizing that I still have Jacoby’s saliva on places of my body that Skylar would not be too happy about, I opt for a quick shower while he’s still sleeping.

  My quick shower turned into a much longer one. It feels so good to shower, knowing that on the other side of the bathroom door, the man that I adore is sleeping, waiting for me to crawl back in bed. As I’m lathering up my hair with the generic shampoo in the stall, the bathroom door opens.

  “Oh I’m sorry,” Skylar says. I can see him through the opaque glass that he’s smirking.

  “What exactly are you smirking at, Mr. McBride?”

  “My, my, my Ms. Adams, how the tables have turned. Wasn’t it you that walked in on me in the shower last time? Now it’s my turn to admire the view.”

  Laughing at his playfulness, I can’t help but fall more in love with him. He wants to play games; I can play better.

  “Are you going to just stand there or are you going to condition my hair?”

  Wasting no time, Skylar strips himself of his clothing and opens the shower door. Instead of jumping right in, he just stands there.

  “Well?” I ask.

  “Just admiring the view sweets.”

  After the admiration of my body, Skylar steps into the shower and reaches for the conditioner on the shelf. Taking his time to massage my scalp and making sure that every strand of my hair is properly attended to, he dips my head under the spray of the showerhead. If you have never had your hair washed by a lover, you’re missing out. This was a first for me and it might be just as good as sex.

  I let out a soft moan while Skylar was rinsing the rest of the condition out of my hair. Judging by the large bulge pressing against my thigh, I guess he liked this. While he wasn’t expecting it, I reached my hand between our wet bodies and grabbed him, wrapping my fingers around his length.

  Skylar let out a long breath, like he had been waiting for this forever. I gently stroke him while he takes hold of my hair still in his hands, and pulled slightly, angling my head at the perfect angle for him to devour my mouth. Instead of kissing my lips, he feathers light kisses on my nose and eyelids.

  “You didn’t sleep with him, right Mira?”

  “No, I already told you that,” I whisper.

  “Did you go down on him?”

  “No.”

  Skylar removed my hand from his cock and pushed me against the back of the shower wall. Looking down into my eyes, he kisses my forehead.

  “If you didn’t sleep with him or go down on him, what exactly did you do?”

  This is not the conversation that I want to have right now. I tried to push past him to leave the shower stall, but he was holding my shoulders, not allowing me to move.

  “I need to know Mira. If I’m going to take this any further, I need to know what I’m competing with.”

  Competing? Doesn’t he know that he isn’t in competition with anybody? Jacoby is a nice guy, but if I am being totally honest, he was just a distraction and that’s exactly what I tell Skylar.

  “You’re not competing with anyone Sky. You are the last person I have slept with. I have only been with you and one other person, Danny. I respect myself too much to just go throwing my cat around town. I can’t tell you what would have happened if you didn’t call me last night. What I can tell you is that I have never been happier to not know the what if’s. I’m where I’m supposed to be. I’m with you. You can either suck it up because I know you’ve been no angel either. I saw the girls you brought around. You’re the only one that I want. The question is do you want me?”

  As soon as I finished my mini rant, he looks in my eyes and crushes his mouth to mine. Feeling the need in his kiss, I return it with everything I have in me. I take his bottom lip and suck it between my teeth, biting lightly, gaining a growl from Skylar.

  Grabbing me by my ass and lifting me up, I instinctively wrap my legs around his hips and lock my feet around his back. I can feel his cock almost perfectly aligned to impale me at that very second. I wiggle a little in his arms to get the perfect angle. He senses what I was doing and wasted no time plunging into me.

  “God you
’re so fucking tight Mira. So fucking wet,” he growles into my mouth, still kissing me.

  Pulling back from the kiss, I give him my best ‘I told you so’ look, confirming that I hadn’t been with anyone else in quite a long time.

  Neither one of us finished before Skylar puts me down and turns the water off.

  “What the fuck?” I yell at him.

  “Not in here. I’m a little too excited right now. I need a second. Get out and dry off, I’ll be in the room in a minute,” he says breathing heavy.

  Oh no. We’re not playing this game. I have waited too long. It may have been a while for me and he might need a break to make it last longer, but I sure as shit don’t. I need this and I need him now. Back to the game playing, I guess.

  Stepping out of the shower, I grab a towel from the rack above the toilet. Trying to channel my inner Kylee, I decide to play the seductress. With my back facing the shower where Skylar is standing, undoubtedly staring at my naked body, I take the towel and bend all the way over, showing him all of my assets, and start drying my legs. His growl was all I needed to hear to know my plan is working.

  Seconds later, I could feel Skylar standing behind me and then he was grabbed my hips, rubbing his cock on my backside. Walking over to the counter, I lean forward and spread my legs shoulder length apart.

  “It’s now or never guy. What do you say? Want to play?” I tease.

  “Fuck. I’m telling you, I’ll do this, but it’s going to be hard and fast. I’ll make it up to you later,” Skylar growls.

  Wagging my ass at him, he takes my cue and angles himself at my entrance, almost toying with it. I lean all the way forward, with my tits resting on the counter and arch my back for the perfect angle. He slowly slides into my beyond wet heat until he’s balls deep. We moan in unison.

  “I’m going to grab your hair and ride you like my life depends on it, Mira. I’m sorry in advance if I hurt you, but I really can’t wait anymore.”

  I almost come from his words. Something about Skylar talking dirty while buried nine inches in my pussy sets me off.

  He grabs my hair with his right hand, wraps it around it and gives my hair a slight yank, to make sure that he has a good hold on me. He pulls my head back to where it’s almost painful before he begins his assault on my already swollen cunt. When he said hard and fast, he wasn’t lying.

  Plunging harder and deeper than I have ever experienced, I can feel my orgasm building in my core. I try to get my hand between my legs to massage my clit, but I can’t get a good angle. Knowing what I was trying to do, Skylar inches backwards and then reaches his hand between my thighs and massages the little bundle of nerves that needed attention. Almost immediately, I shoot off like a rocket. I have never come so hard in my life. Seconds later, Skylar goes so deep, pulling my hair so tight, trying to get even deeper than he already was, he comes with a growl, like nothing I have ever heard before.

  After cleaning up again, we go back into the bedroom. I don’t want to wear a generic shirt like I did to bed last night, so I put on Skylar’s shirt that was on the floor. There is just something about wearing a man’s shirt, even to lounge in, that makes a woman feel sexy, especially when the man doesn’t protest.

  Sitting on the bed, waiting for Skylar to get in, I started thinking. How was I going to address my not going to work this morning? How would I deal with Jacoby? I’m not typically a runner. Runner’s piss me off to no end. I just don’t see any other way around it. Once Skylar finds out that Jacoby was the man I was with last night, he will throw a shit fit about me being with him every day.

  Knowing what I have to do about work, I to send Kylee a quick text telling her to put the apartment hunting on hold. I can’t really move into a new apartment and not have a job. More time with my mother, I suppose.

  Me – Hey girl. I’m with Sky at the CH.

  Kylee – What??!!??!!

  Me – Long story. Talk later?

  Kylee – Jacoby?

  Me – Nope. Going to have to leave my job.No apartment

  Kylee – Fuck Mira.

  Me – Sry, call u later? WRUD?

  Kylee – Heading back to GR to get my stuff. I’ll ask ur mom if I can put it in the garage until we find something.

  Me – Sounds like a plan. She won’t mind. When will u be back?

  Kylee – Tomorrow morning. TTYL.

  Me – K. Bye

  Fuck, I really screwed up this time. Me trying to hide from my feelings for Skylar has now put Kylee in a bind. I’m going to have to do something amazing so she’s not too pissed at me.

  Putting my phone on the bed next to me, Skylar is looking at my frowning face puzzled.

  “Was it that bad?” he asks, looking disappointed.

  “No, not anywhere near bad,” I laugh at his potentially damaged ego, “I’m going to have to quit my job and Kylee is a little pissed we can’t get an apartment now. You know, no job equals no money.”

  “Why are you quitting?”

  Well fuck, how do I address this? “The guy that I went on a date with last night, well he was my boss.” I say biting my lip, waiting for a lecture.

  “Your boss? The guy from the bar the other night?”

  “The very same, and it’s probably not a good idea for me to work there anymore.”

  “I couldn’t agree with you more. You don’t have to stay with your mom you know, you could move in with me.”

  All of the air escapes my lungs, leaving me literally breathless. “I don’t think that’s a good idea Sky. We lived together before and it lasted a weekend.”

  Skylar picks me up in his arms and lays back on the bed, holding me. He starts kissing the top of my head while caressing my back.

  “I know that it didn’t work out so well last time, but look at us now. We’re a little bit older. We have admitted our feelings for each other. Last year, when we were together, I had stopped myself from saying something because I didn’t want you to think less of me, but Mira I want to say it. Is that okay?”

  “You don’t ever have to ask to say something that you want to me. The only way I can do this is with honesty. Brutal honesty, all the time, no matter what,” I say bracing myself for what he wanted to tell me. If I was being honest with myself, I don’t want to know, but I can’t be lied to. Especially with the life he leads. He needs to be honest with me about everything, no matter how much it will hurt. I would rather honesty and have my feelings hurt for a little while than to be lied to and be crushed and heartbroken.

  “Last year when we made love, I started to tell you that if I knew how amazing you felt, but I stopped myself. What I was going to say was, had I known how amazing you feel, I would have never let Danny talk to you first. I saw you first and think I fell in love with you in that moment. Then Danny stepped in and took over the scene. I have loved you ever since. There has never been another woman that has captured me like you have. You told me that you haven’t been with anyone else since you were with me last year, and the same goes for me Mira; you are the last person I have had sex with. If I could go back to the day we all met, I would have claimed you for my own then and not taken the backseat to Danny.”

  All I can do is look at Skylar with wide eyes and say, “Oh.” I always thought he might have a little crush on me, but love? I never thought he loved me. Thinking back to all of the little things he would always do for Danny to make me happy, I wonder if it he had Danny do them to see me happy because he couldn’t do them himself.

  “Sky, I don’t know what to say. I don’t know that I would change anything from our past. I love you now, but I loved Danny so much. When he died, it felt like a piece of me died along with him, but I didn’t die. You helped bring me back to life. You loved me enough for the both of us when I thought my world ended. That’s what made me fall in love with you, even when I didn’t want to admit it; I did love you. I might have loved you all this time we were apart, which is why I couldn’t be with anyone else. I tried to make myself get over the feeling
s I had for you with someone else, but it didn’t work. I came running as soon as you needed me, because I love you.”

  As soon as I finish saying what I needed to get off my chest and taking in what Skylar told me, I gently place my lips on his and kiss him with all the love I have for him. It wasn’t hard or sexual, it was a kiss that said “I love you to the moon and back and I will always love you.”

  “So why not move in with me Mira? My apartment is big enough for us; you can even have your own room, if you really want it. Let me take care of you while you find another job and get back on your feet. If you would feel more comfortable, it doesn’t have to be permanent. I just want to get to know you again. I feel like we missed so much time and I don’t want to miss another second with you.”

  “What about Kylee? She’s planning on staying with me at my mom’s house while we figure out a new living arrangement.”

  “She can come too. I would never make you leave her behind or screw her over. I like Kylee and she’s a part of you, so I guess I love her too, like a sister though,” he says teasing me.

  “I guess I could ask her later,” I say. Kylee and I have spent enough time together growing up that sharing a room with her for a few months, at the most, wouldn’t hurt. But let’s be honest, I’ll probably be in Skylar’s room more than my own, so it shouldn’t matter.

  “So is that a yes? You’ll move in with me?”

  “Yes, I will move in with you. I will take the second bedroom and share with Kylee for a few months, no more. Then Ky and I are moving out into our own place.”

  “We’ll see about that. I have it on good authority that you love me. When you love someone, your will can be bent pretty easily,” Skylar says winking and smirking at me.

  Grabbing a pillow from behind where I was laying, I smack Skylar softly across the chest. Before I know it, I’m laying on my back with Skylar hovering over me, prepared for war. He snatches the pillow from my hand and starts hitting me gently. Once he realizes that this will get him nowhere, the tickling begins. I’m extremely ticklish and he takes advantage of this knowledge. He’s relentless and I’m laughing so hard that I can’t breathe and my sides hurt.