Right Kind of Wrong

by Shelly Jones

  “As much as I thought you were hot as a princess, I will admit . . . I like this Emily better.” Xander says smiling at me.

  “Thanks, I think . . .” I let out a small laugh.

  “Come one, let’s get out of here.” He says grabbing my hand and leading me through the front. I’m shocked, I figured we’d sneak out the back.

  “I’m going to go say goodbye to the girls.” I tell him letting go of his hand.

  “I’m taking off.” I tell everyone.

  “Ok, well call me or us if you need anything.” Sam says hugging me.

  “I took that asshole’s picture. If he comes back in here, I’m using his nuts as target practice.” Kayla says, and we all bust out laughing.

  Reese pulls me off to the side, “He’s taking you home?”

  I shrug my shoulders. “Not sure where we’re going, but I told him I didn’t want to be alone tonight and he agreed to stay with me. So we’ll see.”

  “Well, that’s a step in the right direction. He doesn’t know your feelings are stronger, does he?”

  I shake my head “Nope, and I don’t know how much longer I’m going to be able to keep up this act.”

  “Well, let’s see how tonight goes.” Reese says giving me a hug. “Try to enjoy the rest of your night.” She says.

  “I’ll try. Thank you. For everything.”

  “You’re my girl. I’ll do anything for you, all of these girls will and so will our men. We’re just one big messed up family. Even if you two don’t become a couple, you will always be a part of this family.”

  “Thank you. I better go.” I say looking over at him and he’s smiling at me while talking to Billy and Blake.

  “Ok, call me tomorrow?”

  “You bet.”

  I walk over to Xander where he’s waiting with his hand out for me to grab, “You ready?” He asks.

  “Yeah, let’s get out of here.”

  Blake gives me a hug and whispers in my ear, “You’re safe with us . . . Always.”

  We break from the hug and I just give him a smile.

  Xander and I leave the bar and walk to his bike parked out front. He hands me a helmet and I happily put it on. He gets the bike ready for me to get on and I straddle the seat with no problems, grab ahold of him and hang on.

  I’m not sure where he’s taking me, but we’re just cruising around the city. The wind on my face is refreshing. It’s helping me not think about shit.

  We come to a red light, “I’m hungry!” he says.

  “Me too!”

  “Tacos?”

  “Sure.”

  He nods his head and we take off again. We pull into Taco Bell and go inside. There’s only a couple of people inside eating. We put our order in. Xander and I both order hard tacos but I added Mexican rice and we both got some cinnamon twists. “Hot sauce?” He asks.

  “Hot and Fire please.”

  “My kind of woman!”

  I grab the cups for our soda, “What kind of soda?”

  “Dr. Pepper.” He says.

  “Good choice,” I wink and walk away. I fill up our cups, find a clean table and sit at the available booth.

  We sit, eating in silence, “You doing ok?” He asks.

  “I’m alright. If you want to drop me off at my place, that’s fine. You don’t have to stay.” I reply while playing with my napkin.

  “Not happening. I’m staying with you tonight. I already told you this.”

  “You don’t have to.”

  “Maybe I want to.” And those four words out of his mouth made my stomach do flips.

  I didn’t even say anything and he didn’t either. We finished eating and when we went to leave he grabbed my hand and held it. I’m trying so hard to keep my emotions in check here, but he’s making it really hard not to let them get away from me.

  Where we end up was the last place I figured we would, his driveway. When we started our agreement, he told me I would never sleep at his house and yet, here we are, maybe we’re just stopping here for something. I don’t know. But I’m really confused right now.

  “What are we doing here?” I ask

  “Going to bed . . .”

  “But wait, you said I would never sleep here. That you don’t allow your fuck buddies to come here.”

  “Yeah, I know I did and this is probably a mistake, but it’s the only place I know that I could think of to keep you safe.”

  “Xander . . . You don’t have to. I’ll be ok.”

  “Emily, seeing that guy with his hands on you and what he could have done to you . . . I would have died if I allowed anything to happen to you. So, I need you tonight, just as much as you need me.”

  And just like that, I fell in love with Xander Hunt and I fell for him hard.

  YEAH, I KNOW this was a bad idea, but I didn’t know where else to go with Emily. I didn’t want to go to a motel, because that just seems dirty. Tonight isn’t about sex, it’s about making sure she’s safe and for her to get a good night’s sleep. I’m still going to figure out who that fucker is and take care of him. He will never do that again, as long as I’m alive.

  We get inside and Axel goes freaking crazy. “Axel! Down!” I shout at him. God he’s a pain in my ass sometimes.

  “Hi Axel . . . Yes I’ve missed you too!” Emily says to him sweetly.

  “Alright, you outside.” I open the door and Axel puts his head down and walks outside, pouting.

  “Want anything to drink?” I ask Emily. She’s standing next to the back door looking outside.

  “Beer?” She asks.

  I grab two beers out of the fridge and open them. I walk over and give her one. “Here,”

  “Thanks,”

  “You’re welcome. What’s up? You’re quiet all of a sudden.”

  She shrugs her shoulders, “Emily talk to me.”

  She takes a drink of her beer and blows out a breath. “I don’t know how I’m supposed to act right now. We’re fuck buddies and I shouldn’t be here.” She takes another drink from her beer and walks out into the backyard.

  “Fuck.” I say under my breath and follow her outside. She’s standing by the pool looking at the water when she turns to me. “You tell me not to fall in love with you, you tell me no emotions, but do you know how fucking hard it is Xander? Especially when you do what you did for me tonight. I’m trying really hard not to love you, but you’re making it so damn hard right now. So I’ll stay here tonight, but it will probably be the last time you see me outside of school.”

  “Emily, shut up. We will worry about tomorrow, and any other day, tomorrow or the next day. Tonight is just about tonight. I don’t want to think about tomorrow. Just stay with me, be with me tonight.” I wrap my arms around her, holding her.

  “You make it really hard to say no.”

  I let out a small laugh, “I know, but if you really wanted to leave. You would have left already.”

  She lets out a giggle, “Shut up.”

  I’m gonna lose my heart tonight, more so than I already have.

  “Axel come on boy, inside.” I yell.

  Emily follows me into the house. I look at the clock and it’s only midnight. “You tired, or do you want to watch a movie?”

  “I don’t care.” She shrugs her shoulders.

  “Alright, well how about we go to bed and watch a movie.” I suggest.

  “Ok, shit. I didn’t bring anything to sleep in.”

  I finish locking up the house and lead her down the hallway to my bedroom. Axel has followed us in the room too. Bastard thinks he’s sleeping with us, he’s got another thing coming to him.

  I walk over to my closet and get a light blue t-shirt and hand it to her “Here, you can sleep in this.” I smile at her.

  “Ok, I’ll be right back.” She says and turns and walk towards the bathroom.

  I take off my shoes and socks, my jeans and my t-shirt and put on nylon shorts. I don’t do pajamas, its boxers only, but I’m not sure what’s going to happen tonight, I
figure I’ll put shorts on. She walks out of the bathroom and my fucking heart sinks. I didn’t think a woman would look good in one of my t-shirts but this girl is absolutely beautiful.

  “Ok, so what kind of movies are you into? I got everything from chick flicks, horror movies, action, to comedies. You pick it and we’ll watch it.” I tell her walking over to the cabinet with my movies. Taking a seat on my bed, I’m letting her go through them.

  She thumbs through my movies, “The Notebook? The Vow? And Dirty Dancing? I don’t know what to say.” She giggles.

  “Hey, there’s nothing wrong with those movies. The Notebook and The Vow are great love stories. And well Dirty Dancing, it’s a classic.”

  “I’m not saying they aren’t great movies, just wouldn’t expect them from such a hard ass like yourself.”

  “I’m a hard ass, now, am I?”

  She gets closer to me, “Well isn’t that what you want everyone to think? That you’re this tough guy, who doesn’t do love, and hearts and all the mushy shit?”

  “I am those things.”

  She stands in front of me and runs her hands through my hair, “Sorry Xander, not buying it. Not after today, not after tonight.”

  I wrap my arms around her waist. “What are you doing to me?”

  “Better question is what are you doing to me?” She leans down and kisses me.

  If I have sex with her tonight, it’s not going to be fucking, it’s going to be making love to her and I can’t do it. I cannot let her in. I cannot get hurt. But I promised her we weren’t going to think about it. “Fuck me!” I scream in my head.

  “So, what movie?” I ask her.

  “The Conjuring.” She says, it shock’s the shit right out of me.

  “Really?”

  “I’m a sucker for horror movies. I’d rather watch those over anything.” Is there anything wrong with this girl? Because so far, I haven’t found it yet.

  She crawls in between my black cotton sheets while I put the movie in. Axel, the fucker, is already lying in bed next to her cuddling. “You honestly think you’re sleeping up here tonight Jack ass?!”

  “Yes, yes he is.” She pouts. “Please? It’s one of the things I miss about Wisconsin, I miss my dog.” She says.

  I roll my eyes, “Fine. . . . You win!” I get into bed next to her, she kisses me on the cheek and says “Thank you.”

  We get thirty minutes into the movie when we start talking. “So what would the temperatures be in Wisconsin right now?”

  “You guys would freeze. I talked to my sister last night. The highs are mid 60s and the lows are in the high 30s, low 40s.”

  “Holy fuck! That’s cold.”

  She starts laughing, “Nah, that’s warm. In January and February it gets to be below zero. Now that’s fucking cold.”

  “Ok well, I know I’ll never survive there.”

  “I don’t know how I did. I miss fall. I miss the colors of the trees and hiking. I’m sure I’ll miss the first snow fall or the white Christmas, but other than that, I think I’ll be ok being here.”

  “What’s your family like?” I ask her, I don’t know why I’m asking her this shit. This is what couples do but it’s either that, or make love to her.

  “You really want to know about my family?”

  “Yeah, I mean you are my kid’s teacher. I think I should know about your family.”

  “Really? That’s your excuse. Huh? Ok, well. . . . There’s my dad. He’s the pastor at the church in my small town. Then there’s mom, she’s always been one to stay at home and make the house perfect. She helps my dad at church, but she’s never had her own career. I think that’s why I had to leave. I didn’t want to end up like her.”

  “You mean, the man works while the woman stays at home and cares of the house and kids while she has no voice or a sense of herself? The old fashion way of living.”

  “Yeah. We used to come home from school and she would be sad and she just always looked unhappy. My sister is falling into that same thing. She works at a daycare, and I know as soon as her and her husband have kids, it’s all over for her. I get being at home for the first year cuz that’s the fun part. You don’t want to miss all the firsts, but I couldn’t do it all the time.”

  “I’m shocked, I think. Most people raised in that environment, sort of always stay like that throughout their lives. You know?”

  “Yeah, not me. I want to live. I want to experience life. And I want to have a voice. I admire anyone who stays home daily to care for their home. Don’t get me wrong. It’s just not for me.”

  “No, I get it. I wish my mom would be more like you. Since Nathan died and Tessa walked out on me and Harlie, she’s given up her career for us.”

  “Well your mom is a force to be reckoned with. I see that in just the way she carries herself and I’d give anything to have half of her confidence.”

  We have laid here for three hours talking about everything. I don’t think there’s anything we don’t know about each other. “So, you still think I’m too good for you, don’t you?” She asks me.

  “I do, you deserve to be with someone who can give you the world, who’s not fucked up, and who’s not afraid.”

  She rolls her eyes, “Whatever, Xander.” She rolls over.

  “Is this getting too hard for you?”

  She’s still laying on her side, facing away from me, “Some days it is, some days it isn’t. I leave the Wednesday before Thanksgiving and I won’t be back ’til Saturday. So you’ll have to find someone else to take care of your needs while I’m gone I guess.”

  I lay behind her and wrap her in my arms. “My needs will wait until you come back, if you still want to continue this.”

  “We’ll see. Just hold me right now. Please.”

  “I am, Baby. I’m sorry.”

  “No need to be sorry. I just want to feel safe and needed for a little while.” She says and I feel a tear run down her face onto my arm.

  The next morning I took her back home before Harlie got home. We decided to keep doing the fuck buddy thing. She wants me to think about it while she’s gone though. Part of me wants to try this relationship thing but the other part of me doesn’t. I don’t think I deserve someone like her. She’s too fucking perfect.

  Over the next few weeks, the sex was fucking hot. Her place, the pool table, the hallways, and on my desk many times not to mention, I ate her pussy out many times on the bar. I could eat her all day long. Tonight was no exception. This is the last night I’ll get to see her, until she comes back.

  She slipped into the bar right before closing and the second I saw her, I got fucking hard.

  “Hey,” She says softly.

  “Hey, you look edible.” I whisper in her ear and I know she went wet right that second. I get her a beer like always when she comes in. Normally, she tips me with a condom but tonight she leaves a package of Pop Rocks candy on the bar. When the last of the customers have left, she locks the front door and I get a good look at her, she’s wearing a black halter dress that hits right above her knee and a pair of flip flops. She’s kept the hair extensions and I’m not gonna lie, I like the longer hair.

  “So what’s with the candy?” I ask her holding it up.

  “I thought I’d give you a blow job you’ll never forget and you’ll always think of me.” She purrs while she’s licking her lips.

  “Really? You know I’m not going to touch anyone while you’re gone. I’ve got my hands if I need it that bad.”

  “Well, just in case.” She stalks towards me.

  “Do you need a ride to the airport tomorrow?” I ask changing the subject, because I know it drives her crazy.

  “Xander are you offering to take me?”

  “Maybe . . .”

  “Mel’s taking me. Are you going to kiss me or make me beg?”

  “It’s kind of cute when you beg, Baby.” She grabs my hand and leads me to my office. She closes the door behind us and locks it.

  I’m sitting on m
y desk and she’s between my legs. My hands travel onto her hips, down to her ass and I don’t feel a panty line, “Making it easy for me?” I say against her lips. I grab her ass and pull her into me. Our tongues collide, my hands dive under her dress and I squeeze her ass. Yep panty-less.

  She’s running her hands in my hair, pulling it a little. I grab the back of her hair and pull, exposing her neck and kissing it, licking it and gently bite it. I find that spot on her neck under her ear that sends her moaning.

  “Couch, Xander,” She pants, and leads us over to the black couch in my office. I start taking off my shirt and unbuttoning my pants. I sit down and she straddles me.

  Her wet pussy is teasing the fuck out of my cock. “Baby, you’re killing me here,” I say against her lips. Her hips start to move and then she, just stops and gets up. She grabs the two pillows on the couch and puts them on the floor in front of me. Opening the package of Pop Rocks, she puts a couple in her mouth, gets on her knees and puts my cock in her mouth.

  I jump at first, this is ummm interesting but after a little while, it was hot. Definitely never had a blowjob like this before, and I like it. “You ok?” She asks.

  “Yeah, it’s weird. But, yeah keep going.” The smile across her face was priceless. She put more in her mouth and gave me one of the most erotic blowjobs I’ve ever had. The popping against the shaft and the tip felt fucking good. This is definitely one blow job I’ll never forget.

  “Em, stop. I don’t want to come just yet.” I pull her up.

  “Your turn,” I reach for the hem of her dress and pull it over her head, I put a few pop rocks in my mouth and go after her nipples. “Xander, fuck baby. Oh my god!” she shouts and just like that she’s come twice.

  “We’re going to need to get stock in these.” She says panting.

  I nod my head yes, putting more in my mouth and attacking her clit. Her sweet swollen clit. Doesn’t take long before she’s come with just the popping. I stick three fingers in her soaking pussy and find her G-spot, I put my mouth on her clit and I have her coming again and again.

  “Inside me now.” She begs.