Rockstar's Angel

by K. T Fisher

  Tanya

  I'm at work and I can't get last night off my mind. Leo telling me to fuck myself with my vibrator while he watched was incredible. It felt so intense, the only thing that would have made it better was him being in the room with me.

  I smile to myself as I walk into the staff room. Things are looking pretty good between me and Leo right now.

  Kendal's making herself a drink when I walk in. "Hey honey, how are the babies?"

  She rubs her stomach, smiling sweetly. "Good, but I'm beat."

  "Maybe you should take a break from working until the babies are here."

  She rolls her eyes. "God, you sound like Jax."

  "I knew I liked that guy."

  We both laugh, then she gives me a weird look. "You sound happy, considering."

  "Considering what?"

  Her eyes go a little wide, darting to the magazines on the coffee table. Before she can move, I dart towards them. When I see what's on the front of some, I begin to shake with anger. On the front page there's a picture of Leo and some blonde bimbo. It's the same blonde on the other pictures too. They look happy walking around in sunny Miami. According to the headline, it's his new flame whilst he's on a break from his London sweetheart. Nice.

  God I'm pissed! Last night I let him watch me as I masturbated, now I find out he's been spending time with someone else! Wow, he really hasn't changed has he?

  Right at that moment my phone rings, it's him, the smiling, two timing bastard. I thought it was different this time? I thought he'd changed? Yeah, well obviously not.

  I throw my phone in my bag, ignoring his call. I don't want to talk to him. When he gets back I don't want to see him.

  I place the magazines back down. "You ok?"

  I turn to Kendal, she looks concerned. "Yeah, I'm fine. I'm gonna get to work."

  "You sure that's a good idea."

  Probably not. "I won't say anything if you won't."

  This gets a laugh from Kendal, I smile as I walk out.

  When I get home and check my phone I've had twenty missed calls, all from Leo. I don't want anything to do with him right now. I've made plans to see Sophie and baby April tomorrow before work. I still have my girls. Even though that fucker has upset me, tearing my heart out, I won't let him see me upset. No fucking way.

  Chapter Nineteen

  Tanya

  It's been a week since Leo left for his trip with Decoy. I've tried to put him to the back of my mind, with his constant stream of phone calls it's kind of hard. He's left voice mails on my house phone and mobile. After listening to his first message I decided I wasn't going to listen to anymore. On the message he was shouting down the phone at me for not answering his call, apparently I was being stupid. He wanted to know why I wasn't speaking to him. He should already know!

  I woke up this morning to my phone ringing, it was Kendal. She wasn't feeling too well and asked if I could fill in for her. It turns out having three babies inside of you can be a strain on a tiny body like Kendal's. She looked tired the other day at work, and when she came to Sophie's with me to see little April. That visit quickly turned into them talking to me about Leo. Both of them asked me to hear him out, saying maybe it wasn't as it seemed, but I knew. He sounded panicked on his voice mails. He must know he's been caught out. Leo has been up to his old tricks again.

  I've just finished cutting my clients hair when there's a bang at the front of the salon, followed by gasps and my manager Bianca shouting at whoever is causing a scene. I turn to see what the commotion is, freezing in place, my hairdryer and brush held mid motion. A very pissed off Leo is marching towards me. He's looking sexy as hell, and I will myself to ignore my bodies reaction to him. He looks down at the woman in the chair in front of me, asking, "You done here?"

  "Well yes but..." He doesn't let me finish. He takes the hair supplies from my hands, dragging me out of the salon, a firm grip on my wrists. "Wait, my bag!"

  "You can get it later." He grumbles, continuing to drag me along by my arm. I'm so embarrassed, everyone is staring and Bianca's got a stunned look on her face. I try to dig my feet into the floor as best as I can, but it's no use, Leo's strength overpowers me. My stupid but pretty shoes have no grip.

  "Leo! Will you stop?" He doesn't listen. He walks out of the salon and I see a limo waiting, one of their bodyguards John, waiting beside it. I’m glad there aren’t a lot of people walking by, but the few who are stare. Just fucking great! I smack Leo's back, shouting at him to let me go, but he ignores me. I'm sure I see John smirking too, the bastard.

  Leo shoves me hard into the limo, getting in after me, and slamming the door shut. John gets in the driver’s seat, but the privacy screen is up, meaning it's just me and Leo as John drives off.

  "What the fuck was that about?" Leo continues to stare forward, mad face still in place. "You've gone fucking crazy!"

  He turns, glaring at me. "Do you know how worried I've been?" He looks at me as he waits for me to answer. I don't answer him. "No, you fucking don't, because you only think about yourself!"

  I'm shocked. What the fuck is he talking about? "Are you shitting me? I didn't want to talk to you!"

  He shoots me another glare. "Why the fuck not?"

  My eyes widen. "You seriously don't know what you did?"

  "What the fuck are you talking about Tan? I'm not in the mood for fucking mind games. I just flew back from Miami, I'm tired as shit, just tell me what the fuck is wrong. No fucking around."

  I almost laugh. Fuck it, I do laugh. Right in his face, a mad, hysterical kind of laugh. "I saw the pictures, you fucking dick."

  He has the nerve to act all confused. "What fucking pictures?"

  "I can't show you because my phone's at fucking work!"

  "They're on the internet?"

  "Yes, they're on the fucking internet! Go on, type your name in and they'll come up."

  I glare at him as he gets out his phone and searches. I know when he finds the images because his eyebrows shoot up. I'm waiting for him to look guilty or even awkward, but he doesn't. His angry scowl still in place when he looks back up at me. "So, what am I supposed to be looking at here?"

  I look at his phone to make sure he's found the right photos and there they are; the pictures of him with the skanky blonde. I point to it. "Are you not seeing that?"

  His eyebrows lift. "This is why you ignored my calls?"

  Why is he making me feel so stupid? "Yes, you were with another woman!" He continues to look at me. "It isn't the first time is it?"

  "What the fuck are you on about now?"

  "The girl you left the club with. Oh, she was blonde too!"

  His jaw tenses. "I told you about that, nothing happened!"

  "Erm yeah, you went down on her."

  "Only because I felt bad."

  This makes me laugh. "Ok, next time I make a guy feel bad, I'll suck his dick."

  This makes Leo growl. "Like fuck you will."

  "It's nothing to do with you now, we're no longer together. You were with that bitch while I was here waiting for you. Well, not anymore."

  "Nothing happened."

  I cross my arms over my chest. "Just take me home."

  Two minutes later the limo pulls up in front of my apartment building. I quickly get out, sensing Leo following me. "Leave me alone!"

  He still follows me though. When I get to the front door I turn, glaring at him. "I'll get your bag to you."

  "You do that." I slam the door in his face, tears stinging as I run straight for my bed.

  ***

  Late afternoon Maisy brought me my bag from work. I wasn't in the mood to talk, so I thanked her and sent her home.

  Chapter Twenty

  Tanya

  A few nights after Decoy arrive back in the UK, they have another gig lined up in Birmingham. I hadn't planned on going, it's the last thing I want to do after the last time I saw Leo. Sophie and Kendal persuade me to go though, only because they made me feel sorry for them. Sophie really wan
ts to go, but has to stay home with baby April. Kendal really wants to go, but has been told by Jax to stay home. I don't think she could manage it anyway. She's been really tired, her stomach is huge. She can hardly walk around lately, she says the babies are so heavy. With her planned caesarean section coming up soon, Jax wants her home resting and safe. Jessica and Maisy really want to go, so between them and Sophie and Kendal guilt begging, I agree. Honestly, the shit I do for these girls. They'd better be getting me some expensive Christmas presents this year, seeing as they all have rich husbands!

  I arrive at Maisy's house early because she wants me to get ready at hers. No idea why, but I agreed, why not? I'm finally set to go, after getting ready slowly all afternoon. I really don't want to go. I've been hiding out in her bedroom for the most part because she's been acting weird all fucking afternoon! Woman's getting on my damn nerves.

  I'm dressed in my black dress tonight. It's a halter neck, skimming past the curve of my breasts, finishing just below the knee. With my killer red heels and red lipstick, I look rock and roll, classy enough that I won't get mistaken for a groupie. I smile at my reflection, I'm not ashamed to say I look fucking hot, I hope Leo suffers.

  Maisy's phone sounds an alert and she breaks out in a smile. "Right, it’s time to go!"

  Why is she so excited? "Is Jessica OK to drive there?"

  Jessica isn't the best driver, I don't know if I feel comfortable with her driving all the way to Birmingham and back. Maisy gives me a weird look, grabbing both our bags. "Sure, now get your arse outside."

  We walk out of her house. I'm the only one of our group of friends that lives in an apartment. Maisy, being an interior designer, lives in an absolutely stunning little house. It's tiny, but looks like a show home. I'd love to let Finley loose in that place and see what happens. If I have to go through a hell of a time tonight, I might just do that.

  I walk down her pretty garden, opening her little picket fence gate, I look up from browsing on my phone, stopping dead. I expected to see Jessica sitting there, waiting in her car. I don't think Jessica would be driving a huge tour bus. I stare up at the black tinted windows and glare. I know they're in there looking at me right now. They must know how I'm going to react. I hope he's looking at me as I glare daggers. I hear Maisy approaching me from behind, and turn towards her. "What the fuck is this?"

  She looks awkwardly between me and the huge black tour bus behind us. "It was out of my hands."

  "So you lied about Jess driving, and thought you'd wait until the fucking bus was here!" I whisper shout in her face.

  "You just gonna stand there gossiping or what?" I hear Max shout. I turn around to see him hanging out of the bus door. He's smiling until he sees the look on my face, then darts right back inside, smart man.

  Jessica pokes her head out. "Oh come on, no use bitching about it, just get in!"

  I take a few deep breaths to calm myself, walking towards the bus, my head held high. I feel myself shaking as I climb the small steps leading up to the door. Shit. I need a drink to calm my nerves. Jessica gives me an encouraging smile as I pass her. I walk in, taking in my surroundings. Dark wood and black leather are the main materials in here. This bus is nice, not at all what I'd imagined a bands tour bus would look like. Firstly, it's clean, not what you'd expect from a group of guys. I can remember when we first came on the bus during the festival, I'm glad to see it's still as clean. As lovely as it is though, I wouldn't want to practically live on here like Sophie did before they decided to set up roots back in London. Poor girl.

  Jax comes straight up to me, giving me a hug. "Are you alright?"

  I nod into his chest, and he smooths my hair down. He plants a soft kiss on my forehead before saying hello to Maisy, that man really is gorgeous. If I didn't love Kendal so much and wasn't in a mess with Leo right now, I'd think about going there. I look over at him as he welcomes Maisy with a hug, smiling to myself. No, as good looking as he is, he isn't my type. The man brooding in the corner, covered in tattoos and playing with his drum sticks is it for me. Too bad I'm not enough for him though.

  I go to sit on one of the leather sofas, ignoring the fire in Leo's gaze as he watches me, and settle in for the ride. This should be interesting.

  We haven't been driving an hour when Leo asks me for a word in the back. Everyone on the bus acts like they're not trying to listen in, as they talk to each other. I nod, following him to the back of the bus. Nosey bitches. My life feels like a fucking entertainment show for everyone lately.

  On the way to the back of the bus we pass bunks. I'd expected tiny little beds, they're all on the left hand side, four beds, two by two, just smaller than an average bed, bigger than I'd envisaged. At the back, where Leo is taking me, are two small rooms, each with a smaller than average double bed. I give Leo a look when I see the beds, does he really think he can get one over on the bus while everyone sits up front and I'm so obviously pissed at him?

  My expression makes Leo smile. He sits down on the plain black bed, patting the space next to him. I slowly sit down, trying to sit as far as I can from him, and look around the room. I can only imagine what kind of stuff has happened in here. Boys on tour and all that shit, back then it was only Rhys who was the good one. "Are you still angry?"

  I look to Leo, he gives me his adorable puppy eyes and I smile. Damn him. "No, I'm not angry anymore." He smiles widely. "I'm sad and feel let down."

  His face falls, and he holds my hands in his. I go to pull away but he holds them in place. "Tanya, those pictures aren't what they seem. You're all I want, you're my angel."

  I look deep into his eyes, and fuck me, I believe him. As much as it still hurts to look at those pictures, I believe he wouldn't do that to me. Not after what we went through. I just can't help still feeling hurt. I smile and he quickly grabs me in a bone crushing hug. "I'll explain more later, yeah? I need to talk to you."

  I nod and we get up to join the others. At least it doesn't feel as awkward now. I sit beside Jessica, watching as the guys play their stupid game for the rest of the journey.

  ***

  I'm hot and sweaty, my feet starting to hurt as the night comes to an end. The show has been amazing, as always. It's a little weird with Kendal and Sophie not being here, but it's still been fun.

  Decoy is coming towards the end of their show. We haven't moved from the side of the stage since they started. I don't think I'll ever get used to seeing screaming fans go crazy over them. It's just too weird.

  The lights go down, and the music stops. All you can see are the lights from the crowd and hear people chanting. The spotlight focuses on Leo sitting at his drums. "What's going on?" I whisper to Jessica. I've never seen them do this before. She shrugs, keeping her eyes on the stage. I look at Maisy but she's the same. I decide to carry on watching too, this feels weird somehow.

  Leo gets up from his drums, walking to where Jax is standing with the mic. "Everyone knows Leo right?"

  The crowd screams in answer, Leo taking the mic from Jax. "Hey Birmingham!" The crowd goes crazy. "We have a surprise for you tonight before we end the show." He looks over to where we're standing, looking directly at me. "Tanya, come over here."

  My heart starts to beat like crazy. Is he serious? I shake my head no, I'm not fucking going out there, but Maisy and Jessica start to push me towards the stage.

  "Ahhh, my girl doesn't wanna come on stage. How about you give her some encouragement?"

  The crowd starts to scream and chant my name. Goosebumps cover my body. Max and Rhys appear next to me, taking one of my hands each as they walk me closer to Leo. It's dark, so I can't see the people in the crowd, but I know they're there from the noise they are making. I can make out some faces as I stand beside Leo, who's right in the middle of the stage.

  Someone appears with a stool. I gladly sit down to rest my shaky legs. I look at Leo. He looks a little nervous. I open my eyes wider in a silent question, but he turns to the crowd. What the fuck? "This is my woman. Her name's Tanya
and I've loved her for five years." The crowd goes crazy, you can hear some people sigh. I smile, Leo leans in to give me a kiss. "I'm going to sing you a song now baby."

  I hear the beat of drums and turn to see Rhys sitting where Leo should be. Jax and Max start a soft sound on their guitars as Leo begins to sing. I've never heard him sing before, he sounds amazing. His voice is deep and manly, promising a hot night with this man. The song has me crying. I'm a blubbering mess in no time! It's a soft rock song, Leo has written it himself, I can tell by the lyrics. I didn't even know he could write songs! Tears fall as I listen, along with everyone else. He sings about what we've been through, the girls he went through until he could get me back. He counted down the years to get to me again and when he did I didn't want to know. He watched me and dreamt of me. He tried to steal any moment he could with me, until I finally spoke to him. More tears fall as he sings about a baby with my hair and his eyes who never got the chance to see the sun. This part makes me cry a little more, and he plants a quick kiss on my forehead. Leo holds my hands as he sings the last words. He will never let me go. He pulls me off the stool so I'm standing face to face, then he goes down on one knee, still holding my hand. He looks right up at me and asks in front of thousands of people, "Tanya, will you marry me?"