12 Days

by Dark Angel

  Joelle answers the door in shock when I show up. She looks like she wishes she brought a kitchen knife to stab me. “Come in,” she says instead.

  I follow her inside, sitting on the couch. She sits in her chair. “I’m here to tell you that I’m dating your daughter. I love her,” I tell Joelle. I hate that I’m not telling Emmaline first. Emmaline should be hearing from me and I’ve been avoiding her, trying to drag myself out of my own stupor long enough to fix this situation and bring Emmaline back in my arms, no firing squad included.

  “You have a lot of nerve, showing up here. I knew you were messed up, that you were hung up on me in a bad way, but this is beyond the fucking pale, Ethan, really,” Joelle says, standing up. “Just get out.” She’s angry. I certainly recognize the emotion.

  But for once I’m calm. “You’re caught up in the past. Not me. Emmaline is an adult, and she can make her own choices,” I say, and I turn to leave.

  “If you love her, how can you do this to her? You’re her professor. People will talk. You jeopardize her future if you do this, and I will go to the university,” Joelle says, her voice grating against her mess of emotions.

  Before I leave, I shake my head. “I’m sorry that things are so tense between us. But you’re not getting anywhere going to the university,” I say, and I don’t wait for a response. I’m done here.

  I drive home thinking about how Emmaline must be ready to stab me as much as her mother is. Well, maybe not though. Emmaline is too damn good…I don’t know what I did to deserve her.

  Maybe that’s my penance for being an angry little shit. All these years I never thought I’d found my soul mate. My soul mate hadn’t been born yet when I was already suffering the thought that I’d never meet someone that meant everything to me the way that Emmaline.

  I have to make this right, and I know what to do. I’m never beholden to anything, and I go after what I want. I recognize that ambition in Emmaline, too. Joelle was never aggressive in the way that Emmaline can be. But it is the grace that Emmaline always has that wrecks my self-control, my better sense. She’s everything to me. I need her, I want her as mine. I have to have that, at any cost.

  The truth is, as much as I love Emmaline, I do not see any price as high at all.

  In fact, now the path is cleared. I did the right thing and talked to Joelle. I don’t need to worry about that again. I need to worry about getting my woman back because I hurt her. I can’t fucking believe what I let happen; I let my anger keep me from standing up for what is mine. Emmaline is mine. Joelle could say anything she wanted if it was just about me, but Emmaline is proud to be mine and she was miserable that whole time.

  I’ll never forget how she cried when I wouldn’t listen to her pleas and left her. I have never regretting something so much in my life, and I’ll spend forever loving away the memories of those tears. I need to make her know just how much she means to me. Disappearing acts are done for. I want to be in her life, now, forever, always. When I get home, I jump in the shower and wash off the misery that’s going to be behind Emmaline and me so soon.

  Tomorrow, I’ll fix everything. Tomorrow, I’ll do what has to be done and I won’t even be off-campus before I call Emmaline and bring her back to my life.

  Then I’ll do my best to kiss, fuck, claim every inch of her and replace the misery with my longing.

  Tonight, I know I won’t be able to sleep. I may never sleep well again until my woman is tight in my arms. Emmaline’s small little body, warm and pressed against me, is all I need to live.

  Emmaline

  All my dreams had just reached the point where it felt like they were going to come true.

  Now, I’m in a haze. I’m going to class. I’m taking notes. I’m paying attention. But for the first time, I’m having difficulty. I still understand the material, but I’ve never had to work so hard. I'm a quick study and have always put in a lot of effort, but this is a new height (low?) for me and it's disheartening. I know that sounds bitchy and whiny, but my heart is broken. I at least want my school work to keep feeling like a fulfilling accomplishment. Because I’m working hard like I always do, and even with my continued strong performance in my classes…I’m just disheartened.

  I feel like I can feel Ethan's anguish. I certainly don’t know anything because I haven’t seen him since my mother steamrolled through the promises Ethan was making to my heart.

  Delia texts me every day and she tries to get me to do anything other than just go to my classes. I’m not up for it. I lean on her a lot, but I just can’t right now. Because I’m embarrassed. I can’t fucking defend the vast emptiness that is what I thought was going to be an actual start to a relationship. Delia is sweet and understanding but she’s no-nonsense. I text her and tell her I need space. That’s the truth. I can’t solve anything right now, and I don’t want to commiserate. I want to wallow in the void I feel with all the hope of my fantasy lover being my real life prince.

  Ethan. So charming, so perfect for me like something out of a great romance. I desperately want my happy ending with him and I want to know the truth.

  Doesn’t Ethan love me? I don’t mean this in a whiny baby bullshit way. The way that man looks at me, how he touches me, how we so deeply understand each other? That feels like love to me. Just because I was a virgin doesn’t mean I can’t know what that is, right?

  What the fuck do I know?

  I have to hide out from everything because I’m not ready to accept that Ethan might not love me.

  I’m not angry that he didn’t fight for me, when I think about it. After my mother confronting him, I understand him not deciding that brawling it out verbally was going to help. I didn’t know what I was supposed to say then either.

  Ethan and I were just beginning, and now our flame flickered out before we really got to burn together.

  Delia texts me again, asking if I’m talking to my parents.

  Yes, I am. I tell her how I understand why my mother did what she did…but I’m not ready to forgive her.

  Delia starts up again about how I need to try to meet someone new.

  I groan out loud. My roommate has her headphones on and isn’t interested in my heartbreak-induced zombification. I text Delia back how I’m not interested in meeting anyone new.

  I wasn’t even interested in meeting anyone before. Ethan was the unicorn; he was that charming prince in a fairy tale that pulls me out of the dregs of my ordinary life and makes it magical. He was the magic slipper. We were a perfect fit.

  But are we still? I don’t know.

  I sent Delia a lighter toned text, telling her that my grades will be stellar because all I do is study.

  I start to type another text to tell another problematic truth that the new English teacher is boring, but my text is interrupted by a call.

  I’m stunned at the sight of his name taking over my phone and the call goes to voicemail before I can answer. I immediately click on the voicemail, my stomach all twisted in knots over how eager and excited I am. This is the first bit of hope that I’ve had in some time. He called me.

  I listen to the message.

  “Meet me at my house this evening, Emmaline.”

  That’s all the message says. I know he knows my class schedule, probably knows that I will scoot my ass over there as soon as possible. That’s what he wants. I can hear it in his voice. There’s the same kind of aching desperation that’s been devouring me without him.

  I’m all funk, and not in the fun dance sense. I have two hours to make myself the kind of woman that’s getting fucked tonight. I’m not about to be Cinderella showing up in the pumpkin. Christine Daae in Phantom of the Opera had the fancy Victorian bustier to keep her tits center stage and make her whole body say eat me. I’ve got the pushup bra and good contouring makeup to make my cheekbones get my face to that perfect look. I’ll wear a cute little sundress. No thong. I want to feel his skin against me. Speaking of skin, I have a shower power hour ahead to shave everything I’ve let get
furred over like I’m planning for winter.

  My eyes are puffy and glassy from crying, but I’m fine with that. If I look like a broken little doll, at least my flawless makeup is going to just make that all the better.

  Fuck, the heat of the shower is torturous and I’m thinking about how badly my hands need to be on Ethan.

  Yeah…this is supposed to be about him earning me back. Check, I’ve got that sass, too. But I just love him so goddamn much that I can barely breathe. I get ready as fast as I can and I head over there as soon as I can. Hopefully this modern little fairy tale will have a happy ending. I tried to look the part.

  Ethan certainly does. I can’t breathe when I see him. He looks so incredibly sexy that I just can’t believe it when I see him again. I don’t think Ethan will ever stop having that affect on me. Every line of his body, the firm muscles, are evident. He’s wearing dark wash jeans and no shirt. This is unholy sexy, and I just want to lick every inch of him. He’s at the door, waiting for me. Like, in front of his door when I arrive.

  The gate code almost tripped me up, thinking about it on the way, but it was open. I appreciate the intensity of how urgently, how desperately Ethan needed me. I know that he feels about me the way that I feel about him.

  “Emmaline,” Ethan growls, and he runs up to the car door, opening it and swooping into my car. There’s not enough room for him to be there, but he’s invading my space deliciously. He drops his head to my lap and kisses my exposed thigh.

  I moan, his mouth on me so dangerously good.

  “I’m so sorry for leaving you at the restaurant. For not having contact with you this whole time. It isn’t appropriate, though, for a teacher and a student to be involved. Your mother was right. But so were you. We understand each other. That’s how I know you know that I let Joelle’s tirade get under my skin. I should have stood up for us.”

  “You shouldn’t have ignored me. I’m not a child. What I want—what we want, matters,” I say.

  Ethan's eyes look up at me, pleading for forgiveness.

  Forgiveness I'm desperate to give, but I keep myself from reaching out and touching him. “Did my mother go to the university?” I ask, trembling. Partially, I shake because I’m terrified that he lost his job because of me. And partially because his hot breath is ghosting over my pussy and I’m aching for him.

  “No, I resigned,” Ethan says.

  “But you love teaching!” I exclaim. I can’t believe he did this. Which one of us must be having the worst spiral in the fallout of our almost relationship?

  “I love you more,” Ethan growls, his hand reaching under my dress and cupping my ass. “Dear God, no thong? You’re trying to kill me. If so, I need to die with your pussy cumming on my face. I’m not going to lose you, but I could go that way.”

  “Y-your job,” I whimper. He said those words. Ethan loves me. Ethan doesn’t want to lose me. Ethan is touching my bare ass and I’m so dripping wet for him.

  “I don’t need the money,” Ethan says with a smug laugh.

  I lift my hands from my sides, pressing my palms flat against the planes of Ethan's chest. Feeling his firm pectorals grounds everything in reality. This is really happening. I might cry. “I love you so much, Ethan. I need you more than I need to breathe.”

  “Emmaline, I need you,” Ethan says, growling against my inner thigh.

  “I want to belong to you, Ethan. I need to. You’re where I’m home,” I say. I have to tell him my truth.

  He lifts his head up and reaches into his pocket. “I can’t tell you just how much I needed to hear those words. Because I have something to ask you.” Ethan pulls out a ring box, and then opens it and gets down on one knee before my car. “Will you marry me?” he asks.

  “Yes!” I cry out, my lips trembling. “Yes, I will marry you, Ethan.”

  “Be mine forever,” Ethan says, and he slides the intricate diamond ring onto my finger.

  “Always,” I say, wrapping my arms around his neck.

  Ethan stands, pulling me up and carrying me off to his house, closing my car door and carting me off.

  “You’re mine, forever. You won’t escape me,” I say with a laugh, kissing him on the cheek.

  “I couldn’t dream of a better fate,” Ethan says, closing his massive door behind us.

  Emmaline

  Once we’re inside the door, we both tear off our clothes, and I literally jump into Ethan’s arms. The time for holding back has long passed. Who am I kidding? There was never a time I was going to hold back from Ethan, and now I’m all his. For real. Forever.

  That’s everything I’ve ever wanted.

  I look at his gorgeous body. Eight-pack abs. Enormous cock. Flawless face. Even the man’s hands are sexy. His whole body is sculpted perfection that rivals Michelangelo’s David.

  “Kiss me,” I say breathlessly. I ache for the feel of his lips on mine, but I also want to play. I run toward the bedroom.

  “You’re going to be punished,” Ethan says, his voice full of dark promise, but I turn and see him smiling.

  I have a feeling this punishment might make me misbehave even more than normal. And to think I used to be such a good girl?

  The veil has been lifted. I know just how fun being a bad girl is.

  When I get to the door of the bedroom, Ethan, who walked the whole time while I ran through the house, grabs me by the back of my neck.

  My nipples are instantly hard. How did he do that, like we’re in some kind of slasher film and me, the naked girl, is about to be the victim? The idea makes me giggle.

  “What are you possibly laughing at?” Ethan says, but there’s an enormous grin spread across his lips. He kisses me quickly before I answer.

  I curl my lips in and then smack them. “I was just thinking how you caught up to me like some kind of serial killer. This is a good way to off me, if you were so inclined,” I say, and it is my turn to smirk.

  No, no, it is always Ethan’s turn to smirk. That smug grin makes my pussy melt against my thighs. Seriously, I could heat his house for winter with he way that he’s looking at me right now. I have to stop thinking things like this, because if I keep giggling, Ethan might ram his cock right up my ass to make sure I’m taking my punishment seriously.

  Okay, so that’s not funny…but you know why it makes me want to laugh, right? I mean, the idea of his cock filling up my ass right now has me so wet I could slip on the puddle my pussy is threatening to make. I inhale, though, because the feel of Ethan’s finger on my throat remind me I am safe. I am owned by Ethan, and he’d never let me fall.

  God, I love that man more than oxygen, more than summer sun, more than the night sky.

  Ethan pulls my head back and kisses me, roughly, biting my lower lip and taking my mouth as his. He growls into my mouth when he releases me from the kiss. “You’re mine. And there’s no escape now, I’ve got you in sights. I want to try something I think you’ll find particularly arousing,” Ethan says.

  “Oh?” I ask, genuinely curious.

  “On the bed,” Ethan commands.

  I instantly obey, laying flat down.

  “Arms and legs out like a starfish,” Ethan says with a wicked grin in his eyes.

  Oh, I like where this is going,

  Ethan stalks toward me like a predator toward his prey, and I want to purr for him. “You’re such a natural submissive,” Ethan says, running his fingers up and down my throat softly. I feel delicate and beautiful beneath his touch.

  I’ve heard that word before, and I never really understood it. I think I could be up to some interesting Google searches in the future. I mean, I know what ‘submissive’ means but in the sexual context…that has me way more interested.

  “And I know you love when I’m possessive. It is my nature to possess you and your nature to belong to me. That’s just part of how we fit together.” Ethan strokes his cock with his other hand, and I reach out to do that for him…that’s what I’m here for. That perfect cock, fucking me, touching me. M
y mouth is already watering. But Ethan captures my hand before I can touch him. “So now we’re going to try bondage.”

  Oh, I know what that word means. Ethan reaches under the bed and pulls out silk ropes, and he ties my wrist up in one. He grabs the other wrist, doing the same with another rope on the other side. Finally, he captures my ankles in rope and ties me up.

  “Try to get free,” Ethan says with that wicked grin burning up my pussy on sight.

  I try to move and I can’t.

  God, he’s right, this is really fucking hot. I love being at Ethan’s whim for anything he might want to do to me. I want to be his, at his mercy.

  “Now, you can use your safe words if you need to. But, since you’re going to suck my cock first, just shake your head back and forth if you want me to stop at any time,” Ethan says, pressing that kiss to my forehead. I want to reach out and touch him but I’m delighted at the frenzy of lust that builds up in me at being bound like this and sucking his cock.

  “Choke me with it, honey,” I say with a wide grin. I narrow my eyes with how big I’m smiling. “I want you to try and murder me with that big fat cock and get it wet in my throat for when you fuck me.

  “I’m not going to fuck you after you suck my cock,” Ethan says, and it is his turn to laugh. “I will fuck you…after I eat that sweet pussy while you’re pinned like this for me. But I want to taste how wet your pussy gets just from sucking my cock.”

  I’m guessing that’s pretty damn wet. My pussy is aching right now just thinking about it, and I need him. I need him so damn bad that I want to rip my arms out of these restraints and pin him down and suck his cock.

  I mean, I could use my safe word, sure, but this is part of the fun. Going fucking crazy wanting his cock, and then being helpless (well, not totally but you know what I mean) while he fucks my mouth.

  Ethan strokes his cock in front of me, kneeling in front of my face, and I open my mouth. But he’s just out of reach. I whimper, needing him so badly I could explode.

  “I can’t make you wait. Not more than you’re already going to,” Ethan says with gritted teeth. “Plus I fucking need you,” he exhales, and he pipes that thick cock down my throat. I lick my tongue around it and suck, my watering mouth wet enough for me to try and pump my head up and down.