ARROGANT BASTARD

by Winter Renshaw

  We lean in, meeting in the middle, our lips finding each other in the dim light of his bedroom. It’s not a carnal kiss. There’s nothing animalistic or passionate about it. There’s something sweeter behind it. His lips trace mine between slow, deep kisses, our tongues grazing. My stomach swirls, matching my heart flutter for flutter.

  And then I pull away.

  I have to.

  It wasn’t supposed to be like this.

  At the end of the day, he’s still my brother. Stepbrother. Whatever.

  His mom and my dad are sealed for eternity.

  And I’m under a microscope until I convince my father to give me another chance.

  Nothing else matters.

  “I should go.” I climb off Jensen, searching for my clothes, and redress as he shamelessly watches. “Oh, and burn that sketch, okay? I mean it. Destroy it. Not kidding.”

  His smile fades as he reaches for his book, rips the sheet, and begins tearing it into millions of tiny pieces. I wait for him to sweep them all into his trashcan before leaving.

  When I slip out into the hallway and tiptoe five steps down to my door, I hear a cough.

  My heart stops.

  “Waverly? What are you doing up?”

  “Dad?”

  I thought he was at Summer’s?

  CHAPTER 25

  “My dad almost caught me leaving your room last night.” Waverly stops me in the hallway in the morning between showers. A towel is wrapped around her wet body and her hair’s in a turban. She’s all fresh-faced, peppermint-y, and sexy as fuck.

  “Shit. I thought he was at Summer’s?”

  “He came back over here to get his antacids, or something. I don’t know. We’re good, though. I told him I was leaving Bellamy’s room, not yours.”

  “Do you think he bought it?”

  “He seemed half-asleep. I don’t know. He didn’t say anything.” She worries her lip. I want to believe for both of our sakes he doesn’t think twice about it.

  “Don’t worry about it. We’ll just have to be extra careful next time.” I realize I’m committing myself to her—at least physically—in a roundabout way. Sneaking around with her is kind of fun, though, and I have no intentions of stopping anytime soon. I warned her that night in the laundry room. I told her after she kissed me I wouldn’t be responsible for what happens. Waverly’s kiss, her body, her light and airy presence, is addicting, just as I suspected it would be.

  She tugs her towel tight, fighting a smile. “So there’ll be a next time?”

  “You’ll know when I’m done with you.” I glance both ways before reaching down and pinching a tight ass cheek through her towel. She yelps and I push past her to hit the shower.

  ***

  When you want something badly enough, you find a way to make it happen. For weeks and weeks, well into the thick of summer, Waverly and I manage to sneak around. On nights when Mark stays with Summer or Kath, we meet up around eleven, click the lock on her door, and fuck each other senseless. Nights when Mark is down the hall is pure fucking torture.

  Neither of us has put a label on whatever it is we’re doing. I’m not sure we even know what we’re doing, we just know that it feels good, and when we’re fucking like bunnies, we kind of forget about life’s bullshit for a while.

  The last night of Camp Zion is a sort of prom-like, chaperoned celebration complete with a live band playing church songs and punch bowls filled with Country Time lemonade. There’s even a sheet cake with a group photo laser-printed onto the frosting. It doesn’t get much more G-rated than that, but still, Mark refuses to let his kids attend.

  So we made plans of our own.

  I rap on Waverly’s door at eleven o’clock that Saturday night. “You ready yet?”

  Her door flings open a moment later. She’s in jeans and a hoodie, not exactly party material, but I don’t say anything because she’s still pretty damn fine. I press my finger against my lips and we tread lightly down the hall, down the stairs, and out the front door. The second our shoes hit the grass we sprint for my truck like we’re being chased.

  “Go, go, go!” She yanks her seatbelt across her chest the second we get inside, peering over her shoulder to make sure all three houses are still black.

  They are.

  I shift into neutral and push the truck to the end of the street, starting it up and peeling around the corner. By the time we’re halfway to Liberty’s place, Waverly tugs her sweatshirt off and tosses it aside, revealing a low-cut, lace trimmed tank top that hardly covers the top of her breasts.

  “Whoa, whoa, whoa.” I can’t stop staring. Fuck, I’ve seen her naked, but I’ve never seen her dress like this.

  “What? You like?”

  Months of fucking the shit out of her has evidently turned her into a saucy minx. “Yeah, I like. But I don’t like that other guys might like.”

  “You’d get jealous? Over me?”

  She’s surprised, and I’m surprised that she’s surprised. I thought it was obvious.

  I’m falling for her.

  “Cover up,” I say.

  “No.”

  I reach behind the seat of my truck and pull out a gray and blue flannel shirt. “Wear this.”

  “No.” She says it harder this time, not budging. “I wore this for you.”

  So there we have it. She’s dressing for me and I’m getting jealous over her. We’ve been in each other’s pants for months, unable to keep our hands off each other. She’s in my thoughts, motivating my actions, and invading the air I breathe.

  I love every god damn minute of it, too.

  We pull up to Liberty’s, cars parked up and down the street and filling the parking lot of her dad’s shop. I take her hand as we walk in, not because I’m trying to be romantic, but because I want every drunken jackass in that party to know from the second they see her, she’s off-limits. As long as I’m fucking her, she belongs to me.

  And it’s true. She’s mine from now until the end of summer when we go our separate ways. It’ll be hard knowing she’ll be off to college, probably fucking the first jackass who gifts her a wicked smile because that’s what attention-starved girls do when they get out from under their parents’ thumbs. But I try not to think about that too much.

  We show ourselves in, like everyone else seems to be doing, and bump into the plastered hostess.

  “Heyyyyy!” It’s Liberty, swaying back and forth, with an armful of beer. “You get a beer! You get a beer! You get a beer!”

  Music blasts from speakers behind her, nearly drowning out her voice. Kian’s behind her, smoking a joint. People stare at us with dead-eyed, glassy stares, and a few guys check out Waverly. I squeeze her hand tight and take a couple beers from Liberty’s arms.

  “I can hardly hear myself think,” Waverly yells into my ear, “but I love it.”

  She takes a swig of beer as we find a couple empty folding chairs in the kitchen. The apartment’s so tiny, though, we’ve barely escaped the noise. I find a stack of playing cards amongst the mess of stale, broken chips and crunched beer cans that line the counter.

  “Wanna play a game?” I raise a brow. “A drinking game?”

  She nods, smiling, gazing at me from across the table. The party is loud and chaotic, but we may as well be the only ones here.

  I shuffle the deck and go over the rules, a simple game of War, modified for drinking. By the time we get through the first shuffle, we need more beers. Three rounds later, and we’re both buzzing. The room’s a little off-kilter, and I feel a stupid smile on my face that won’t go away no matter how hard I try.

  “Hey, what’s your name?” A drunk guy stumbles into the kitchen to grab another drink, his gaze fixed on Waverly. “I’m Jared.”

  “I’m Liberty’s cousin,” she says, forgoing her name.

  Smart girl.

  I stack the deck of cards. “And I’m Liberty’s cousin’s boyfriend.”

  She doesn’t shoot me a look or make a face. She owns it just as much as I
do.

  “Let’s get some fresh air.” I rise up and nod toward the balcony slider, and she follows.

  We slip outside to a humble balcony with an iron railing, a grill, and a couple of plastic chairs with a blanket thrown over the back of one. A soft summer breeze whips her hair across her face.

  “Hope this is better than Zion’s pathetic excuse for a dance.”

  She turns to me, her creamy skin glowing against the moonlight. “This is perfect, Jensen. Really.”

  My palms glide up and down her arms, warming her up and pulling her into my space. The scent of her shampoo is sharp against the tepid air, and it fills my lungs with each breath. Twinkling stars dotting a midnight sky is a million times better than pastel fucking pseudo-prom decorations.

  “School starts in a month,” she says, pressing her cheek against my chest. Her arms slip under mine. Her father doesn’t know it yet, but she’s leaving the nest matter what. I’ll see to it personally, if I have to. They’re set to talk about college again next week, but something tells me he hasn’t changed his mind. “And then what happens?”

  “I go to L.A.” I rest my chin on top of her head. “And you come with me.”

  She’s silent.

  “Because fuck if I can imagine walking away from you and never looking back.” It’s the closest thing to “I love you” I’ve ever said in my entire life.

  Waverly lifts her face to mine, our mouths hanging in limbo as our eyes catch. “You know that’s not realistic.”

  “Disagree.”

  “I have a scholarship to Utah. I should go there.” Her eyes search mine, but for what, I’m not sure.

  “Mark’s not going to let you,” I say. “You know that. He’s wants you to get married. You’re safer running off with me.”

  She rakes her fingers through her hair. “I’ve been walking a straight line all summer. Going above and beyond. I’ve proven myself to him. He can’t deny it. He said we could talk about it next week. That’s a good sign.”

  “I don’t trust him.” I unclench my fist long enough to brush the hair from her eyes. “He’s been too… happy lately. He’s been laying low. Off your case. It’s not like him. Something’s up.”

  “You’re just being paranoid.”

  I shake my head. “I’m telling you, something’s up.”

  “He hasn’t brought up the arranged marriage thing since that night with Bruce Waterman.” She says it like it’s a good thing, but that’s what concerns me. “Maybe he’s changed his mind?”

  “Okay, so let’s say he lets you go,” I say. “You don’t think when you’re all finished with school, he’s not going to try to marry you off to some polygamous asshole? I’m sure he’s been saving up your dowry since you were barely out of diapers.”

  “We don’t do dowries.” She fights a smile. “If he lets me go away for school, that means he trusts my judgment. If he trusts my judgment, he’ll let me pick my own husband.”

  “Do you realize how completely and utterly idiotic this conversation is right now? It’s not normal.”

  “Nothing about my life has ever been normal, Jensen.” I pick up on the despondent quiver in her voice, getting the distinct urge to quell it with a kiss before the waterworks start. I press my lips against hers, lingering for a moment. “Still think you should come with me to L.A. I’ll take care of you, but, you know, not in the husband sort of way. More like the sexual sort of way.”

  She slaps my chest with her fist and smiles. “Let’s just enjoy what we have right now, okay? A few more weeks of this.”

  “And then what?”

  She shrugs. “I don’t know. I’m not your girlfriend; you’re not my boyfriend. It’s not like we’ll be breaking up.”

  But it is. It’s exactly like that.

  “Besides,” she adds, “we couldn’t be together, even if we wanted. We’re family.”

  “Fuck, Waverly, you still believe all that eternally sealed bullshit?” My body heats, I feel her slipping away. “It’s not real. None of it. You know what is real?”

  I press my mouth against hers once more, claiming her for what might be the very last time. With beer and rebellion on our tongues, our lips fuse. My hands cup her face, hungrily, refusing to let her go until I’m good and ready.

  “That,” I say, coming up for air. “That’s fucking real. You feel that?”

  Her lips are swollen, her eyes big. “You’re kissing me like you love me, or something.”

  “Maybe I might.”

  “That’s awfully romantic.” She rolls her eyes. “Can’t even commit to how you feel, but you expect me to run away with you.”

  “I’ve never said those words to anyone. It’s not easy for me.”

  “I’m not asking you to say them, I’m just asking you to make up your mind. Either you do or you don’t. Don’t tell me you might. That’s insulting.”

  My hands slide down to the indentation above her hips. “So you’d run away with me if I told you that I…”

  I can’t say it. There’s not a lot in this world that truly terrifies me. I’ve been beaten, neglected, abused emotionally and physically, but those three tiny words are more powerful than anything I’ve ever experienced.

  “I don’t know,” she says. “I don’t think you’ll ever say it, so I won’t get my hopes up.”

  “You’re hopeful that I—”

  She folds her arms. “Yeah. I am. I hope you’ll tell me you’ll love me because then I’ll know all this fooling around, all the back and forth, all of it was for a reason greater than either one of us ever realized.”

  “Do you…?”

  “Yes,” she says, like it’s no big deal, like it’s something she accepted a long time ago. “I love you.”

  I can’t remember the last time anyone ever told me that. Perhaps it was a grandparent or an aunt when I was little, and I’m sure it was written in a birthday card. But I’d never heard those words, spoken to me, out loud. Warmth threads my veins.

  The feeling is mutual, and the words are on the tip of my tongue. “These last few months have been the best months of my life.”

  “Mine too.” She stands on her toes, lifting her mouth to mine.

  I have to have her—now. It’s not carnal; it’s a craving much deeper. My cock swells from her kiss, enhanced from the way her body is pressed against mine. I reach for her pants, unbuckling her jeans and then mine.

  “What are you doing?” Her voice is breathless as she pulls from my mouth.

  I pull a condom from my wallet and sheath myself before taking a seat on one of the plastic chairs. Waverly climbs onto my lap, lowering herself into me. Her hips rock and circle, her head tilts backward. I grip her hips, guiding her up and down. She’s so fucking tight, her muscles clenching around me with each fluid movement.

  There’s an intimate sensuality in her eyes I’ve never seen before, I recognize it the second our eyes meet. And the warmth threading through my veins? That must be what love feels like.

  She moans, louder than ever, celebrating the fact that we don’t have to muffle ourselves here because the party inside drowns out our passionate sounds. And then she calls my name, gripping my shoulders as she rocks back and forth. She runs her tongue along the length of her bottom lip, her eyes shut tight.

  I feel the buildup in the base of my cock, spreading to the tip, seconds away from exploding. Her body tenses as her fingers dig into me, and she rides me harder, faster. My release is urgent, hot, and her body clenches around my cock as she breathes my name once more.

  She collapses, her head on my shoulder as our chests rise and fall against one another.

  That time was different.

  I’m going to tell her I love her. Maybe not right now. But I will. Because I do.

  I fucking love Waverly Miller.

  CHAPTER 26

  “Waverly, wake up.” There’s panic in his voice. My face is warm, my eyelids the color of warm amber. I blink, rubbing my eyes.

  And then I panic. “Je
nsen!”

  It’s daylight. We’re lying on the floor of the balcony where we passed out the night before.

  “Oh, my God. Shit. Shit. Shit!” I’ve never said any of those words before, and now I don’t even care that I’ve said them. My mind spins in tandem with my churning stomach.

  “Mark’s going to murder us.” Jensen’s tone is more matter-of-fact than urgent as he pulls me up and then pats his pockets for his keys. We slip inside the apartment, out the door, and spring down the stairs, two at a time.

  I’m not sure why we’re in such a hurry. It’s not like getting home any faster will save us from what’s about to happen. If anything we should be taking our time, prolonging the unavoidable punishment my father will fling our way.

  It’s going to be bad.

  It’s going to be really, really, really bad.

  Jensen starts up his truck, wiping the condensation off the glass with the sleeve of his shirt. He doesn’t seem scared, but I know better. He should be terrified.

  We endure the silent drive across town, neither of us saying a word until we pull up in front of the main house.

  “Okay,” Jensen says. “Here’s what we’re going to say.”

  My mouth is dry, my tongue smacking against the inside, but I can still taste last night’s beer. “Let’s just be honest and truthful.”

  “That’s the worst fucking thing we can do right now.” He shakes his head, shutting off his engine. “I coerced you into hanging out with Liberty last night. We watched a movie. We fell asleep. Liberty will cover for us.”

  “Yeah, but we smell like cigarettes and alcohol.”

  Jensen pops his glove box, and mists me with some kind of body spray neutralizer before handing me a pack of gum.

  “They’re not going to believe us,” I say, shoving the mint gum into my mouth.

  “This is the best shot we have.” He peers over my shoulder, looking into the house. “And there he is.”

  I turn around, seeing my dad standing in the front door, his hands on his hips, and his face wearing the chilliest expression I’ve ever seen. My stomach drops clear to the floor, and I’m two seconds from telling Jensen to just drive. I wish more than anything we could just stay in the car, drive away, and never look back.