Modern Magic
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All bravado, I knew. He would snap my neck. Any second, he’d snap, and I’d be dead. Again.
I twisted violently to the side, managing to loosen his grip on my neck. As I did, I shot upward, forcing our skulls together and setting off a July Fourth-style fireworks display in my head. I ignored the fact that it felt like my cranium had shattered and my brains were spilling out on the Oriental carpet. Instead, I did the only thing I knew how to do—I whaled on the guy. Arms weaving, knife flashing, I caught him across the arms, sliced the wings, and took off an ear with one fateful blow.
The kill shot, however, eluded me, and we dodged and parried, me bouncing and weaving and pretending I knew what the hell I was doing; him lunging with talons and claws and a strength borne straight from hell. “You are flawed,” he taunted. “Incomplete. Failure is your destiny,” he added with a black-eyed smirk. “For even if you win this battle, the war will not go your way.”
“I’ll take the battle,” I said, then thrust my knife, managing to slide it into the narrow space left open between his flailing arms and wings. The shot went home, and as I watched, the demon sagged on my knife.
It wasn’t a kill shot, though, and he stumbled across the room to the Box, with me right there with him.
He lashed out with his wing, knocking me back, and his talons fumbled at the Box even as I scrambled forward, trying desperately to touch the Box with my bloody hand, hoping that alone would be enough.
I didn’t make it.
I was only inches away when he held the Box high. I heard the demon’s whisper of “Disparea!” and in the blink of an eye, the Box disappeared.
“Noooooo!” I screamed, then rushed forward and thrust my blade through the beast’s heart.
And with its last dying breath, the demon smiled at me.
The Caller was dead.
But the Box was gone. And I’d failed to even take the battle.
The snap didn’t come.
Instead, as I looked into his eyes, my body convulsed, and my head filled with a pain not my own.
Touch and eyes.
Mist-encased images of the beast accosted me—images of him locked in combat with someone I couldn’t see, but somehow knew was not me. Who? Even as my air supply dwindled and my body fought pain and terror, I searched my mind for a better angle. For some hint of what I was seeing and why.
I don’t know how, but I knew this was not the past. This was a Thing Yet to Be, and though I didn’t understand how that could be any more than I understood how I’d come about because of a prophecy, at the same time I knew that it was absolutely real. What I was seeing would happen.
Or, at least, it would if the path didn’t alter.
The thoughts whipped through my mind, forming, but not cohesive. Instead, I was inundated with information. Thoughts. Images. Impressions. Conclusions. A nightmarish mishmash that centered around this vision of the beast locked in battle.
In the vision, the beast released his battle partner long enough to reach behind him and pull a broadsword from a scabbard I hadn’t seen. Perhaps it hadn’t been there, and like a dream, it had materialized only when needed. He brought it up and over, his strength awe-inspiring, and as he moved to the side to follow through with the swing, I saw the face of the person with whom he was doing battle: Clarence.
Like the bursting of a dam, the vision popped and my strength flooded back.
“Fiend!” the Caller cried, momentarily loosening his grip. “You play tricks in my mind!”
I didn’t bother to retort. I simply lashed out, fueled by fury, and that coupled with the fear of losing Clarence. Yes, he got on my nerves, but I’d grown fond of the little amphibian. More important, he was the one link between my old and new lives. And no one—no one—was messing with him while I was around.
Chapter Twenty-Nine
I raced out of the demon’s house, my head filled with failure and my emotions crowing a victory.
I needed to get away, to stuff these feelings inside. Compartmentalize. But I couldn’t. The essence was too fresh, the emotions too raw. A swell of pride. Of victory. Of intense martyrdom for having the cunning to stop the beast.
I’d done things. Horrible things. Violent, awful, perverted things.
And they would be forgiven. Erased. Because in the end, I’d won. I’d served the master well, and I would be rewarded.
No.
I fell to the sidewalk, my hands pressed to the concrete as I forced myself to slowly and methodically think the truth.
That isn’t me. I haven’t won. I’ve lost.
I’ve lost, and the Box is still out there. Ready to be Called. Ready to open the gate.
The emotions racing through me weren’t mine. I was experiencing the last visceral reaction of the lousy bastard demon who’d managed to defeat me.
The gates of hell were going to come flying open, and it was all my fault, and I did not want the smug son of a bitch doing a victory dance inside my head.
But he was, and as far as I could tell, I couldn’t do a damn thing to stop him. Not yet, anyway.
Damn, damn, damn, damn!
So instead of trying, I pressed my forehead to the concrete, willing it to pass. Willing myself to absorb the essence. To metabolize it. Take it in. Fucking process it so that I could get on with the business of my life—and not the business of living the life of every Hell Beast I killed.
Gravel crunched in the distance, and my head snapped up, the adrenaline rush compartmentalizing my emotions in a way that blunt mental force could never have managed. The sun had dropped below the rooftops, and now shadows consumed the alley. A figure stood in the dim light, his identity enshrouded by the gloom.
I squinted, fighting the urge to run as I tried to get a look at his face. I couldn’t make out anything. At least not until he took a step forward. Then I saw the glint of his knife, cold and malicious as it shimmered in the light from nearby streetlights.
I screamed, then yanked my sleeve up and slapped my hand over the symbol on my arm, desperate to rebuild the bridge and escape. I felt the tug, I saw the blackness, and then—blam—the handle of a flying knife knocked my hand away from my arm. Instantly, the portal fizzled and popped, and then disappeared.
It was gone. The bridge was gone. And though I pressed my hand again over the mark, the symbol had faded. It no longer worked.
It was done, and I was under attack.
The arm drew back then, and the blade went flying. I yelped, thrown completely off guard, then twisted my body down and to the side.
The knife missed my chest, but caught me in the shoulder, slicing neatly through my svelte black bodysuit. At first I felt nothing, and then the pain registered—a deep burning sensation as my body processed the nature of this assault.
I bent to retrieve my attacker’s knife, my shoulder aching with the movement even as I moved my other hand to the hilt of my own still-sheathed knife. Considering how fast my body now healed, I expected to be back at full capacity in no time.
Bring it on, baby.
At the end of the alley, he stepped out of shadows—a tall, thin figure dressed all in black, even his face covered. Just like me. Two anonymous warriors, ready to do battle. And since I had the whole immortality thing going, I was feeling decidedly superior. At least until I tried to grab my knife and discovered that I couldn’t do it. The sensation in my arm was gone, replaced by a million red-hot pins jabbing into my nerve endings.
A burst of fear scurried up behind the hubris I’d just been spouting.
Holy shit, what is wrong with me?
The sensation spread. My chest tight with cold. My belly trembling as icy fingers moved through my body.
Poison.
He lifted a crossbow . . . aimed . . .
And as he let the arrow fly, I forced my legs into action, my muscles screaming as I fought the subglacial temperatures that had settled into my bones.
I ran, and I kept on running, the world spinning around me, turning all sorts of in
teresting colors. I could no longer feel my arm or my chest. I was breathing, which I thought was a very good thing, but I had no visceral connection with that process. My lungs might be expanding, my heart might be beating, but from my perspective I was as stiff and unmoving as a mannequin.
I wasted a few precious seconds to turn and look behind me. He was there, that man in black, walking slowly toward me, his weapon at his side, ready to fire when he was in range. He wasn’t hurrying, though, and I knew why. He’d infected me with a paralytic. And once my arms and legs quit pumping—once I lay helpless on the pavement—he’d pull off my mask and slide a blade into my heart.
I’d come back. That much I knew. But suddenly I was faced with a new fear—like, what would happen to me if he cut off my head? If he buried me in a pine box? If he trapped me in wet cement?
I couldn’t die, but I could suffer, and right then I think I was more scared of living trapped or headless throughout eternity than I’d ever been of dying.
Move, Lily. Move your goddamned feet!
I stumbled into the street, dodging the few cars that zipped by. Horns blared, but I heard nothing, too obsessed with the picture that ran through my head over and over: the blade, dark boxes, my head. Mentally, I shuddered, though my upper body was no longer capable of such a reaction.
I thrust myself blindly in front of an oncoming car, holding my hands out in a desperate plea for it to stop.
I saw the female driver’s eyes go wide, and she swerved, missing me even as she slammed on the brakes. The tips of my fingers in my right hand still moved, and I used that motion to pull open the car door, brandishing my knife.
The woman screamed, and though I couldn’t speak, she figured out exactly what I wanted, stepping on the gas and thrusting us forward, her hands tight on the wheel as she shot terrified sideways glances in my direction.
As for me, I kept my eyes on the shadows, finally finding my tormentor standing in a pool of light from a single porch lamp. He turned, defeated, as the car went by.
I’d won this round, but it was a Pyrrhic victory. My body was giving out, I was in a car with a woman I’d kidnapped, and soon, I knew, I’d be meeting my foe again.
“What . . . what should I do?” the woman asked after we’d traveled a few miles down the road.
I stayed silent, my lips nonresponsive to my commands. I craved a cell phone, but what good would it do me? I had no number for Clarence or Zane, and there was no one else I could count on.
Besides, I wouldn’t be able to dial the damn thing.
The driver glanced at me, glanced at the knife, and made a hard right into a vacant lot. She opened the door with the turn and jumped out before the car had even stopped. It rolled forward, smashing into another vehicle, and slamming me forward so that I hit my head on the dash.
Immediately, a car alarm started blaring.
I tried to use my fingers to open my door, but they’d stopped functioning. There was still some life left in my legs, though, and I pushed and scooted and shoved until I fell like a lump of dead meat out of the car and onto the rough gravel and broken glass that covered the lot and now dug into my cheek and hairline.
I couldn’t turn my neck, but managed with a few shoves and kicks to get my body oriented so that I could scope out the area. No one. My hijack victim had disappeared, though if I was any judge of human nature, I had a feeling she’d be back, and with the police.
I needed to get out of there, and with the last bit of strength in my legs, I scooted across the lot, ripping my oh-so-fashionable assassin costume as I aimed myself toward the edge of the lot.
This was where that extra oomph of strength really came in handy, because there was no way I could have managed this in my old life. At the same time, in my old life, there was no way I would have found myself paralyzed in a vacant lot after carjacking an innocent woman.
The lot ended at a grassy easement that sloped down to a second street. I rolled down the hill, pleased to find a smattering of tractors and bulldozers, all shut down for the night. I settled underneath a tractor, not because it seemed like an amazing hiding spot but because my legs had finally given out.
I closed my eyes and prayed, hoping that God was keeping an eye on his nascent warrior . . . and hoping that the police would assume that a carjacker would leave the scene and not be stupid enough to camp under the nearby construction equipment.
Moments passed without a sound except for the gentle whiz of passing traffic. I closed my eyes.
Whether I died or merely slept, I didn’t know. Certainly with the paralytic, my heart could have stopped. And with Zane’s essence, it would have started up again.
Or, maybe I simply passed out.
I didn’t know. Which, frankly, was a little freaky.
Not that I intended to dwell on the freaky. Instead, I needed to get the hell out of there.
I rolled out from under the tractor, my muscles stiff but once again fully functional. I saw no one nearby and breathed a sigh of relief. If the cops had come, they were gone now. And whoever my attacker had been, he hadn’t found me.
My shoulder still ached, but a quick glance showed that the wound had healed. My clothing was ripped to shreds. I wanted a shower, but even more than that, I wanted answers.
And I knew of only one place to go to start asking questions.
Chapter Thirty
It was past midnight by the time I reached Zane’s door. I used my palm to gain entrance, then took the elevator down to the training center floor, my eyes searching for Zane even before the cage-style elevator came to a stop.
Empty.
But I knew he was there. He had to be there.
I scanned the room, finally noticing a small, unmarked door on the far side, beside a metal shelf that held white, fluffy towels. I marched to it and pushed the door open, then slid silently inside.
I was in a spare room, and Zane was there, on a metal cot, his body covered by a thin blue blanket.
I moved forward with stealth, then sat on the edge of his bed, my hand pressed flat on his naked chest, right over his heart.
His eyes flashed open, the warrior in them fading to relief when he saw me. “We’ve been concerned. The portal closed, but you hadn’t come through. Then hours passed and you didn’t check in.”
“How do you stand it?” I whispered. “How do you stand knowing that you can’t die but that you could suffer endlessly? That you could be hacked into bits and left for dead? But you wouldn’t be. Or buried in a cement vault for hundreds or thousands of years? How do you live with that?”
I felt the sting of tears in my eyes, then the gentle press of his hand over mine.
“I live with it, ma fleur, because I have no choice.” He sat up, revealing the rest of his bare chest and firm abdomen. The sheet fell around his hips, and I had a feeling that the rest of him was bare, too. “What has happened tonight, chérie?” he asked, his voice infinitely gentle.
I pointed to where the knife had sliced through my now-battered skinsuit. “I was attacked. After the assignment. Poison on the knife. Something. I’m not really sure.”
At the word poison, he’d tensed, leaning forward to look at the now-healed wound. “Tell me,” he said. “Tell exactly what happened.”
I told, and watched as his eyes went hard and flat.
“They did not know the truth about you, chérie,” he said. “But the greater truth—who you are and why you are here—that, they must know.”
“That’s what I figure, too. End me, and evil takes a holiday.” I glanced sideways at him. “Then again, maybe they did know that I’ve sucked in your essence. Maybe they paralyzed me so that they could chop me into little immortal pieces.” I shivered at the thought. That really creeped me out. “But I got away.”
“Possible,” he said, looking thoughtful. “Though it would not, I think, have been that difficult to locate you. It is after midnight now, and you left here before dark. Plenty of time to locate an unconscious warrior.”
/> “Which is why I didn’t come here to slice off your head,” I said, giving voice to a suspicion that had been gnawing at me. His brows lifted, but I pressed on. “You would have known what to do. How to stop me for good. You would have found me, and you would have done that. But here I am. Which means you didn’t sell me out.”
His eyes narrowed. “Although I am pleased to be off your suspect list, I had no knowledge of where you were. The portal reveals its destination only to you.”
I frowned. I hadn’t realized they wouldn’t know where I was.
“Beyond that,” he continued, “I would like to know why you would think of me as a traitor for even a moment.”
I tilted my head, but never took my eyes off his. “You’re a demon. An incubus.”
The hard edge to his eyes glimmered with amusement. “Am I?”
I swallowed, certain I was right, but at the same time knowing it was one hell of an accusation, especially considering whom we both worked for. But it made sense. His immortality. His intense sensuality. The way he was able to melt me with only a look.
And the way the heady power of that sensual fire now burned within me.
He was an incubus. He had to be.
He rose, the sheet dropping away to reveal his perfect, naked body. I stood firm, my knife held out, forcing myself to keep calm as he drew near. He might not have been the one who attacked me, but I couldn’t fully trust him. Not knowing the truth about him.
He moved toward me, stopping his advance when his flesh touched my blade, a single drop of blood beading on that perfect caramel skin. “And what do you intend to do with that knife?”
“Isn’t this what I’m supposed to do? Kill demons? Don’t I at least have to try? Even against the immortal ones?”
He turned, ignoring my knife as he pulled on a pair of thin gray sweats. “You assume that is what I am,” he said, moving back toward me with slow purpose. “That this sensual buzzing and humming between us comes from a dank, dark place.” He’d pitched his voice low, and the thrum of my body deepened, all of my senses coming to life as he spoke.