Love & Loss (The Austin Series)

by C. J. Fallowfield

  ‘Cool, happy New Year babe, I’ll look forward to seeing you in Feb.’

  ‘Happy New Year to you too Sam,’ I blew a kiss down the phone for extra effect as I raised my eyebrows at Lexi. ‘Well how the hell am I going to get out of Valentine’s night with Gabe to wrangle a trip with you to London?’

  ‘We’ll find some excuse. I love you,’ she grinned as she hugged me. ‘Right, party, we need to get back.’

  ‘I’ll be there in a minute,’ I nodded. ‘Just got a few more texts to reply to.’ I leaned on the railings as I did them and screamed, wobbled and nearly dropped my phone as I felt a hand on my shoulder and suddenly I was hauled back from the edge of the roof.

  ‘Christ Mia, you nearly went over.’

  ‘Milo?’ I gasped. ‘You gave me the fright of my life. Shit I’m shaking,’ I uttered as I looked down at my trembling hands. He took me by surprise by pulling me into a hug, pressing my face against his chest.

  ‘It’s ok, I’d never let anything happen to you, you know that right?’ I could hear a slight slur in his voice and I suddenly felt rather uncomfortable.

  ‘I know,’ I nodded. ‘Thanks, but I really need to get back, Gabe will be wondering where I am.’ I went to move, but his arms tightened around me. ‘Milo, I need to go.’

  ‘What do you see him Mia? He’s … he’s no good for you,’ he whispered as his lips met my neck.

  ‘Milo, get off me right now, this isn’t appropriate.’ I pushed my palms on his chest, but he didn’t work out on the weights for nothing, he was as strong as Gabe and I couldn’t get out of his grasp. I felt panic starting to rise inside me, my heart racing as the tremors in my hands worsened. What if Gabe came out here and saw this? He’d go crazy and we weren’t exactly in a safe place for a brawl. ‘Milo, let me go, you’re scaring me.’

  ‘You deserve better than him Mia, you’re so beautiful, with your long brown hair, it glitters in the sun, like … like … strands of gold.’

  ‘Milo, if you don’t let me go I’m going to hurt you,’ I growled. Where the bloody hell had this come from? He’d never acted inappropriately around me before and I refused to believe that Gabe, Doug and Lexi had all been right about him all along, I was sure I could suss people out quite quickly, but if I was wrong about Milo, it called my judgement into question.

  ‘Hurt me?’ he laughed. ‘You already hurt me being with that cocky … twat.’

  ‘I warned you,’ I muttered and lifted Lexi’s heavy biker boot and brought it crashing down on his foot. He yelled out in pain and loosened his grip on me, so I took the opportunity to shove him back as he cursed and hopped up and down. ‘This had better be inappropriate flirtation because you’re pissed Milo, I want you to leave right now and I’ll be having a serious conversation with you about this when you’re sober. And don’t you ever question Gabe’s suitability for me again.’ I yanked open the door and stepped out feeling my whole body trembling and slammed it shut behind me and came face to face with Lexi leaning over the bannister.

  ‘Shit, are you ok? You look really pale.’

  ‘It’s nothing, I’m fine.’ I smiled.

  ‘Please, how long have I known you Mia, you’re not fine. What’s going on?’

  ‘Not now please Lexi, I just want to find Gabe. Have you seen him?’

  ‘He’s sitting at your island. Mia seriously what the hell’s happ …’ she stopped mid-sentence and her mouth dropped as she looked behind me. I turned to see Milo squeezing out of the door from the terrace and looked back at her as she straightened up. ‘Has he just …’

  ‘Lexi, leave it please. Milo’s had too much to drink and he’s leaving. Can you go and find Dan or one of his friends to take him home. Right now please,’ I ordered. She scowled over my shoulder but nodded her head.

  ‘Mia?’ came Milo’s voice.

  ‘Good night Milo,’ I replied as I walked away without looking back at him and pushed my way through the crowds in our apartment. I felt sick, physically sick and I just wanted Gabe, we spotted each other through the bodies separating us and I felt my eyes tearing up. How could Milo have behaved like that? Gabe immediately frowned and started making his way towards me. God this wasn’t the time to have a meltdown, no way could I tell him what had just happened, I needed to pull myself together. I bit my lip to stop myself from crying as he virtually barrelled someone out of the way to get to me.

  ‘Baby, what’s wrong?’ he uttered as he pulled me into his arms. I melted into them and wrapped my arms tightly around his waist as I nuzzled his chest and breathed him in, replacing the smell of Milo with my man’s irresistible aroma.

  ‘I missed you. I’ve hardly seen you all night and I just wanted to feel your arms around me.’

  ‘I’m confused. You told me you didn’t want me by your side all night,’ he said softly as he kissed the top of my head.

  ‘Well I was stupid, please don’t leave me now.’

  ‘I’m not going anywhere, I never wanted to leave you in the first place. Baby you’re trembling. What have you had to eat tonight?’

  ‘Half a chicken wrap,’ I mumbled.

  ‘Mia,’ he sighed. ‘We didn’t have lunch with getting ready. You probably have low blood sugar again and you’re drinking on a virtually empty stomach. Come on, let’s go and see if there’s anything left.’ He tugged my hair and I looked up at him and smiled as he bowed his head and kissed me. I felt so safe with him, how dare Milo criticise him, making out that he was no good for me. He was good for me, even when he was in one of his frequent stress moods he’d lay down his life to protect me, I just knew it, because I’d do the same for him. ‘Love face,’ he smiled.

  ‘They need a stronger word for what I feel for you Gabe,’ I said sincerely as I held his gaze.

  ‘Like engine,’ he whispered as his eyes glittered.

  ‘Like engine,’ I nodded and for a moment we were just in a little bubble of bliss, seeing into each other’s souls and nothing else mattered but the love I felt flowing back to replace what I was sending to him. I let go of his waist and hopped up onto his hips and clasped his face. ‘Kiss me.’

  ‘Absolutely,’ he smiled, mimicking Lara and I laughed and pulled his lips onto mine and kissed him tenderly, my lips tingling with pleasure as they worked against his. ‘Hmmm, great kiss,’ he sighed as I pulled back and smiled. ‘I’m going to get some food in you, then if it’s ok with you, I’d like to find somewhere to get my cock in you.’

  ‘Absofuckinglutely,’ I laughed and kissed him again as he effortlessly strode out and I buried my face in his neck in case Milo was still out on the landing.

  ‘Ok, cocktail sausage?’ he asked as he kissed my cheek.

  ‘Why go mini when I have maxi to look forward to later?’ I giggled as I lifted my head and looked at him.

  ‘Very true, but maybe this little one will make you appreciate my large one even more.’

  ‘O trust me, I appreciate it like you wouldn’t believe,’ I nodded as I snatched the chipolata off him and bit down on it with a wink.

  ‘Mia,’ he groaned.

  ‘What? I love sausage.’

  ‘Damn it woman, you’ve got me hard already.’

  ‘I’m insulted, I kissed you earlier and you didn’t get hard from that?’ I teased.

  ‘No, because I was worried about you. You seem fine now all of a sudden.’

  ‘I am, so fine and if you think those chocolaty squares are sweet, you need a reminder taste of what’s between my legs,’ I nodded as I leaned back and grabbed another sausage. ‘I’m very wet,’ I whispered before I slowly sucked on it.

  ‘Fuck it. If I can’t find somewhere private, I’m having you on that pinball machine regardless of who’s watching,’ he growled as he tilted his pelvis to run his erection firmly against me.

  ‘O big boy,’ I groaned as I felt my eyes half close. The look in his eyes was pure male carnality and I knew he wasn’t in a gentle love making mode, this was going to be another quick rough fuck and I was more than rea
dy for that. ‘My shorts are very damp.’

  ‘How drunk are you?’ he asked as he strode towards my old bedroom.

  ‘Not drunk enough for you not to take advantage of me soldier boy, this could be your last sex before you’re deployed.’

  ‘Excellent,’ he smiled as he opened my bedroom door and quickly backed out when we caught someone already at it in there.

  ‘Ewwww in my bed?’ I groaned as he chuckled.

  ‘Old bed. In fact as our bedroom’s locked why don’t we just head in there?’

  ‘What happened to spontaneity and christening every surface?’ I gasped.

  ‘Fine, we’ll go do it on the roof and watch the fireworks,’ he smiled as he stepped onto the landing.

  ‘No,’ I said quickly and he looked at me puzzled. Milo’s bizarre behaviour out there was just too fresh in my mind. ‘If others know about it they’ll be coming out to see them and it’s midnight in …. five minutes,’ I said as I checked my watch.

  ‘I could be done in five.’

  ‘Not selling yourself here,’ I laughed. ‘I want it long and hard. Now.’ I chomped my teeth together, then pouted my lips as I looked at him through my lashes.

  ‘God I love you,’ he sighed as he quickened his pace and ignored all the people crowded in our apartment who were screaming along to the music. He muscled his way through and headed for our bathroom just as someone was about to go in. ‘Out, now,’ he bellowed.

  ‘But I need …’

  ‘Find another loo,’ he growled as he narrowed his eyes and I gasped and moved to start kissing his neck. He was so hot in control. Whoever it was beat a hasty retreat and Gabe carried me in, locking the door behind him. He lifted me off him and started unbuttoning his combats. ‘Shorts and t-shirt off,’ he barked.

  ‘T-shirt off, combats on,’ I ordered back as I pulled my t-shirt over my head and he hissed as he looked at my pink nipples hanging over the edge of my bra.

  ‘Faster,’ he snarled as he ripped his top off and I whimpered as I shimmied my shorts down and looked at his slim hips and that delicious v. ‘Hmmm, crotchless knickers excellent.’

  ‘Gabe, hurry up, I need you,’ I uttered as I kicked my shorts out of the way. The throbbing between my thighs was intense as I watched him pull himself free and start stroking himself slowly. ‘Gabe?’

  ‘You want this?’ he asked as he walked towards me. I nodded and licked my lips as I watched his hand moving up and down. ‘Why?’

  ‘Because it’s you, because I need you. You turn me on so much and you fill me so well Gabe, I need you inside me.’

  ‘So it’s my cock you want, not just cock.’

  ‘Yours, always yours, it’s beautiful,’ I whispered breathlessly as I took in the length and girth of it, with that perfect slight curve that hit my g-spot every time he was on top.

  ‘I’m going to come so hard baby, seeing glimpses of you all night across the room, teasing me with your full bottom in those tight shorts, all I’ve thought about is fucking you.’

  ‘So stop talking and do it,’ I begged as I stepped towards him and reached out to touch it.

  ‘No. Turn around and press yourself up against the door, chest first.’ I went to walk to the glass door to the dressing room and he tutted. ‘Other door baby.’

  ‘But Gabe, that’s the door to the main room where everyone is.’

  ‘Yes it is,’ he nodded with a smile.

  ‘It’s glass.’

  ‘Opaque.’

  ‘They’ll still see the shape of my body even if they don’t know it’s me.’

  ‘So? I thought you wanted a hard rough fuck, this is how I want it. Get over there, now.’

  ‘Ok,’ I gulped and nodded, even more turned on. He added to it as he whacked one of my bottom cheeks as I walked past. I took a deep breath and palmed the glass. I felt his breath on the back of my neck as he nudged me closer, closer still until my breasts were squashed against it and my stomach sucked in to feel the cool chill of it against my skin.

  ‘Spread those legs for me,’ he murmured as I felt his body moulding to mine and I complied immediately and clenched as I felt my arousal slowly seeping out of me. He grabbed my hands and held them above my head, using his palms to flatten them on the door as his fingers spread mine then tightened around them. He slowly ploughed the tip of his erection through me, parting my folds and coating himself in my juices.

  ‘O God,’ I groaned as I lay my cheek against the glass and took a few short sharp breaths, wondering if anyone outside was looking at my silhouette. I felt myself flood at the thought of it.

  ‘You’re so turned on right now aren’t you? Thinking someone’s standing out there looking at those tits pressed up against the glass, stroking themselves through their trousers at the thought of what we’re doing in here.’

  ‘Yes,’ I sighed and tilted my head to let his run his tongue up my neck.

  ‘Sweet, like caramel,’ he groaned as he did it again. I could hear the noise from the lounge getting louder, the excitement building and realised the music had stopped and someone had put on the live countdown from London embankment. ‘I’m going to be inside you at midnight baby and the noise out there may just drown out your screams.’

  ‘Don’t make me wait,’ I begged. ‘You’re teasing me.’

  ‘See how wet it makes you, you’re so desperate, not knowing when I’ll fill your sweet cunt with this hot thick shaft of mine. Hmmmm, see how you’re writing your hips, trying to quench that throbbing little clit of yours. Would you like me to suck it? Take it in my teeth and bite down while my tongue works it over?’

  ‘Yes, yes,’ I whined. My skin was burning up, every nerve in my body was tuned into the building tension inside me, I was almost sure I could come just from his teasing alone I was that wound up.

  ‘How about a finger up that tight little backside of yours,’ he mumbled between sucks on my neck.

  ‘Yes,’ I nodded as I panted. ‘I’m going to hyperventilate soon Gabe, please,’ I cried in a high pitched strangled voice as the tip of his dick rubbed over my clit and my head flopped back onto his shoulder.

  ‘O baby, you’re so willing to please,’ he sighed, ‘but I’m not letting go of those hands so you’ll have to settle for this cock instead,’ he whispered in my ear as he suddenly thrust upwards, plundering my tight back passage as I screamed with shock and pleasure. ‘Again, let me hear you Mia,’ he groaned as he rammed into me harder.

  ‘Gabe,’ I cried, vaguely aware of the chanting just beyond the door, the countdown had begun, to New Year as well as a seriously intense orgasm. He thrust in time to their shouts ensuring my cries were muffled. I felt like I’d been scalped from the tingling radiating through my head and my body tensed up as his shaft stimulated me, along with the knowledge of everyone standing right outside that door.

  ‘Fuck, you’re seeping all over my balls, that’s so hot,’ he groaned. ‘Come for me baby, grip my cock tighter, let me feel how much you need me.’

  ‘I do … I do … I do,’ I screamed as there was a cheer from outside and the sound of exploding fireworks, none rivalled the ones going on in my body as I came so hard I slammed into the door and the glass shuddered as I heard Gabe roar my name. He pulled me back off the door, backed onto the glass shower screen and slowly slid down, holding me on his lap, his cock still firmly wedged in my backside as I trembled.

  ‘Dirty girl,’ he groaned as he licked the perspiration of my damp neck.

  ‘Says man with cock up my bottom,’ I sighed as I leaned back into him. ‘I feel all hot in there, has your condom ripped?’

  ‘Not wearing one,’ he chuckled. ‘I wanted to feel myself coming inside you properly, a new thing for a new year.’

  ‘Pervert.’

  ‘Complaining baby?’

  ‘Never, sometimes I just need to be fucked leaving all our emotions at the door,’ I giggled as he cupped my breasts and tugged on my nipples. He hooked his ankles over mine and dragged them out, parting my legs and ra
n one hand down to slide over my wet pussy.

  ‘Damn baby. You’re like a geyser you’re that wet.’

  ‘Hmmmm,’ I groaned as his fingers slipped around my quivering opening and swollen clit.

  ‘I’m going to sit you up on that sink in a minute and suck you dry. Just like I did on our first date.’

  ‘So it’s happy new year to me is it?’ I giggled and then hissed as I tensed again with pleasure.

  ‘After the last few months baby, I’m going to make sure it’s a very happy new year. I love you Mia,’ he whispered as he kissed my temple. I twisted my head to let him kiss me properly, tender thrusts of his tongue into my mouth as he repeated the motion with two fingers inside me. I sagged against him as a second orgasm hit me and ignored the rattling of the bathroom door as someone tried to get it. I didn’t care what was going on out there, all I cared about was losing myself with my man and starting our new year together in our new home.

  After recovering from our lengthy session in the bathroom, Gabe left me to clean myself up and get ready for bed. I’d just finished brushing my teeth when I jumped out of my skin as he flung the door open with a look of fury on his face.

  ‘What the fuck’s this?’ he hissed as he brandished my phone at me.

  ‘What?’ I uttered looking at him shocked. ‘It’s my mobile.’

  ‘Who the fucking hell is Sam?’ he barked.

  ‘You’ve been snooping on my phone?’ I spun around to glare at him.

  ‘O you don’t get to play the hurt party here Mia, who the fuck is Sam and why’s he ringing you at three in the bloody morning?’

  ‘Give me that,’ I snapped and snatched it out of his hand as I tried to work out how the hell I was going to handle this. Me and my stupid bloody ideas, I should have known this was going to come back to bite me in the arse.

  ‘Start talking Mia and fast. I’m about to blow a bloody fuse here.’