As I put them in my pocket I thought about what he had just said and asked him what he meant.
“Baby what you mean, I’ll find it fast. Ain’t you coming with us?” I asked Ricardo as he shook his head no and I told him yes.
I couldn’t understand why he was saying no as I stared at him and tears rolled down my face. I needed him after some shit like that so I needed to know why he was abandoning me.
“Baby, it’s a murder investigation. I bodied a nigga. Ain’t no way they fina let my black ass just leave and go home, even if it was self-defense in the process of a home invasion. I ain’t white baby, so please believe these bitches about to utilize that 72-hour hold. Don’t you worry about shit though, you’ll be safe out there and you got Ky with you. As a matter of fact, call everybody and have them meet you at my house. I’m coming home as soon as they release me baby and we about to expedite our out of state move plans. Ain’t no way we staying here after all this shit. I just need you to be strong and stay alert until I’m back with you. Okay baby?” Ricardo asked as I cried and shook my head yes before I told him I didn’t want him to go.
I knew that wasn’t his choice though, but it was hard as hell for me not to say it. I had already lost my uncle Bear and Kam was still in jail. The last thing I wanted was to lose the love I had just got. I really had no choice in the matter though because as I kissed Ricardo and he told me that it was alright, two uniformed officers walked over and told him he had to go down to the station for questioning. I cried as they pulled him off the hood of my car, handcuffed him, and led him away. Ky had to get out and help me into the car as I damn near lost my mind.
“You just sit back and try to calm down sis, I’ll drive us where we going. I got you big sis, always.” Ky said as he put me into the passenger seat and closed the door.
I didn’t even protest as my sorrow and anger took me to a dark place in my mind. In that place there was nothing but, blood, death and revenge and Kenan was my main target. I stayed in those evil thoughts as Ky pulled out of the apartments and I didn’t snap out of it until he asked me where we were going. I quickly gave him the address after that as I looked in the back seat at Asha.
“Just look at her little brother, she perfect and she don’t deserve all this shit. I’M JUST READY FOR THIS SHIT TO END. I NEED KENAN TO BE DEAD.” I yelled through my frustration as tears ran from my eyes.
Ky told me that he wanted him dead too as we cruised down the street, then he promised me that he would make sure of it. I wanted to believe him as I looked at his face and saw the sincerity in his eyes. I was sure that would be his intentions, but with all that had happened I wasn’t sure if you could kill the nigga. He was like some indestructible evil villain in the movies who just couldn’t be taken down. I told Ky that too as my phone began to ring and he told me every nigga had a weakness. I thought about that as I answered the phone and told KJ where we were headed. He said that they would meet us there before I hung up the phone and looked at Ky. Suddenly, a light bulb went off in my mind and I had a plan to bait him in. I thought about it the rest of the ride to Ricardo’s house and I hoped like hell it would work. When we pulled up in front of the beautiful two-story house Ricardo had just gotten from his parents, I sat there for a minute and just stared.
Although it was well after 5 am by then and the sun was coming out, everything still looked beautiful and so peaceful. All of the yards on the block were well manicured and the street was clean of trash, graffiti and junkies. I saw myself living in the beautiful home with Ricardo and my baby as I sat there and day dreamed about it. Ky broke that shit up though as he called my name and told me KJ nem was there. I snapped out of my daydream and looked out the window just as Spicy ran to my door.
“What happened Na? It was hella police, investigators, and detectives out there. Somebody said a nigga got killed. Please tell me it wasn’t Ricardo.” Spicy said as she helped me out of the car and I told her that it wasn’t.
“No, Ricardo didn’t get shot, he the one bodied a nigga. Kenan broke in the house with two niggas trying to take Asha. They shot that bitch up too mama, with my baby right there on the floor. This shit getting out of hand and I can’t take too much more of this. Why we can’t kill this nigga? Why he just won’t leave us alone?” I cried as Spicy grabbed me and wrapped me in her arms before she said that he would get got.
I wanted to believe her, but once again all of the missed attempts didn’t make me feel hopeful. I felt like I was fighting a losing battle as Spicy told me it would work out while she led me up on the porch. I walked with her and got my shit together; drying my tears and burying my pain. I looked back when we got to the door and I saw that KJ had Asha and Ky had her bags. I knew that she was safe in either of my brother’s arms, so I relaxed a little and sighed as I turned back around.
I opened the door and we all walked into Ricardo’s plush, beautifully decorated house. He had it setup just like a bachelor’s pad with flat screens and gaming systems in every room. My brothers thought they were in heaven as they piled in, while I felt like I was in hell. All I wanted was peace and a little bit of happiness and it seemed that I would get neither. That’s why instead of checking out the house, I went into the living room and sat down on the couch. When I sat down the plan I had made in the car popped in my head and I called Spicy into the room to tell her.
“What Na? What’s wrong?” Spicy asked as she ran in with her gun in hand.
I don’t know what she expected to find when she rushed in strapped like that, but I was happy to see that she was still on go. I told her to put it down because I was okay and she slipped her gun into her purse before she sat beside me.
“What is it then baby? What has that devilish look in your eyes?” Spicy asked me as I leaned forward, clasped my hands, together and let her in on my plan.
“What’s wrong is he still out there and while he is my baby ain’t safe. That’s why I came up with this plan in the car.” I said to Spicy as I sat back on the couch, bit my lip, and looked up at the ceiling.
I tried to see the plan working in my mind as that fucking voice came back and told me that it wouldn’t. The voice said coaxing him in wasn’t the answer, but eradicating everybody was. I ignored that bitch as I growled then opened my eyes and looked dead at Spicy.
“I want to bait him in mama. I want to use myself as bait.” I told Spicy as she told me hell no then jumped up off the couch to call my brothers into the room. I tried to explain to her what I meant as she shook her head but she just wasn’t listening.
“Oh hell no Na, you know that ain’t happening. I told y’all that the first time it was suggested. Like I said, y’all don’t know who we are dealing with but I do; and I know he won’t fall for no tricks. I mean look how hard it is to get the bitch now. You think he stupid enough to fall for an ambush?” Spicy asked me as KJ and Ky walked back into the room and Ky carried Asha.
“Wasup ma?” KJ said as he walked over and sat beside me on the couch.
My brother wrapped his arm around my shoulder and I melted in his arms. I felt safe when my brothers were around because I knew they always had my back. When Spicy told them what I had said their unconditional support began to fade though and I soon found that out.
“Oh hell naw Na Na?” Ky said as he laid Asha on the plush ottoman by the door and walked to the center of the room.
He told me that was stupid as fuck and that there was no way he was letting me put myself at risk like that. He was serious as hell too as he yelled hell no and KJ quickly chimed in.
“Hell no sis, I can’t let you do that. You see how the nigga is.” KJ said as he looked at me crazy while Spicy kept saying no.
I let them all get it out of their systems as I sat there and stared at Asha. When they all had finished overreacting and shit I told them the whole plan.
“All of y’all chill the fuck out. Spicy didn’t even let me finish talking. I told her I wanted to bait him in, but I didn’t mean in person.” I said as they all
sighed then asked me what I meant. “Well on the way over here I told Ky it seemed like the nigga couldn’t be killed. Ky said that was a lie because every nigga has a weakness. That got me to thinking about what Kenan’s weakness is, and I think I know.” I said as I looked up at my mama and she read my mind.
“US!” Spicy said and I nodded my head as I finished revealing my plan.
“Yes mama, we are his weakness and the motivation behind his rage. Maybe if I call his ass and pretend to be with the program I can get him to meet me somewhere. If he agrees y’all just be on standby and we gonna make sure that hoe dies.” I said as everyone nodded their heads and Ky said my plan could work.
I hoped he was right as I pulled out my phone and strolled through my call log for his number. As I searched for it everyone gave me pointers on how to make the shit more believable. Ky told me to sound sad and remorseful, while KJ said to get straight to the point. Spicy stood back for a minute and thought then she gave me her tip.
“You know what to do Na, because you know this nigga just like I do. Kenan is a control freak so he likes to believe everything is his idea. Play on that shit and let him be dominant then beg him to come home. Tell him that you finally see the light and you want to help him keep his bloodline pure. That should do the trick because that sick bastard never deviates from a plan. Once he is fixated on something he will go to any extreme to get it. Case in point, us and all the shit we going through now. We can catch him up though baby so I don’t see any harm in trying.” Spicy said and I dialed the number as I got up to pace the floor.
The phone rung about ten times before Kenan finally answered and when he did my heart skipped a beat when I heard his voice.
“Anthony…I mean Kenan, where are you? This is Kaniyah. I need you and so does our daughter.” I said in my best distressed voice as I bit my lip and held back the rage inside.
I wanted to yell out how he was a pussy and I was going to cut his fucking heart out. I didn’t though, I just stuck with the program and pretended to cry as he laughed in my ear. For a second I thought the bastard wouldn’t answer but suddenly he spoke and I knew my mother’s initial thoughts were right. He was too smart for any tricks and he showed my ass that.
“Oh, you want to come home now huh? Now you’ve had a change of heart?” Kenan asked as I told him yes and he laughed a little harder.
His laughter infuriated me as I paced the floor and mouthed to my family that he knew. Spicy shook her head like I told you so as I turned my attention back to the phone.
“No Kaniyah, you ain’t ready yet. You just saying that shit to throw me off. Maybe you trying to set me up or some shit, I don’t know. All I do know is you not serious and you ain’t ready yet. So, how about you wait on me to tell you when you ready. I’m about to disappear for a minute and let you breathe; but believe me baby, I’m not giving up. I’ll be back Kaniyah when you least expect it and I will have you. I’ll have you and our daughter right with me where you belong. So just be patient baby girl. Daddy coming for ya!” Kenan said as he laughed that eerie ass laugh again then hung up in my face.
I yelled for him to come get me now and that I was gonna behead his ass, but it was no use because he was gone right along with my hope. I fell down on the couch beside KJ defeated as tears ran down my face and my body shivered. Everyone tried to console me after that but nothing would work. All I could think about was Kenan coming back when I was truly happy and had let my guard down only to take my baby away from me. I wasn’t going to let that happen though and I vowed to myself that I would watch her every second of the day. Even with that in mind though, I could shake my pain as KJ held me and ensured me it would be alright. I stayed like that, broken in my brothers arms until Ricardo suddenly bust through the door. As soon as I saw him I jumped up and ran into his arms and he held me tightly.
“I told you I was coming back girl. I’m glad you happy to see me.” Ricardo said as he kissed me then walked me back over to the couch.
I stood beside him as he dapped up KJ, hugged Spicy then we sat down so he could fill us in on what happened. Ricardo told us how the nigga he had killed was a convicted murderer who had escaped from an Illinois Maximum Security Prison and Kenan had hired him to kill us all. Ricardo said that after the police found that out they threw the murder notion out of the window and rode with self-defense.
“I been got them to link Jugg’s mama and the other nigga’s murder to him and clear all y’all names. That means we straight and y’all can go home.” Ricardo said as my brothers got up to dap him again and said they were about to leave.
I just sat there and held my man as he reached over and grabbed Asha off the ottoman. He hugged her and kissed her head as he told her he would always protect her then turned, kissed me and told me the same thing. I told him that I knew he would before we kissed and KJ’s little long head ass interrupted.
“Okay y’all quit all that shit. Na you coming home?” KJ asked as Spicy got up and walked to the door with him and Ky.
I looked at Ricardo after they asked and the look in his eyes said that he wanted us to stay. I wanted that too so I shook my head as I told my brothers no.
“I think me and Asha gonna stay here for a while. At least til I know shit safe. Bring me some clothes and shit out here tomorrow though, and keep me up on what’s going on with Kam.” I told him as he said he would then I got up and hugged them all before I walked them out.
I watched them walk to the car and get in before I closed the door and went back into the living room with Ricardo. When I got in there he had laid Asha down and called me over to lay with him on the couch. I quickly did what he said and he wrapped me in his arms as I told him what had happened with Kenan.
“So he said he going away for a while huh? I guess that means we’ll have a little peace. I’m gonna take full advantage of it too; and by the time that bitch shows back up we’ll be ready for his ass. We gonna end that bitch baby, I promise you; and then we will have nothing but happy days. You hear me Kaniyah? You trust me?” Ricardo asked as I looked into his eyes and said that I did.
I did trust him and with good reason too, because the month that followed that day was nothing but happiness. Every day I woke up to breakfast in bed and nothing but fun, happy days. Ricardo and I did everything together and as we built our relationship and made out bond stronger, we watched our baby grow before our eyes.
By the time, Asha’s one month birthday came around we were a strong family unit and Kenan was long gone. I hadn’t talked to him or seen any sign of his chaos since that night I tried to trick him, so my guard was all the way down. That was my mistake too because that one slip up sent me right back into that whirlwind of pain. The day of Asha’s one month birthday I got a call from KJ saying that Kam was being released. That shit made me so happy I cried on the phone as he said they were having a coming home party for him at the house and that we had to be there. I agreed that we had to go and when I told Ricardo he wasted no time getting Asha ready and we left. When we got to the apartments you could tell a party was going down because there were cars everywhere. We had to park in the back of the building and walk to the house because it was so many people there. I didn’t mind though I just walked hand in hand with Ricardo as he held Asha, happy as fuck that my life was finally normal. When I got inside and saw my brother I felt even better. I ran straight into Kam’s arms and he spun me around as I told him that I missed his goofy ass.
“I missed you too sis. Damn, I been gone long as hell huh cause yo lil ass heavy.” Kam said as he sat me down and we both laughed.
We laughed like we had never laughed before and that happiness continued the entire night as we ate, told jokes, danced, and checked the night away. At about 1 am I retired to my room with Ricardo and Asha. He was drunk as hell and face down in the bed by then, so I just curled up behind him after I put Asha in her crib and fell asleep to the sound of him snoring. That night for the first time in a month I dreamed about Kenan.
In
my dream, he came and snatched me out of my bed with Ricardo sleeping right beside me. He snatched me up and Asha too and took us to this house where he tortured us for days. My dream seemed so real that I could feel him slice my flesh with the razor he had and that caused me to wake up the next morning in a cold sweat with tears in my eyes.
“What’s wrong baby?” Ricardo said as he jumped up and I lied to him like my stomach was hurting.
I knew I shouldn’t have lied, but I didn’t want to worry him or admit to myself that I knew Kenan was still near. So instead of facing that shit and being prepared to deal with it, I pretended the dream never happened and got up to go about my day. I got Asha up to change and feed her as Ricardo pulled his hung-over ass out of the bed. Once I had my baby all cute in her Minnie Mouse pants set I grabbed her up out the crib and prepared to go make breakfast.
“What you wanna eat this morning baby? You need to eat and sober all the way up before we head home. So what you want Zaddy?” I asked Ricardo as he smiled bright and then pimp walked over to me.
I knew I shouldn’t have said that shit because it would go to his head fast. I was right too as I stared at his silly ass dust his shoulders off and pretend to adjust the imaginary crown on his head.
“Well since you asking Zaddy…the king should I say. I must say, I wanna eat you.” Ricardo said as I pushed him and told him that he was nasty while we laughed.
I turned to walk away from him at that point when a pink gift bag on the dresser caught my eye. I didn’t know why but just looking at it made my heart race and I turned to look at Ricardo as he asked me what was wrong.
“Where did that come from and who brought it?” I asked as I eyed the bag and Ricardo followed my gaze to the dresser.
As soon as he saw it he had the same eerie feeling I had gotten and it quickly turned to rage as he stormed over and tore the bag open. Inside the bag was a big pink Build a Bear with a diamond locket around her neck. Ricardo held it out to me as I eyed the fucking gold chain with black orchid pendant attached to it. I knew right then where it had come from and my heart sank as I cried and fell to the floor.
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