PREGNANT BY MY MOTHER’S RAPIST 2

by Niki Jilvontae

  “Don’t crash Na, Damn! Them hoes gonna eat us if you do.” Rah said as she continued to laugh and I got my shit together.

  I pulled into the lot attached to the park just as they turned the corner and I quickly jumped out. When I got out Rah did too, and I popped my trunk with my keyring.

  “Aite bitch, you hold my keys, this 40, and this taser. I don’t want you in this shit unless necessary, otherwise you just post up. My brothers out her waiting, so I ain’t worried about these hoes. Let’s go.” I told Rah as I grabbed the bat out of my trunk, closed it, then we mobbed to the center of the park right by the jungle gym.

  I looked up into the tunnel next to the slide and spotted Ky as he sat there smiling like a ghetto kid with a book of food stamps. He nodded his head to indicate he was ready before he nodded to two more spots around the playground. I knew that meant that was were KJ and Kam were at, so I made a mental note of that for later.

  After that I made Rah get up on top of the jungle gym and waited on the fat bitches to get out of the car. They took their time doing it too as they discussed how they were about to beat us.

  “She tucking that pregnant bitch like she still ain’t gonna get touched. Y’all get that hoe and we got this bitch with her wanna be bad ass. Hoe ain’t gonna do shit with that bat but stand there and look stupid.” The Lisha hoe said as they mobbed closer and I took a step up.

  I glanced to my right and saw KJ slid down one of the tunnels before I told them hoes to do it.

  “Shake something then ole ugly, mad ass bitch. Quit doing all that talking.” I yelled as the bitch suddenly ran towards me and I prepared to send her on a flight.

  I did that too because as soon as that hoe was in arm’s reach I swung my bat so muthafucking hard you could hear it slice through the air. You could hear the impact when it smacked the hoe up side her head too and her teeth went the opposite way from her body. I was in full savage mode at that point, so I got back in my homerun stance, cocked and reloaded.

  The bitch they called LiLi was my second batting victim as I jabbed that hoe in the stomach with the fat end then came up with that bitch into her chin. Blood flew out of her shit as she swung like a windmill and yelled bloody murder. I avoided most of her wild punches as I tried to put some distance between us to bat her ass again. I wasn’t able to do that though because before I could her big ass had me in a bear hug. I dropped the bat and head butted her big ass just as her friends tried to jump in. They were in for a rude awakening though, because that’s when my brothers jumped out on their ass. Kam came out of nowhere as he swung his lanky ass from the monkey bars behind us and footed a bitch in the face. That hoe didn’t know what had hit her as she slid across the grass like a beached whale. Kam grabbed her by her hair and drug her a few more feet as he footed her up the ass and preached.

  “Today bitch you learn why you should never try to jump my people. Bitch you never know who somebody fucks with and how hard those people will go for those they love. I’m the nigga that will bury a bitch for mine, so hoe you fucked up. Now go night night Precious.” Kam said as he stomped the bitch in the back of her head and she instantly passed out.

  As I watched that, I head butted the big bitch again but that hoe still wouldn’t let me go. She squeezed me so hard I felt some of my stitches bust, so I yelled out to Ky. He had just choke slammed a bitch on the slide when he turned around to assist me. He didn’t get a chance to though, because before he could Rah had come down to help. My best friend hit that big horse body bitch with 10,000 volts of electricity right in the neck and her jiggly ass got to moving like jello. She shook and screamed as she fell to the ground and as soon as she did, I kicked her face in. I was on my Lord of the Dance shit as I cut a rug across that hoe’s face. While I beat her I got a glimpse of KJ off to my right as he held a bitch by her neck. As he held her she swung her arms scratching him and leaving marks all over his face. She didn’t know it, but she had fucked up, because my brothers didn’t play about their face. KJ turned into some fucking deranged boxer as soon as he had let her neck go. He gave that bitch so many body shots and upper cuts that she stumbled around leaking and in daze.

  KJ let her stumble for a while too as he laughed, then he finished her ass. Right after I looked down and saw that the hoe I was stomping was out, I turned back to him just as he gave that bitch that work. My little big brother hit that hoe with a powered up upper cut, just like Debo did Red’s ass on Friday. That sloppy hoe flew through the air about six feet and made dirt fly where she landed. I could do nothing but laugh right along with everyone else after I saw that shit.

  “Damn, that big bitch moved the earth y’all. Hell Naw.” Rah said as we all laughed our way to the car. I looked back as we hopped in the whips and saw all of them hoes still on the ground. I laughed at their tough ass as I pulled out and Rah hollered out of the window.

  “Weak ass bitches, got yo muthafucking issue. Think about that ass whopping next time you hoes wanna jump. Oh, I’ll be having this baby soon, so then you hoes get up with me. That’s if you hoes can walk again by then. Ahhhhh, Big Broken Bitches.” Rah said as we both laughed so hard we cried.

  We laughed all the way to the e-way as the police flew past us. I hurry up and merged my ass on to the e-way then as KJ followed me then called me on the phone.

  “Aye yo sis, I remember what you said about the information. Hold out on that though. Police gonna be hot on us for that shit we just did fasho, cause you know them hoes snitching. Then on top of that it’s shit going on in the hood right now. Tootie just called and shit and said Kenan got niggas shooting at him and shit. Muthafuckas broke in his house, tore up his car and everything. He said everybody needs to lay low and meet up with him tonight at 12. After you drop Rah off just go home sis and think about getting my niece out of here. Spicy talking about going to Chicago with Uncle E, I think you should let her go sis. I got a feeling shit fina get real ugly out here and I want her to be safe. Just think about it Na. Aite?” KJ said as I said I would and my heart raced in my chest. “Aite sis, get yo ass home. We on our way to the Sip.” KJ said as we hung up and I watched his ass fly past me.

  I told Rah all that he had said as I dialed Ricardo’s number and put it on speaker phone. I felt breathless as I listened to the phone ring while Rah and I both held our breath. I was just about to hang up and call again when Ricardo finally answered out of breath.

  “Na, you read my mind. I was just about to call you baby. Shit getting ugly around here. I just had to shoot at some niggas. Asha and I were at the store and the niggas tried to run up on me in the lot. I know that Kenan bitch sent them too, because the nigga went straight for Asha. I slumped that bitch right there in broad daylight then spanked the fuck off. We home now with Spicy and your Uncle E discussing what needs to happen.” Ricardo said quickly in one breath and I yelled out of my baby was okay.

  I glanced over at Rah as I waited on his response and saw her wipe her tears before she grabbed her stomach. I knew what she was feeling as she sat there and heard me worrying about my baby. I knew that she was thinking about how she never wanted that to happen to hers and I hoped it just as much as she did. I prayed for them both as I asked Ricardo again and he finally said that she is okay.

  “Our baby is fine Na, you know I’m going to protect her; but I feel like this shit getting to close. Now you know Spicy gonna take care of her, so just say she can go.” Ricardo said as I finally agreed although I didn’t want to.

  It wasn’t that I didn’t think Spicy would protect her, I really just wanted my baby with me. I figured if it went down and we had to die together, that was better than wondering if she was okay. I know that was selfish though so I agreed on one condition.

  “Tell them don’t leave until I get there. I gotta tell my baby bye.” I said to Ricardo and he said that they wouldn’t then told me that he loved me.

  “I love you too baby. I really do.” I said before we hung up.

  When I hung up with Ricardo I pushed my car h
arder and damn near hit the dash on the expressway. I got Rah home to Ridge Crest in less than fifteen minutes with my mind on my baby. I was so lost in my thoughts of Asha, her leaving, and Kenan declaring war on us, that I didn’t hear Rah calling my name until she reached out to hit me.

  “Na, sis. You okay? I know a lot of shit going on right now but sis are you good?” She asked as I looked at her with his calm expression while on the inside I screamed and raged.

  Being my best friend forever, Rah knew that my look was like the quiet before the storm. That’s why she reached over to hug me.

  “I love you sis; and I want you to know whatever you need I got you. Just like I took Berry off your hands and loved her like my own, I would do that for Asha. Know that sis, and know that I’ll walk through fire for you. Don’t face this shit alone sis. Let us help you.” Rah said as she got out of the car and I nodded my head at her.

  As soon as she closed the door I put my car in gear and prepared to pull off. She wasn’t done though and neither was Tino as he ran out of the apartment with a vest in his hand.

  “Aye yo Na Na, good looking out on what you did today. Baby just texted me and told me them hoes came back and you and your brothers merked they ass. I appreciate you being there to save baby and me from life in jail. Here sis, take this.” He said as he handed me the vest through my driver’s side window while Rah leaned in the passenger.

  I took that bitch and thanked him before I through it in my passenger seat.

  “Rah told me a little bit about what’s going on too and I wanna make sure you can protect yourself. Know that you got help out here too lil sis, my mob just a phone call away.” Tino said before Rah told his old, organized gang leader looking ass to get on.

  He stood up and looked at her shocked as he walked back around the car towards the building and she laughed.

  “Nigga always trying to arrange a fucking hit. Fucking Pookie Gambino looking ass.” Rah said and I laughed a little at her crazy ass.

  She continued to check him as I sat there and listened, slowly coming back to myself. After a few seconds, I could feel again and I turned to look at Rah. Her crazy ass said that Tino was Nino Brown’s little brother, but she wasn’t the bitch he canceled. That caused me to laugh like hell and Rah smiled at me, satisfied she had done what she set out to do.

  She knew that making me laugh was the only way to break my spells and she was right because she helped snap me out of that trance I was in. I focused on my anger more as I laughed, instead of being caught up in my fear and pain. I told Rah to thank Tino for being all organized and shit and then thanked her for being a great best friend as she brushed her shoulders off. I laughed at her ass as she said that she would, then I nodded my head and told her that I had to go.

  “I know sis I just wanted to tell you to take care of yourself. You the only sister I got and I couldn’t go on without you.” Rah said with tears in her eyes as I felt some well up in mine.

  I told her to stop being a sap and that I loved her too before she stepped back from my window.

  “Now go kill that evil fucker sis and bring me back a souvenir.” Rah said as I honked the horn and laughed my way out of The Crest.

  I laughed all the way down Frayser Boulevard until angry tears began to run down my face. I thought about how everything was crumbling down all around me and Kenan was the muthafucka responsible. Not only were my brothers far away, my mother was about to take my baby away too. That left me all alone to face my demon and hopefully conquer his ass. Just the thought of that made me fearful but anxious at the same time. Regardless of the outcome, I was just ready to get it over with and get back to a normal life. That’s why I fly the rest of the way home and skidded to a stop at the curb just as my uncle loaded Asha’s things in the car. I grabbed the vest Tino had given me and hopped out of the car as my uncle E grabbed me and hugged me.

  “You aite Na baby?” He asked as he held me in his arms and gently caressed my hair.

  I told him that it would be soon as he let me go and I ran to the house. As soon as I bust inside I ran into the living room as Ricardo strapped Asha in her car seat. She giggled and cooed as I called her name and stood beside Ricardo with tears in my eyes. We looked at each other at that moment and I saw that he had tears in his eyes too. He grabbed me and hugged me tight as he gave me the famous line that everything would be okay.

  “This for the best baby. Asha’s safety is all that’s important.” Ricardo said before he kissed my head and stepped over to the side.

  I nodded that I agreed before I bent down and forced a smile at Asha. She reached out and grabbed my face as I cried and kissed her fingers.

  “Mama’s princess, look at you all beautiful and stuff. Daddy got you so pretty to go on a trip with glam-ma. Mommy wants you to know that she loves you before you go and that you’re my shining star. Be good pretty girl and mom will see you really soon.” I said to my baby and she seemed to know what I was saying.

  Asha cooed and kissed my nose as I leaned in to her face. My tears fell down on to her cheeks as I cried and told my baby I loved her. She helped to ease my heart though because the more I cried then more she cooed and kissed me. After a few minutes of that, Ricardo came over and told me they had to go.

  “Our flight leaves in two hours’ baby so we gotta get there. You know I love you don’t you? And you know I’m going to take care of your baby. You just do what you feel is necessary and end this shit forever. I wish I could stay and help because I want that bitch badder than you. I gotta think about Asha now though and make sure I get her somewhere safe. I’ll be back though, as soon as I ensure she cool with your Uncle E and aunt Tammy if you can hold on until I get back. If not, be safe. I love you Na.” Spicy said after I stood up and she wrapped me in her arms.

  I told her that I loved her too and to take care of my baby. After that I let her go as Ricardo picked up Asha to take her outside. I followed them all the way to the front door as I continuously told her that I loved her.

  “She knows it baby, I promise she does.” Spicy said as I bent down to kiss her one last time before Ricardo took her out.

  I told her that I hoped so as she walked off the porch and they all got into the car. In minutes, they were gone and Ricardo was standing on the porch with me. I felt like I had just lost a piece of my soul as I stared in the direction they had went. My baby was gone and that shit hurt me as I thought about why she had to go. That thought put me right back on my mission and rejuvenated the hate inside me. Suddenly I began to shake as I pictured Kenan’s face. I wanted to see him suffer just as much as I had and that’s exactly what I planned to do.

  “I’m coming for y’all.” I said out loud and when I did I quickly regretted it.

  Ricardo heard me and quickly asked me what I meant as we walked back in the house. I remembered right then that I hadn’t told him how I went to visit Mama Betsy. He didn’t know that I had Kenan’s sister mama’s address out in Millington and that I planned on going to kill the bitch. I debated on whether or not I should tell him as we walked back into the living room and sat on the couch. When he called my name again and I looked and saw the sad expression on his face, I knew that I had to tell him the truth. I knew that he deserved the truth with all he had been through for me. That’s why without hesitation I told him about my meeting and what I planned to do.

  “Na you can’t go do that alone. I just won’t let you do it. Now I know you said Tootie want to meet at midnight, but I can tell you don’t intend to make that meeting. I can tell by the look on your face that getting to Kenan through that link is the only thing your focused on; which is why I’m gonna be right with you no matter what you say.” Ricardo told me as I began to protest and then stopped.

  I stopped because I knew that no matter what I said he was going to want to come anyway. I knew I couldn’t stop my man from wanting to protect me, so I wasn’t even going to try. I wasn’t going to let his ass go either, but I kept that to myself and just lied.

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bsp; “Okay baby, you can go. I just want this shit over with.” I told him as he held me in his arms and told me it was almost over.

  If felt like it was too as we sat there, Ricardo fired up a blunt, and everything played out in my mind. I saw myself killing everyone in that house, Kenan included, and then setting that bitch on fire. Thoughts like that played in my mind the rest over the night as I went through the motions of dinner, bath time, and movies with Ricardo. During that time, I struggled to stay connected with him because my mind and heart were somewhere else. My hearts were on their way to Chicago with my baby, and my mind was consumed by Kenan. Ricardo didn’t seem to notice though as he talked and cuddled with me. At around 11 that night he was fast asleep on the couch beside me with and AK across his lap. I slipped out of his embrace and tip toed to our room where I quickly peeled off my clothes. I dressed in all black and put on the vest Tino had given me as I watched for signs of Ricardo. He was nowhere in sight as I put on my boots, so I thought I was home free. I had him fucked up though because as soon as I grabbed the bag I had packed with guns, bullets, knives, and duct tape, his old Houdini ass popped up in the door way and scared the shit out of me.

  “What’s this Na? I know you wasn’t about to leave me.” Ricardo said as I shook my head no and lied like I was about to wake him up.

  “I was just trying to get a head start getting dressed baby. You know how long it takes chicks. Even when we dressing to go kill we take forever.” I said as I forced a laugh and Ricardo did a fake laugh back.

  I could tell he didn’t believe me as he walked over to the bed with a cynical look on his face and the AK across his shoulder. I kissed him on his cheek and told him to hurry up as he finally relaxed and laid the gun down. I watched him as he gathered his clothes and then headed into the bathroom slowly. It was like he could feel that I was up to something, so he took his precious time. That shit didn’t matter though, because as soon as he went in I sprang into action. I ran over to the door and slipped the skeleton key I grabbed off the dresser into the door and locked his ass in. As soon as I turned the lock he was back at the door yelling for me to let him out.