Fifty Grand

by Adrian McKinty

Can’t go on the ice in the dark.

  Have to wait.

  The moon is in the eighth house.

  But I want the sun.

  I kill the engine.

  I pull out the pack of Mexican cigarettes and lift the orange from the floor.

  CHAPTER 17

  FIFTY GRAND

  I

  mages from Al Andalus. The dogwood minarets. The ice-lake sajadah. The raven muezzins. A lake in Wyoming. America.

  I try to think of a Cuban metaphor but I can’t. There’s nowhere in Cuba like this.

  Clean. Cold. Quiet. Safe.

  But even America is only an idea for those who don’t live here. Here you see that it’s a place like other places.

  My hand under his arm.

  Keeping him up.

  My fingers turning blue.

  He listens to the story.

  I came from Cuba to investigate the death of my father. The poor dead Mex. The town ratcatcher. An anonymous wetback with false papers and a fake ID. A nobody. Barely a mention in the paper.

  I posed as a maid in your home. I gathered material. I got evidence. I eavesdropped. It wasn’t Mrs. Cooper. It wasn’t Esteban. It wasn’t Toby. It was you. I know it was you. Jack told me. Everyone told me. You hit my father and you left him to die by the side of the road.

  Well . . . Now you know.

  What have you got to say?

  Nothing.

  He can’t speak. He can barely breathe.

  The backwater of breath encircling our mouths and merging with the smoke from the cigarettes.

  Tell me. Be quick and I will be merciful. For Paco is right, I have no stomach for this. For any of it. Come on. Speak. Let’s get this over with.

  Say it. Now. Save yourself. “Tell me.”

  Death is mist on the surface of the ice. It collapses his resistance.

  “But, but, this is crazy, I didn’t even do it. I wasn’t driving.”

  “You would say that, wouldn’t you? Now, for the last time tell me the truth.”

  “That is the truth. I wasn’t driving.”

  “If it wasn’t you, then who?”

  “Jack,” he says with single-syllable finality.

  “Of course, bite the hand the feeds, blame the boss. Unfortunately, the boss has an airtight alibi.”

  “No alibi. It was h-him,” he insists.

  “A lie. Jack was in California. In L.A.”

  “No, he wasn’t. Believe me. He definitely was not.”

  Jack was in L.A. Ricky did the research. Jack was in L.A at a rehab clinic. It was Jack’s car but Jack was in L.A. Jack confirmed it to me himself. This pathetic attempt is doing nothing but making me angry. Your life is in the balance, Youkilis, you need my goodwill, not my wrath.

  “Tell me the truth!”

  “That is the truth.”

  “Jack already told me you were driving the car.”

  “That’s the lie. That’s the lie we made up,” he says.

  His eyes close.

  Open.

  They’re red. Weary. Something about those eyes. This doesn’t look like the ploy of a desperate man. This—this has the smell of verisimilitude.

  “Jack was in California,” I attempt again.

  “Jack was in F-Fairview.”

  “No.”

  Teeth chattering. Lips blue. Pupils dilated.

  “He’d auditioned for this movie. D-down to him and s-s-someone else. David Press at CAA told him he’d m-m-missed out. They went another d-direction. This was a lead in a major m-m-movie. Jack lost it. Went drinking. Flew to Vail. Came here looking for m-me. I w-was in Denver. He went to a bar, some guys b-bought him drinks, not many. He felt ok to drive up the m-mountain. He m-must have hit him on the way home.”

  “No,” I mutter. But it’s only a word. I know truth when I hear it.

  Fact is, I’ve known it all along.

  Youkilis was easy to hate. Jack was easy to like.

  A one-minute cross-examination and he gives me the whole sorry tale: Youkilis gets back from Denver, finds Jack, sees the car, sees blood on the car. Waits for a cop. No cop comes. Maybe a deer, he thinks. Or a dog. Or, at worst, a hit-and-run with no witnesses. He doesn’t panic. His instinct kicks in. He drives Jack to Vail and charters a plane. It lands in L.A in the middle of the night. A limo takes him to the Promises Rehab Center in Malibu. Youkilis leaks a story that Jack’s been in there for two days and is doing well.

  I’ve put the wrong guy in the grave.

  Maybe I made you detective too soon, Hector said.

  Yeah. Maybe you did.

  Mind racing. Wait a minute. He’s still guilty of the cover-up. Accessory after the fact.

  “You put him in the rehab and that was it?”

  “That was it.”

  “But you bought off the cops.”

  “No. That was later. Somehow Sheriff B-Briggs f-figured it out. He shook us d-down for fifty grand.”

  “Fifty thousand dollars?”

  “Fifty grand. It was n-nothing. We were relieved it was so l-little. He d-didn’t even take it for him-himself.”

  “What do you mean?”

  “He p-paid it into the p-police b-benevolent fund.”

  Fifty thousand for a dead Mex. Fifty thousand for my father’s whole life.

  An insult. Horrible. But . . . but no reason to kill him.

  At least not reason enough.

  At least not for me.

  “Oh no,” I say to myself. “No, no, no.”

  “What are you g-going t-to d-do?” he asks.

  “Fuck!” I yell out loud and put down the gun.

  Going to have to lift you out, you bastard. Going to have to try and save you.

  How? Under the armpits, drag him. “Put your arms out,” I tell him.

  But in the last minute hypothermia has started to set in. His eyes are fixed. The cigarette is burning him and he doesn’t even notice.

  “Mierde! I’m going to fucking save you.”

  I rip the cig from his mouth.

  I kneel behind him, shove my hands under his wet, frozen shoulders, and try to heave him out backward.

  I can’t get purchase.

  I pull again.

  Distracted, I don’t notice, behind me on the hill, Jack Tyrone, Deputy Crawford, Deputy Klein, and Sheriff Briggs get out of the black police Cadillac Escalade. I don’t hear Sheriff Briggs talk about the panic button on Youkilis’s house phone or the homing GPS in his BMW. I don’t notice them examining Youkilis’s car or see them as they follow the footsteps that lead down to the lake. I don’t see any of them look up, startled, when they hear me yell.

  And what do they see?

  POV shift to the main man, Briggs. Furious. Jubilant. A rifle in his hands. Like John Wayne at the end of all those Yuma flicks. Here with the Seventh to save the day.

  “Let’s go, boys,” and they run through the trees to the water’s edge.

  Briggs sees me trying to pull Youkilis out of the hole, but it can’t be obvious that I’ve changed my mind, that I’m trying to save him. Probably he thinks I’m administering the coup de grâce.

  Maybe he doesn’t care what I’m trying to do.

  He unslings a high-velocity .270 elk-hunting rifle with a manual sight. The sight is set for a hundred meters and I’m a little closer than that.

  Aim a tad high, he thinks.

  He’s never shot a woman before. But he doesn’t feel that that’s an issue. He’s calm, focused, professional. Don’t even think of her as a woman. Goddamn wetback bitch. And besides, this is your job. This ain’t nothing. This is taking out soldiers on the Basra road. This is bagging boar in the Rio Grande brush country. This is a duck shoot on the Kansas line.

  He fixes my skull in the T of the manual crosshair.

  He sniffs the breeze, adjusts for it, and moves the T to the back of my head.

  “Yes,” he says, and just like that, the whole of the sensual world goes—

  CHAPTER 18

  CITY OF HEROES
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  he bullet struck me on the head. Ice gone. New Mexico gone. Colorado gone. All of it . . . gone.

  And that was good. That was as it should be.

  I shouldn’t be here. I need to be elsewhere. Across America, across the sea. Back to the island of the crooked mouth. Over the forests and plantations. Over the jungle. Across the years.

  Smell is the most basic part of memory. What is that smell? The aroma of cigars and mangrove and somewhere bacon soldering itself onto an unwatched pan.

  A lazy day in autumn. A school holiday.

  We’d taken the train to Santiago de Cuba. That long, long train. No matter how much you pack, all the food runs out and the water runs out and it breaks down and you think it’s never going to get there. You could walk faster than that train for much of the journey.

  Ricky and I do, slipping out of the last carriage and running behind and jumping on again.

  My uncle’s Arturo’s house. A large, white two-story sugarbeet overseer’s place from the twenties. An American UFC man built it and my uncle took it after the Revolution. I say Santiago but it’s not really in the city at all. An unnamed village on the edge of the mangrove forest and the sea. Four streets. A road. Swamp.

  Country cousins. And every other kid a friend.

  Hot.

  Very hot . . .

  Some of the kids were playing hide-and-seek at the far end of the road, where the neighborhood was almost swallowed up by abandoned plantations. Halfhearted attempts were being made to look for people and there were halfhearted attempts to hide.

  Ricky and I were lying in the yard, watching everything from under the shade of the big warped palm tree. Palm trees curve up at thirty degrees but this one had a gentle slope that bent back on itself, as if it had been designed for climbing. Even toddlers could get halfway up it—there had been accidents.

  It was 1993, right in the heart of the “special economic period.” Communism had collapsed in Russia, and Cuba had no friends. This was before the Venezuelans or the Chinese or the roaring comeback of the sex trade. Blackouts were common in Havana and there was no traffic anywhere.

  A nice day.

  Some of the older people had brought chairs to catch a few rays of the sun before it vanished behind the stone wall of the graveyard. Mostly women, knitting, repairing clothes, talking. Mrs. Ramírez and her sister in the street in front of us saying things about the decline of morals among kids today. Mrs. Ramírez reckoned that a decent haircut would improve the behavior of most of the unruly boys in Santiago, whereas her sister favored a good kick in the ass.

  When they began talking about what was wrong with girls today I stopped listening.

  “Come on, little guy, come on.”

  I looked up sleepily. Ricky was trying to coax one of the swamp iguanas to come into the garden with a ropey string of sausage. But all the iguana wanted was to be left alone.

  “Where did you get those ’izos?” I asked Ricky.

  “Kitchen.”

  “Aunt Isabella will kill you.”

  “She’ll never know,” Ricky said.

  “Iguanas only eat insects,” I said.

  “Not so, Dad says they eat mice. Meat,” Ricky said.

  “Kids, are you outside?” Dad’s voice.

  “Get rid of those sausages, Dad will go crazy. You know what he’s like about wasting food,” I hissed.

  “They’re not from the ration. Aunt Isabella has half a dozen strings like this in the pantry.”

  “Get rid of them.”

  “What do you want me to do?” Ricky asked.

  “I hear you. Wait there, kids. Don’t go anywhere,” Dad yelled from an upstairs window.

  I grabbed the string of sausages and hurled them up into the palm tree branches. They caught first time.

  “Dad, we’re over here,” I yelled back.

  Dad came out of the house. He was wearing a loosely buttoned white shirt, tan army trousers, and a pair of checked slip-on shoes. He had shaved and combed his unruly hair.

  “Hi,” we said.

  Dad nodded, walked past us, and looked down the street. He said buenos días to Mrs. Ramírez, even calling her señora instead of comrade. She smiled when he spoke to her. Everyone did. Dad was well liked and he got on with all strata of society. Mrs. Ramírez asked him about his job and he said something about how he loved it, how he always wanted to sail the seven seas. Mrs. Ramírez laughed, because the only stretch of sea Dad’s vessel ever went to was from one side of Havana Bay to the other.

  When the pleasantries were over with the neighbors he sat on the white, dusty ground next to Ricky and me.

  His eyes were dark like his hair, his nose long and angular. In fact, he was all angles. Skinny even. He was about forty, but he looked younger and was still very handsome. Childbirth, especially Ricky’s breech, had ruined Mom’s looks. She had a worn, worried expression all the time that was no doubt exacerbated by the monthly food crunch and by the throwaway affairs Dad had with women he met on the ferry.

  “Why aren’t you playing with your cousins?” Dad asked me.

  “I don’t know,” I said.

  “Did you have a fight?”

  Sometimes María and Juanita put on airs because they lived in a big house and we only lived in a scuzzy Havana solar. But that didn’t happen often because we could always call them country bumpkins, or if we were really feeling mean we could point out that they were leche con una gota de café, because their grandmother (like many people in Santiago) was from Haiti.

  But today there hadn’t been a fight. We didn’t want to play baseball or hide-and-seek with them because we were just too hot and too tired after the Havana train.

  “No, no fight, we’re good,” I said.

  He smiled and looked at me for a long time and when I caught him, he turned away. He pretended to be fascinated by a creeper Ricky had twisted into a rope but after a moment he just couldn’t help himself.

  “My little girl,” he said.

  “Yeah,” I replied, rolling my eyes.

  “And my little man,” he said and ruffled Ricky’s hair.

  “Hey,” Ricky said, pushing Dad’s hand away.

  Dad grinned again and stared at us so hard it hurt.

  “What?” I asked.

  “Nothing,” he said and shook his head.

  “Stop that,” I muttered.

  “Stop what?”

  “Looking at me like that.”

  “Well, kids, how are you liking your vacation so far?” he asked, changing the subject.

  “I’m bored, there’s nothing to do here, when can we go back to Havana?” I asked.

  “They don’t even have TV here,” Ricky said.

  Dad grimaced. For a second, that old Mercado rage took, but he didn’t let it possess him; instead his face filled with and then lost its fiery color. Equanimity returned.

  He reached into his pocket. I thought for a moment he was going for a present or money but instead he produced a hip flask. He took a swig and put the flask back in his pocket. Dad seldom drank even beer, and it was disturbing to see him swilling rum like some frito flojo on San Rafael.

  “Yes,” he said apropos of nothing and then he lay on his back, put his hands behind his head, and gazed up into the palm tree. How he missed the sausages I have no idea. He muttered something to himself—the words of a song, I think—and then after a minute he turned to me.

  “We better go inside. Isabella’s getting your cousins, we’re having an early dinner,” he said.

  “I’m not even hungry yet,” Ricky said.

  Dad ignored Ricky and lifted him onto his shoulders, something he hadn’t done since Ricky was about five. I took his hand.

  We walked into the house.

  Dinner. The UFC man’s dining room. A hardwood floor elevated so that you could see through the Spanish windows to the old coffee fields beyond. China plates, silver serving spoons, and even a chandelier that had been in the house since the twenties.
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  We had changed into our best clothes, Ricky in a stiff shirt and me in a black Sunday dress.

  It was still hot. The house had an electric fan but it wasn’t working.

  Around the table: Aunt Isabella, Mom, Dad, Ricky, me, Uncle Arturo, María, Juanita, Danny, Julio, and the new arrival, little Bella. I was jealous of María and Juanita that they had a baby in the house and I wondered when Dad and Mom were going to make a sister for me.

  Servants were forbidden in Cuba, but Uncle Arturo had two: a black woman from the village called Luisa Pedrona who made the food and a girl from Las Tunas who brought it to the table. Aunt Isabella was famous for her inability to cook, but the fiction around the table was that she had made everything.

  “These plantains are amazing,” Mother said.

  “Did you try the ajiaco?” Aunt Isabella asked.

  Mom said that she had and that it was delicious too. She turned to Dad but he merely grunted and I could see that he’d hardly touched anything.

  I wolfed it all. Luisa was good at Cuban specialties and this was a Cuban meal that included such exotic things as fish, beef, and fresh fruit.

  The men talked baseball and the woman talked children and the children said nothing at all.

  We were onto the coco quemado when the phone rang. Juanita got it and announced that it was for Dad.

  The phone was in Uncle Arturo’s “study,” a small adjoining room that had a patio and leather chairs. It was where Uncle Arturo kept several hundred of the UFC man’s English books locked in a glass case, and it was where he had his own stash of Marlboro cigarettes and pornographic magazines in a rolltop American desk.

  Dad bowed to Aunt Isabella, excused himself, and went into the study. The adults resumed their talk, which was something about President Clinton and the Miamistas. I was nearest the study door and couldn’t help but listen in on Dad’s end of the conversation.

  “Yes? Yes? What is it? . . . Impossible. I’m in Santiago. You know what that train is like. How can I . . . No, no, no, of course not . . . They can go to hell . . . Yes. I’ll get the overnight. I hope this is not indicative of the state of the rest of the . . . Ok . . . Goodbye. Wait, wait, please tell José to remember the diesel.”

  The conversation stopped.