Willing Flesh

by Adam Creed

  ADAM CREED

  Willing Flesh

  For Haydn and Susan

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Dedication

  One

  Two

  Three

  Four

  Five

  Six

  Seven

  Eight

  Nine

  Ten

  Eleven

  Twelve

  Thirteen

  Fourteen

  Fifteen

  Sixteen

  Seventeen

  Eighteen

  Nineteen

  Twenty

  Twenty-one

  Twenty-two

  Twenty-three

  Twenty-four

  Twenty-five

  Twenty-six

  Twenty-seven

  Twenty-eight

  Twenty-nine

  Christmas Eve

  Christmas Day

  Boxing Day

  Extract from Book 3 in the D. I. Staffe series

  About the Author

  By the Same Author

  Copyright

  One

  Elena Danya steps from the roll-top bath, her back straight and toes pointed down, as if she is doing dressage. She drips water all across her polished limestone floor. Foam sticks to her body and makes her modest. She rubs a porthole in the misted mirror and regards herself in the low, flickering candle glow. The bath, over her shoulder, looks the part and she recalls her expectations of England. When she left home, two long years ago, her mother had pinched her cheek, assured her she would make something of herself, for the family; find a prince. Elena smiles. It is coming to fruition.

  What she sees now, in the mirror, is the way she likes herself: pink-skinned and with pale eyes; her hair straight in dripping tails, the palest outline of the flesh of her lips. Every last trace of her make-up is washed away. It is how God made her.

  And she can be this self, again, for two whole days. She will read her novel this morning, doing a few jobs around the place between chapters, then catch the afternoon train up to the coast. It will be dark by the time she checks into the Signet Hotel and she will sit on the window seat of the bay window in her room, draw up her knees and watch the lights glimmer out at sea, then eat alone in the splendidly faded, panelled dining room – fond smiles from her fellow residents. They may think it strange that such a wholesome girl is eating alone. They may speculate at what she is running from, or towards. Some staff may recognise her, recalling her in the company of a man, or two.

  Tomorrow, she will walk on the sands in a late winter dawn, way past the pier with its shiplap huts. Then Elena will take a full breakfast, and return to her seat to finish her book. She will take another, longer walk to the harbour at Warblingsea before the latest lunch she can muster because she knows that when she returns to her room and the sun sets, wintry early, she will ease herself between the sheets and she will look east across the North Sea and she will cry. Next day, on the very first train back to Liverpool Street, normal service will resume. But not for long. She is changing.

  She thanks the stars that she gets such days to herself. She is lucky; other girls work seven days or seven nights and sometimes both.

  Elena pads through to her bedroom and drags the sheets from the bed. Still naked, she carries the load to her kitchen and crams the linen into the washing machine and double-doses the fabric softener, sets the machine to a boil cycle.

  The telephone rings, fracturing the normal, domestic ritual. She answers, sitting cross-legged on the chilled tiled floor. Rebeccah’s voice is warm. She sounds like a child, can look like a child if she wishes; if somebody else wishes. Rebeccah is not so lucky as Elena. She has a different appeal.

  ‘You’re still going up there?’ says Rebeccah.

  ‘You sound upset.’

  ‘I don’t want anything to happen to you.’

  ‘It is only the seaside,’ says Elena.

  ‘We don’t have to do anything, you know. I’ve got my Frank.’

  ‘It’s arranged, Rebeccah.’ She says it like Marlene Dietrich might. Re-Beck-Caah. ‘We trust ourselves, yes?’

  ‘Mitch is coming,’ whispers Rebeccah, suddenly afraid.

  ‘Is he …?’

  But the phone cracks, dies, quick as a broken bone.

  Elena takes a carton of apple juice back through to the bedroom. Apple juice is good for the stomach. She has problems with her stomach. She plumps up the bare pillows and leans back with Mansfield Park, draws up her knees. A part of her hates this room. The sounds and shapes she has made, right here, never quite fade to nothing.

  By the end of the first paragraph on the downturned page, Elena has caught up with where she left off and she feels her mouth turn up at the edges, into a smile. Then the phone rings again. She considers ignoring it, but it might be her mother. She pictures her mother, wrapped in many coats and a thick woollen scarf around her head, in the phone box at the bottom of the block of flats, bitter winds whipping up off the snowy river.

  ‘Hello,’ says Elena.

  ‘My love,’ says the man. It is Markary. His voice is light, but guarded, suggesting someone is with him. This makes her heart heavy.

  ‘You call to wish me a happy trip? I don’t think so. You promised me two days.’

  ‘This will be good for us. Good for everybody!’ He laughs. But he is sad, really. She knows the real him. There is definitely somebody with him.

  ‘It could be good for another girl.’

  ‘There’s only you, Lena. You know that. You’re different.’

  ‘I won’t do it,’ she says, holding herself tight around the knees. Something in her stomach twists and she feels her voice crack.

  ‘Make yourself white, my love. Be gentle. He’s a shy one. You’re perfect for him.’ He lowers his voice and sounds absolutely sincere when he says, soft as powder, ‘I love you.’

  Elena knows better than to tell Markary he couldn’t possibly love her; instead says, ‘You should love me more.’

  ‘It’s the Thamesbank. Room 601.’

  ‘I don’t like hotels, Marky.’

  ‘In an hour,’ he says, hanging up.

  She picks up Mansfield Park and throws it at the wall. It could tell hundreds of variations of a single tale.

  *

  Staffe knows his limit and he watches, unmoving, as the bids for the Crimean shaving stand climb higher and higher. He won’t pay more than a month’s take-home for any lot, ever. He could, but it would be wrong.

  ‘Two thousand eight hundred,’ says the auctioneer. He looks towards Staffe, even though he hasn’t bid yet, because he knows him of old, and they talked about the stand on the phone only yesterday.

  Staffe makes the faintest shake of the head, puts the catalogue behind his back and moves back through the crowd, checks his watch. He has seen an intaglio ring, from the Urals. It is of Russian gold and has an emerald, the colour of Sylvie’s eyes. It is most definitely not what he came for, but, as the gavel comes down on the shaving stand, he trusts the instinct that he must have it. His watch says a quarter to twelve and he should be with Sylvie, at the Eagle and Child, by noon. She’ll understand, he assures himself; especially when she sees what kept him.

  An eager brace of couples push past him from the back of the room and the bidding for the Urals ring starts at £1,200. It’s worth £3,000, any day of the week, but as the battle reduces to the eager couples – at £2,000, and rising in measly fifties, Staffe raises his hand, says, loud and forceful, ‘Two and a half.’

  A most English gasp whispers around the medieval hall and the auctioneer can’t help but smile. He pauses, for effect. ‘Does anybody care for this more than Mr Wagstaffe?’

  It is Staffe’s one and only bi
d. He knows it would have crept up towards and beyond his limit, but his bid asserts that he may well go far higher. That is a lie. He closes his eyes and wishes the round thud of the gavel. He holds his breath, pictures Sylvie’s face as he proffers the box.

  The silence in the room deepens and Staffe can hear the hurried confidences of the two bidding couples. He opens his eyes and they each turn, look at him. The gavel thuds and Staffe goes straight to the cashier, unable to look the outbid lovers in the eye.

  He drives on the limit all the way from Chipping Norton back to Oxford and shows his City of London warrant card to the man parading the pay and display at Martyrs Memorial, gets a nod of reverence in return.

  They are here because Sylvie says it’s a part of him she doesn’t understand. She thinks it madder than a trunkful of frogs that he shies away from his alma mater, but to be safe, he brought her this side of town, staying at the Randolph rather than near his college, Merton – the other end of Cornmarket and beyond.

  Sylvie has gone from the pub, according to the American twelve-year-old managing the place, so Staffe ambles down past the Memorial, where the Protestants Cranmer, Ridley and Latimer yielded their bodies to be burned, at the behest of Mary Tudor and the Church of Rome.

  Opposite the Randolph, he sees her, in the window of the dining room, laughing with a floppy-haired, chisel-jawed man her own age. He looks a million pounds in a battered tweed jacket. It must be Ollie. They were at Goldsmiths together. Staffe waits on the corner, by the Ashmolean, hoping she will see him and come out.

  Even though he is hopelessly late, she isn’t looking up; is too engrossed. He calls the station. Is he already missing the city’s fast beat?

  ‘You’re away for the weekend, sir,’ says his DS: Pulford. ‘Rimmer’s looking after things, sir.’

  ‘Rimmer my …’

  ‘Yes, sir?’ says Pulford, with feigned curiosity.

  ‘You just call me, right – if anything serious happens.’ Rimmer isn’t Staffe’s idea of a detective inspector. Poor bugger. Rimmer probably isn’t even Rimmer’s idea of a DI. But it’s in his blood.

  ‘But I’m out on a new surveillance, sir.’

  ‘Surveillance? Which one?’

  ‘A couple of new labour gangs, maybe illegal. And you said I wasn’t to disturb you. Under any circumstances. You said …’

  Staffe turns off his phone, looks back up at the Randolph. He puts his hand in his pocket and takes out the intaglio ring, holds it up to the light. Tonight, he is taking Sylvie out to Great Milton, to Le Manoir for dinner, and he will play things by ear but, if all goes to plan – he will give her the ring.

  Sylvie waves at him from the hotel entrance, laughing. Her hair billows in the wind and she holds it to one side as she kisses the handsome young man on the cheek; then the other. He holds her by the hips as they do it. When he walks away, he studiously avoids looking toward Staffe, as if it had been determined it would be better if he wasn’t introduced.

  She holds her arms open as Staffe comes toward her.

  ‘What handsome friends you have,’ says Staffe.

  ‘Who, Ollie? Did you get the piece?’

  He shakes his head. ‘Too rich for me. I’m not made of money.’

  She gives him a look, tuts. ‘Liar.’

  Two

  Elena Danya looks up at the Thamesbank Hotel. It could have been commissioned by Stalin, with its square bulk of grey render and its uniform steel windows. They spent £60 million refurbishing it a couple of years back and crowned it with two burnished domes. Now, to stay one night, without the pleasure of Elena, commands a month of her mother’s labour, back home. For an extra five hundred you could fuck lovely Elena, anywhere but the arse.

  Today, in accordance with Markary’s specification, she is white, and she will be supremely gentle for her shy, mystery client. Her blonde hair is freshly washed and plumped and she pulls up her oyster fur collar against the riverside chill. She truly looks like somebody’s lovely sister cum sixties model. A young Saudi swaggers out of the revolving doors and stops dead, mid-step. He looks back at her, mouth open, as she goes into the lobby.

  At the desk, she places her almost empty attaché case on the impeccable mahogany glaze of the counter and says, ‘Papers for 601.’

  ‘Madam,’ says the concierge, looking down at the register, where the booking has been made in pencil, paid in cash. These are charted waters.

  Elena makes her way across the lobby which is the size of a tennis court. Her stilettos clip across the marble and she holds her head high, eyes upon her. A young man in a pillbox hat and high-waisted trousers leans against his luggage buggy. He looks her up and down, quite deliberately, with piercing, light eyes, almost white. Their eyes meet and she gets the impression they might know each other. His badge says ‘Gary’.

  The top of her leg vibrates and Elena thrusts her hand into the special inside pocket she commissioned to the lining of her fur. She lifts the phone to her ear before it rings.

  ‘Where are you?’ says the voice from the phone.

  ‘Arra? Arra, is that you? Are you OK?’

  ‘Don’t sweat, Lena, honey. Are you there?’

  Elena looks at Gary. He hasn’t taken his eyes off her. She moves towards the floor-to-ceiling windows that give on to the river. She can see the South Bank, way across to her right, up river. Above, the sky is heavy with snow. In a hushed voice, she says, ‘I’m at the Thamesbank.’

  ‘You don’t like hotels. Who are you meeting?’

  ‘I don’t know.’

  ‘Is it one of his friends? You should watch yourself.’

  ‘Why did you call, Arra?’

  The line falls silent.

  ‘Arra? Are you out of it?’

  ‘I’ve got a bad feeling is all. I’m worried about Becx.’

  ‘Rebeccah? It will be Christmas soon. Everything will be different,’ says Elena, but the phone is dead. She slips it back into the special pocket of her fur, the coat’s perfect form unspoiled.

  She makes her way back across the lobby and Gary has beads of sweat on his temples, as if his desire has oozed. The lift doors close and something inside her dilates. She feels ready, quickly opens the attaché case and goes into her silver pillbox for a pre-taste of the finale powder. One pinch for the left nostril and one for the right, a quick dust down; doors open. She steps out, one foot in front of the other, all the time changing herself into something that she surely is not.

  The door to Room 601 is ajar and Elena presses it open, ready to smile, but the room is empty. Water gushes from beyond a closed door. She steps inside and places her attaché case on the desk by the window. Across the river, she can see the Oxo Tower. Markary took her there once. He spent a fortune on the meal and they had a wonderful evening. He made her laugh and she had lobster, then a crêpe Suzette. She felt like a film star and that night she kissed him by Westminster Bridge and he took her to the place in Cloth Fair and they made love. She thinks, how much easier it would be if she could love him properly, if he was enough.

  She senses someone behind her and she dilates again, unbuttoning her fur, letting it slide to the floor, leaning forward, placing her hands on the window ledge. She hears him. Close, now.

  Elena tenses her buttocks and waits for the viper zzzip behind her, waits for his hands to be on her, kneading and tugging at the angel-white silk of her whore’s finery. Markary said he was shy, so she doesn’t turn on him, plots ahead that she will make him quick but stop him, dead! in his tracks, and then she will do what she is famous for – taking both balls in her mouth as they six and nine and he snorts a line all the way down from her navel and up again. Then she will finish him and take the money.

  Right now, she thinks she must be mad for wanting to go up to Suffolk, to read a book. Sometimes, she just doesn’t understand herself.

  But there is so much more at stake than what she allows her willing flesh to imply.

  However, this one is taking his time. She tenses her buttocks aga
in: one; then the other; and in the window, in amongst the view of the Thames, she sees the moving watermark of her client coming towards her: lithe; or scrawny. She wonders if she should turn on him, slowly, but she waits, to feel his hands on her. She wonders if she might enjoy him. A one in twenty.

  Then he takes her breath away. She feels a dull pain in her kidneys and her head whiplashes away from her, the South Bank warping, twisting out of sight as she catches her head on the corner of the radiator. She falls into the soft fur of her coat, thinks she may pass out, thinks, ‘This will hurt, in the morning.’ She wants to stand and fight him, but as he tugs at her, she feels all her strength seep onto the lush, white carpet. A seam of red. And with a last glance up, she sees a pale shadow over her and as the room goes dark, she sees a vision of her mother. She cannot move and the darkness deepens. She can’t breathe. Her face is hard up against the soft carpet and something inside her seems to die.

  *

  Staffe lies back on the vast, plumped bed and stares out of the low window, down at gloaming St Giles. It has rained lightly, threatening to snow, and the cobbles warp the college lights’ reflections.

  The shower stops running and Sylvie emerges, dripping, holding a Mai Tai. He doesn’t know where it came from. She bends down, kisses him, and he pulls her on top of him. She rolls away, holding her Mai Tai high. She takes a long swallow, drinking it greedily, not like a lady, but because she loves the taste and looks up at the ceiling, kind of sad. He follows suit.

  ‘It would be nice to do nothing,’ she says.

  ‘If you like.’

  ‘But you’ve booked a table.’

  ‘I can cancel.’

  ‘You said it was your favourite place.’

  ‘Second favourite.’ He places a hand on the pod of fat at the top of her thigh.

  Sylvie leans up on her elbow, facing Staffe and hooks a leg over his. ‘Sometimes, Will,’ she kisses him on the temple, her wet hair dripping on him, ‘you say exactly the right thing.’ She takes another sip.