Back to my Roots (Montana Roots Book 1)

by Tessa Elaine

  “I know exactly what I'm asking, don't think about it, just go with how you feel.”

  “That's just it Elena, if I go with how I feel this won't be an unattached fuck against the door. This will be me making love to you. There is too much between us for it to be anything less, and you know it.” Why does everything have to include the heart? All I want is to get lost in something that feels good. I want a warm body to wrap around mine, no commitment just fun. I know deep down that he's right, but I'm to consumed in his warmth to think things through.

  “Look Lucas if you don't give me what I want I'm sure I can find someone that will.” I see the fire in his eyes, my words hit a nerve.

  “This isn't you Elena, stop. You don't want just sex, you're just hurt and angry.” What does he know? It's not like he's the one that lost everything seven years ago. Now I have to come back to this place and deal with all this shit. This is not how my life was supposed to be.

  “You can't tell me what I want, you don't know me anymore.” He flinches like I slapped him in the face, then his hands tighten around my wrist and his jaw clenches.

  “You're right Elena I don't know you, but that's not on me. You're the one that left, you ran away, not me. And now you're back here fucking with my head, threatening me that you will find your release elsewhere.” He says through clenched teeth. I feel guilty about it all, I do, but I can't change that now. I just have to live with it.

  “You're right I did leave, I did run away. I couldn't stay in this place with all these memories of my parents. All the pity looks from everyone in town. All the talk and whispers behind my back. 'Poor Elena lost everything' you have no idea what it's like. You still had everything, what did I have? The Ranch? It wasn't enough to stay.” He looks like he is in physical pain, he lets go of me and steps away. I feel cold at the loss of his touch. He shakes his head and turns his back to me.

  “You're wrong Elena, I did lose something that night. I lost you, I lost my heart. All I ever wanted was to be there for you, to show you that you didn't lose everything. You still had me, but I wasn't enough.” I slid down the door sitting on the floor and cover my face with my hands. I start sobbing at what I lost when I left.

  “I never meant to hurt you Lucas, you have to know that. My leaving had nothing to do with you not being enough. I just couldn't handle it here, I still can't handle it. After they... died, I was just so broken. You didn't need any of that, you didn't deserve someone that was broken.” I can't take any more of this, I stand on shaking legs grabbing my purse and going to leave. His back is still to me, I can see his pain, shoulders slouched, head dropped. He's hurt and it's all my fault, I just need to go.

  “Lucas, please understand that my leaving was never about you not being enough. You have always been enough, it was I that fell short.” I open the door just a little, when his hand slams it shut I jump. His body is pressed to my back and his breath is on my neck. I shiver at the heat rolling off him.

  “Did you ever love me?” His question throws me, I was not ready for it. Of course, I loved him, how could he even ask that?

  “Elena, did you ever love me?” He asks a second time, when I don't answer he slides his hands down my arms and laces our fingers together. He pulls my hands up and places them on the door.

  “You know I can't let you leave in the middle of the night like this. I would be up all night worried.” As he kisses behind my ear and down my neck. I moan at the contact and he pulls my ass to his semi-erect cock.

  “But if you stay I won't be able to keep my hands off you.” I love the sound of that, so I push back against him giving him my answer.

  “Yes, please.”

  “One condition,” he says, and I'm a little worried about this condition.

  “What would that be?” I ask with some hesitation.

  “When we have sex, it will not be a quick fuck against the door. You will come back to my bed and let me worship your body the way you deserve.” My breath hitches and his mouth trails down my neck to my shoulder. He pulls my shirt to the side and his mouth follows his fingers.

  “After we do this, there will be no acting like it never happened or running off. Do you understand me? You will stop avoiding me and you will talk to me.” He says as he turns me around and kisses down my neck and my chest. His mouth feels amazing, I don't want him to stop.

  “Tell me Elena.”

  I know what he wants to hear so I give it to him with a little sass. “That was more than one condition.”

  He bites the top of my breast and growls. I smile and gasp at the sensation of pain mixed with pleasure. He slowly unbuttons my shirt and kisses his way down my chest. He pulls my shirt off revealing a red lace bra, and I'm so glad I'm wearing the matching thong.

  “Mmm” he says in appreciation, I love this growling, rugged man that can't seem to stay in control.

  “No running, no avoiding, and no fucking,” giving him the words he has been waiting for. He picks me up and I wrap myself around him once more. He turns and makes his way up the stairs while I kiss him all over his face and neck. He laughs and pushes me up higher, I sequel and hold on for dear life.

  “You're going to fall if you can't see where you're going.” He pulls the cups of my bra down and my breast fall free. He takes one in his mouth and swirls my nipple with his tongue.

  “Oh God” I moan and grab the back of his head to pull him closer. But he pulls away with a pop and smiles up at me.

  “I would never let anything happen to you.” He looks so sincere. I grab his face and kiss him softly While I run my fingers through his hair. We make it to his room and he kicks the door closed behind him and walks to the bed.

  I'm on my back with him on top of me within seconds. He runs his hands all over my body like he's trying to commit it to memory. I reach down to unbutton his pants to move this along. I'm on fire and don't think I can wait much longer. He stops my descent and brings my hands to his mouth kissing each finger.

  “I want to take my time, I want to taste every inch of you.” He tells me as he comes back to my lips. He kisses me slowly making his way from my mouth to my jaw, down my neck to my chest. Stopping at my breast he takes one of my hard peeks into his mouth, sucking and biting until I'm writhing beneath him. He makes his way to the other side giving it the same treatment. I feel my panties soak from his attention to my body. He makes his way down my stomach stopping to dip his tongue into my navel. It makes me giggle.

  He pulls my shoes and socks off then goes to the button on my jeans, I sit up on my elbows to watch him. He looks up at me giving me that sexy smirk I have missed so much. He pulls my jeans off slowly to reveal my matching red thong.

  “You are so sexy Elena.” I feel myself blush all over from his praise. He leans down and grabs the lace with his teeth and pulls them down my legs, that is by far the sexiest thing I have ever seen. He starts at my ankle and kisses his way up my leg stopping right at my hip, then repeats himself with the other side. I'm going nuts by this point and can't help but beg.

  “Please Lucas” I say pushing my hips closer to his mouth.

  “Please what?” He says, knowing damn good and well what I want, he just wants to hear me say it. Well fine I'll tell him exactly what I want.

  “I need you Lucas. I want your mouth on my pussy, please.”

  He doesn't make me wait any longer, he leans forward and gives me one long lick from my center to my clit. He does that a couple times before he stops at my entrance and starts fucking me with his tongue. I feel him hum in appreciation and that just makes me wetter. I grab the back of his head and start grinding on his face, I am lost in how good his mouth feels. I have no idea what has come over me but I can't stop. He licks back up to my clit and starts circling the nub with his tongue. Then he puts his whole mouth around me and starts sucking, and nibbling until I'm in a frenzy.

  “Oh, yes. Lucas, God yes. Don't stop, please don't stop!”

  He growls and starts eating at me like he's starved, unti
l I'm falling over the edge and coming so hard I see stars. My mind is in a fog and my legs are shaking. He licks me slowly as I come back down and my mind is clearing. When I have finally relaxed Lucas crawls back up me and takes my mouth in a fierce kiss, I can taste myself on him. I never thought that would turn me on but it does. I take off my bra and look him in the eyes.

  “Take off your cloths, I need you inside me.” He smiles and stands.

  “Yes ma'am.” I could get use to that. What am I talking about, I will be heading home in a week. That sad thought crosses my mind and it hurts. He crawls back on top of me completely naked and cups my face making me snap out of my thoughts.

  “Where did you go to darlin’?” he brushes the hair out of my face and kisses me.

  “Nowhere important.” I tell him, it seems to satisfy him and he continues kissing me. He sits up and reaches for the night stand, I hear the foil of a condom wrapper and sit up to watch him put it on.

  I didn't get to enjoy the strip show because I was lost in my own head, but now I can take in the view of his perfect body. Wide shoulders, cut chest, spectacular abs with the “V” that leads to the biggest cock I have ever seen. My eyes go wide and I can't stop staring, he follows my line of site and smiles smugly.

  “Like what you see?” My eyes snap back to his and I blush at being caught.

  “It’s so much bigger then I remember?” I say half joking and half serious, he laughs at me, but I don't know if I can take all of him.

  “It's okay, I will go slow just relax.”

  He tears the foil packet with his teeth and rolls the condom down his long shaft. He leans down and starts kissing me again as he rubs along my wetness. When I start moaning and pushing back he lines the head of his cock with my entrance. He pushes just the tip in and stops, letting my body adjust. I relax and push back letting him know I'm ready. He pushes in inch by inch and I feel myself stretch to take all of him. He finally pushes all the way in until our hips meet. I am so full the pain and the pleasure is so overwhelming I think I could come. He holds himself up by his hands and looks down at me with so much love in his eyes my heart feels like it could beat out of my chest.

  “You okay?” He is always making sure I'm alright.

  “Start moving” I tell him grabbing his ass and pushing forward. He closes his eyes and moans deep in his throat. That was hot, that I can make him feel that way. He starts a slow rhythm pulling almost all the way out and pushing back in. I need more, it feels so good.

  “Harder Lucas.” With those words he pulls out and slams back into me.

  “Oh, God.” He is hitting my g-spot and my clit at the same time when he slams into me. I'm on the edge, so close I just need a little more. It's like he can read my mind and starts pumping faster. My pussy starts to clench around his dick as I fall head first into the most intense orgasm of my life. Everything goes white. I feel him push through my climax and he grows harder as he gets closer to his release.

  “Fuck Elena you're so tight.” He tells me growling and jerking as he comes.

  I feel his hot seed fill the condom as I milk his cock of every last drop. He slows his strokes and we ride out our release together. I pull him to me kissing him slowly trying to show him how much I care for him. He breaks the kiss and slowly pulls out of me, I wince at the loss of him inside me. He pulls the condom off and disposes of it in the waste basket and climbs back in bed with me.

  He turns me so I'm facing him and starts kissing my face, first my forehead, then my eyes, next my nose, both cheeks, and finally my mouth. I can't stop the giggle that leaves me, it is so nice to laugh after the day I had.

  “God, I have missed you so much. I missed that smile, I missed those beautiful eyes.” I tuck my face to his chest to hide my blush but he pulls me back so he can see me.

  “Don't hide from me Elena, I went seven years without looking at you. That's all I want to do is look.” He kisses me again and wraps his arms around me.

  “Sleep darlin’.” I feel his breathing even out and know that he has fallen asleep. So, I tell him because I'm too scared to tell him while he's awake.

  “I never stopped loving you, Lucas.”

  Chapter 11

  Lucas

  Last night was extraordinary, I never thought I would wake up to Elena in my bed. When I do wake up Elena is lying on top of me with her head on my chest. I feel a little guilty, I woke her up again last night. I couldn't keep my hands off of her. But how was I supposed to control myself with this unbelievable woman lying next to me naked. Not possible. I roll us over and cover her up, she must be exhausted because she doesn't move.

  I look down at her and smile like a fool, I know I probably look stupid right now but I don't give a shit. Last night was a dream come true. Then I think about what she said when she thought I was asleep, “I never stopped loving you, Lucas” I can't even begin to explain how that made me feel. I wasn't the only one holding onto what we had. But I have to remember this is only temporary, she's leaving Thursday.

  I climb out of bed and grab some basketball shorts out of my dresser. I don't have to be at work for a couple hours so I have time to make her breakfast and start some coffee. I'm almost finished with the bacon when I hear footsteps coming down the stairs. When I turn around to say good morning I stop dead in my tracks, the spatula hits the floor, and I clutch my chest.

  “Holy shit darlin’, warn a man before you kill him.” She looks at me and blushes. She's only wearing one of my button up dress shirts and it looks like nothing else.

  “What is it, is something wrong?” She pats her hair and straightens the shirt. She looks a little self-conscious, but I can't figure out why.

  “No, nothing is wrong. You are perfect, but damn Laney you look good in my clothes.” I know I embarrassed her but I can't help it, she is every fantasy I have ever had, in nothing but my shirt in my house.

  “There's coffee if you want and breakfast is almost done.” I tell her as I wash the spatula off and continue to cook, trying to stay focused.

  “Thank you” she says as she makes her way to the coffee pot and the mug I pulled out for her. I finish breakfast and put our plates on the island across from each other. If I get to close to her I will be eating breakfast but it won't be food. I laugh inwardly at my own joke.

  She pushes her food around on her plate like she's unsure.

  “I'm not that bad of a cook if that's what you're worried about.” She looks up with a smile and shakes her head.

  “No, that's not it. This looks great, thank you.” She looks a little lost, and I hate the feeling of awkwardness that falls over the room. I reach across the island and take her hand in mine to get her to look at me.

  “Elena, what's on your mind?” She just stares at me for a minute.

  “Lucas, I don't know how to say this,” she says in a shaking voice, “I don't want things to be weird between us after... last night. Everything was wonderful and you being there for me means more than you could ever know.” She pauses a second and I just listen holding my breath. “But I’m going home in a week.” She tells me and it takes a minute to process what she said.

  “When you say a week, do you mean next Monday?” I ask, sounding a little too thrilled.

  “Most likely Tuesday morning, Mr. Breck said he had some important business to take care of and had to move our appointment. So, I meet with him on Monday.”

  I'm happy she's staying a little longer but it's still bittersweet that our time is limited. I know I shouldn't get to attached again or someone is going to get hurt. But I will take what I can get. I walk around the island and she turns to face me. I take her hands in mine and look her right in the eye so she knows I mean what I say.

  “Elena, things won't be weird, I'm just glad I get a little more time with you. We can stay in touch when you go home, this doesn't have to be the last time we see each other. You know, we were really good friends once upon a time, maybe we should start there?” Being friends will be hard, but it's bette
r than losing her again. She lays her head on my chest and hugs my waist.

  “I would love that, thank you. I really have missed you, Lucas.” I hug her back and I don't ever want to let go. But I do, I point to her plate telling her to eat.

  “I have to head to the office in an hour but maybe we can hang out after I get off work?”

  “Oh yeah, I talked to Wyatt yesterday. He said you took over Wayne Construction after your dad's heart attack. How is he doing? How is your mom?” I notice she avoids my question, but I wonder what else Wyatt had to say.

  “Dad is doing good, still stubborn as ever. He’s had a hard time letting go and enjoying retirement. Mom is taking it one day at a time. All of us try to help where we can.”

  “I'm glad he's okay, your mom and dad were like second parents to me.” She has that lost look in her eyes again and I know she's thinking of her own parents.

  “You should come have dinner with them tonight, I know they would love to see you.” My mom and dad loved Elena. Our parents were close friends. She looks unsure so I try to encourage her.

  “Sarah will be there and it would be nice to catch up.” She smiles a little and I think she might say yes. As much as I would love to have her all to myself, I think we should table sex and just keep it platonic. I know it's a little late for that but I have to try and keep things in the friend zone.

  “Maybe dinner would be nice, should I bring something?” I smile at her, still shocked she's sitting with me.

  “No, just yourself.” I tell her. I finish my breakfast and coffee real fast then stand to stretch. When I look back at her I see her eyes on my semi-hard dick. I can't help that I'm getting hard, she just looks good enough to eat. And with that thought my dick jumps and gets harder just thinking of how good she tastes. She looks up and sees me watching her and turns red, she tries to hide behind her coffee cup but I see that smile. She likes what she sees. I wink at her and walk around the island, she freezes.