Marry Me Again: A Billionaire Second Chance Romance
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Mom keeps me company. I pass Holden back to her and casually sip my wine, shifting my knees under the table while I wait for some word from Reg.
Patricia isn't kidding about the embarrassment if he comes in an hour late. Anger courses through my blood.
I don't know what's going on with him lately, and the uncertainty hurts.
Half an hour later, there must be dozens waiting. Every table is packed with men in suits and women who have never done a day's worth of thrift store shopping in their life. Their dresses are new, their purses are imports, and they're talking about trips to warm islands I've never heard of. Soft classical music pipes from the custom speakers installed just for us overhead, echoing through the lighthouse, but it's easily drowned out by the voices.
Patricia stands near the podium, giving me a nervous glance every few seconds. When she stares a little too long, I shake my head, telling her I haven't heard a damned thing from my other half. Reg's father, Harold, stands next to her. He reaches up and clears his throat, an anxious tic I've seen several times at their stuffy fundraisers and corporate parties. Can't blame him for being as worried as the rest of us about how this is going to go if Reg blows it.
This lighthouse used to be so beautiful. Why does it feel like a fucking prison now?
I'm practically kicking myself underneath the table for not speaking up when he pushed for our engagement party here.
This place is cursed, and I should've known it.
My mind wanders while the wine warms my veins, a pleasant distraction from the rising panic over Reg's mysterious absence. A few minutes later, Patricia pulls her keynote speaker into the corner. I don't need to read lips to know she's gone nuclear.
“Kara-bell. Sorry I'm late.” Reg grabs my shoulder. By the time I look up, half the room around us is staring at us, cheering and applauding.
The Prince has returned. I try not to glare.
“Where the hell were you?” I whisper, remembering at the last second to smile and wave to the happy crowd.
God. I don't know how celebrities and politicians do this public persona crap.
Stuffing my real feelings down my throat, and keeping them there in front of hundreds of strangers, threatens to make me sick.
Is this how that California girl in the tabloids felt when she shacked up with Prince Silas overseas? I read about her fairy tale romance a few months ago, how she married him to save her father, and then fell in love for real. Some people get all the happy endings.
Reg doesn't say anything, just plops down into the seat next to me. He grabs my hand, pulls it into his firm grip, and lifts the back to his lips like we're prudish aristocrats who haven't ever locked lips.
Way to feed the ridiculous lie we're presenting here.
I go along with it, keeping my grin as wide as humanly possible. Several cameras flash, exploding around us, lighting up the fancy silver and gold balloons swaying against the walls. My fingers ache when they brush his lips because I want to slap him for leaving me hanging in front of everyone.
At least Patricia and Harold look relieved. His parents are walking smiles with the keynote now, Mr. Williams, who's about to step up to the podium and heap praise on the youngest, brightest, most upstanding young man he's ever had the pleasure of mentoring at Drayton Financial.
My predictions are dead on. Reg holds my hand through the entire flowery speech. His near constant smile turns a little more tense when he catches me scowling. His big grey eyes would outdo a whimpering puppy's.
“What's wrong?” he whispers, during a big round of applause near the end of the speech.
“You couldn't have even sent a text?” I'm pouting, and I don't care. “Seriously, Reg, how hard is it to tell the woman you're going to marry why you're late to our first big outing as a couple?”
“Correction, I wasn't late. I had two minutes to spare.” His smile weakens. I wonder if he actually remembers how much I hate it when he says correction. “Kara, I'm sorry. When my dad's guys heard about the engagement today, they all insisted on buying me a drink. We had a few rounds in the office, and I had to sober up before the drive. I let it get to me. Here I am, babe. You know I wouldn't miss this for the world.”
He squeezes my hand. I stare into his eyes, wanting to believe him.
They're a pretty shade of grey, but they're also dense as the heavy storm clouds drifting over Superior. They're not blue, at least. After Ryan, I don't think I'll ever trust another man with his sky blue eyes again.
“Let's not ruin the night. Remember what Dr. Evans said last week? Forgiveness is divine.”
My fingers tighten in his, and I let out a sigh. Thankfully, we're alone in the moment. Everybody around us is distracted, laughing at some charmingly subtle joke Williams just made.
Yeah, divine, like the counselor said. I'd love some divine intervention right now to put a stronger drink in my hand.
As much as I don't like to admit it, the jerk I'm going to marry might be right. The fact that he's thinking about our therapy at all tells me he's trying. I'm obligated to follow his lead.
“I'll hold my fire until we get home,” I whisper.
Reg puts an arm around my shoulder, pulling me into him. “That's my girl. If you still want to fire away after tonight, I'll get down on my knees and let you put one right between my eyes.”
He reaches up, taps himself on the forehead, and makes a jerking motion. He gets a point for making me want to laugh – for real – mostly because I remember the time we went to the gun range last year.
He dragged me with him as part of this country club get together with his firm's clients. I wound up being a natural the second I picked up my first gun and took aim at the targets.
Reg, on the other hand...my poor darling fell over when he felt the kick from the rifle. He never hit a single bullseye We've laughed about it ever since. It's funny because it reminds me how different he is from Ryan.
Unlike the ass who left me behind, Reg is honest. This imperfect, but sincere man who's about to step up and promise me his heart doesn't hide who he is. There are no grand secrets or masculine games with him. He doesn't need to get dirty in a garage, or waste a weekend cleaning his guns to go off hunting.
Sure, it's less exciting sometimes, but that awful night I lost my first love five years ago gave me a lifetime's worth of surprises. I'm done with all that.
I need stability.
I need devotion.
I need to be loved.
Reg offers everything, even when he screws up. My fingers lace tighter with his, and we share a look. It's happy, energetic, and just like old times.
A smile warms my lips, and then curls his, too. I see the spark we're going through therapy to reignite before we say our vows.
It's not so hard to recapture after all, is it? Maybe it never went actually went away, I don't know.
Every couple has disagreements, tensions. That's what we're working through, and we're going to beat it.
Williams is wrapping up, about to give up his speaking slot to Patricia, who's going to introduce us. I won't let Reg totally off the hook once we're done here tonight. But for the next few hours, I'm grateful everything is okay.
I'm going to get up on the stage for a little while soon and act like I'm happy he's about to put a ring worth more than most homes in our town on my finger. If we can just grab onto our old spark a little longer, breathe new life into it, then I won't even have to play pretend.
Our love will be good. It's going to be authentic. Everything I've always wanted, and more.
“I met her at the coffee shop,” Reg begins, speaking to the crowd when it's his turn at the mic. “You all know it – the only place in town where you can get that fancy feather drawn into your steaming cup of Joe. I told her the answer to the trivia question for the daily discount was all wrong. She told me I had all the answers. Lucky for her, I still do.”
Reg smiles, throws an arm around me, and pulls me close. I'm smiling at the memory.
Some days, after I first opened, he was my only customer for hours.
“Look at her up here, playing coy.” My fiance pauses while everybody laughs. “If you've had the honor of meeting the real Kara Lilydale like I have, you know spitfire doesn't begin to describe her. She's defiant, sassy, and special because she throws down the only criticism I'll ever listen to, smiling like a fool. Today, I'm honored to tell this town I'm going to make it permanent. I'm making her my wife. I'm ready, able, and waiting to hear her wit for the rest of our lives. It takes a sharp tongue to make a man better, and Kara –” He pauses, turns, and looks me dead in the eyes. “You'd better believe I'm going to be my very best for you, babe.”
Reg shifts his eyes to me while waiting for the laughter to die down again. It's a perfect speech, the kind he's had a lot of practice with since college debate. His jokes are in just the right places, wedged in his measured delivery and oscillating tone.
Whatever's been going wrong with this boy lately, it's gestures like this that remind me we're right. My lover, joker, and adoring husband-to-be in one neat package.
I want to believe it's true. Still, there's a faint sour taste on my tongue when I lean in for a kiss.
He didn't appreciate my 'sharp tongue' so much last week, when I told him he'd better start taking our sessions with Dr. Evans seriously, or this wasn't going to work.
He stormed out. Didn't come home all night, and didn't offer much explanation. I didn't ask.
Even his kiss is cooler and softer than it should be when our lips touch.
I try to lose myself in the moment, focus on the happy throngs of people clapping around us. My face heats a little, but only because I know there's probably half a billion dollars staring at us right now. Everyone who's worth something in the whole U.P. is watching us.
To be fair, his kisses rarely curl my hair. Reg doesn't live life on gross, drunken passion. That's why he's stable and ridiculously successful, everything I need to live a happy life, to make up for the losses and failures darkening my earlier years.
I kiss him back, forcing myself into it, wondering if I can turn our little spark into a crackling flame. My face melds into his for one brief moment. When I push my tongue into his mouth, touching the tip to his, Reg pulls back with a startled look.
Predictable. He smiles, waves to the crowd, and soaks in his family's rich friends hooting and hollering like they've seen something truly wild.
Disappointing? Maybe, but I can't get mad at him for being who he is. He'll never make my panties puddle at my feet, and I'm okay with that. I love him because he's good for me, damn it. He's the complete opposite of –
No. Don't you dare think his name.
“Babe, would you like to say a few words?” Reg whispers, once the applause begins dying down. The firm hand on my back says the answer better be yes.
I give him a shallow nod, shuffling up to the microphone. I clear my throat once, and everybody quiets down.
“I just want to say thank you all for coming out here tonight. It means so much to Reg and me that so many of you fine folks are here to support our love.” Turning, I look over my shoulder at his face, hoping it'll inspire the words I need to make an impression. “I'm not going to lie. When we met, I wasn't having an easy time. I'd just lost the man I loved most – my father – and I was trying to change direction after college. I was in a bad spot.”
Several people pop big sympathetic smiles. They don't know I flunked out, and probably think I'm talking about starting a new million dollar charity, or something.
“Reg helped pull me out. He taught me to love again, proved I can have a future better than anything I ever imagined. He taught me to appreciate a good man – even when he's being the world's biggest know-it-all.”
I pause, looking back at my fiance. It doesn't take much to make this crowd rumble with laughter. Reg smiles softly, knowingly, approval glowing on his face.
Time to bring it home. “Tonight, I'm touched. Honored. Really, I am. I worried this town would never make us feel welcome again after the tragedy that unfolded with Nelson at my father's auto shop several years ago. I'm thrilled to say I was wrong. This town's better than its past, and I'm smiling when I dream about our future. If our wedding is even half as lovely as this engagement party tonight, I know we'll be happy together until the end of time.”
People clap unevenly. When I turn, Reg is staring at his feet. He doesn't look up, just grabs me by the wrist, leading me away from the podium.
“Isn't she incredible?” Patricia screams into the microphone behind me, the instant I'm gone. “Another round of applause for happy couple!”
“Okay, stop!” I dig my feet into the floor when we're halfway out the back door, tearing my hand from his grip. “Mind telling me what I did this time to piss you off?”
“This was supposed to be our night, Kara,” Reg growls, his eyebrows furrowed. “Did you really need to go and remind everybody Uncle Nelson died at your family's stupid fucking chop shop?”
“I wasn't planning on it. Guess it just came out.” I'm angry, but I'm honest. “Sorry my speeches aren't as polished as yours, Reg. I didn't have the luxury of a private debate tutor when I was too busy working at that 'chop shop' you're happy to take potshots at.”
His lips curl in a fresh smile, a nasty one. “Oh, so it's okay to bitch about jabs at family, and then you take one at mine? Don't be a hypocrite, Kara-bell.”
Better a hypocrite than an asshole. He starts walking ahead, down by the trees near the parking lot, reaching into his pocket.
I won't follow him yet. I know by the time I get down there, I'm going to see Mr. Perfect with a slim cigar stuffed between his vicious lips. It's his lone vice, one he's told me a million times he wants to quit.
The wind chooses to pick up just then, billowing in from Superior, sending foamy waves hard against the rocks. Awesome.
I stare out into the night, watching the flickering shadows through the lighthouse's windows. Up near the beacon, it's pitch dark. Reg couldn't convince the historical society who manages the place to light it up for us tonight.
I don't know why it makes me think about Ryan. For all his faults, he never would've left me standing here after our engagement, wondering more than ever if I'm about to make a gargantuan mistake.
I'm trying to warm myself in the cool night when I smell the asshole's smoke. “Let's go home,” he says.
“Already? We're not staying for dinner after the speeches are done?” I jerk away from his hands again. I've lost count how many times that's happened tonight.
“We've made our appearance, Kara. That's all we're expected to do. The rest of the evening belongs to the guests.”
“It's supposed to be our night,” I say, repeating his words from earlier. “Did you really mean that, or were you just hoping I'd play along?”
He snorts. “It's really for the guests, babe, and I think you know that. We'll have our fun at the wedding in a few months. Don't worry.”
He starts heading for his big black Escalade. We're leaving in separate cars. I'm sure we'll spend the entire night sleeping as far away from each other as we can get, too.
I don't start crying until I'm pulling away from the lighthouse, watching it fade in the rear view mirror. Part of me wants to take the ramp to the highway and forget about pulling into the heated parking lot of our million dollar condo.
All the material comfort he's given me can't take away the doubts bleeding into every corner of my brain. They're making me dizzy, and the old fear that I'm about to fuck up my life yet again comes swooping in behind them.
There aren't many lights in this town on a sleepy autumn night. The big new construction off Angus street, just before you hit the residential areas, is the only exception.
It's some kind of new office,
or a factory. Maybe both. It's glassy, glamorous, so huge in its splendor it's like a miniature skyscraper. Totally out of place in Split Harbor – especially with those lights.
God, those hot white lights. I have to shield my teary eyes when I go past to stay on the road. The thing looks like it's prepped for its grand opening, an event I'm sure Reg and every other rich asshole with a political background will be there to attend.
Nobody heard of Punch Corp until they were building on our doorstep. Now, it seems like the chatter never ends. There's a million stories about how it's going to bring so many jobs, higher revenues, plus a lot of long lost prestige. No thanks to the whiz who manages it, Tanner Brooks, some kind of twenty-something start up freak from the West Coast with a genius IQ.
He's a billionaire already, they say. I hear the girls around my own age chattering away at Grounded, spilling their anxious dreams in the open. Ones where they bump into Tanner, and he becomes their Prince Charming, whenever he decides to grace our little town with his otherworldly celebrity.
It's good people can be still get excited over more than failing relationships.
Me, I'm too busy wondering if this marriage is done before it's started. I don't care about Tanner fantasies, or Punch Corp, or any of that.
My foot taps the accelerator hard, and my car roars on into the night. I'm desperate to get home so I can have a hot bath and close out this miserable day. Maybe I can get the usual fight with Reg over with early. It'll exhaust all my energy so I won't sit up by the fireplace, staring across town out our big bay window.
Then I won't have to think about the last time a man ripped my heart out. I won't have to think about the high turnover with the high school kids at Grounded, or the brake job my car needs that I refuse to let him pay for, or even the last thing daddy said to me before he slipped away into his medicated coma and never woke up.
You're a beautiful, intelligent woman, peanut. You've got your whole life ahead.
I hate the way that memory, the last one I have, seems to dominate all the others. Remembering his words makes the tears come hotter, more frequent, scalding rivulets running down my cheeks.