Yours Book 1: Losing My Innocence

by Blue Saffire

  In the middle of the bed, I had only seconds ago thought about laying in with my man is a very naked Jillian. Her face is flush and her hair is all messy as if she has just had a great fuck. I’ve looked like that often and the thought of the same man that gives me that look, giving it to this troll of a woman makes me sick to my stomach.

  My stunned eyes survey the rumpled sheets, rose petals on the floor and sheets, and clothes tossed about the floor. My eyes land on the closed bathroom door and I register that I can hear the shower running. My hand flies to my stomach as I clutch the fabric of my dress. Suddenly my clothes feel too tight and I can barely breathe. My eyes fall back on Jillian and she is smiling from ear to ear.

  “Well this day has just gotten better than I planned,” she purrs. “Nick and I were trying to figure out how he should break the news to you. Now we don’t have to. I’ll let him know when he gets out of the shower that you were here and he doesn’t have to worry about babysitting you anymore.

  “I was certainly getting tired of pretending all this time. Nick said he needed to play this game a little longer for you and your team to give him what he wanted. Now that he is closing this Cyber Guild deal your value has diminished. Your brother will probably never forgive him, but this deal was more than worth it. A couple of casualties for the security of our future, Nick called it.”

  “No,” I say weakly as my knees begin to buckle.

  I had been working so hard to finish the software for this deal and to make Nick proud of me. My team had over delivered on the project and I know Nick stands to make twice as much money on the deal he will be closing this week.

  “Oh Sweetheart, you actually thought your relationship was real?” Jillian cocked her head to the side, letting the sheet slip a little so that her naked breast is exposed. “I told you before Nick is a powerful man and he will do anything to get what he wants. He is very convincing too.

  “I have to say, I did my best to put on as great a show as he did when he made everyone think he fired me. He just finished making it up to me for that whole fiasco. You really should go now Sophi. There is no need for you to be embarrassed any further.”

  My mind is telling me to stay and fight for what is mine, but my feet are already rushing from the room. I didn’t even bother with my luggage. I clutched my purse to my chest and ran as fast as I can in my high heel boots.

  I rode the elevator down to the lobby and tear out of the front doors. I jumped in the first cab I see and break down into sobs. I knew Nick would break my heart, but I never thought it would happen like this. It takes me a minute to realize that the cabbie is asking me for my destination. At the same time, I realize I have no idea. I ask him to just keep driving.

  Pulling out my phone I scroll through my contacts to the one name I do not want to call. The one name that belongs to the only person I can call that will be able to fix this. I hate that I have to make this call. I wanted to show that I am an adult and I am making all the right decisions, but now look at me. My brother will have to step in and clean up my mess after all.

  “Hello Luke,” I sob into the phone. “I need your help.”

  “I’ll kill him,” is all that Luke growls before he gets straight to taping my world back together again.

  Epilogue

  I’ll Kill Him

  “Where the fuck is he,” Luke growled as he burst into Nick’s front door.

  He knew Nick was back in town, he had ears and eyes awaiting his return. He had shown up a lot faster than Luke had thought he would after what his sister had told him. Luke’s blood boiled in his veins as he thought of his baby sister stranded in Seattle crying her eyes out.

  He had gotten her somewhere safe and secure before coming here to deliver his promise to Nick. Luke’s rage rose as he thought of where he had to send his sister. He was no better than Nick. Just two months ago, Nick had to help him secure the young beauty he himself had ripped to shreds. It saddened him that he couldn’t put them together. They needed each other, but there was nothing he could do about that.

  The crew had rules. They protected each other and the ones they loved. It was for the best. His sister didn’t need to know what a monster he had become. She just needed to know that Nick was the same type of monster, the type she needed to stay away from.

  Luke shook his head to clear it. He nor Nick had a right to have either woman care for them and they had both proved it. Luke was ready to at least right the wrongs done to his sister. He felt like it was his fault for being a complete bastard. He felt like this was his punishment for the lines he himself crossed.

  “Calm down, Luke,” Kevin Briggs commands as he blocks Luke’s way. “You don’t have all the facts. You’re not thinking clearly.”

  “Fuck the facts, I told him I’d kill him if he hurt my sister,” Luke spits and tries to shove past Kevin.

  “Luke please, listen for a minute. You have this all wrong and we are thinking Sephora does as well,” Mariah pleads as she appears with a sleeping baby in her arms. “Calm down and you can help your friend find out what is really going on.”

  Luke’s shoulders sag as he takes in Mariah’s words. She always had a way with all the guys. She could soothe anyone of them out of their rage. Luke nodded and Mariah turned to head back to the living room where Nick was. Kevin watched Luke for a moment before he hesitantly stepped aside and follows after his wife.

  Luke follows them both silently, still seething. When his eyes landed on Nick he wants nothing more than to wrap his hand around his neck. However, something about the atmosphere made him stop to examine his friend more closely.

  Nick sat with his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands. His shoulders were slumped and he looks utterly defeated. This was not Nick and it did not fit the situation that Sephora had spelled out to him. Luke pulls in a deep breath through his nostrils and blows it out.

  Nick looked up at the sound of Luke’s heavy breathing and Luke could see his red eyes and the dark circles around them. Nick looked like complete shit. Luke balled up his fists and took a seat across from him. He already knew he wasn’t going to like one word that came out of Nick’s mouth so they might as well go ahead and get right to it.

  “Okay, someone tell me what the fuck is going on,” Luke rumbled.

  “Well, since you are here it only settles what I just confirmed. Sephora was not kidnapped,” Kevin starts.

  Luke snorts. “Why the fuck would you think that?”

  “I returned to our hotel suite to find her luggage in the room, but she was nowhere to be found. I tried calling her phone and she hasn’t answered,” Nick said with a grimace.

  “Well, if you thought my sister was kidnapped, why are you not still in Seattle looking for her,” Luke grunts through clenched teeth.

  “The girl at the front desk said that two women requested the key to my room. Both claim to be Sephora Emilsson. The stupid girl gave the first woman the key without asking for her ID.”

  “In her defense, she said her manager insisted she do so after having a private conversation with the woman,” Mariah interrupts.

  “The girl said she noticed Sephora rush out of the hotel about fifteen minutes after she gave her the second key. She thought it was all odd, so she went to report it to the same manager, but he told her not to worry about it,” Nick grumbles.

  “Still doesn’t explain you being here when you have no idea where my sister is,” Luke hisses.

  “I’m here because my gut is telling me that someone is trying to fuck me over. My business meeting just happens to blow up in my face and not even an hour later the woman I love disappears and a cab driver shows up with her collar saying she paid him to make sure I got it.

  “I watched the maid come in to my room to make the bed before I left for my meeting. I tipped her to place rose petals on the bed for Sephora’s arrival. When I got back to the suite the bed was a fucking mess. I now think I have a good idea of where to point fingers here. I just need to find Sephora and find ou
t what the fuck happened,” Nick finishes tiredly.

  “The hotel video just arrived in my email. You were right, the other woman leaving your room looks to be Jillian in the flesh,” Kevin sighs.

  “I’m going to kill that bitch,” Nick roars.

  “Well, I guess now is as good a time as any to tell you what dear Jillian did to my sister. I think you are going to need a drink,” Luke shakes his head.

  Blue Collection Character Tree

  Legally Bound 1

  Bobby Mairettie and Paige Kemble–Mairettie father and mother of:

  Peyton and James Mairettie (Twin Boys)

  Sydney Mairettie and Maria Lynn Mairettie (Twin Girls)

  Legally Bound 2

  Marcus Mairettie and Rita Briggs–Mairettie father and mother of:

  Daniel Mairettie

  Hannah Mairettie

  Legally Bound 3

  Nathaniel (Nate) Briggs and Pamela (Pam) Kemble–Briggs father and mother of:

  Tiffany and Tracey Briggs (Twin girls)

  Nathaniel Briggs Jr.

  Legally Bound 4

  Jasper Briggs and Marie Mairettie-Briggs father and mother of:

  Clay Briggs

  The Mairettie Family

  Grandpa Marcello Mairettie and Grandma Marie Ann father and mother of:

  Marcello Mairettie Jr.

  Andrew Mairettie

  James Mairettie

  Jessie Mairettie

  Lynn Mairettie

  Gianna Mairettie

  James Mairettie and Minnie Mairettie father and mother of:

  Bobby Mairettie

  Sam Mairettie (Ellen Kensington–Mairettie, Wife)

  Marcus Mairettie

  Marie Mairettie

  The Briggs Family

  Thomas Briggs and Raquel Marinos -Briggs (Deceased) father and mother of:

  Nathaniel Briggs

  Rita Briggs

  Earl Briggs (Younger Brother of Thomas) and Caitronia Marinos–Briggs (Twin sister of Raquel) father and mother of:

  Kelly Briggs–Fecteau (Alexie Fecteau, Husband)

  Jasper Briggs

  The Kemble Family

  Peyton Kemble and Davina Kemble father and mother of:

  Paige Kemble

  Pamela Kemble

  Other Important Legally Bound Characters

  Camille (Cam) Mc Wien - Carter (Seth Carter, Soon to Ex-Husband) father and mother of:

  Seth Carter Jr.

  Eddie Carter

  Aiden Carter

  Austin Mc Wien (Camille’s father)

  Baroness Olivia Kontos (Baron Kontos’ widow. Ex–Lover of Jasper/ Thomas Briggs new love interest)

  Vanessa (Julissa) Smith - Mims (Patrick Mims, Husband, now deceased)

  Hush 1

  Uri Donati and Valentina Caprisi–Donati father and mother of:

  Vita Khayla Donati

  Nori Donati (Introduced in Ballers 1)

  Inzo Donati (Introduced in Ballers 1)

  Eva Donati (In the womb in Ballers 1)

  Hush 2

  Luca Donati and Shannon Caprisi–Donati

  The Donati Family

  Angelo Uri Donati (Deceased) and Donatella Manzo–Donati–Zuko father and mother of:

  Uri Donati

  Nico Donati–Zuko (Reese, his girlfriend in Ballers 1)

  Annabella Donati–Zuko (Nico’s Twin sister)

  Michael Donati–Zuko

  Uncle Nicholas Donati (Brother of Angelo Donati) and Ava Donati father and mother of:

  Luca Donati

  The Caprisi Family

  Vincent Caprisi and Khayla Grant– Caprisi father and mother of:

  Valentina Caprisi

  Lissette Caprisi

  **Shannon Caprisi (Vincent’s daughter)

  Other Important Hush Characters

  Uncle Valentine Caprisi (Vincent’s Brother, head hitter)

  Iman Grant (Khayla Sister, **Shannon’s Mother, Deceased)

  Roberto Donati–Zuko (Donatella’s current husband)

  **Posed as Dale the accountant from Legally Bound 3

  Brothers Black 1

  Wyatt Black and Lanelle (Nellie) Byrant–Black father and mother of:

  Baby Nora Black

  The Black Family

  Joseph Black and Cassidy Black father and mother of:

  Wyatt Black

  Noah Black

  Johnathan Black

  Felix Black

  Toby Black (Kamara, Baby mother. TJ and Lulu, son and daughter, twins.)

  Braxton Black

  Ryan Black

  The Lockhart Family

  Lockhart Brothers

  Rob Lockhart

  Steve Lockhart

  Chase Lockhart

  Rob Lockhart and Faith Lockhart father and step–mother of:

  Heather Lockhart

  Steve Lockhart and Nora Bryant – Lockhart step–father and of:

  Lanelle (Nellie) Bryant–Black

  Chase Lockhart and Jennifer Lockhart father and mother of:

  Rebecca (Bean) Lockhart (Noah’s best friend and love interest.)

  Yours Series

  Nicholas Lincoln and Sephora (Sophi aka Soph aka Lilla du) Emilsson

  The Lincoln Family

  Dean Lincoln and Shelly Lincoln (Both Deceased) father and mother of:

  Nicholas Lincoln

  The Emilsson Family

  Liam Emilsson (Deceased) and Faraz Emilsson father and mother of:

  Lucian Emilsson

  Ettie Emilsson

  Sephora Emilsson

  Other Important Yours Characters

  Kimberly Ann Clove (aka Kimmie) (Lucian’s girlfriend and the mother of his child. Sephora’s best friends)

  Mark Fienberg (Sephora’s Best friend)

  Ivana Graves (Nick’s ex-girlfriend-Deceased)

  Bianca (Liam’s mistress -Missing)

  Winton (Nick’s Driver and Security)

  Jillian Carver (Nick’s ex-temporary PA-Missing)

  Harvey Carver (Jillian’s father and Nick’s family friend)

  Nick’s crew

  Wyatt Black

  Kevin Briggs (Wife Mariah Briggs- Nick’s PA)

  Craig Hilton

  George Ligal

  Lucian Emilsson

  Andrew Connor (Ettie’s Husband)

  Acknowledgments

  Once again thank you all for all of your support. I put a lot in giving you the best that I can and I hope it shows in my writing. I thank you for your response to my work and your feedback and wonderful emails, comments, and reviews. You are all pure gold.

  I have held on to this book for a long time for a number of reasons. Sephora is a special character to me and I hope you bare with me as she grows up before your eyes. It takes a while to outgrow insecurities when they are drilled into you by those closest to you. Especially when you don’t look the way people think you should. I purposely make my characters in various shades and shapes. I have grown up in a family and around friends that are unique and make people double take.

  No one, and I mean one should be made to feel like being dark skin or have light eyes or different textures and lengthen of hair define them. There is no such thing as being pretty for a dark skin girl. Or those eyes are fake because your skin is black. Do a google search if you don’t believe me. You will find that our limited vision limits our knowledge. So thank you for allowing me to represent all little girls and women. As well as young men and men. I will continue to mix it up because in the real world those individuals continue to exist.

  So to my cousins by blood and those by marriage, I acknowledge you exist and you deserve love stories too. To every little girl that has chocolate in her skin or who happens to be lighter and anyone in between, you are beautiful just as you are and not because of a shade of skin, eye color, or any other trait God chooses to bless you with.

  I thank God for my comfort in my skin and in my pen. I am so grateful for the knowledge of spirit and heart. I do this with a pure heart and I am blessed
with the love of my Source because I know myself in him. Once again to God, be all the Glory for my story. God is the Source of my talents. I am nothing and can do nothing without the Source of my being.

  So let’s turn up and make something awesome happen this year. I have a goal in mind for my writing. That means on to the next!

  Yours 2: Gaining Experience, Time for everyone to grow up.

  About the Author

  Blue Saffire is a woman on a mission to share her words and thoughts with the world. She has find her passion in her pen and steams up the pages with her humor, honesty, love and voice. Blue represents the secret author inside that some of us are too scared to let out.

  Blue and her family all enjoy life in the suburbs. However life throws her challenges daily and since her diary is no longer enough she has decided it is time for new outlets for the words she would never say face to face to her friends, family or other moms and definitely not her husband.

  So here in lays the thoughts of Blue Saffire, the author, the wife, the mother, and the woman. Enjoy.

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  Also by Blue Saffire

  Legally Bound

  Legally Bound 2: Against the Law

  Legally Bound 3: His Law

  Legally Bound 4: Allegations of Love

  Legally Bound 5.0: SAM Illegal Matters

  Perfect for Me

  Hush

  Hush 2: Slow Burn

  Ballers

  Coming Soon…