by Ashlee Price
It was embarrassing how quickly I was ready to come. My nails dug into his back and I squeezed my eyes shut tight before he was suddenly gone and I was panting. Adjusting from the darkness, I looked up to see Logan staring down at me.
“I’m sorry, Mia. I don’t know what got into me. I know that you want to take it slow.”
He didn’t say much else before turning around and leaving my office. I was left stunned, looking after him. Who said anything about taking it slow?
To be continued in Book 5…
Fully & Completely Book 5: Her Surrender
By: Ashlee Price
Prologue
Logan’s abrupt departure has put Mia on edge. Even though she was unsure about it to begin with, his leaving her has made her realize that it’s him she wants. It doesn’t matter what the next day will bring: she feels like she’s going to explode soon if she doesn’t have him.
But while her body aches desperately for the man, her heart isn’t so sure. Although he calls her for days afterwards, Mia can never bring herself to answer the phone. She knows that he’s dangerous to her in so many ways. He makes her want to be someone that she’s never been before, and Mia knows what would happen next.
She would only be his for one night, and is that worth the broken heart that would result? Part of her wants to think that it is worth it, but there’s still part of her that can see nothing but a red light flashing when she thinks of Logan: DANGER AHEAD.
Chapter 1 – Mia
I was left in the lurch. That was how I felt, and a couple of days later I was feeling no better. The only difference from when I was waiting for a call and then waiting for a kiss was that now I was the one who wasn’t picking up the phone. Logan had called, several times, but having no idea what I would say to him, I decided it was better if I just let that go for a bit. After the way he had left me, I didn’t know if I could face him. I was afraid that he’d known how close I was to begging him for more.
The very idea of it made me shiver, and I set the phone back down on my desk. I was about to start doing intake on the new tiger that was finally out of quarantine, but all I could think about was Logan. It was becoming a pattern in my life, and I wasn’t sure if it was ever going to let up. If it did, I didn’t know if it would be a good thing or a bad thing. I knew that he was going to be a regret any way that I handled it, so I guess not handling it seemed like the way to go. That was why I had always preferred animals to humans. Humans were just so complicated, and once emotions and feelings were involved it seemed to go all downhill from there.
“Good morning, Tom.”
The tiger seemed with it enough to know that was his name. Or maybe he just associated my voice with extra treats. I wasn’t sure which one it was, but I was happy to see that he was responding positively. Sometimes animals came in from places that took very poor care of them, or they were actually caught in the wild. Those types could have real adjustment problems, but Tom didn’t seem to have those issues. He was eager to get involved with the others and all introductions had gone smoothly, a lot smoother than those between Rocy and her new mate that I still hadn’t named yet.
I talked to the tiger for a while about my problems. He was a better listener than most people, but he didn’t give me anything to work with. The advice I had gotten from Jane had been a bust. I didn’t even have to do anything for him to come to me, but when Logan had, I hadn’t been ready for him. Now I couldn’t even imagine seeing him again face to face, but I knew that I wanted to. I knew that I wanted him to finish what he had started, no matter how complicated it all was.
My phone rang again and Tom lifted his head up and looked at me a little angrily, like I was bugging him with the sound of it. I didn’t have to look to know that it was Logan again. I could say one thing about the man. He was definitely persistent. He was not going to take no for an answer, and I knew that eventually he would just pop up again. I should answer and get him in my own time, not his.
But not that day. I still wasn’t ready to talk to him. Every time I was around him, all I wanted to do was melt into his arms. Then he would give me the look like he was going to take me right there. Nothing had changed, except now I knew that I should be careful of what I ask for, because sometimes getting it is just a bit too much.
So I tied to ignore the phone that kept ringing. Eventually I put it on vibrate and let it go off through the afternoon. He was going to give up or I was going to give in. One way or another I knew that it was going to work itself out.
The day was winding to an end and I was looking forward to getting home and having a glass of wine. It had been a long week, and though it was almost over, that last day was still looming ahead of me. I wanted a weekend to go home and get away from the city for a while. It was about time for me to see some family, anything to feel normal after everything weird that was going on in my life at the moment.
But I didn’t even get to my car before I ran into Ryland. It was becoming a thing with him in the parking lot, and I wasn’t sure I liked it at all. He was up to something. I didn’t know if he was trying to get the guts to say something or do something, but I had a feeling I wasn’t going to want him to get up the courage for whatever had to do with me.
“You scared me, Ryland.”
He looked puzzled as I walked past him to my car. My hand was on the door, just in case he was going to try something. I wouldn’t have thought so, usually I felt safe, but he was acting really strange. I just wasn’t sure what I was supposed to do about it. He was starting to freak me out.
“Sorry, Mia. I was just going to say hi to you before you left.”
“Hi.”
He kind of giggled in a high-pitched voice that sounded almost painful. I was waiting for him to say something, but he just stared at me so long I had to look away. I couldn’t keep contact with his dark eyes any longer. He seemed to like it, like I had lost the stare-down.
“I haven’t seen you around much.”
“Everyone keeps saying that, but I’ve just been wrapped up in everything going on.”
“I was hoping that you would have some free time later. Maybe we could go out again? This time I’ll let you pick the place.”
It was something that I’d known was coming, but it was still a bit shocking when he asked.
“I don’t think that’s a good idea, Ryland.”
“Why not?”
Because it went so horribly the first time and you still bother me months later? That’s what I thought, but of course it wasn’t something that I could say out loud. “I just don’t think it would be a good idea. It would get weird. We have to work together.”
“We’ve already gone out Mia. That doesn’t make sense.”
“Well, it’s kind of awkward, don’t you think?”
By the look on his face, it was clear that he didn’t find anything wrong with lurking in a parking garage waiting to talk to me. How did he not feel like this was awkward, when I was struggling for a way to end the conversation?
“I just don’t think that it would be a good idea. I would rather just stay friends.”
He scowled at me as I got into my car, saying something about having to go. I know I was being a chicken, but I couldn’t help it. Only when I was out of the garage and on the main road did I breathe a sigh of relief. I had a feeling I was going to have to deal with him soon.
Chapter 2 – Logan
I listened to the phone ring for a while, but I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to for long. I was ready to throw it, again. I know that it was childish, but I didn’t really care about how much the last three had cost me. Why couldn’t she just answer her phone? Was it really that hard to do?
I knew it was my fault. While I had told myself that I was going to take it slow with her, I couldn’t help what had happened. I had gotten my hands on her and that was the end for me. I only realized what I was doing when I heard her whimper in the sweetest way. Then I knew that I had gone too far, but I think it was too la
te. She wouldn’t even talk to me now, and I wasn’t sure how to proceed.
It was always me who wanted to get rid of women. They would cling too hard. But I was feeling like the clingy one when it came to Mia. I wanted to be around her and it was pretty obvious that she didn’t want to have anything to do with me. Had I read it all wrong? Was she only being nice because I was helping her?
Finally I couldn’t take the wonder and after she ignored my call again, I decided that I would rather know what was going on and try to change her mind, as opposed to driving myself crazy with the thoughts in my head. It couldn’t be worse than that.
So for the second time in a few weeks, Mia was driving me to do something that I hadn’t thought I would ever do. Ever since my father died, I hadn’t felt anything, but just being around Mia and her fearlessness made me think that I could feel again, go on again. I didn’t want to lose that, but I was afraid of what that would mean. Everyone and everything that I cared about had been taken away, and if Mia was as well, I didn’t know what I was going to do with myself.
The drive down to her place was not that long, maybe a few miles, but my foot wouldn’t press hard on the gas and those miles seemed to stretch on forever. There was part of me that didn’t want to go, but then I knew that I had to. Whatever was going on with me had to quit. I couldn’t stand feeling this way, so out of control.
I took the last bit of courage that I had and parked in front of her house. I went to the door and my hand paused in midair. I knew that I had to knock. I couldn’t just stand there forever. But something was stopping me. All of the doubts and what-ifs played in my head, as well as my worst-case scenarios, which I was sure were going to happen.
Before I could get up the nerve to actually knock, the door opened and Mia was right there in front of me. “Oh, hey, Logan.”
She just said it like it was no big deal, but my throat was constricting just seeing her. I wanted her, right then, and I couldn’t even think about what the ramifications were going to be when I leaned in a foot and pulled her to me with a grip on her chin. I needed her, and I was tired of waiting for her to come around. It was time for me to try a different approach, one that I was better at and a lot more familiar with.
Mia kissed me back, opening her lips to my tongue and moaning softly into my mouth. She tasted as good as I remembered, and as soon as I had her through the door, there was no turning back. Closing it with my heel, I didn’t take my lips off of her because I didn’t want her to tell me no. I knew that I just had to keep her busy and she would be pliable to my wants. Her body wanted me even though I knew that her mind wasn’t so sure. I just had to shut that part of her off for a time to have my way.
I felt her hands against my chest and I groaned inwardly. Please don’t make me stop.
“Logan, I, uh, I didn’t know that you were coming.”
It was an obvious thing to say, but I could see her blue-green eyes de-clouding and I knew I was losing her.
“I had to see you and kiss you.”
I tried to pull her closer, but she resisted my embrace. I was cursing myself and could already see that it wasn’t going to end the way that I wanted it to.
“Wait, Logan. I don’t know if this is a good idea or not. I don’t…”
My finger went to her lips and I shushed her. I didn’t want to hear why it wasn’t a good idea. I wanted her to realize that it was the only option there was. Didn’t she know she was driving me crazy with the way she was looking at me? Didn’t she know what she was doing to me?
“Just let me love you, Mia. That is all I’ve wanted to do since I saw you staring out the window in the boardroom. There was something about you that I couldn’t handle, and now that you’re in my arms and I’ve tasted you, I don’t think I can ever let you go.”
Mia was stunned by my words, and I was as well. It was not something that I would have said to anyone else, but I meant it, every word of it, and that was the scary part. Her telling me no frightened me as well. I could see that she was thinking about it, and the fact that she wouldn’t meet my gaze didn’t bode well for the answer.
“Logan, I just…”
I took a chance and tried to kiss her. I waited for her to move back like she had the first time, but instead she leaned in the last little bit of the way and kissed me back. Her arms entwined around my neck and she pulled me down to her. I could feel her soft breasts as she rubbed her body against my chest. Mia had made a decision, one that I had been dying for her to make. The last soft moan was just what I needed to hear.
“Logan.”
“Shh, Mia. Just let me take care of everything.”
I picked her up and started to walk towards the hallway that I figured led to the bedroom. I would have taken her anywhere, could have done it right there standing up, but I wanted it to be special. The first time I laid with Mia, I wanted it to be magical so that she would never ignore my calls again.
“Logan are you sure that we should do this?”
She was sitting on the edge of the bed, and I had shut the bedroom door. I was looking down at her and my loins twitched with the innocence in her eyes. The woman was going to be the end of me yet.
Chapter 3 – Mia
I’d been about to leave to see Jane. I was going to meet her at the bar, but Logan had been at the door instead. The way he had touched me and grabbed me was enough to make my mind whirl. Now he was coming towards me and I was actually shaking on the bed looking up at him.
He said something, but I wasn’t sure what he was saying. I couldn’t hear anything over the pounding in my ears.
“I’m sure, Mia.”
I guessed I was the one who’d asked a question. I just couldn’t think about what it had been when he was looking at me like that. Logan stopped right in front of me and pulled his shirt off. I couldn’t take my eyes off his hairy, hard chest. My fingers itched to touch him, and before I could stop myself, my hands went up and rubbed down the tanned skin of his washboard abs. God, he was gorgeous. Suddenly there wasn’t anymore ‘not knowing’ for me. I knew that I wanted him. That is what I knew, and there was nothing else that mattered.
“If you touch me much more, I won’t be able to go slow, Mia.”
Giggling, I moved my hand down to the waistband of his pants. “Who said anything about going slow? Last time you said that, you left me in quite a state, Logan.”
I think my words were the end of him. He made a growling sound at me before pushing me down and climbing on top of me. I was still wearing my clothes when he did that, but it wasn’t long before he was pulling them off. I don’t know how he did it, because his lips and tongue never stopped licking and kissing my lips and neck. It was like his hands were everywhere and there was nothing that I could do to stop them. I didn’t want to, though. It felt too good and it had been too long coming. I tried not to think about what the aftermath would be. All there was at that moment was now.
Logan moved deftly, removing my pants and shirt before I knew what was going on. I only had a pair of panties on, and the half cup bra that I had chosen for the pink lace that made me feel a little more feminine. I was glad for it now, because when his clear blue eyes unveiled the matching set, they darkened a little and filled with lust. It was more than I could take, and I closed my eyes to his need, knowing that it mirrored my own.
“Look at me, Mia.”
I opened them slowly, but I couldn’t hold his gaze long. He was licking and nibbling on my legs, never coming back up after he pulled my pants down. I shivered at the gruffness of his voice and the demand in his eyes. Logan was not a man who was meant to be ignored. He always got what he wanted, and I was going to be no different. I didn’t want to be any different.
“I’ve wanted you so long. Or it seems that way, but it hasn’t been long at all.”
His words were distracting me from the way his hot breath felt against the inner bit of thigh above which he was poised. I whimpered as he moved lower and finally took a lick through the material
of the panties. I jumped at the sudden heat and the wetness that spilled over onto my hot skin beneath. He growled at me when I moved and held me down as his hands wrapped around my thighs from beneath. I needed to get away from his hungry mouth, but there was nowhere to go.
“Where are you going, Mia? I’m just getting started.”
I blanched at the idea of it, and it wasn’t long before he was yanking my panties to one side and taking a long lick up my slit and straight to my clit. I shivered with the instant pleasure, my hips rocking upwards to meet his mouth. My moans were getting louder as his tongue moved faster on me. It was like heaven, and I just couldn’t look at him like he’d asked. Not when I was so close to coming from his magical tongue on me.
His comment from before was starting to make sense. Logan licked me to orgasm, only to start in on me again as soon as I was done writhing underneath him. He never let me go too far, letting my heart rate go back down a little before he started again. Finally I had to push him away from me and close my legs to give myself a moment. I couldn’t come anymore, it was just too much.
“I can’t, Logan.”
He chuckled, and I opened my eyes again when there movement on the bed. Logan didn’t have any clothes on. My eyes took it all in. He was gorgeous. It didn’t make sense that he was so into me, but I shouldn’t waste the opportunity. It wasn’t going to happen often in my life that a man like Logan wanted me, so I was going to make the best of the night and forget about all of my hang-ups. I just wanted to feel and not think about it. Tomorrow I could worry.
His hand and fingers were back on my core and he was taunting me. “Are you sure you can’t, Mia? Do you really want me to stop? I will if you want me to.”
