Jane Eyre (Barnes & Noble Classics Series)

by Charlotte Bronte

“Most truly, sir.”

  “Oh! my darling! God bless you and reward you!”

  “Mr. Rochester, if ever I did a good deed in my life—if ever I thought a good thought—if ever I prayed a sincere and blameless prayer—if ever I wished a righteous wish, I am rewarded now. To be your wife is, for me, to be as happy as I can be on earth.”

  “Because you delight in sacrifice.”

  “Sacrifice! What do I sacrifice? Famine for food, expectation for content. To be privileged to put my arms round what I value—to press my lips to what I love—to repose on what I trust; is that to make a sacrifice? If so, then certainly I delight in sacrifice.”

  “And to bear with my infirmities, Jane; to overlook my deficiencies.”

  “Which are none, sir, to me. I love you better now, when I can really be useful to you, than I did in your state of proud independence, when you disdained every part but that of the giver and protector.”

  “Hitherto I have hated to be helped—to be led; henceforth, I feel, I shall hate it no more. I did not like to put my hand into a hireling‘s, but it is pleasant to feel it circled by Jane’s little fingers. I preferred utter loneliness to the constant attendance of servants; but Jane’s soft ministry will be a perpetual joy. Jane suits me; do I suit her?”

  “To the finest fibre of my nature, sir.”

  “The case being so, we have nothing in the world to wait for; we must be married instantly.”

  He looked and spoke with eagerness; his old impetuosity was rising.

  “We must become one flesh without any delay, Jane; there is but the license to get—then we marry—”

  “Mr. Rochester, I have just discovered the sun is far declined from its meridian, and Pilot is actually gone home to his dinner. Let me look at your watch.”

  “Fasten it into your girdle, Janet, and keep it henceforward; I have no use for it.”

  “It is nearly four o‘clock in the afternoon, sir. Don’t you feel hungry?”

  “The third day from this must be our wedding-day, Jane. Never mind fine clothes and jewels, now; all that is not worth a fillip.”

  “The sun has dried up all the rain-drops, sir. The breeze is still; it is quite hot.”

  “Do you know, Jane, I have your little pearl necklace at this moment fastened round my bronze scragip under my cravat? I have worn it since the day I lost my only treasure; as a memento of her.”

  “We will go home through the wood; that will be the shadiest way.”

  He pursued his own thoughts without heeding me.

  “Jane! you think me, I dare say, an irreligious dog; but my heart swells with gratitude to the beneficent God of this earth just now. He sees not as man sees, but far clearer; judges not as man judges, but far more wisely. I did you wrong; I would have sullied my innocent flower—breathed guilt on its purity; the Omnipotent snatched it from me. I, in my stiff-necked rebellion, almost cursed the dispensation; instead of bending to the decree, I defied it. Divine justice pursued its course; disasters came thick upon me; I was forced to pass through the valley of the shadow of death.120 His chastisements are mighty; and one smote me which has humbled me forever. You know I was proud of my strength; but what is it now, when I must give it over to foreign guidance, as a child does its weakness? Of late, Jane—only of late—I began to see and acknowledge the hand of God in my doom. I began to experience remorse, repentance; the wish for reconcilement to my Maker. I began sometimes to pray; very brief prayers they were, but very sincere.

  “Some days since—nay, I can number them, four; it was last Monday night, a singular mood came over me, one in which grief replaced frenzy; sorrow, sullenness. I had long had the impression that since I could nowhere find you, you must be dead. Late that night, perhaps it might be between eleven and twelve o‘clock, ere I retired to my dreary rest, I supplicated God that, if it seemed good to Him, I might soon be taken from this life and admitted to that world to come, where there was still hope of rejoining Jane.

  “I was in my own room and sitting by the window, which was open; it soothed me to feel the balmy night air, though I could see no stars, and only by a vague, luminous haze knew the presence of a moon. I longed for thee, Janet! Oh, I longed for thee both with soul and flesh! I asked of God, at once in anguish and humility, if I had not been long enough desolate, afflicted, tormented, and might not soon taste bliss and peace once more. That I merited all I endured, I acknowledged; that I could scarcely endure more, I pleaded; and the alpha and omega of my heart’s wishes broke involuntarily from my lips, in the words, ‘Jane! Jane! Jane!’ ”

  “Did you speak these words aloud?”

  “I did, Jane. If any listener had heard me he would have thought me mad, I pronounced them with such frantic energy.”

  “And it was last Monday night; somewhere near midnight?”

  “Yes; but the time is of no consequence; what followed is the strange point. You will think me superstitious—some superstition I have in my blood, and always had; nevertheless, this is true—true, at least, it is that I heard what I now relate.

  “As I exclaimed ‘Jane! Jane! Jane!’ a voice—I cannot tell whence the voice came, but I know whose voice it was—replied, ‘I am coming; wait for me!’ and a moment after, went whispering on the wind, the words, ‘Where are you?’

  “I’ll tell you, if I can, the idea, the picture, these words opened to my mind; yet it is difficult to express what I want to express. Ferndean is buried, as you see, in a heavy wood, where sound falls dull and lies unreverberating. ‘Where are you?’ seemed spoken among mountains, for I heard a hill-sent echo repeat the words. Cooler and fresher at the moment the gale seemed to visit my brow; I could have deemed that in some wild, lone scene, I and Jane were meeting. In spirit, I believe, we must have met. You, no doubt, were at that hour in unconscious sleep, Jane; perhaps your soul wandered from its cell to comfort mine; for those were your accents—as certain as I live—they were yours!”

  Reader, it was on Monday night, near midnight, that I, too, had received the mysterious summons; those were the very words by which I had replied to it. I listened to Mr. Rochester’s narrative, but made no disclosure in return. The coincidence struck me as too awful and inexplicable to be communicated or discussed. If I told anything, my tale would be such as must necessarily make a profound impression on the mind of my hearer; and that mind, yet from its sufferings too prone to gloom, needed not the deeper shade of the supernatural. I kept these things, then, and pondered them in my heart.121

  “You cannot now wonder,” continued my master, “that when you rose upon me so unexpectedly last night, I had difficulty in believing you any other than a mere voice and vision; something that would melt to silence and annihilation, as the midnight whisper and mountain echo had melted before. Now, I thank God! I know it to be otherwise. Yes, I thank God!”

  He put me off his knee, rose, and reverently lifting his hat from his brow, and bending his sightless eyes to the earth, he stood in mute devotion. Only the last words of the worship were audible.

  “I thank my Maker, that in the midst of judgment he has remembered mercy. I humbly entreat my Redeemer to give me strength to lead henceforth a purer life than I have done hitherto!”

  Then he stretched his hand out to be led. I took that dear hand, held it a moment to my lips, then let it pass round my shoulder; being so much lower of stature than he, I served both for his prop and guide. We entered the wood, and wended homeward.

  Chapter XXXVIII

  Conclusion

  Reader, I married him. A quiet wedding we had; he and I, the parson and clerk, were alone present. When we got back from church, I went into the kitchen of the manor-house, where Mary was cooking the dinner and John cleaning the knives, and I said:

  “Mary, I have been married to Mr. Rochester this morning.” The housekeeper and her husband were both of that decent, phlegmatic order of people to whom one may at any time safely communicate a remarkable piece of news without incurring the danger of having one’s ears p
ierced by some shrill ejaculation, and subsequently stunned by a torrent of wordy wonderment. Mary did look up, and she did stare at me; the ladle with which she was basting a pair of chickens roasting at the fire did for some three minutes hang suspended in air; and for the same space of time John’s knives also had rest from the polishing process; but Mary, bending again over the roast, said only,

  “Have you, miss? Well, for sure!”

  A short time after she pursued: “I seed you go out with the master, but I didn’t know you were gone to church to be wed”; and she basted away. John, when I turned to him, was grinning from ear to ear.

  “I telled Mary how it would be,” he said; “I knew what Mr. Edward”—(John was an old servant, and had known his master when he was the cadet of the house, therefore he often gave him his Christian name)—“I knew what Mr. Edward would do, and I was certain he would not wait long neither; and he’s done right, for aught I know. I wish you joy, miss!” and he politely pulled his fore-lock.

  “Thank you, John. Mr. Rochester told me to give you and Mary this.” I put into his hand a five-pound note. Without waiting to hear more, I left the kitchen. In passing the door of that sanctum some time after, I caught the words—

  “She’ll happen do better for him nor ony o’ t’ grand ladies.” And again, “If she ben’t one o’ th’ handsomest, she’s noan faâliq and varry good-natured; and i’ his een she’s fair beautiful, onybody may see that.”

  I wrote to Moor House and to Cambridge immediately, to say what I had done; fully explained also why I had thus acted. Diana and Mary approved the step unreservedly. Diana announced that she would just give me time to get over the honey-moon, and then she would come and see me.

  “She had better not wait till then, Jane,” said Mr. Rochester, when I read her letter to him; “if she does she will be too late, for our honey-moon will shine our life-long; its beams will only fade over your grave or mine.”

  How St. John received the news I don’t know; he never answered the letter in which I communicated it; yet six months after, he wrote to me, without, however, mentioning Mr. Rochester’s name or alluding to my marriage. His letter was then calm, and, though very serious, kind. He has maintained a regular, though not frequent, correspondence ever since; he hopes I am happy, and trusts I am not of those who live without God in the world, and only mind earthly things.122

  You have not quite forgotten little Adèle, have you, reader? I had not; I soon asked and obtained leave of Mr. Rochester to go and see her at the school where he had placed her. Her frantic joy at beholding me again moved me much. She looked pale and thin; she said she was not happy. I found the rules of the establishment were too strict, its course of study too severe, for a child of her age; I took her home with me. I meant to become her governess once more, but I soon found this impracticable; my time and cares were now required by another—my husband needed them all. So I sought out a school conducted on a more indulgent system; and near enough to permit of my visiting her often, and bringing her home sometimes. I took care she should never want for anything that could contribute to her comfort; she soon settled in her new abode, became very happy there, and made fair progress in her studies. As she grew up, a sound English education corrected in a great measure her French defects; and when she left school, I found in her a pleasing and obliging companion; docile, good-tempered, and well-principled. By her grateful attention to me and mine, she has long since well repaid any little kindness I ever had it in my power to offer her.

  My tale draws to its close: one word respecting my experience of married life, and one brief glance at the fortunes of those whose names have most frequently recurred in this narrative, and I have done.

  I have now been married ten years. I know what it is to live entirely for and with what I love best on earth. I hold myself supremely blessed—blessed beyond what language can express; because I am my husband’s life as fully as he is mine. No woman was ever nearer to her mate than I am; ever more absolutely bone of his bone, and flesh of his flesh.123 I know no weariness of my Edward’s society; he knows none of mine, any more than we each do of the pulsation of the heart that beats in our separate bosoms; consequently, we are ever together. To be together is for us to be at once as free as in solitude, as gay as in company. We talk, I believe, all day long; to talk to each other is but a more animated and an audible thinking. All my confidence is bestowed on him; all his confidence is devoted to me; we are precisely suited in character; perfect concord is the result.

  Mr. Rochester continued blind the first two years of our union; perhaps it was that circumstance that drew us so very near—that knit us so very close; for I was then his vision, as I am still his right hand. Literally, I was (what he often called me) the apple of his eye. He saw nature—he saw books through me; and never did I weary of gazing for his behalf, and of putting into words the effect of field, tree, town, river, cloud, sunbeam—of the landscape before us; of the weather around us—and impressing by sound on his ear what light could no longer stamp on his eye. Never did I weary of reading to him; never did I weary conducting him where he wished to go; of doing for him what he wished to be done. And there was a pleasure in my services, most full, most exquisite, even though sad—because he claimed these services without painful shame or damping humiliation. He loved me so truly, that he knew no reluctance in profiting by my attendance; he felt I loved him so fondly, that to yield that attendance was to indulge my sweetest wishes.

  One morning, at the end of the two years, as I was writing a letter to his dictation, he came and bent over me, and said, “Jane, have you a glittering ornament round your neck?”

  I had a gold watch-chain; I answered, “Yes.”

  “And have you a pale blue dress on?”

  I had. He informed me then, that for some time he had fancied the obscurity clouding one eye was becoming less dense; and that now he was sure of it.

  He and I went up to London. He had the advice of an eminent oculist, and he eventually recovered the sight of that one eye. He cannot see very distinctly; he cannot read or write much; but he can find his way without being led by the hand; the sky is no longer a blank to him—the earth no longer a void. When his first-born was put into his arms, he could see that the boy had inherited his own eyes, as they once were-large, brilliant, and black. On that occasion, he again, with a full heart, acknowledged that God had tempered judgment with mercy.

  My Edward and I, then, are happy; and the more so, because those we most love are happy likewise. Diana and Mary Rivers are both married. Alternately, once every year, they come to see us, and we go to see them. Diana’s husband is a captain in the navy, a gallant officer and a good man. Mary’s is a clergyman, a college friend of her brother‘s, and, from his attainments and principles, worthy of the connection. Both Captain Fitzjames and Mr. Wharton love their wives, and are loved by them.

  As to St. John Rivers, he left England; he went to India. He entered on the path he had marked for himself; he pursues it still. A more resolute, indefatigable pioneer never wrought amid rocks and dangers. Firm, faithful, and devoted, full of energy, and zeal, and truth, he labors for his race; he clears their painful way to improvement; he hews down like a giant the prejudices of creed and caste that encumber it. He may be stern; he may be exacting; he may be ambitious yet; but his is the sternness of the warrior Great-heart, who guards his pilgrim-convoy from the onslaught of Apollyon.124 His is the exaction of the Apostle, who speaks but for Christ, when he says—“Whosoever will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross and follow me.”125 His is the ambition of the high master-spirit, which aims to fill a place in the first rank of those who are redeemed from the earth—who stand without fault before the throne of God;126 who share the last mighty victories of the Lamb; who are called, and chosen, and faithful.

  St. John is unmarried; he never will marry now. Himself has hitherto sufficed to the toil, and the toil draws near its close; his glorious sun hastens to its setting. The l
ast letter I received from him drew from my eyes human tears, and yet filled my heart with divine joy. He anticipated his sure reward, his incorruptible crown.127 I know that a stranger’s hand will write to me next, to say that the good and faithful servant has been called, at length, into the joy of his Lord.128 And why weep for this? No fear of death will darken St. John’s last hour. His mind will be unclouded; his heart will be undaunted; his hope will be sure; his faith steadfast. His own words are a pledge of this:

  “My Master,” he says, “has forewarned me. Daily he announces more distinctly—‘Surely I come quickly’; and hourly I more eagerly respond—‘Amen; even so come, Lord Jesus!’ ”129

  Endnotes

  References to the Bible are to the New King James Version, except where noted otherwise.

  PREFACE

  1 (p. 6) Ahab did not like Micaiah: Ahab, king of Israel, did not believe Micaiah, son of Imlah, when Micaiah foretold that Ahab’s armies faced disaster if they were to invade Ramoth Gilead; he imprisoned Micaiah and instead followed the false prophecy of Zedekiah that he would triumph. See the Bible, 2 Chronicles 18.

  2 (p. 6) Vanity Fair: The reference is to Vanity Fair, a Novel without a Hero (serialized 1847-1848), by William Makepeace Thackeray.

  3 (p. 7) Fielding: Henry Fielding (1707-1754), novelist and satirist best known for Tom Jones (1749).

  CHAPTER I

  4 (p. 12) Bewick’s History of British Birds: The reference is to A History of British Birds, Vol. 2, Containing the History and Description of Water Birds (1804), by Thomas Bewick.

  5 (p. 12) “Where the Northern Ocean”: Bewick’s quotation is from The Seasons (“Autumn,” lines 862-865), by James Thomson (1700- 1748).

  6 (p. 13) Pamela ... Moreland: The references are to Pamela; or, Virtue Rewarded (1740), by Samuel Richardson (1689-1761), and The History of Henry, Earl of Moreland (1781), by John Wesley (1703- 1791); the latter is an abridgment of The Fool of Quality (1765- 1770), by Henry Brooke (1703-1783).