Dark Roses: Eight Paranormal Romance Novels

by P. T. Michelle

  Sliding his hand down my jaw and along my neck, Ethan’s fingers trembled slightly, his touch warming my skin. “You lost your dreams after my locker was moved next to yours. The day I touched you.”

  “I remember. You put your hand on mine to stop my locker door from hitting me,” I whispered.

  Lifting my chin, he bent close enough to kiss me. I resisted the urge to swipe my tongue across my lips to moisten them, but I couldn’t help but inhale his appealing smell as I gripped his army jacket, my fingers crushing the canvas material. My arms ached to wrap around him and pull him close, but I was afraid he’d pull back. I didn’t dare blink or move or breathe. I wanted this kiss, had fallen asleep many nights fantasizing, but no imaginings could hold a candle to the rich warmth and closeness of this unexpected reality.

  Ethan’s gaze lowered to my mouth. “If you ask me to stop touching you so your dreams will return, I will, Nara.” His hand flexed on my neck and tension ebbed through him. “But not touching you would be the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do.”

  Chapter Thirteen

  Ethan’s lips met mine in the barest of kisses, tentative, but full of intense promise. I pressed my lips to his, hoping to show him how much I wanted this. He unclasped my fingers from his jacket, then lowered my hands to his waist. When I leaned against him, his arm folded tight around me and a shudder rippled through him. I wanted to weep for his dark loneliness. I felt it reaching, yearning for light and affection. His fingers slid through my hair as his lips moved in a gentle, encouraging sweep against mine. Tenderness and elation radiated in his touch, making me gasp and dig my fingers into his jean loops.

  “Please, Nara,” he breathed against my mouth before pressing his lips against mine once more.

  The building layers of Ethan’s chaotic emotions washed over me in relentless waves, rushing against my cliff face of emotions until I crumbled and pushed back. I wasn’t sure what he was asking for, but I gave into my own need to hold him close. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I slid my hands under his shirt and ran my fingers along his warm skin. The close contact felt right. I’d been kissed before by boys during movies, behind the school, at dances and parties, but none of those hasty kisses came close to Ethan’s level of intimacy. This kiss went deeper, fueling our connection, feeding a need we’d both been missing. This journey was solid and real.

  His kiss made me tremble as a delicious melting unfurled inside me. I smiled against his mouth, enjoying the sensation.

  Warm hands framed my face and Ethan pressed closer, as if he needed to experience every part of me. I returned his deepening kiss with fervor, my body tingling and heart pounding out of control. Pushing my fingers into his thick hair, I reveled in the soft strands sliding against my skin and pulled him as close as I could. Now that I’d let down my defenses, I never wanted to let him go.

  A beeping sound echoed briefly somewhere in the house. Ethan tensed and rested his forehead against mine. “Dryer’s done.”

  I bit my lower lip, thrilled by the sound of our unsteady breathing in the quiet room. I had no idea that our physical connection would have such an amazing impact on us. It was like we were meant to meet, to be together. Now that I knew how much my dreams helped Ethan, I wasn’t as worried about why they were no longer my own. At least that explained my sporadic dreams. Each time Ethan and I had been away from each other for several days, my dreams returned. I just wish I knew why he’d never shown up in my dreams.

  Running my hands down his arms, I snagged our fingers together. I couldn’t imagine not touching him either. Losing my dreams was a small price to pay for this kind of happiness, for both of us. I’d miss knowing how each day would unfold—and yeah, I’ll admit to a twinge of jealousy and anxiety that he’d know what was coming when I didn’t—but whenever I was with Ethan, I felt special and now needed in his life. Just like he was in mine. That was more powerful and immediate, overshadowing everything else.

  My phone started ringing, Alone Again. Frustrated, I resisted the urge to shut it off and instead pulled my cell from my jean pocket. “Hey, Mom.”

  “I just wanted to let you know I’ll be home in a half hour. I’m going to pick up dinner. What would you like tonight?”

  “How about Thai?”

  “Sounds good. Your usual?”

  “Yep, see you in a little while. Oh, and Mom?”

  “Hmmm?”

  “Thanks for the note.” Ethan ran his hand down my hair, his fingers curling around the ends. I caught his admiring gaze and my heart bloomed in my chest.

  Mom cleared her throat. “I wasn’t sure if you’d find it, since you’re used to me texting. See you soon.”

  I hung up and grimaced. “Looks like I have less time than I thought. I’d hoped Mom would work late tonight. But before I head home, we should probably check out CVU’s library database.”

  Ethan pulled me close and brushed his lips across mine. “Are you sure you want to do that with the little time we have left?”

  “I—”

  He kissed me again and my brain shut down. I leaned against his solid frame and pressed my lips against his with a mewl of happiness, and then the dryer beeped its reminder.

  We both frowned and Ethan expelled a sigh. “Might as well get the research over with. I’ve bookmarked the page on Wars. There are a ton of books.” Turning, he headed toward the hallway and waved for me to follow.

  The moment I walked into Ethan’s bedroom upstairs, I greedily surveyed the space, wanting to know everything about him. Oblivious to my ogling, Ethan sat down in a swivel rolling chair in front of a wood desk. While he opened his laptop, I checked out his room.

  A huge soccer ball rug took up the center of the room, and the full-sized bed, with a natural wood headboard and footboard, sat against the opposite wall. Typical guy, I thought with a small smile as my gaze snagged on the bed’s rumpled cream sheets and navy down comforter. A light brown fleece throw had fallen to the floor from the end of the bed. Lifting the throw, I’d intended to put it back on the bed, when a notebook fell out of the folds.

  After I folded the cover and set it on the bed, I picked up the opened notebook and closed it without looking at the monstrous images.

  When I glanced up, Ethan was watching me intently. “You should look at them,” he said quietly before he returned to his computer and began to log in.

  I stared at the spiral notebook in my hand, felt the images’ weight, the mass conglomeration of other people’s problems in graphic form, tingling my palm. Taking a deep breath, I opened the notepad. “Are these your most recent drawings?”

  “If you look in the upper right corner of the page, you’ll see a date.”

  I flipped to the latest images in the notebook, looking for the night I’d worn the crystal. I had to know if what I’d seen that night was straight from Ethan’s nightmares.

  My stomach roiled as I scanned through the familiar images: One page featured a leathery caveman-like creature with long canines, black piercing eyes and claws dripping with blood as he leaned across a gutted deer, holding a knife out to someone. Yet another showed a giant man with blackened teeth and a scarred, misshapen face beating a much smaller, younger version of himself with his oversized meaty hands. Another page with nothing but words and phrases; the bolder ones drew my eyes: She’s gone and it’s all your fault. You’re a waste of human space. You killed your mother, not the cancer. Then finally, a page featuring the wild-eyed Minotaur snorting through his curled black snout, a slimy brown blob with thick arms and razor sharp teeth, and the mash-faced Pit Bull.

  Every one of Ethan’s drawings were of the same experiences I’d had. I turned the page, expecting it to be blank since that’s all I’d seen in my dreams. Instead, I saw a beautiful drawing of me sitting in my mom’s car, smiling. The sketch of Mom and me was just the soothing balm I needed to banish the horrific images from my mind. Now I understood.

  Closing the notebook, I walked over to his side. “That was a great trip with my mom,�
�� I said as I set the notebook on the desk. “You captured my feelings well.”

  “I could tell you were happy.”

  Running my finger down the spiral ring, I wondered how Ethan kept it together. I was nearly out of my mind when I woke up Saturday morning after an entire night of those awful nightmares. “The other night when I wore the crystal necklace, I had the most terrifying nightmares.”

  Ethan glanced my way. “I remember when you woke up you ran to the bathroom to throw up. They were that bad, huh—” He paused and then stared at my hand on the notebook. “Your nightmares…were they anything like my drawings?”

  I dug my fingertip deep between the metal spiral. “They were your drawings.”

  He gripped my hand, pulling it away from the notebook. “I’m sorry, Nara. I only saw that you were upset by your dreams. I didn’t know you’d seen my dreams, but I guess now you understand.”

  Nodding, I brushed his bangs out of his eyes and trailed my fingertips down his cheek. “How do you dream about such gruesome creatures, experience all those dark emotions and wake up unaffected by it? How do you not carry that around with you?”

  Ethan clasped my hand and slid his fingers between mine. “I didn’t handle it in the past the way I do today. Even now, sometimes I feel very old.”

  “What happened in the past?” I hoped he’d tell me. Ethan lowered his gaze and shook his head. I knew there was more, but whatever it was, he wasn’t going to talk about it.

  “With Samson’s support.” He lifted his eyes and I saw a painful memory slowly fading. “Believing in me, even when he didn’t truly understand what I was going through every night—it helped me keep my mind open to possibilities.” Rubbing his forearm, he continued, “Over time, I found ways to help myself.”

  Tugging on my hand, Ethan quickly wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me onto his lap. “Enough about me. I have a question for you.”

  “Shoot.”

  He shook his head, bemused. “Why Latin? I’ve watched you translate stories and fables, articles, even the Catholic Mass you’d printed from the web, but I couldn’t figure out the connection any of them have or why you’re so fascinated.”

  I shrugged. “I’m just weird like that.”

  Ethan eyed me.

  “Okay, fine. I chose Latin because even if I dream myself translating it, it won’t be so easy for me to remember all the details, since Latin’s not an easy language. In other words, I’ll have to do some work, which means I get to enjoy the process of translating all over again.”

  Sympathy reflected in his gaze. “I enjoyed watching you so much, I hadn’t thought about what it must be like for you to experience every single detail twice.”

  “Déjà vu and me…” I crossed my fingers. “We’re like this,” I said, hoping to lighten the mood.

  Snorting, Ethan turned me around toward the computer and leaned his cheek against my shoulder. “You’re running out of time, Sunshine. Let’s go through this list and see if there are some books that might work for our project.”

  Sunshine? Well, he’d said I was his ‘ray of light’. I smiled and started scrolling through the list. After cross-referencing books on Wars with books on Superstitions, we finally agreed on a dozen titles.

  “I’ll drive you home,” Ethan said as we stood in his foyer twenty minutes later.

  I slipped into my cotton jacket he held out for me. It was still warm from the dryer. “You don’t have to drive me. I can walk— “

  “You’re not walking back by yourself.” Ethan gripped my jacket and yanked me onto my toes for a long, bone-melting kiss.

  Lifting his head, he lowered my feet back to the floor and searched my face, looking for…what…I wasn’t certain. But now I understood the jumble of emotions I’d seen flickering through his eyes.

  The low bass in his voice and the protective way he clenched my jacket, made me tingle in new places. I curled my fingers around his fist, totally attracted to his primal intensity. I didn’t think he saw it in himself, but Ethan exuded an amazing self-awareness and confidence that drew me in. I was the lead filings to his magnetic inner strength.

  I didn’t know how I would’ve handled things if he hadn’t been there to pick me up and force me to keep moving forward once I’d first lost my dreams. I could’ve spiraled down so fast. It was still a little scary walking around blind, but knowing Ethan had my back made all the difference.

  ***

  When I got to school the next day, I waited by Ethan’s locker. I was in the best mood. Mom and I had a great dinner last night, where we actually had a semi-normal conversation, and then I’d laid in bed thinking about Ethan. More Ethan. And even more Ethan. I loved that he wasn’t the same as everyone else—that he wasn’t totally normal. I’d never been happier to see his dark head weaving through the crowd as he walked down the hall. The deep blue fleece he had on brought out the blue in his eyes. All I wanted to do was wrap my arms around him and inhale his wonderful smell, but I held myself in check while he stowed his books and pulled out another set.

  “How will today be?” I asked, excited by the intimacy of our shared secrets.

  Ethan glanced toward the front of the school where morning light seeped through the windows. “Mostly sunny with a cloud here and there.”

  “I’m surrounded by comedians,” I said in a dry tone. “What I meant was…is there anything I need to be concerned about?”

  Sweeping his finger leisurely around the curve of my ear, he tucked a strand of hair behind it. “You’ll just have to find out for yourself.”

  I pulled my books to my chest and lowered my voice, “Are you telling me you’re not going to give me a heads-up on stuff?”

  Dropping his hand, he leaned his shoulder against the locker. “Why would I do that? You can handle anything thrown your way.”

  He was dead serious. He wasn’t going to tell me anything. “Why won’t you tell me about my dreams?”

  The corner of Ethan’s mouth turned down and he slowly shook his head. “You’re better off without them. You know I’m right.”

  My face grew hot and I curled my fingers tight around my books. “Who gave you the right to keep them from me?”

  Ethan brushed his knuckles down my cheek. “You did.”

  His tender touch reminded me of our conversation yesterday. By allowing Ethan to touch me, I knew I’d continue to lose my dreams to him, but I didn’t expect him not to share anything with me. That was so unfair. “Well, that’s not what I intended. I wasn’t expecting this.”

  A hurt look flashed across his face. “Any of it, Nara?”

  He reached out to me again and I took a step back, pressing my lips together. I felt like he’d misled me by omission. Not to mention, playing on my emotions by making me want him to touch me. It was the perfect way to keep me in the dark. Literally.

  The activity in the hall elevated around us as everyone poured in, jostling to their lockers.

  Ethan’s expression shut down. “It’s not just because I know you can handle it, Nara. You can’t not react to your dreams. Because you know what’s ahead, you adapt, you avoid, you ‘work around’ and sometimes…you change things.”

  A prickly feeling started on the back of my neck, an inkling of something I didn’t want to consider. “What are you saying?”

  “You get involved in other people’s lives. That’s dangerous. I don’t think you should interfere.”

  Don’t interfere.

  The words from my radio echoed in my head. Over and over. A shiver passed through me and I stilled.

  “Do you understand what I’m staying?” he asked.

  Could Ethan have been the one warning me all those times? He’d never said he had other powers, but he hadn’t told me everything about his past last night, and he definitely didn’t want me to use my powers for other people. My mind spun. He’d also called me on my cell right before I was going to help Jody. He’d been in a chatty mood, too. Why that day? Why then?

  “
I—I’ve got class.” Doubt and the timing of Ethan’s appearance in my life pushed my foot back another step. As I bumped into a guy passing by, a sick feeling slowly spread through my stomach.

  “Nara, what’s wrong—” Frowning, Ethan reached for me, but I pulled back.

  “I’ve gotta go,” I said and took off down the hall.

  The bell rang as I stumbled into the bathroom. I barely made it into the stall before I lost my breakfast. As another round of nausea roared through me, and I leaned over the toilet, puking my guts up, my whole body began to shake. Had Ethan gotten close to me for another reason? Did he take my dreams on purpose to make sure I didn’t use my powers to help others? If I didn’t know the future, then I couldn’t get involved, could I? Is that why he never starred in my dreams, because he was here to stop me? Aunt Sage had said he was an “old soul” and his “power was off the charts”. What did that mean? Question after question ricocheted through my mind. Questions I didn’t have the answers to.

  I squeezed my eyes shut and hot tears slid down my cheeks as I leaned against the metal stall. If any of that was true, I should fear Ethan, but fear wasn’t what made me tremble all over. It was deep sadness and regret. He’d burrowed into my heart, knew me better than anyone. My entire world felt as if it was collapsing into a dark black hole.

  The rest of the day I stayed away from my locker and took different halls than I usually would’ve to avoid running into Ethan. When I came out of the library after study hall, he was waiting for me.

  “Talk to me,” he said, falling into step beside me. He looked upset, but I wasn’t buying it.

  “Don’t try to stop me anymore.” I glanced away. “I’m not scared of you.”

  “Scared of me—what?”

  I sped up my pace, my heart pounding. “Just don’t.”

  “Nara,” he called after me as I practically ran down the hall, tears burning in my eyes.

  I was both relieved and sad when I didn’t see Ethan at the end of the day. As I spun my locker combination, a part of me hoped he’d show up even though I’d blown him off earlier. I sighed and opened my locker. A piece of folded paper sat on top of my books. Someone must’ve slipped it through one of the slots at the top of my locker door. Tension knotted my shoulders as I unfolded the note.