White Trash Damaged

by Teresa Mummert

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  Author: Teresa Mummert

  “Absolutely,” I yelled over the music as I held out my cup. A hand slinked up the back of my dress and caused me to jump, and the brown liquid poured over my hands. “What the hell?”

  “Jesus, Cass, I’m sorry!” Sarah apologized for the mess, oblivious to why I was upset. I spun around and was face-to-chest with a man covered in tattoos and with a bull ring dangling from his nose.

  “What the hell is wrong with you, asshole?” I yelled, gathering the attention of a few bystanders.

  “Since when do groupies get upset when someone wants some ass? You don’t have to be a fucking bitch. ” He laughed, sticking out his pierced tongue between his teeth.

  “I’m not a groupie, you fucking pervert!” I pulled back my fist, fully intending to hit him right on that stupid target dangling from his face when Sarah shoved me aside and cracked him across his cheek. The sound of her slap was so loud that even the tattooed freak looked to me in stunned silence as he tried to figure out what the hell had just happened.

  “Who’s the bitch now?” Sarah was laughing like a maniac as she continued to taunt the guy. Tucker and the rest of the band had shoved anyone who was in their way aside and now were standing behind the ass-grabber looking positively livid. Great.

  “It’s fine. It’s over,” I yelled, holding out my hands to keep them back, but the guy had a death wish and turned around to face them, wiping his lip that had split against his teeth.

  “Did he touch you?” Tucker looked around the man to me, not the least bit fazed by the way the guy was staring him down.

  “Tucker . . . ”

  “Answer the question. ” He wasn’t in the mood, and I certainly didn’t want to be on the receiving end of his bad attitude, but I also wasn’t going to let him get thrown in jail over this douche bag.

  “It was a misunderstanding, and it’s over. ” I looked to Sarah who nodded in agreement.

  “See, just a misunderstanding,” the guy chuckled. “Turns out she fucking liked it. ”

  As the words left his mouth so did a spray of blood, followed by what looked like a tooth, but I couldn’t be sure it wasn’t the barbell from his tongue. Terry was on top of him the second he hit him, grabbing his shirt and yanking him toward the back door. A security guard pushed his way through the crowd of onlookers and grabbed the guy by the arm, yanking him away from Terry. Another joined him and together they hauled the jerk out of the back entrance. I didn’t know what they did with him from there, but I was sure I wouldn’t lose any sleep over it.

  “Is this going to happen after every concert?”

  Sarah laughed and shook her head, and we both looked at the band.

  “I guess that means the party is over. ” Tucker ran his hand over his hair the way he always does when something is on his mind.

  “We can hang out a little longer if you want. ” I shrugged, and Tucker gave me one of his heart-stopping smiles.

  “Yeah? You haven’t had enough of this yet?”

  “That’s what she said!” I yelled with a laugh and Sarah snorted.

  “No, Cass. Just no. ” Eric put up his hand with a dead-serious look as he shook his head in mock disappointment.

  “Whatever. That was a good one. ” The other guys laughed at me as they refilled their cups. I held mine out for a few more shots, my body already warming as the liquor spread throughout my veins.

  Tucker wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder.

  “I love this dress on you, but maybe it isn’t such a good idea to have you walking around like that at the after-parties. ”

  “I can take care of myself, Tucker. ” I rolled my eyes, knowing I was sounding like a broken record. He was only concerned for my safety, but he didn’t need to be. I needed to learn how to be independent, fierce, like Sarah. He wouldn’t always be able to stand up for me.

  “I know you can take care of yourself. ” He turned me around in his arms. “But I don’t want you to ever get hurt again. That motherfucker got off easy. I should have beaten his ass. ” His fingers slid along my jaw and over my lips. His gaze dipped to my mouth. I could feel the anger rolling off him in waves, but he tried to conceal it.

  “Fine. ” I leaned in close to whisper in his ear. “You can take it off of me later. ” I pulled back just enough to see his expression. His eyes darkened and his eyes hooded and the muscle in his jaw ticked under the surface.

  “You sure you’re not ready to go back to the bus?” His mouth hovered over mine so I was breathing his air.

  “Soon. I promise. ” I gave him a quick peck on the lips and took a step back.

  Tucker emptied his cup and poured more alcohol inside. A song that I recognized came on the radio and my liquid courage had kicked in. I began to sway my hips and nod my head to the beat as Sarah grabbed my arm, nearly throwing me off balance.

  “Let’s dance!” she yelled a little too loudly in my ear. I winced in pain.

  “I’m not much of a dancer. ”

  “Come on. I want to show Eric what he is missing,” she whispered as she looked around me to Eric who was chatting up a groupie. “And who cares what anyone here thinks? Enjoy life. No one gets out alive. ”

  “Fine. But don’t have high expectations. I don’t think I could walk straight, let alone keep rhythm. ”

  “Are you kidding me? Look how some of these nutbags are wiggling around out there. I’m not sure if they are dancing or if we should call an ambulance. ” I let her tug me along as she made fun of the crazy outfits and questionable piercing choices of the other partiers. I was laughing so hard I was nearly in tears as she stopped, causing me to run into her back.

  “Maybe you are a little too drunk for this. ” She turned around, looking at me like I had sprouted a horn.

  “That’s it. I’m going to have to break it down. ” I narrowed my eyes as I rotated my hips. Sarah laughed so hard no sound came out of her mouth.

  “See how much fun you can have when you let your hair down? This is what it’s all about. Screw what anyone else thinks or does. Make yourself happy. Live in the moment. ”

  I stopped moving, absorbing all of the things she was telling me as alcohol fogged my brain.

  “Ughh . . . dance!” Her fingers wrapped around my hips and she pulled me closer, guiding my body with her hands. I threw my hands above my head and yelled as I tossed my head to the side, curls falling over my face. I’d never let loose like this before, and I couldn’t believe how good it felt to feel so free.

  “This is so much fun!”

  “See! I told you. ” She grabbed my hand and twirled me around playfully. My eyes caught Tucker’s, and he still looked like he was dwelling on the asshole who had grabbed my ass. He also looked like he had drunk a few shots too many.

  Sarah pressed her lips together in a thin line and cocked her head to the side when she saw my look of concern.

  “He’s fine. The guys party like this all of the time. Stop worrying so damn much. ”

  I turned my back to her, pressing my bottom into her as we shimmied together. Tucker leaned back against the drink table, taking small sips of his drink, his eyes locked onto mine. Derek made his way through the crowd, bobbing his head to the music.

  “You always knew how to move, Sarah. ” He shook his hair from his face. Sarah’s body slowed behind me, and I heard her suck in a deep breath. “Can I cut in?”

  I glanced over his shoulder to Tucker who slammed his cup down on the table and stood. The last time I had seen that look on his face, he was face-to-face with Jax.

  “I’m gonna grab a drink. ” I glanced over my shoulder, looking for confirmation from Sarah that she was okay. She nodded slightly, and I slipped by Derek and made my way to Tucker.

  “What was that about?” he asked before I could reach him.

  “He wanted to dance with Sarah,” I replied, irritated at what seemed
like jealousy. Her name got the attention of Eric who spun to look at me before his eyes searched the dance floor. My stomach churned as he located her with her ex.

  “I’m sorry, E. ” I let my shoulders sag as I gave him an apologetic glance.

  “Why are you sorry?” He shrugged and drank the contents of his cup before crushing it in his fist. “She ain’t shit to me. ” He flung the cup on the ground and slipped through the crowd of bodies.

  “That really sucks. ” I turned my attention back to Tucker who didn’t seem to register any of the conversation with Eric. “What is up with you?”

  He took a deep breath as his eyes went unfocused.

  “I feel like I can’t protect you with this lifestyle. Every guy I see near you I think is another Jax. This shit was a mistake. ” He shook his head as he looked down at his sneakers. I knew he was just drunk and was overreacting, but so was I, and his words sliced through me. My chest felt like it had tightened, and I couldn’t breathe.

  “A mistake?” I could barely choke out the words. I couldn’t believe he regretted being here with me. I pushed by him and rounded the table, needing to escape before my tears that threatened to fall spilled over. Everything had gone from great to shit in seconds. It didn’t dawn on me until I reached the darkened parking lot—illuminated by a few sporadic street-lights—that I didn’t have a place to call my own. Where was I even running to? I sighed heavily as I kicked at the loose gravel. It was time to be a grown-up and face my problems. I owed it to Tucker to hash this out and not just disappear.

  “Hey,” Tucker called from behind me. I spun around to face him as the door to the back entrance slammed closed. He shoved his hands into jean pockets as he slowly walked toward me. “I know you’re pissed off at me for wanting to take care of you. ”

  “What? You think that’s why I’m mad? Tucker, you said this was a mistake. You called us a mistake. ” My voice wavered as a tear rolled down over my cheek.

  “Jesus, Cass. I didn’t mean us. ” He closed the space between us with two large strides, wrapping one arm behind my back and gripping the back of my head with his other hand. I squeezed my eyes closed, breathing in a deep lung full of his scent. “I could never regret this. You are everything to me. ”

  “Then why did you say it?” I asked, looking up to him as I searched for the truth in his eyes.

  “I meant coming on this tour. I should have just quit the fucking band like I had planned. ” His grip tightened around me.

  “What do you mean you planned to leave the band?”

  “I told the guys before I left to find you that if you didn’t want to leave, I was going to stay with you. Even if you didn’t want me. I was going to wait for you. ”

  “Tucker. This band is your life. ”

  “Not anymore. ” His mouth pressed against mine softly, and all of my anger and sadness evaporated with his touch. “I love you, Cass. ”

  “I love you, too, Tucker. ”

  “That’s all I need, sweetheart. ”

  “I think we should lay off on the drinking for the rest of the night,” I joked, and he wrapped his arm over my shoulders and guided me toward the bus.

  “I think you should have suggested that a half an hour ago. ” He laughed as he stumbled over his own feet. I placed my hand on his stomach to keep him steady.

  As we approached the bus we heard a loud bang and what sounded like a growl. Our eyes met as we both looked at each other with confusion.

  “What was that?” My feet froze to the ground.

  “Wait here. I’ll check it out. ” He waited for me to nod that I understood and wouldn’t move. I bounced on my feet nervously as he walked away.

  “Tucker!” I whispered loudly from behind him. He turned to look at me, his eyebrows pulled together. “Shouldn’t we just get one of the guards or something?”