Teardrop (Teardrop Trilogy 1)

by Lauren Kate

“Good. Now, if you don’t mind, I’ll explain the purpose of this early sea voyage,” Margaret said. “The ancient Egyptians established a trade route, perhaps the first one …”

  Eureka didn’t hear the rest. She heard her heart, which thundered. She waited for the other students to give up hope of another outburst, to swivel their heads back to the docent; then she edged around the group toward Ander.

  His lips were closed, and it was hard to imagine them uttering the obnoxious comments that had drawn her over here. He gave her a slight smile, the last thing she expected. Standing close to him again gave Eureka the feeling of being by the ocean—independent of the starfish border, the sailor-crows, and the Ocean Breeze CD sloshing from the speakers. The ocean was in Ander, his aura. She’d never thought to use a word like “aura” before. He made uncharacteristic impulses feel as natural to her as breathing.

  She stood on his left side, both of them facing the docent, and whispered from the corner of her mouth. “You don’t go to Ascension.”

  “The docent thinks I go to Condescension.” She heard the smile in his voice.

  “You’re not on the Manor track team, either.”

  “Can’t get anything past you.”

  Eureka’s voice wanted to rise. His composure made her angry. Where they stood, a few steps back from the group and just past the edge of the spotlight, the light was dim, but anyone who turned around could see them. The teachers and kids would hear if she didn’t keep her whisper steady and low.

  It seemed strange that more people weren’t staring at Ander. He was so different. He stood out. But they barely noticed him. Apparently everyone assumed Ander went to the school they didn’t, so his behavior wasn’t interesting. His heckling was a forgotten artifact Margaret was delighted to leave unrecovered.

  “I know you don’t go to Evangeline,” Eureka said through her teeth.

  “For neither education nor entertainment.”

  “So what are you doing here?”

  Ander turned and faced her. “I’m looking for you.”

  Eureka blinked. “You have a very disruptive way of going about it.”

  Ander scratched his forehead. “I get carried away.” He sounded regretful, but she couldn’t be sure. “Can we go somewhere and talk?”

  “Not exactly.” She gestured toward the tour group. She and Ander were standing five feet behind the other students. They couldn’t leave.

  What did he want from her? First the car wreck, then showing up at her house, then following her to the lawyer’s office, and now this? Every time she’d encountered him, it was an invasion of privacy, a crossing of some boundary.

  “Please,” he said. “I need to talk to you.”

  “Yeah, well, I needed to talk to you, too, back when my dad got the quote for my car repair. Remember that? Except when I called the number you gallantly gave me, someone who’d never heard of you picked up—”

  “Let me explain. You’re going to want to know the things I have to tell you.”

  She tugged on her collar, which was too tight around her neck. Margaret was saying something about a drowned princess’s dowry. The mass of students began to shift toward some glass cases on the right side of the room.

  Ander reached for her hand. His firm touch and soft skin made her shiver. “I’m serious. Your life is—”

  She jerked her hand away. “I say one word to any teacher in here and you’re handcuffed like a stalker.”

  “Will they use the bronze handcuffs?” he joked.

  She looked daggers at him. Ander sighed.

  The rest of the tour moved toward a display case. Eureka had no urge to join them. She both yearned and was afraid to stay with Ander. He put both hands on her shoulders.

  “Getting rid of me would be a huge mistake.” He pointed over his head to a glowing exit sign half covered by blue gauze so that it read only IT. He held out his hand. “Let’s go.”

  17

  SKIMMING A SURFACE

  Through the door beneath the exit sign, down a short, dark hallway, Ander led Eureka toward another door. They didn’t speak. Their bodies were close together. It was easier than she’d expected to hold on to Ander’s hand—it fit hers. Some hands just fit other hands. It made her think of her mother.

  When Ander reached for the handle of the second door, Eureka stopped him.

  She pointed at a red band across the door. “You’ll set off the alarm.”

  “How do you think I got in?” Ander released the door. No alarm sounded. “No one’s going to catch us.”

  “You’re pretty sure of yourself.”

  Ander’s jaw tensed. “You don’t know me very well.”

  The door opened to a lawn Eureka had never seen before. It faced a circular pond. Across the pond sat the planetarium, a ring of tinted glass windows just below its dome. The air was gray, windless, a little cold. It smelled like firewood. Eureka stopped at the edge of a short concrete ledge just past the exit. She dragged the toe of her oxford through the grass.

  “You wanted to talk?” she said.

  Ander glanced at the moss-slicked pond framed by live oaks. The branches curled down like gnarled witches’ fingers reaching for the ground. Orange moss hung like spiders dangling from green webs. Like most of the standing water in this part of Louisiana, you could barely see the pond for all the flottants of trembling marsh, the moss and lily pads and purple-blossomed water shield carpeting its surface. She knew precisely the way it would smell down there—rich, fetid, dying.

  Ander walked toward the water. He didn’t motion for her to follow, but she did. When he reached the edge of the pond, he stopped.

  “What are these doing here?” He crouched before a patch of creamy white jonquils at the edge of the water. The flowers made Eureka think of the pale gold variety that slipped up under the mailbox of her old house in New Iberia every year around her birthday.

  “Jonquils are common here,” she said, though it was late in the year for their trumpetlike blossoms to look so sturdy and fresh.

  “Not jonquils,” Ander said. “Narcissus.”

  He ran his fingers along one flower’s thin stem. He plucked it from the earth and rose to his feet so that the flower was at Eureka’s eye level. She noticed the butter-yellow trumpet at its center. The difference from the cream-colored outer petals was so slight you had to look closely to see it. Inside the trumpet, a black-tipped stamen shivered in a sudden breeze. Ander held the flower out, as if he were going to give it to Eureka. She lifted her hand to receive it, remembering another jonquil—another narcissus—she’d seen recently: in the woodcut image of the weeping woman from Diana’s book. She thought of a line in the passage Madame Blavatsky had translated, about Selene finding the prince kneeling near the river in a patch of narcissus flowers.

  Instead of handing her the flower, Ander crushed the petals inside a tight, shaking fist. He yanked the stem free and flung it to the ground. “She did this.”

  Eureka took a step back. “Who?”

  He looked at her, as if he’d forgotten she was there. The tension in his jaw relaxed. His shoulders rose and sank with resigned melancholy. “No one. Let’s sit down.”

  She pointed to a nearby bench between two oak trees, probably where the museum staff came for lunch on days when it wasn’t too humid. Brown nesting pelicans wandered the path leading to the pond. Their feathers were slick with mossy water. Their long necks curved like the handles of umbrellas. They scattered when Eureka and Ander approached.

  Who was Ander talking about? What was wrong with flowers lining a pond?

  As Ander walked past the bench, Eureka asked, “Didn’t you want to sit?”

  “There’s a better spot.”

  He pointed at a tree she hadn’t noticed before. Live oak trees in Louisiana had famously twisted limbs. The tree in front of St. John’s was the most photographed tree in the South. This live oak tree in the deserted museum garden was exceptional. It was a massive knot with branches so warped they looked like the
world’s most complicated jungle gym.

  Ander crawled through a web of wide, crooked branches—straddling one, ducking under another, until he seemed to disappear. Eureka realized that beneath the tangled canopy of branches was a second, secret bench. She had a partial view of Ander as he reached it agilely, sat down, and draped his elbows over the back.

  Eureka tried to follow his route. She started off okay, but after a few steps, she stalled. It was harder than it looked. Her hair tangled on the knob of a branch. Sharp twigs jabbed her arms. She pushed on, swatting moss from her face. She was less than a foot from the clearing when she reached an impasse. She couldn’t see how to go forward—or back.

  Sweat formed on her hairline. Find your way out of a foxhole, girl. Why was she even in this foxhole to begin with?

  “Here.” Ander reached through the tangled branches. “This way.”

  She took his hand for the second time in five minutes. His grip was firm and warm and still fit hers.

  “Step there.” He pointed at a pocket of mulchy ground between two curving branches. Her shoe sank into the dank, supple soil. “Then slide your body through here.”

  “Is this worth it?”

  “Yes.”

  Annoyed, Eureka craned her neck to the side. She swiveled her shoulders, then her hips, took two more careful steps, ducked under a low branch—and was free.

  She righted herself to stand inside the oak lagoon. Dark and secluded, it was the size of a small gazebo. It was surprisingly beautiful. A pair of dragonflies appeared between Eureka and Ander. Their slate-blue wings blurred; then the insects came to rest, iridescent, on the bench.

  “See?” Ander sat back down.

  Eureka stared at the branches forming a dense maze around them. She could barely see the pond on the other side. From underneath, the tree was magical, otherworldly. She wondered if anyone else knew about this spot, or if the bench had gone unnoticed for generations, ever since the tree tucked it away.

  Before she sat down, she looked for the quickest way out. It couldn’t be the way she’d come in.

  Ander pointed to a gap in the branches. “That might be the best exit.”

  “How’d you know I was—”

  “You seem nervous. Are you claustrophobic? Me, I like being cocooned, secluded.” He swallowed and his voice dropped. “Invisible.”

  “I like open spaces.” She barely knew Ander, and no one knew where she was.

  So why had she come here? Anyone would say it was stupid. Cat would punch her in the face for this. Eureka mentally retraced her steps. She didn’t know why she’d taken his hand.

  She did like looking at him. She liked the way his hand felt and his voice sounded. She liked the way he walked, by turns cautious and confident. Eureka wasn’t a girl who did things because a hot boy said to. But she was here.

  The place Ander had pointed out did look to be the largest gap in the branches. She imagined herself bounding through it, running for the woods beyond the pond, running all the way to Avery Island.

  Ander swiveled on the bench. His knee dragged against her thigh. He quickly jerked it away. “Sorry.”

  She glanced down at her thigh, his knee. “Good heavens,” she joked.

  “No, I’m sorry I snuck up on you here.”

  She wasn’t expecting that. Surprises confused her. Confusion had a track record of making her cruel. “Do you want to add the lawyer’s office parking lot? And your very subtle sneak-up at the stop sign?”

  “Those, too. You’re right. Let’s complete the list. The disconnected number. Not being on the track team.”

  “Where did you get that ridiculous uniform? That was maybe my favorite touch.” She wanted to stop being sarcastic. Ander seemed sincere. But she was nervous about being there and it was coming out in ugly ways.

  “Garage sale.” Ander leaned down and ran his fingers through the grass. “I have an explanation for everything, really.” He picked up a round, flat stone and wiped the dirt from its surface. “There’s something I need to tell you, but I keep chickening out.”

  Eureka watched his hands polish the stone. What could he possibly be afraid to tell her? Did he … did Ander like her? Could he see past her sarcasm, to the mosaic of the broken girl inside? Had he been thinking about her the way she’d been thinking about him?

  “Eureka, you’re in danger.”

  The way he said it, a reluctant rush of words, made Eureka pause. His eyes looked wild and worried. He believed what he’d just said.

  She drew her knees to her chest. “What do you mean?”

  In one smooth motion, Ander wound up and released the stone. It rocketed impressively through the gaps among the branches. Eureka watched the stone skip across the pond. It dodged lily pads, ferns, and slicks of green moss. Somehow, everywhere it skimmed the surface, the water was clear. It was startling. The stone skipped a hundred yards across the pond and landed on the muddy bank on the opposite side.

  “How did you do that?”

  “It’s your friend Brooks.”

  “He can’t skip a stone to save his life.” She knew that wasn’t what Ander meant.

  He leaned close. His breath tickled her neck. “He’s dangerous.”

  “What is the deal with guys?” She understood why Brooks had been wary of Ander. He was her oldest friend, looking out for her, and Ander was a bizarre stranger who’d suddenly appeared at her door. But there was no reason for Ander to be wary of Brooks. Everyone liked Brooks. “Brooks has been my friend since my first breath. I think I can handle him.”

  “Not anymore.”

  “So we had a fight the other day. We made up.” She paused. “Not that it’s any of your business.”

  “I know you think he’s your friend—”

  “I think it because it’s true.” Her voice sounded different under the canopy of branches. She sounded about as old as the twins.

  Ander reached down to select another stone. He picked a good one, brushed it off, and handed it to her. “You want to try?”

  She took the stone from his hand. She knew how to skip. Dad had taught her. He was good at it, far better than she was. Skipping stones was a way of passing time in the South, a means of marking time’s absence. To be good at it, you needed to practice, but you also needed to develop the skill to identify the good stones lying on the bank. You had to be strong to do it well, but you also needed grace, a lightness of touch. She’d never seen a fluke like the one Ander just skipped. It annoyed her. She flung the stone toward the water without bothering to aim.

  The stone didn’t make it past the nearest branch of the oak tree. It ricocheted off a limb and rolled on its side in an arc, stopping near her toe. Ander rose, picked up the stone. His fingers grazed her shoe.

  Again he made the stone dance across the pond, picking up speed, sailing absurd lengths between each skip. It landed beside the first stone on the other side of the pond.

  A thought occurred to Eureka. “Did Maya Cayce hire you to tell me to back off of Brooks?”

  “Who’s Maya Cayce?” Ander asked. “The name sounds familiar.”

  “Maybe I’ll introduce you. You could discuss stalking techniques—”

  “I’m not stalking you.” Ander cut her off, but his tone was unconvincing. “I’m observing you. There’s a difference.”

  “Did you just hear yourself?”

  “You need help, Eureka.”

  Her cheeks reddened. Despite what her mountain of past therapists suggested, Eureka hadn’t needed help from anyone since her parents divorced years ago. “Who do you think you are?”

  “Brooks has changed,” Ander said. “He’s not your friend anymore.”

  “And when did this metamorphosis occur, pray tell?”

  Ander’s eyes brimmed with emotion. He looked reluctant to say the words. “Last Saturday when you went to the beach.”

  Eureka opened her mouth but was speechless. This guy had been spying on her even more than she knew. Goose bumps rose on her arms. She watc
hed an alligator raise its flat green head in the water. She was used to gators, of course, but you never knew when even the laziest-looking one might snap.

  “Why do you think you got in a fight that evening? Why do you think he blew up after you kissed? Would the Brooks you know—would your best friend have done that?” Ander’s words came out in rushes, as if he knew if he paused she would shut him up.

  “That’s enough, creep.” Eureka stood up. She had to get out of here, somehow.

  “Why else wouldn’t Brooks apologize for days after your fight? What took him so long? Is that the way a friend behaves?”

  At the edge of the canopy of branches, Eureka balled her fists. It gave her a sleazy sensation to imagine what Ander would have had to do in order to know these things. She’d bar her windows, get a restraining order. She wished she could push him through these branches and into that alligator’s jaws.

  And yet.

  What had taken Brooks so long to apologize? Why was he still acting strange since they’d made up?

  She turned around, still wanting to feed Ander to the alligator. But seeing him now, her mind was at odds with her body. She couldn’t deny it. She wanted to run away—and run to him. She wanted to throw him to the ground—and fall on top of him. She wanted to call the police—and for Ander to know more things about her. She wanted never to see him again. If she never saw him again, he couldn’t hurt her, and her desire would disappear.

  “Eureka,” Ander said quietly. Reluctantly she turned her good ear toward him. “Brooks will hurt you. And he isn’t the only one.”

  “Oh yeah? Who else is in on this? His mother, Aileen?”

  Aileen was the sweetest woman in New Iberia—and the only woman Eureka knew whose sweetness wasn’t saccharine. She wore heels to do dishes but let her hair go naturally gray, which had happened early, raising two boys by herself.

  “No, Aileen’s not involved,” Ander said, as if incapable of recognizing sarcasm. “But she is worried about Brooks. Last night she searched his room for drugs.”

  Eureka rolled her eyes. “Brooks doesn’t do drugs and he and his mom have a great relationship. Why are you making this up?”