Dark Melodies (The Black Combe Doms Book 1)

by Ashe Barker

  Not without some lingering regrets at a fine opportunity passed up, he turned his back on Susanna’s little floorshow and strolled across the room toward an oak dressing table in an alcove, to retrieve his expensive gold watch and even more expensive platinum cufflinks.

  “But it’s not even nine o’clock yet. We’ve got hours.” In the dressing table mirror he caught her delicate little shake of those tantalizing breasts, calculated to emphasise the point and get his attention back. It worked, up to a point.

  Maybe vanilla has its attractions—I shouldn’t be too dismissive after all…

  “I could stay over if you like…”

  Her words brought him back to the reality of the situation.

  Pity fuck? No, best not.

  As he rolled down his shirtsleeves and re-threaded the cufflinks, he tried to let her down as gently as he could, but he needed to make sure there was no further misunderstanding.

  “No, Susanna, this isn’t working. I’m tired—it’s been a long day. I want to go home, and I think it’s best if you do too.” Turning back to face her, he tried a few soothing platitudes, tried to soften the blow. She was leaving, no doubt about that, but if he could he preferred to let her walk out of his apartment with her dignity intact. Not least, the last thing he wanted was a disgruntled ex-sub badmouthing him at The Manor House and in his other networks. His reputation as a good, satisfying Dom meant a lot to him, guaranteed him plenty of ready and willing partners. Unhappy, complaining submissives did nothing to enhance it.

  “You’re gorgeous and sexy and we’ve had a good time. A fantastic time. But—you’re obviously not cut out for what I have in mind.” Gesturing toward his specially designed sofa, the inbuilt restraints still dangling where he left them, he went on, “This isn’t really your thing, is it?”

  Susanna’s response was just a malevolent glare and stony silence. How did he not notice that malicious gleam in her beautiful blue gaze before? There was no missing it now. Despite his best efforts at conciliation, this was a woman scorned.

  Shit!

  Picking up her clothes from where they were scattered around the floor, he returned to the bed. She had arrived wearing a plain white blouse, tailored black wool knee-length skirt and, underneath, a delightful pillar-box red lace bra with matching tiny panties. She knew how he liked her to look, on the surface and below, but not how he needed her to perform, it would seem. With a rueful last glance at the sofa, the dangling straps a reminder of his thwarted evening’s entertainment, Nathan held the clothes out to her, tried for some final shred of reconciliation. “No hard feelings, Susanna. Do you want me to leave you alone so you can get dressed in peace?”

  “We had a deal…”

  “And it’s not worked out this time. Some deals just don’t. We’re not compatible—we want different things. So, I honestly think it’s best if we part company here. There are loads of guys out there who’d love to be with you. But I’m not looking for a girlfriend—if I was, you would be top of the list.” Well, in the top half, perhaps. Maybe. “It’s a submissive I’m looking for, and that’s not what you want. Not really. Is it? So, still friends?”

  More glaring, more angry silence. Nathan made one last attempt. “And now, it’s time to get dressed. Please.”

  Susanna’s beautiful face hardened. Realizing he meant it, that he was actually about to throw her out of his apartment, she started to protest in earnest.

  “I’ve done what you wanted, let you tie me up and knock me about a bit. Like you said you wanted. And what do you mean, ‘go home’? I thought this was your apartment. You live here.”

  “No, Susanna. It is my apartment, but I don’t live here. Not usually.”

  “So, what is this place, then? Your fuck pad?”

  On a good day.

  “I suppose you could call it that. But there’s not going to be any fucking here tonight. Time to go, Susanna.”

  Ignoring the blouse and skirt that Nathan had dropped onto the bed, she pulled on the underwear and stood before him, ready for a slanging match, all hands on hips and outraged frustration.

  Oh God, now she’s going to make a fuss.

  “I don’t mind it a bit rough, I told you that before. It adds to the excitement. But it’s you. You’re a kinky, sadistic bastard with your whips and canes, and this bloody room you’ve got kitted out like a torture chamber. You scare me, and you’re gonna kill someone before you’re done.”

  That’s it, game over. Tried nice, not working.

  Holding up one hand to interrupt the ‘hell hath no fury’ flow of invective, Nathan interrupted quietly. “If you’ve finished, I’ll wait for you outside.”

  Turning on his heel, he picked up his leather jacket from the back of a chair and headed out of the door, then closed it softly behind him. The crash behind him might well have been the Savlon tub hitting the door, but he would check and clear up later, once she was gone.

  Time to think about another visit to The Manor House. Maybe I should ask for references next time.

  Chapter One

  Don’t you just love Beethoven?

  Well, I do. I always have, since I was tiny. I’m just drifting along nicely to his Symphony Number 3 in E-flat major and contemplating the heroic doings of Napoleon Bonaparte— apparently Beethoven’s inspiration for this particular symphony—as my mobile starts trilling. Definitely need to choose a new ringtone sometime soon—this din could be mistaken for a constipated cockatiel. What could I have been thinking, choosing that? Napoleon never had ringtones to contend with. Neither did Ludwig van. And I don’t appreciate the interruption.

  It’s not even seven o’clock in the evening yet, and I am curled up in bed. I am surrounded by archaeology textbooks although I’m not in the mood for serious reading, and I do have Ludwig for company. But still—in bed by seven and trying to teach myself about the mysteries of ancient Egypt out of sheer boredom is just pathetic. I so need to get a life.

  The phone has somehow disappeared under the duvet. I know it’s there somewhere because the cockatiel is still in distress, seemingly, and squalling loud enough to wake the dead. It goes up a decibel or two after a few rings. God, what overpaid nerdy whiz-kid thought that little gimmick up? A pushy phone—that’s all I need. I get enough nagging from my mother. ‘I just want what’s best for you, dear…’

  “Sod ringtones.” Now I know I’m losing it, because I’m actually talking to myself. I suppose the real danger sign is if I start answering. An uncomfortable thought. I shudder as I shove it brutally aside. I’m fine, absolutely fine. Now.

  On that thought, I finally get my hands on the screeching HTC spawn of Lucifer and drag it out to face the light, punch the passcode into the keypad and answer.

  “Hello, Eva Byrne…?” Always that expectant little pause, my name turned into a question as though I might not after all be me. Wishful thinking.

  “Eva…? Evangelica, is it…? Ange, is that you? It’s Natasha…” A little pause, no doubt to give me time to remember who Natasha might be. It doesn’t work—my mind’s a complete blank. And no one I know calls me Ange. Or Evangelica—unless it’s my mother in a very bad mood.

  “…from the agency.”

  Right, that Natasha. The snooty bitch with fuck-me heels and killer red talons glued onto her fingernails who looked at me like I was a lesser life form when I called in at the Little Maestros musical tuition agency a couple of weeks ago. I was looking for some alternative way of making a living, and if I could find something I actually liked doing, so much the better. I love music, and I quite like teaching, so I dropped off my CV and qualifications with a few agencies, just in case they might have some temp work going somewhere. Natasha looked a fraction more respectful when she spotted my first class honors degree in music from King’s College, London, but rather spoiled the effect by asking me for proof of identity. Obviously, she thought I’d stolen the degree certificate.

  On reflection, I think her suspicions were aroused by my skinny black jeans
, No Fear gray hoodie and psychedelic Converse trainers, topped off by a mop of wavy—or should that just be plain frizzy—red hair falling to the middle of my back. I’m not your archetypal music teacher.

  My unruly hair is a constant nuisance, the bane of my life. It bounces, frizzes and waves everywhere, and short of shaving it off I have never found a way of controlling it. When I was a child my mother tried everything to get it into some semblance of order and brushing it every morning became a war of attrition. The hair was winning, hands down, until eventually my mother had one of her Hiroshima moments where she takes decisive, drastic and usually disproportionate action. She marched me along to The Cutting Shop down on Stamford Hill High Street and had the lot chopped off. It curled more than ever in defiance after the vicious assault, but at least it would fit under a hat.

  At five-four in heels and looking about sixteen—I am twenty-two, but like to tell myself I have worn well—I guess I didn’t fit the image of a serious violin teacher as I perched in a trendy little black leather bucket chair in front of Natasha’s pristine white desk, while she sneered down her aristocratic nose at me and suggested I was an impostor.

  I wasn’t especially desperate to impress Natasha the super-bitch—other agencies are available—so she was treated to my scruffy, sullen teenager look. Maybe my unpromising first impression was why it took her so long to get back to me. Oh, well—I need the work so I’d better make an effort now. If humble and well-mannered is called for, that’s what I’ll do.

  “Ah—hello, Natasha, how are you?” Always polite, that’s me, whatever the provocation. It’s my mother’s influence.

  “There’s a job come up you might be interested in.” She pauses to let this sink in, make sure I’m listening. “Music tutor to an eight-year-old girl. She’s learning the violin.”

  I am listening, and suddenly I’m very interested. I need to get a life, we’ve already established that, and here’s one that might just do. I really want a job as a musician if possible, at least for now. I’m not bothered about earning much, and I know that private tuition is hardly going to keep me in shampoo and tampons, especially with the agency creaming off most of the fee. But with my somewhat unique talents I can earn enough in a single evening to cover pretty much anything I might need. This job sounds just right, just what I’m looking for. I can play a mean violin—shouldn’t be too difficult to teach a little girl the basics. I put Ludwig on pause for a few minutes and resolve to be very polite indeed to Natasha.

  Natasha rushes on with her explanations, obviously in a hurry and clearly desperate, which is probably why she’s ringing me. “Valerie was doing it.”

  Valerie—do I know a Valerie?

  “She’s been teaching her for the last three months, but she busted her leg skiing and she’s laid up somewhere in the French Alps.”

  French Alps—all right for some… But still, she’s got a broken leg and now I’ve got her job, so I guess life sort of levels itself out.

  Natasha is still gushing on. “Our contract with the client says we’ll provide a replacement, and you’re it. If you want to, of course… I need to know now, though, because we’ve already blobbed for two days and the client is not best pleased.”

  No need to ask me twice—I’m sold. “I’ll do it. When do they want me, and where is it?”

  “Ah, well, that’s the thing. You start tomorrow, at nine—the client is very definite about that. Doesn’t want little…whatever her name is…ah, yes, Rosie, little Rosie, missing any more of her lessons just because of a broken femur.”

  Sounds reasonable. “Okay, give me the address.”

  “Black Combe, Oakworth.”

  “Where?” Quick flick through my mental A–Z of London—nope, no Black Combe that I know of. Probably one of the new high-rises in the Docklands. Can’t place Oakworth either, come to think. But not to worry, that’s what satnavs are for.

  “Oakworth. It’s in Yorkshire. It’s near Haworth. Where the Brontës lived. They wrote books.”

  “Haworth!” I know where the bloody Brontës lived, and what they got up to. I’ve read all their novels God knows how many times, and I know Yorkshire is up in the north of England somewhere. How far up north?

  Not too far, actually. I dump the London A–Z and start rifling through my mental UK atlas. I have a photographic memory for maps, as well as pretty much everything else I see or read, so I can visualize it perfectly and I know exactly where Haworth is. And what it’s like—I have a mental image of a Wuthering Heights rolling moorland scene. Windswept, dramatic wilderness. These images rush through my head as all goes quiet on the other end. Natasha wisely gives me a moment to collect my scattered wits.

  “But I’m in London.” Stating the obvious is one of my many talents. I’m in North London, admittedly, but Yorkshire, Haworth, is still two hundred miles away. “How am I supposed to get there ready to start work tomorrow at nine? Which station do the trains to Haworth go from?”

  “King’s Cross. Change at Leeds, then again probably, not really sure…” Always helpful and well-informed, our Natasha. “But the job’s not in Haworth. It’s in Oakworth and that’s another train ride on top, assuming there’s a station there. These places up north can be a bit cut off, you know. The train’s no good—you’ll have to drive up. You could be there in four hours. Five tops.”

  No station? What sort of place is this? And I happen to know she’s wrong. Haworth does have a station, and so does Oakworth. I must have read about this once, because I know that they are on the Worth Valley line and that quaint little steam trains run along there every weekend, full of Thomas the Tank Engine groupies and railway enthusiasts, no doubt. Not much good to me now, though. I need a high-speed rail link or, better still, a helicopter, not the timeless magic of steam.

  I glance at my bedside clock. It’s just turned seven now, so even if I can set off within half an hour that means arriving in a strange mainline-stationless town after midnight, finding a hotel—if they have one—getting checked in and settled, and up in the morning in time to find this Black Combe place before nine in the morning. Bloody hell.

  Even while I’m panicking quietly to myself, though, I know I’m going.

  “No need for a hotel.” Is Natasha a mind reader now, or did I say all that out loud? “The job is live-in. You’d get all expenses and accommodation, and a tuition fee on top. Shall I tell them you’re on your way?”

  Pushing all unhelpful irrelevancies out of my head—for example, if I felt like being really picky, I could ask Natasha why anybody would need a live-in music tutor—I jump into action. Too right, I’m on my way. Natasha promises to make the call and I leap out of bed to chuck a few clothes in my holdall and grab my violin. I’m going to Yorkshire.

  * * * *

  Since my hasty exit from the dreaming spires of Oxford six weeks ago, I’m going out of my mind with boredom. I can’t stand it. The last few weeks of bunking up with my mother have been just barely bearable. She means well, I know she loves me, but she always worries about me and my future. She desperately wants me to be safe and settled, but can’t for the life of her understand what mental aberration made me dump a distinctly promising career in academia—at one of the most prestigious colleges in the world—and show up on her doorstep without warning, rhyme or reason.

  I tried to pass it all off as something fairly casual, told her that I’d seen enough pomposity and pretentiousness at St Hilda’s venerable College to last me as many lifetimes as I might be blessed with, and I am desperately longing for a slice of real life. I appreciated it didn’t sound convincing, even to me, though I happen to know it’s true. Well, some of it. As far as that story goes.

  But by the look on her face I had apparently lapsed into some obscure dialect of Swahili—one language I am not especially familiar with—for all the sense I was making. I don’t think I was able to articulate my present dilemma very well—unusual for me, I’m normally a precise and persuasive communicator, probably because I usua
lly have the advantage of knowing what I’m talking about. But for once, I don’t. I have no idea where the sudden and overwhelming panic came from that drove me to pack in a perfectly nice and well-paid job, a job promising me academic prestige and offering glittering prospects and present myself instead on her doorstep.

  It started weeks, maybe months ago. I was suffocating at Oxford. At first it was just a feeling of inadequacy. Me—inadequate! I couldn’t work out where it was all coming from. I’m bloody good at what I do. Used to do. My perfectly logical brain told me there was absolutely no reason to doubt myself. But the doubts still grew. They grew into fear, then into panic attacks. I started forgetting things—appointments, names, deadlines. I started arriving late at work with no idea why or how I got delayed. I was losing track of time. And some days I didn’t turn up at all, just stayed under my duvet and ignored my phone as it rang and rang. All the time I was becoming more frightened, more confused.

  My memory is exceptional. Truly, truly exceptional. My attention to detail is outstanding. I had no idea what was happening to me. My life, I suppose, was generally crap enough and tedious much of the time, but at least I had my work and I was proud of what I’d achieved in so short a time. Without that, I had nothing. Was nothing.

  My team leader and mentor, Professor Benson, spotted that I was slipping up, losing my grip. He commented on it. He was kind, concerned. He said that I looked ill and tired, told me to take some time off. I said I was fine, so he insisted. Ordered me home for a fortnight to rest, recharge. Big mistake. Big, big mistake,

  I spent my enforced holiday perched on the end of my lonely little single bed, in my tiny flat on the outskirts of Oxford, eating next to nothing apart from the occasional Pot Noodle, and sleeping for no more than an hour or so at a time. I was turning over and over in my head all the things that were wrong, all the things I didn’t believe I could do anymore, all the ways I was letting myself and everyone around me down. Even small, simple tasks became huge, insurmountable problems, and planning anything was completely beyond me. I even found myself sticking Post-it notes on the fridge one day to remind me to put the bin out on the following Tuesday, desperately afraid of the dire consequences that would surely follow if I missed that crucial deadline.