The Woman in the Photograph
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Contents
24 April 2018
Part 1: Subject
15 June 1968
20 June 1968
July 1968
2 February 2018
Part 2: Light
20 November 1970
20 November 1970
21 November 1970
November 1970
19 February 2018
Part 3: Focus
15 April 1977
18 April 1977
15 May 1977
July 1977
26 February 2018
8 March 2018
8 March 2018
Part 4: Distance
15 May 1979
15 May 1979
16 May 1979
June 1979
29 March 2018
29 March 2018
27 March 2018
Part 5: Movement
18 October 1981
10 April 2018
18 October 1981
10 April 2018
18 October 1981
10 April 2018
18 October 1981
10 April 2018
10 April 2018
18 October 1981
10 April 2018
October 1981
Part 6: Exposure
July 1984
5 September 1984
24 April 2018
25 April 2018
Part 7: Developing
26 April 2018
Vee, in the lost place, 1984
26 April 2018
Epilogue
5 February 2019
Author’s Note
Acknowledgements
Letter from Author
Stephanie Butland’s Readers’ Club
For your Reading Group
For discussion
Select bibliography
About the author
Also by Stephanie Butland
Copyright
For Dad, who taught me about photography, and that I can do anything
‘What makes photography a strange invention is that its primary raw materials are light and time.’
Understanding a Photograph, John Berger
24 April 2018
The Photographers’ Gallery, Ramillies Street, London
Seeing the photograph will be a shock.
It always is. Even though she is the one who took it.
Veronica leans against the wall opposite the gallery entrance, braces herself, and turns her eyes to the poster. The no-nonsense font declares: ‘Women in their Power: Veronica Moon and Second Wave Feminism: 26 April—26 August 2018’. Two days from now. Vee reads the words until they cease any sense they were making, and then she makes herself look at the image. Doing it here, publicly, with cyclists skimming through her field of vision and grimy London noise all around, makes her feel half-disappeared already.
The feelings have never changed, even if the memory is long gone. Love and loss and ache and sheer flaming rage at everything that was taken from her in the moment that she pressed the button that opened and closed the shutter faster than a final blink. Vee is top-full of it all, still, even after all of these years.
Leonie, the woman she loved as she has loved no one else in her seventy years, glowers from the frame. Her heavy brow, half-closed eyes, great arc of a nose, all suit being enlarged to poster size. Leonie always knew that she deserved more space than the world gave her. The black and white image looks contemporary after thirty years, as the novelty of colour and fuss in photography has come into fashion and gone again.
Veronica can, if she tries, admire this as a photograph. All of her craft is here: the way she managed the light, chose the angle, created a portrait that is both greater than Leonie and the very essence of her, distilled to an almost unbearable likeness. But there are good reasons why she avoids it. It was the moment of the two greatest losses of her life.
Even now, when she should be facing everything, resolving everything, when her eyes should be taking in all that they can before it’s too late, she cannot bear to look at this image for long.
Whether Vee likes it or not, it’s what she will be remembered for. Though if she had been a war photographer, she would have been congratulated. If she had been a man, come to that. Unflinching, they would have said. Bold. Uncompromising. Veronica, by virtue of being a woman: heartless, ambitious, unfeeling, selfish. Career over.
Part 1: Subject
First, forget all you think you know about the camera being a neutral object, a benign, unlying eye, watching and capturing everything without judging or deciding. That’s what the world wants you to think.
In the hands of a true photographer, a camera can be clever, wily, sharp, cutting; it can be consoling, healing or divisive; it can be smart. It should definitely be smart. At least as smart as the person who is holding it. And if that person is a woman, she will know already how to pay attention, to watch the world around her for signs and clues to what she needs to be careful of.
Every time you press the shutter, you are making a choice about where to look, and what you are choosing to show, or to remember. You are creating a history.
Veronica Moon, Women in Photographs (unpublished)
‘Postman at the Picket Line’
Veronica Moon
Exhibition Se
ction: Early Days
Camera: Nikon F1
Film: Kodak, 200 ASA
First published: This Month magazine, 1968
Welcome to Veronica Moon’s world: quietly subversive, women-centred, and not afraid to allow the viewer to deduce the story behind the image.
This photograph was taken at the picket line at the Ford Dagenham strike of 1968. Female machinists had walked out in protest at being paid less than their male counterparts for equivalent skilled work. Moon had just arrived at the site when the postman came to deliver the mail; in this photograph, she captures the moment when he decides not to cross the picket line and turns back, cheered by the striking machinists. Notice how the focus of the photograph is not the postal worker himself, who is caught leaving the shot, only his shoulder and bag visible. Rather, Moon draws the watcher’s eye to the three women in the foreground of the photograph, the interplay between their bodies, arms linked, and the tilt of their heads as they laugh. The image is reminiscent of Land Girl publicity posters and seaside holiday snaps, and connects to our ideas of women as sisters, united and formidable.
The women here are strong, good-humoured and full of purpose; the camera’s view is steady and honest. Behind the trio of faces the photograph focuses on, you’ll see another group of women; the one on the far right is the second wave feminist and writer Leonie Barratt, a long-term associate and close personal friend of Moon.
This early photograph bears many of the trademarks of Moon’s later work. The focus is sharp: as with her later portraits, there is no desire to hide flaws or soften images. The photographer draws our attention to the faces of her subjects by positioning them a third of the way down the frame. And there is nothing static or posed about this photograph. It is a moment captured that would otherwise have been lost.
This is the first of Moon’s images to have been published in the UK national press, when it appeared to accompany a column by Leonie Barratt in This Month magazine, in July 1968. This Month was published from 1962 to 1986 and published a range of reviews, features and columns, with a readership of 250,000 at its peak. It could be seen as the first photograph of Moon’s feminist career. Many of the photographs that Moon took previously while working at the Colchester Echo do feature women, but these are in traditional roles – at coffee mornings and charity events. Moon was assigned these jobs while her male colleagues were given news and sports stories to cover; she went to Dagenham on her day off, having been refused permission to attend as an official photograph by the Echo’s editor.
In 1968:
• Harold Wilson was Prime Minister of Great Britain
• In the USA, Senator Robert (Bobby) F Kennedy and Martin Luther King were assassinated within three weeks of each other
• The Beatles had two number one chart singles in the UK with ‘Lady Madonna’ and ‘Hey Jude’
• Enoch Powell made his notorious ‘Rivers of Blood’ speech
• The TV show Dad’s Army was first screened
• A demonstration in London’s Grosvenor Square against US involvement in the Vietnam War ended in violence and mass arrests
• the Abortion Act 1967 came into effect, legalising abortion on a number of grounds
• Agatha Christie’s novel By the Pricking of My Thumbs was published
• The film Rosemary’s Baby was released
• The iconic photograph ‘Earthrise’ was taken when the Apollo 8 spacecraft orbited the moon
And the female machinists at the Ford Dagenham car plant went on strike because they believed their skilled work should be appropriately rewarded, and they should be paid at the same rate as men doing equivalent grade jobs. Veronica Moon went to take a look.
15 June 1968
‘WHAT ARE YOU SIGHING ABOUT now, Dad?’ Veronica’s father, Stanley, reads the Daily Mirror less for news and more as a starting point for discussion.
‘I’m all for equal rights but this is going too far. Listen. “Thousands of car workers will be laid off next week unless 187 women sewing-machinists call off a strike for more pay.” ’
‘You ain’t really for equal rights, then, are you?’ Vee has her kit spread out on the dining table, and she’s checking and cleaning each part in turn: camera body, lenses, filters, strap, the case she carries it all in. When she presses the shutter and winds on, the sound always seems synchronised with the beat of her heart.
‘I am. But it ain’t an equal situation, now, is it, Veronica?’ He leans forward in his armchair, crumpling the newspaper into his lap, and says, ‘The women will only be working for pin money. The men who get laid off – they’re the ones putting bread on the table. And their wives will have something to say if they come home with nothing.’
‘I thought I might go down, later in the week. I’ve got my day off on Thursday.’
‘Bob isn’t sending you to cover it, then?’
‘It’s a bit out of our way, and anyway, Bob wouldn’t send me. He’d send George. I just get the jobs George don’t want.’ A jumble sale to raise money for the Spastics’ Society was the highlight of last week.
When Vee got a start as a junior photographer at the Colchester Echo she knew she was lucky, and she knew she would have to work her way up. (Not least because she suspected that her dad had probably twisted Bob’s arm to get her the job in the first place. The two of them were at school together. Veronica hasn’t asked if that swung it for her, because she really, really doesn’t want to know.)
Stanley gets out of his chair. ‘Well. That allotment ain’t going to weed itself.’
‘That’s for sure,’ Vee says.
‘It’s a nice day. But you’ll be shutting yourself under the stairs, will you?’
Vee smiles. ‘What else would I be doing?’
Stanley shakes his head. ‘This will all have to change once you’re married, you know, treasure. Barry won’t want you sneaking round here every Saturday afternoon.’
‘Barry doesn’t mind, Dad. And anyway, the wedding won’t be for a few years yet.’
‘Your mother was only nineteen when we got married.’ It’s eleven years since she died, but the hollowness of loss is still great enough to make a short, hard moment for them both before they look at each other and sort of smile in acknowledgement that she is gone, they are not, and they are the only two people in the world who could ever understand, precisely, what that means.
‘Will you bring some rhubarb? We can have it for afters, tomorrow.’
Stewed rhubarb and condensed milk is her dad’s idea of heaven.
Stanley nods, takes his hat from the stand by the door, and he’s gone.
*
Almost as soon as Vee had managed to get a camera of her own, when she was fifteen, thanks to savings and a birthday and Christmas present combined, she realised that she’d never be able to afford to have her films developed, so she set about learning how to do it herself. The novelty of her makeshift darkroom under the stairs, the sour/sharp smells and the eerie light, has yet to wear off.
Vee can still remember the first time she saw a photographer at work. It was at a cousin’s wedding. Vee was a seven-year-old bridesmaid, in shell pink with a little white knitted cardigan, pink silk roses to hold, and borrowed satin shoes with scrunched-up handkerchiefs in the toes to make them fit. Every picture of her from that day shows her staring into the camera. She remembers how much she wanted to know what was happening under that cloth the photographer was hiding in. When she wasn’t in the photographs she stood behind the tripod, listening to the clicks and winding sounds of the camera at work. When the photograph album was shown – cousin Betty had married up in the world, there was no one in the family who had had a proper album before – Veronica saw how the adults used the photos to relive the day. They commented on this hat and those flowers, what a shame it was about the weather and how handsome Betty’s husband was. That man, under the cloth, with a button and a handle to wind, had quietly made the shape of their memories.
She didn’t u
nderstand it in those terms at the time, of course. She just knew she wanted a camera like other children wanted a pogo-stick.
Now she and Barry are engaged, and he’s keen for them to spend all of their spare time together, she still pleads for her Saturday afternoons. Once Dad started inviting him to the football, that got a bit easier. On match days, she can join them in their local pub afterwards, commiserate or celebrate, head on to the pictures or to Barry’s mum and dad’s for tea. She finds it easier to be polite, to talk about Z-Cars and Harold Wilson, and other things she isn’t much interested in, if she has spent a few hours in her cramped, impossible-to-stand-upright-in darkroom, lit by its red light bulb, watching her images develop as they float below the surface of a chemical bath. Feeling her soul’s happiness as she does what she has wanted, above everything, to do since cousin Betty’s wedding day.
20 June 1968
VERONICA MOON HAS NEVER BEEN to a picket line before.
‘Don’t do anything I wouldn’t do,’ Dad said, as he waved her off this morning. He had checked the tyres on their shared Ford Anglia, as though the hour and a half from Colchester to Dagenham was some kind of epic journey. Still, it’s probably the longest drive she has ever done on her own.
‘Funny thing to do on your day off,’ had been Barry’s comment, but Barry’s job isn’t his hobby, so of course he wouldn’t understand. Vee hates that he calls photography her ‘hobby’, but she can’t think of a better word. It’s her passion, really, but when she said that to him he laughed and said, no it wasn’t, he was.
And now, here she is. Actually where the action is, for once.
The papers yesterday reported that Ford are losing more than a million pounds a day because of the strike. The Secretary of State is involved. All the way, in the car, Vee has been thinking about what she would find when she arrived. She thought she would be able to see the world changing, and that she could be the one to chronicle it. She’s been drawn back, again and again, to Bill Eppridge’s photograph of the dying Bobby Kennedy. She feels the shock of the event, of course she does: she’s crowded round the papers, the television, with everyone else as the impact has been discussed, all over the world. But when she looks at the image of the man on the floor, the blood, the young man cradling his head, she feels something else, too. Or rather, she imagines – imagines she was the one in the Ambassador Hotel in LA when the bullets were fired. Would she have had the presence of mind to take those photographs? She thinks so. She just needs to get herself to places where history is happening.