Lady Eve's Indiscretion

by Grace Burrowes

  “Talk that vicious is going to ruin Georgina’s life, Anthony. Dolan has to be stopped.”

  But why now? Why must this issue be coming to point non plus now, when all Deene wanted was to spend time with his wife?

  Very likely because Dolan had planned it that way.

  “If I need a second, Anthony, will you serve?”

  “Of course. Is there anybody else you’d like me to speak to?” The reply was gratifyingly swift and certain.

  “Not yet. Even asking such a thing will fuel the rumors.”

  “Then I shall keep my counsel and wait for further orders from you. My regards to my new cousin, the marchioness.”

  Anthony climbed out, and when Deene wanted to head directly for Surrey, he instead followed his cousin into the town house, wrote several notes to be delivered by messenger, and only then allowed himself to turn his direction toward home.

  ***

  “My love, I grow concerned.”

  Kesmore’s expression suggested he wasn’t quite teasing, though in the course of their marriage, he teased his lady wife a great deal.

  “Then I am concerned as well,” Louisa replied. She had to stifle a yawn as she spoke though, since his lordship’s version of a late-afternoon nap could leave even a stalwart wife more drowsy than refreshed.

  “Such loyalty.” Kesmore rolled to blanket her naked body with his own. “I should kiss you for it.” He did, a lovely, thoughtful coda to the beautiful composition that was Joseph Carrington in an amorous mood.

  When Louisa could form coherent sentences again, she seized the moment. “What’s bothering you, Joseph?” Whatever it was, it could not be of too great moment, given that her husband’s body was indicating a notion to add another movement to his most recent marital sonata.

  He nuzzled her neck. “I got a note from Deene this morning, delivered out from Town by private messenger.”

  No man had ever used his nose to such great advantage in the course of marital relations. Louisa’s husband had a way of breathing her in, canvassing her features with his proboscis, gathering her scents the way other husbands might gather up compliments to toss back at their wives.

  “That tickles, Husband.”

  “Tickling is a fine thing, you might consider—given the magnitude of your devotion to my ever-precarious well-being—reciprocating. How well do you know Deene?”

  Louisa did not tickle her husband. If the man wanted tickling, he was going to have to beg for it. She did, however, meet his gaze and saw his question was serious.

  “Very well. He’s a lifelong neighbor, he served with Bart and St. Just, he’s of the same political persuasion as Papa most of the time, and he was always underfoot as a boy because he had neither male siblings nor much family with whom to associate.”

  “And he served with me, and now he is family in fact. A situation is brewing, and while I do not know the exact extent of it, I believe Deene and his lady need our help.”

  Louisa loved her husband for any number of reasons: because he was a wonderful father, because he made her feel like the loveliest woman on earth, because he was protective of those he cared for right down to the smallest runt piglet ever to squeal its way into their keeping.

  At that moment, she loved him because he had neither charged off to Deene’s aid without confiding in her, nor had he even considered such a notion. To be married to Joseph Carrington was to have not just an adoring and passionate husband, but to have a friend, a best, most loyal, devoted friend, and—almost as wonderful—to be that sort of friend to him as well.

  Louisa brushed his hair back from his brow, wrapped her legs around his flanks, and kissed him on the mouth. “Tell me what’s to be done, Husband. If there’s something amiss with Deene, then it’s amiss with our Evie too, and that we cannot allow.”

  It took another half hour, but when they did get around to discussing the matter further, they were—as usual regarding anything of consequence—of one mind about it.

  ***

  “You see how Aelfreth looks down and to the left?”

  Deene saw no such thing. He saw the way his wife never took her eyes off the combination of Aelfreth and King William as they circled the practice arena. She had the same focus in bed sometimes, even when her eyes were dreamy with heat and desire.

  “And the significance of this?”

  “It’s a matter of attention, Deene. Aelfreth signals the horse to pay attention in the same direction just by where he looks.”

  “For God’s sake, Eve, the horse can’t see where the man on his back is looking.”

  A particular dimple flashed on the left side of Eve’s mouth. Deene had only recently discovered this dimple, and it fascinated him.

  “When I’m… sitting on you, Deene, straddling your lap, and your eyes are closed, can you tell where I’m looking?”

  “Of course.”

  “Tell Aelfreth to lift his eyes up, then, unless you want William thinking the only interesting things in the arena are on the ground to the left of him. He’ll eventually go crooked like that if you don’t break Aelfreth’s habit now.”

  “This is just a schooling session, Evie, a little variety in the routine. When they’re on course, Aelfreth will be looking from jump to jump, from straightaway to turn.”

  She folded her arms, looking as prim as a governess. “Every time we’re around King William, we’re teaching him something, Deene. I have explained this to you.”

  She had, and her little lectures and homilies were charming—also very insightful, and in just the two weeks his marchioness had been in residence, Deene could see a difference in the way his equine youngsters and their lads were going on.

  He bellowed at Aelfreth that the marchioness said to look the hell where he was going, which provoked a sheepish grin from the jockey—and immediate compliance such as Deene’s command alone would likely not have merited.

  “You’ve made slaves of my lads, Wife. The horses are no better.”

  “Such flattery. Are we to drive out today?”

  If the weather was fine, they’d taken to picnicking at various secluded spots on the property. Sometimes Deene made love to his wife in the lazy afternoon sunshine, sometimes he dozed with his head in her lap, and sometimes—the times he suspected they both liked the most—they mostly talked.

  “I had something else in mind today.”

  Her expression became… guarded. “Husband, we got a late start this morning because you had something else in mind, and while I always enjoy what you have in mind—”

  “As I enjoy what you occasionally have in mind, Wife, but this is not that kind of something else.”

  And still she was wary. When it came to lovemaking, Eve took a little—a very little—convincing to try new things. Whether it was a new position, a new location, a new variation on something he’d shown her previously, she always hesitated:

  “Lucas, this cannot be decent…”

  “Husband, I am not at all sure…”

  “Deene, are you quite certain things can go that way…?”

  She was not shy, exactly, so much as she lacked confidence in her responses—or confidence in her entitlement to enjoy the God-given passion of her own nature.

  And yet, she always gathered her courage and met him halfway, something he loved about her almost as much as he loved the way she gave him small touches and caresses throughout the day.

  “Where are you taking me, Deene?”

  He laced his fingers with hers and drew her in the direction of the unused foaling stalls. “This is a surprise, Evie. I wanted to give you this surprise the morning after our wedding.”

  “You did give me a surprise, as I recall.”

  He’d awakened her with an introduction to the pleasures of making sweet, sleepy love spooned around each other amid the warmth of the covers.

  “One can’t offer his new wife too many pleasant surprises.”

  “Is this a pleasant surprise then?”

  Always, the war
iness. “I hope and pray you find it so.” At the serious note in his voice, Eve paused to peer over at him. He could not back out now, and maybe because of that, the vague anxiety in his chest gathered into a tighter knot. “If you don’t like this surprise, you don’t have to keep it. I can send it back.”

  She resumed their progress, moving into the mostly empty barn. “This is a gift then?”

  “Customarily, a husband presents his wife with a token of his esteem following consummation of the nuptials.”

  “You are being sentimental, then. I love it when you dote on me, Deene, but I understand we must be mindful of the economies, and I’d have you freed from any—”

  She stopped dead outside a roomy stall bedded in fresh, deep straw.

  “Lucas, what have you done? Good God… what have you done?”

  ***

  Eve could not draw breath. She could only stare and cling to her husband’s hand.

  “I am going to faint.”

  “You shall not.” Deene moved behind her and wrapped his arms around her, a bulwark against the roaring in her ears and the constriction in her chest. “Breathe, Evie. It’s just one more horse.”

  Oh, but not just any horse. Eve knew those gorgeous brown eyes, the deep chest, the little snip of pink skin on the end of the mare’s big, velvety nose.

  “She’s white now, no longer gray. This is my Sweetness, isn’t it? Tell me this is my dearest… oh, Husband. What have you done?”

  “I can send her back, if you’d rather not… I didn’t want to upset you, Evie. But you’d asked, and I thought perhaps you’d worried…”

  “Hush.” She turned in his arms to put her hand over his mouth, but then craned her neck to keep the mare in her sight. “Oh, hush. She will never leave my care again, never. You must promise me, Lucas. Right now, swear to me she is mine to keep.”

  “She is yours to keep, always. I swear it, vow it, and promise it. It’s in the settlements, it’s in the bill of sale, it’s in my last will and testament. She will always be yours to keep.”

  That he would do such a thing and do it so thoroughly… Eve could not hold to her husband tightly enough, could not take her eyes from the mare even when tears made the horse’s image blurry.

  And while Deene stroked Eve’s back and held her upright on her shaking knees, Eve did breathe. She breathed in, she breathed out, and she made a tremendous discovery. The emotion welling up from her soul made her lungs feel too small and her heart beat hard in her chest. It affected her perceptions, slowed down her senses of sound and vision, made her sense of scent more acute. In many particulars, her body was mistaking the moment for one of anxiety approaching panic.

  Except… except her husband held her securely, and her mind understood now—seven years later—that the other casualty of Eve’s great fall was well and happy. The mare was content, in good weight. Sweetness’s eyes bore the same steady, clear gaze Eve had long associated with her, and her coat was blooming with good health and proper nutrition.

  Eve’s physical symptoms might resemble panic, but the emotions flooding her were gratitude, relief, and overarching all others, what she felt was soaring, unbounded, bottomless joy.

  Eight

  Deene did not rush her, so Eve knew not how long she stood suffused with happiness outside the mare’s stall. The lightness in her body was… celestial, like flying over a whole course of jumps in perfect footing, from perfect spots, in perfect rhythm, to perfect landings.

  Like riding this very mare.

  When Eve had thoroughly abused Deene’s handkerchief and probably her husband’s poor nerves as well, she managed a question. “Is she sound?”

  She felt the tension ease out of him, as if all through her weeping he’d been holding his breath. “Dead sound. She rides to hounds, Evie, and the squire who parted with her said she’s his best afternoon horse.”

  Sound, indeed. “All this time, all these years, I’ve wondered, but I haven’t known how to ask. I haven’t known whom to ask. I have prayed for this horse nightly, prayed she was not suffering a painful life, longing for her misery to end, or worse…”

  He gently pushed Eve’s head to his chest. “She has been in the care of a hounds-and-horses fellow by the name of Belmont, farther south of us. He gave her a year off then bred her twice. Her first foal has been under saddle for a year, which is probably the only reason he allowed me to buy her. Her progeny—both fillies—show every sign of having their dam’s good sense and heart.”

  “Then St. Just chose very well for her. I must thank him.”

  “There’s something else you have to do, Evie.”

  Sheltered against Deene’s body, Eve knew exactly what he intended to say. It should provoke all the panic she hadn’t felt at the sight of the mare. It should have her ears roaring again and her hands going cold.

  “You want me to ride her.”

  “No.” He held her so gently. “What I want does not matter. I hope you believe that. What matters—the only thing that matters at all—is what you want, and what you want at this moment, Eve Denning, more than anything in the world, maybe more than you’ve ever wanted anything, is to be up on your mare again.”

  There was… a tremendous gift in being known and understood like this. A relief from loneliness at a fundamental level. There was healing in it, and more joy, and also… truth. While Eve remained in her husband’s embrace, letting that truth seep through her mind and heart, Deene went on speaking.

  “I’ll take you up with me—the mare is in quite good condition, she’ll tolerate it for a bit—I’ll put you on a leading line or a longe. I’ll mount up on Beast and stay right at your stirrup, if you prefer. I’ll walk by your boot. I’ll lead her where no one else can see us, but, Eve, you want to get back on that horse.”

  Eve felt tears pricking her eyes again, tears that had something to do with the horse but more to do with the man who’d brought the horse back into Eve’s life.

  She held on tightly to her husband even while she figuratively grabbed her courage with both hands. “I think astride will do for a start.”

  She’d surprised him. When she glanced up, he was smiling down at her with more tenderness than she’d beheld in his eyes even under intimate circumstances.

  “Astride makes perfect sense. The lads are under orders to stay clear of the loafing paddock, and I bought the mare’s saddle and bridle when I purchased her.”

  He’d thought of everything, bless him. And when Eve said she wanted to saddle up her own horse, Deene dutifully took himself off to fetch her a pair of boys’ breeches.

  “And, Deene, bring Beast along too. We can go for a ramble down to the stream.”

  His smile at this pronouncement would have lit up the entire world—and it scotched any second thoughts Eve had about the wisdom of her decision. As Eve took down the headstall and lead rope hanging outside the horse’s loose box, her smile was quieter but no less joyous.

  ***

  War changed a man, Deene reflected, and not often for the better. He watched his wife knotting Aelfreth’s signature red kerchief around the boy’s head, and realized marriage was changing him too.

  A soldier knew to be only guardedly protective of his fellows. The man sharing a bottle over the evening campfire might be taken prisoner by the French while bathing in a river the next morning.

  The promising young lieutenant reciting ribald poetry at breakfast might be shot dead by noon.

  When Deene had stopped recently to make a list—something he hadn’t done in the years since Waterloo—he’d realized that, save for St. Just, Wellington himself, Kesmore, and several others, few of Deene’s comrades-in-arms had survived the war.

  This made the protectiveness he felt toward his wife somewhat easier to tolerate, but it did nothing to explain the shift Deene had felt toward everything from the weather, to his properties, to the children Anthony claimed to be raising on a tidy manor only several miles away.

  Eve patted Aelfreth’s arm and gave him
some last-minute instructions before approaching her husband. “My lord, it’s going to rain. Do we remain here or repair to the books?”

  She was smiling at him—he had a whole catalogue of her smiles by now, both with and without her dimple—and she was ready to accommodate whatever his pleasure might be.

  “We tend to the books.” He could have her to himself that way, and she made even something as tedious as ledgers more bearable. “Aelfreth and Willy can go for a mud gallop while we stay warm and dry.”

  “I was hoping you’d say that.” She slipped an arm around his waist and wandered with him toward the house. “I’ve had a note from Louisa. She and Kesmore will be calling on us soon, and then I suppose the floodgates will open.”

  “Must they?”

  He liked her family, liked them a great deal, but he’d loved these weeks to get to know his wife and her smiles. He was developing some sense of her silences too, though, so he settled his arm around Eve’s shoulders. “Tell me, Wife.”

  “I should not resent it when my sisters observe the civilities, but, Deene, I do. I am jealous of my time with you.”

  “How gratifying to know.”

  She punched him in the ribs. “Rotten man. You’re supposed to say you feel the same way.”

  Of course he felt the same way. He did not admit this. Instead, as soon as they had gained the library, he closed the door behind them and locked it. At the one small, additional click of the latch, Eve looked up from where she stood by the fire.

  “We’re to attend our ledgers, Lucas Denning.”

  “Quite. I’ve consulted my accounts and found it has been more than twelve hours since I’ve enjoyed my wife’s considerable intimate charms. Almost eighteen hours, in fact, which deficit must be immediately rectified if I’m to concentrate on anything so prosaic as ledgers.”

  “And what of luncheon? What of being conscientious about one’s duties? What of—oof.”

  He lifted her bodily onto a corner of the estate desk and stepped closer. “I am being conscientious about my duty to the succession.”