The Ghost Girl
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CHAPTER III
She had committed the irrevocable.
When the contract is signed, when the china vase is broken, all the regretin the world will not alter the fact.
It was not till they had gone ten miles on their way that the regret came,sudden and painful as the stab of a dagger.
Miss Pinckney's kindly old face suddenly rose up before Phyl. She wouldhave been waiting breakfast for her. She saw the breakfast room, sunny andpleasant, the tea urn on the table, the garden through the open window--
Then came the thought--what matter.
All that was lost to her anyhow. It did not matter in the least what shedid.
She was running away with Silas Grangerson.
She had a vague sort of idea that they were running away to be married,that she would have to explain things to Colonel Grangerson when they gotto the house and that things would arrange themselves somehow.
But now, she sat voiceless beside her companion, answering only inmonosyllables when he spoke; a voice began to trouble her, a voice thatrepeated the half statement, half question, over and over again.
"You are running away to be married to Silas Grangerson?"
She was running away from her troubles, from the prospect of returning toIreland, from the idea of banishment from Vernons. She was running awayout of anger against the woman who had taken Richard. She was running awaybecause of pique, anger and the reckless craving to smash everything anddash everything to pieces--but to marry Silas Grangerson!
"Stop!" cried Phyl.
Silas glanced sideways at her.
"What's the matter now?"
"I want to go back."
"Back to Charleston!"
"Yes, stop, stop at once--I must go back, I should never have come."
Silas was on the point of flashing out but he shut his lips tight, then hereined in.
"Wait a moment," said he with his hand on her arm, "you can't walk back,we are nearly half way to Grangersons. I can't drive you because I don'twant to return to Charleston. If you have altered your mind you can goback when we reach Grangersons, you can wire from there. The old man willmake it all right with Maria Pinckney."
Phyl hesitated, then she began to cry.
It was the rarest thing in the world for her to cry like this. Tears withher meant a storm, but now she was crying quietly, hopelessly, like a lostchild.
"Don't cry," said he, "everything will be all right when we get toGrangersons--we'll just go on."
The horses started again and Phyl dried her eyes. They covered anotherfive miles without speaking, and then Silas said:
"You don't mean to stick to me, then?"
"I can't," said Phyl.
"You care for some one else better?"
"Yes."
"Is it Pinckney?"
"Yes."
"God!" said he. He cut the off horse with the whip. The horses nearlybolted, he reined them in and they settled down again to their pace.
The country was very desolate just here, cotton fields and swampy groundswith here and there a stretch of water reflecting the blue of the sky.
After a moment's silence he began again.
There was something in Silas's mentality that seemed to have come up fromthe world of automata, something tireless and persistent akin to theenergy that drives a beetle over all obstacles in its course, on or roundthem.
"That's all very well," said he, "but you can't always go on caring forPinckney."
"Can't I?" said Phyl.
"No, you can't. He's going to get married and then where will you be?"
Phyl, staring over the horses' heads as though she were staring at someblack prospect, set her teeth. Then she spoke and her voice was like thevoice of a person who speaks under mesmerism.
"I cared for him before he was born and I'll care for him after I'm deadand there's no use in bothering a bit about it now. _You_ couldn'tunderstand. No one can understand, not even he."
The road here bordered a stretch of waste land; Silas gazed over it, hisface was drawn and hard.
Then he suddenly blazed out.
Laying the whip over the horses and turning them so sharply that thephaeton was all but upset he put them over the waste land; another touchof the whip and they bolted.
Beyond the waste land lay a rice field and between field and waste landstood a fence; there was doubtless a ditch on the other side of thefence.
"You'll kill us!" cried Phyl.
"Good--so," replied Silas, "horses and all."
She had half risen from her seat, she sat down again holding tight to theside rail and staring ahead. Death and destruction lay waiting behind thatfence, leaping every moment nearer. She did not care in the least.
She could see that Silas, despite his words, was making every effort torein in, the impetus to drive to hell and smash everything up had passed;she watched his hands grow white all along the tendon ridges with thestrain. The whole thing was extraordinary and curious but unfearful, astorm of wind seemed blowing in her face. Then like a switched out lightall things vanished.