Worth The Risk_A Lesbian Romance

by K M Leach

Bonnie found that as always old man Taylor from the property next to Lucy had come through on stocking the fridge and cupboards with enough food for the week. She found the ingredients to make her creamy mushroom pasta that the blonde loved so much and set about making it.

  A half hour later Lucy emerged in a pair of jeans and a powder blue button down top which made Bonnie feel severely under dressed. Lucy came up behind Bonnie and wrapped her arms around her waist as she lay her head on Bonnie's shoulder and moaned at the smells coming from the sauce she was stirring as it simmered. "Mm, you are spoiling me. You know how much I love this sauce of yours." Lucy finished her statement with a soft kiss to the side of her mouth.

  Bonnie was having trouble focusing with Lucy pressed up against her and if she hadn't been taken completely by surprise she would have turned her mouth to intercept that quick kiss. She closed her eyes for a moment and took a deep breath, "Lucy..."

  As if sensing Bonnie's struggle Lucy stepped away from her. Bonnie was sure she heard a soft murmur of, 'sorry' which was followed by a sigh. Bonnie chose to ignore it and concentrated on finishing dinner, but there was a new tension between them that hadn't been there before. "Want a beer?" Lucy asked as she opened the fridge and Bonnie started to spoon the cream sauce over the penne she had just drained.

  "That would be great, thanks," Bonnie responded, setting the plates onto the table. Lucy popped the beers on the rustic wooden counter and passed a bottle to Bonnie as she sat down and then went around and sat in her chair across from the brunette. Bonnie smiled wide as Lucy took her first mouthful and moaned in appreciation of her cooking.

  They chatted about plans for tomorrow, ignoring the sexual tension that filled the room between them. Bonnie felt that Lucy wanted to say something. Every now and again Bonnie would look up from her plate to find the blonde looking at her thoughtfully as if she was trying to solve a puzzle.

  Lucy was getting increasingly frustrated at Bonnie's ability to act as if nothing was different between them.

  It shouldn't be a surprise, her mind screamed. She's been keeping her real feelings locked away for ages now, right? It's like second nature to her!

  Lucy didn't know why she was starting to get mad at Bonnie for not telling her how she felt. She understood why after all. This was Bonnie, her best friend, one of the most selfless and loving people she had ever met. Lucy had thought about the reasons why Bonnie had never revealed her true feelings while she had showered and she knew the biggest reason was Nadine. That Lucy had been happy with her when they had met, they had even discussed marriage at one stage and Bonnie had just stood by her and supported her. What she couldn't figure out is why Bonnie had tried so hard to keep her and Nadine together when things started to go south and the love between them faded.

  Maybe because it was Nadine's love that faded, not yours and you so desperately wanted to make it work, because you had had many wonderful years together and were reluctant to throw that away.

  She remembered so many times that Bonnie had told her that she just wanted her to be happy and it broke Lucy's heart to think that she had missed the longing in the brunette's eyes every time she had said it.

  Bonnie's voice broke through her heavy thoughts. "What's the matter, Lucy? You haven't taken a bite in five minutes. You would usually be licking the plate by now."

  "I do NOT lick the plate," Lucy responded with horror. Bonnie just raised an eyebrow at her response. "It was one time," the blonde confessed and rolled her eyes as a smile crossed her face.

  "I found it adorable. I always enjoyed cooking for you after that," Bonnie said, grinning back at her, but the smile didn't last long. "Tell me what has got you lost in that big brain of yours, Lucy."

  Lucy ate the last few forkful's of her pasta and then drained her beer. She got up, taking her and Bonnie's plate and placed them in the sink before going to the fridge for a couple more beers. "Lucy!," Bonnie persisted, catching her arm as she went past.

  "You are like a dog with a bone, Bonnie. You never let it go....... Unless, of course, you are the one burying it," Lucy finished and felt regretful the moment she saw Bonnie flinch and release her arm. She didn't apologise though. Lucy grabbed two glasses and the bottle of whiskey instead and took them to the living room. She returned for her beer before turning on her heels and going back into the living room drinking half on the way.

  "What are you doing now?" Bonnie asked, not getting up as she watched her friend throw some cushions onto the floor on the big fluffy rug in front of the couch. She was definitely acting strangely and her brain searched for everything that had been said on the raft earlier that may have caused it. Bonnie's stomach fluttered. Was Lucy planning on getting her drunk so that she could have her way with her?

  That's ridiculous! It's something else and that burying comment, just moments ago was still echoing in her mind.

  "We are going to play a little game while we drink this and the remaining beer from the fridge," Lucy replied resolutely and sat on the rug leaning her back against the couch. Bonnie watched as she proceeded to open the bottle of spirits and poured a generous amount into one of the glasses and drank it swiftly in one motion.

  "I take it you want me to bring over the beer?"

  "If you could be so kind. I'm already settled." Lucy finished the statement with a wink.

  "You're acting weird. You have since you sat down for dinner. What's going on, Lucy?" Bonnie said as she brought the other six pack and her open beer with her and handed the package to the blonde. She tossed the bottle opener from the kitchen drawer and it clattered next to the beer beside Lucy. Bonnie sat down beside her on the rug, her kimono barely covering the tops of her thighs. Lucy's eyes glanced down appreciatively. "Would you like me to change into something more appropriate? I feel underdressed."

  Bonnie gaped as Lucy undid her button down and took it off, leaving her in her bra. "Better?" She asked as she poured whisky into both glasses and handed one to Bonnie.

  Bonnie swallowed down her heart that had jumped into her throat as her eyes gazed at Lucy sitting in just her sheer, white lace bra from the waist up. Fuck! She is so goddamn sexy! She could see the dark area of the blonde's areola's and the way her nipples pushed against the fabric. Bonnie's mouth was dry and she drank the amber liquid in her glass followed by a generous pull from her beer. She handed the glass back to Lucy. "What has gotten into you? You are starting to freak me out."

  "I want to play a game," was Lucy's response as she drank her second glass of whisky.

  Bonnie could already see that the blonde was starting to feel the effects. Lucy wasn't immune to getting her 'drink on' so to speak, but she had never been like this before. Bonnie knew something was bothering the blonde, she feared it was the attack and she wasn't dealing with it. Just play the game and see what happens. Maybe she'll open up. "Fine what are we playing?"

  "Truth or Dare," her friend responded matter of factly.

  Bonnie burst out laughing, "Seriously? Are we in high school?" The brunette's laughter faded as Lucy gave her a scathing look.

  "Perhaps, I think it's the only way I'm going to get certain things out of you. The game is effective at getting to the root of things and nothing is off limits."

  Bonnie looked up and held Lucy's intense and slightly angry gaze.

  "Lucy....."

  "Will you play or not? If not I'm just going to go to fucking bed!"

  "You're angry at me. Why are you angry at me?" Bonnie felt the tears coming and she hated herself for it. She hadn't done anything wrong. Had she?

  Lucy closed her eyes and took several calming breaths. "I'm sorry. It's not you, not really.... I'm just so confused right now. I need answers."

  "We could just talk."

  Lucy smiled at Bonnie and a twinkle came to her eyes. "I still really want to play because at least if I ask you a question you don't want to answer I can at least get a dare out of you. I may be able to have some fun with you."

  Bonnie laughed and drank some more of her b
eer. The tension faded and it was just them again, easy and comfortable. "Okay, fine. I'll play. Just slow down a little with the whisky and pour me another please."

  Lucy poured them both another and then put the bottle aside. "You want to go first?"

  "You seem eager to get answers out of me. So why don't you go first," Bonnie offered. She was now eager to know what was on the blonde's mind and if this was how she managed to get it out of her, then so be it.

  Lucy took a moment and finished her beer. She smiled when she gave Bonnie her attention again and found her looking at her chest. She reached out and raised Bonnie's head by placing her fingers under her chin. "My eyes are up here," she said with a chuckle and was delighted when Bonnie blushed. "First of all I would like to apologise for yelling at you earlier when you tried to get me to talk about the other night. Now do you choose truth or dare."

  "It's okay," Bonnie said as she reached out and took Lucy's hand. "I'm just worried about you and want to be there for you."

  "You are always there for me. Always."

  "I choose truth for now. Ask me whatever you want." Bonnie took a slow drink of her beer while she waited for Lucy to formulate her first question. What was curious to Bonnie was that the blonde seemed to be planning out where she would start in order for her to get to the answers that she really wanted. She opened her mouth several times and didn't utter a word and Bonnie found it utterly adorable. Lucy was a planner, she thought about everything, overly so, most of the time. Bonnie brought out her more care free side, but when it really mattered Lucy would always think about her actions and the consequences that could occur. "You're thinking too much, baby. Nothing that you could ever do or say would make me turn away from you. You've been weird since coming back from the lake. What did I say to cause you to get stuck in that brain of yours?"

  "I'm supposed to be asking the questions! And did you just call me, Baby?" Lucy said with a laugh and a quirk of her eyebrow.

  "Then ask. As for me calling you baby....It just slipped out. Sorry."

  Bonnie felt heat rising to her cheeks again with the way Lucy was looking at her. This was unusual for her, she didn't really blush, but since Lucy and she had started exploring this new facet in their relationship she found herself doing it often. She knew that the blondes inhibitions pretty much disappeared when she drank and while Bonnie suspected that Lucy just wanted to be sure that she wasn't just an experiment for her.. Well, she was hoping that her friend would open up to her as well.

  "I liked it," Lucy said, her eyes darkening in arousal as she reached out and ran a hand over Bonnie's leg that was stretched out in front of her. Bonnie's thigh muscle twitched beneath Lucy's roaming fingers. Bonnie placed a hand over it as those fingers ventured to the inside of her thigh and moved dangerously close to her now pulsing sex. She was sure that Lucy could feel the sudden heat radiating from her.

  "Ask your question Lucy," Bonnie managed to whisper out as her hand clutched Lucy's against her inner thigh.

  Her eyes turned serious and she pulled her hand away, leaving a trail of warmth and Bonnie missed the contact instantly. She wanted Lucy in the worst possible way and she knew that the alcohol that they had both consumed would fuel their baser instincts, but getting to the talking and emotional stuff was also important and she knew that Lucy had something she needed to get off her chest. At that thought Bonnie's eyes roamed over Lucy's chest before meeting the blonde's intense gaze once more. "What you said about keeping things buried out on the raft. You implied that there was something that you had buried, and that you knew from experience how it can tear people apart from the inside..."

  Bonnie nodded, "I said that, yes. So what is your question?"

  "What happened the other night... to me... Did that happen to you? Did you get raped, Bonnie?"

  Lucy's lips were trembling and she saw her eyes glaze over and Bonnie knew that Lucy was reliving her ordeal in her head. Bonnie shook her head, "No. When I said that to you I wasn't referring to a similar thing happening to me. What I have been suppressing is nothing so horrible and I am sorry that what I said made you think that. I was just trying to get you to open up and talk about it..."

  "I was so scared, Bonnie.... I have never been so terrified..." A sob escaped Lucy's throat and tears spilled from her eyes as she focused on Bonnie with such a pained expression.

  Bonnie opened her arms and Lucy fell into her comforting embrace as she finally allowed herself to cry out her pain and hurt that she had kept locked down since the incident. Bonnie's heart broke for Lucy as she cried quietly in her arms as she murmured that 'she was there' and to 'just let it all out'.

  CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR

  Some time later Lucy pulled away and wiped at her face and then brushed at a wet patch on Bonnie's shoulder, "I got you all wet, sorry."

  Bonnie placed a hand over Lucy's, stilling it on her shoulder. "Don't apologise. Are you okay?"

  Lucy reached out with her other hand and cupped Bonnie's face and nodded, "I do feel a bit better. Lighter. Thank you for just holding me."

  Bonnie gave Lucy a dimple filled smile, "Of course. What are best friends for. I am here for you always."

  "I really do love you, you know...... If you are worried.. that...." Lucy rolled her eyes and pulled away from Bonnie, who she was slowly drowning in as the brunette looked at her with such love and devotion that she had been so blind not to see for so long.

  Bonnie saw the awareness in Lucy's eyes.

  She knows.... "Let's have another drink," Bonnie burst out as her heart pounded at the knowing in her friend's eyes. There was no more hiding. Bonnie leaned over Lucy to reach for the half empty bottle of whisky.

  The air was suddenly so thick and full sexual tension that it seemed to crackle around them like electricity and Bonnie gasped when she felt Lucy's hand on the back of her upper thigh, as she held her position on all fours over the blonde's lap. Lucy's hand went up and under the bottom of her robe, over the thin material of her panties and ran her hand over Bonnie's ass causing her breath to hitch. She couldn't suppress the moan that escaped as Lucy ran her fingers down the crevice between Bonnie's ass cheeks and cupped her mound, which was now aching painfully.

  Lucy leaned forward and whispered into Bonnie's ear, "How long?..... How long have you been suffering in silence?"

  "Please Lucy...," Bonnie managed to gasp out as Lucy's hand shifted just enough to cause friction on her clitoris and she felt wetness pool between her legs with the blonde's agonisingly soft, gentle touch.

  "Please what? Answer my question. I can feel how much you want me even through your underwear. No more hiding! Tell me. Tell me what you have been hiding from me for God knows how long."

  "Release me, Lucy." Bonnie was breathing heavily and it wasn't just from desire it was from panic. She thought she had prepared herself for this moment, but she found that nothing could've prepared her for the insane amount of emotions that jumped into her throat all at once almost choking her. Lucy moved her hand instantly at Bonnie's request. Bonnie moved swiftly and sat on Lucy's lap, taking her by surprise and said, "You had your question. It's my turn."

  Lucy rolled her eyes at the brunette and responded with, "You didn't even want to play."

  Bonnie popped the top off the whisky and took a large drink from the bottle. "What do you think you know?"

  Lucy shook her head, "No. I want to hear you say it. So give me a dare, so that I can ask you directly with your next turn. It's time to stop with the bullshit. What's your dare? Let's go Bonnie. What do you want me to do?" Bonnie poured some whisky into Lucy's mouth some of it spilling down her chin and onto her chest. Bonnie's head dipped and licked up the spilling amber liquid causing Lucy to shift beneath her in arousal, her eyes flaring with fiery need. "Fuck, Bonnie. Stop teasing me! Now I know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of your torturous advances that I watched you use on countless men in the past."

  Bonnie's attention on Lucy's chest stopped and her head raised to fix the blonde wi
th a hard stare. "What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

  Bonnie went to move off of Lucy's lap, but the blonde's hands found her hips and held her in place.

  "You're not going anywhere! Look at me. I love you. I love you more than any of those sorry asshole's that you took home. There are no more obstacles between us, there is nothing left to hide behind. I haven't been able to think of anything else but you for a while. As my heart healed from Nadine my awareness and feelings towards you grew more and more by the day, even though you were with that douche bag Ryan. I was ecstatic when he stormed out and I have thought about nothing but the chance to show you that I would give you everything I have to have you want me the way that I want you!"

  Bonnie was speechless. She sat perched on the woman she loved lap and tried to take in what Lucy was telling her.

  "No more truth or dare. The game is stupid. I am just going to ask you some simple yes and no questions and you are going to answer me. Okay?"